Wednesday, May 11, 2011
I hate to admit this, but for the first time this term (We're in week 7 of 10) I actually packed my lunch. While I had been staying within my calorie range, I'm tired of eating all the crappy food that the school cafeteria has to offer, and I'm not in the mood to pay $4.75 for a small bowl of grapes, melon and apples. I don't know why the 'healthy' food is so expensive, but I decided that I had enough.
I actually went out yesterday (part of my walk) and bought a lunch bag with an ice pack too keep everything cold. I had my lunch and some extra healthy snacks (low fat string cheese, and apple and 1 serving of triscuits). I'm here from 9:30 am to 5:50 so I definitely had to think about snacks.
I am only at 1147 calories for the day, so once I get out of class, I can have a healthy dinner and a small sugar-free desert!
I recently decided to start adding more exercise to my routine. I felt like an hour a day isn't enough. I already added it to my fitness tracker and accounted for it for my caloric intake.
I have a feeling that it will re-start my weight loss. I had been at some kind of plateau for a while, and I'm tired of seeing "260-something". I want to get down to 259 by the first week of June. I'm currently at 264, so it's attainable.
I want to take a strength training class next term. I have a feeling that if I mix that with my aerobic exercise, It will definitely help. In spite of the fact that it's raining, I've been at school for 5 hours now, and the on-campus car show was rained out, I feel amazing. I feel so happy about my progress academically, mentally and physically. Adam commented on how my attitude is just so amazing now, and he's seeing a side of me that just shines.
Wednesday, May 04, 2011
I was looking at the sheet I filled out on the first day of my jogging class. For the weight, it said 269 pounds. That was in March.....I'm only down to 264. I'm thinking maybe I should step it up. I don't want to go crazy or anything, but I wouldn't mind trying a little harder.
I know that I exercise enough. That's not what the problem is. I'm still eating badly. Sure, I've cut the portions, and I definitely eat a lot less than I used to, but it's the foods that I'm eating that are bad. I still eat burgers, tacos, chips, fries, you name it. I just know that it's slowing down my weight loss.
The problem is that my fiance'e and I are busy full time students. we don't necessarily have time to cook. Not only that, but we live in a tiny postage-stamp apartment, and it's hard to cook in that kitchen. I know that these are just excuses, and if I really wanted to, I could eat healthier.
On another note, I realized that I've dropped that "all or nothing" attitude. I used to believe that if I ate bad or skipped a day, it would halt my progress, but I understand now that it doesn't halt it, it only slows it down. I am going to take some measures to eat better.
I went on a 2.1 mile jog today with my class, and I was so embarrassed because I almost threw up x.x I'll definitely have to be more careful. I had gotten that 'runners high', then I got the 'runners sick'. oh well. As I continue doing this, my body will get used to it.
I'm totally going to enjoy the sunshine today :D
Sunday, May 01, 2011
In spite of the fact that I've lost about 40 pounds so far this year, and have dropped about 2 pant sizes, and it was a beautiful day today, I'm just not feeling all that motivated today. I don't want to exercise today, I don't want to eat, and I don't want to do what I'm supposed to do.
I guess things like this happen every once in a while. I know in the back of my mind I'm not giving up. I guess I'm just feeling down today. I hope tomorrow is better.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Today my mom and two sisters went to my Grandparents' house. I couldn't go because I have classes that I cannot miss. My sister happened to find an old picture and sent it to me. It was taken when I was about 330 pounds. It's in my photo collection now, so anyone can feel free to take a look. With it she said 'You've lost SO much weight! You have so much to be proud of"
When I first saw it, I was in my art class. I literally looked at it and began crying. I was so taken aback by how terrible I looked. What made it worse was I didn't even realize it at the time. I was wearing an outfit that I thought was cute. The change had been so gradual. I later showed my fiancée and he too looked shocked. I guess my big take away for all this is it works both ways. One day, sooner than I think, I'm going to look at the photos I uploaded today. When I do, I'm going to be just as amazed and proud of myself as I was today. Even now, I can see my photo as I type this, and I'm amazed at how my body has changed. I know I've talked about all this stuff before, but I'm just so excited and motivated by all of this.
Another thing that has changed is my mentality. I still sometimes feel like I'm a fat girl, but those thoughts don't pop into my head very often. I'm actually starting to feel like I'm a normal person.
I am quite happy.
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