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Packed My Lunch....(finally.)

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

I hate to admit this, but for the first time this term (We're in week 7 of 10) I actually packed my lunch. While I had been staying within my calorie range, I'm tired of eating all the crappy food that the school cafeteria has to offer, and I'm not in the mood to pay $4.75 for a small bowl of grapes, melon and apples. I don't know why the 'healthy' food is so expensive, but I decided that I had enough.
I actually went out yesterday (part of my walk) and bought a lunch bag with an ice pack too keep everything cold. I had my lunch and some extra healthy snacks (low fat string cheese, and apple and 1 serving of triscuits). I'm here from 9:30 am to 5:50 so I definitely had to think about snacks.
I am only at 1147 calories for the day, so once I get out of class, I can have a healthy dinner and a small sugar-free desert!

I recently decided to start adding more exercise to my routine. I felt like an hour a day isn't enough. I already added it to my fitness tracker and accounted for it for my caloric intake.
I have a feeling that it will re-start my weight loss. I had been at some kind of plateau for a while, and I'm tired of seeing "260-something". I want to get down to 259 by the first week of June. I'm currently at 264, so it's attainable.

I want to take a strength training class next term. I have a feeling that if I mix that with my aerobic exercise, It will definitely help. In spite of the fact that it's raining, I've been at school for 5 hours now, and the on-campus car show was rained out, I feel amazing. I feel so happy about my progress academically, mentally and physically. Adam commented on how my attitude is just so amazing now, and he's seeing a side of me that just shines.

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CEKER9 5/11/2011 8:22PM

    Sounds like you are doing *very* well.
Every little things help... glad to hear you are "brown bagging" snacks and lunch! It makes a HUGE different!!!

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Bright and Shiny

Friday, May 06, 2011

I had a major breakthrough last night. It was so strange. I was washing my face after a workout, and all these memories kind of came flooding in causing a paradigm shift. I started sobbing. I realize what I've been stuffing down my whole life. I am not going to do that anymore. I don't need to. I can forgive those around me and I can forgive myself. I can move on and be the woman I need to be and want to be.
I feel amazing now. Good thing my jogging class starts in about 10 minutes. I'm ready to really push it today.

I'm proud of myself. I went grocery shopping yesterday. I really needed to get the junk out of my system. I had been eating within my calorie range, but the foods I was eating weren't worthy of my body. I bought a lot of fruit and vegetables. I did buy some 'desserty-type' stuff like sugar free pudding, but I am in control.
I am planning to re-take a math exam today. I got a little bit lower of a score than I wanted to, so thankfully I can do that.
I'm feeling really amazing.
I think I will be enjoying myself a lot more

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GENESISMUSE 5/6/2011 1:24PM

    emoticon Aren't those breakthrough moments amazing? It's awesome to read that you're having a great day and enjoying yourself!

Lots of wishing happiness to you! emoticon

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Maybe it's time to step up my game...

Wednesday, May 04, 2011

I was looking at the sheet I filled out on the first day of my jogging class. For the weight, it said 269 pounds. That was in March.....I'm only down to 264. I'm thinking maybe I should step it up. I don't want to go crazy or anything, but I wouldn't mind trying a little harder.
I know that I exercise enough. That's not what the problem is. I'm still eating badly. Sure, I've cut the portions, and I definitely eat a lot less than I used to, but it's the foods that I'm eating that are bad. I still eat burgers, tacos, chips, fries, you name it. I just know that it's slowing down my weight loss.
The problem is that my fiance'e and I are busy full time students. we don't necessarily have time to cook. Not only that, but we live in a tiny postage-stamp apartment, and it's hard to cook in that kitchen. I know that these are just excuses, and if I really wanted to, I could eat healthier.

On another note, I realized that I've dropped that "all or nothing" attitude. I used to believe that if I ate bad or skipped a day, it would halt my progress, but I understand now that it doesn't halt it, it only slows it down. I am going to take some measures to eat better.

I went on a 2.1 mile jog today with my class, and I was so embarrassed because I almost threw up x.x I'll definitely have to be more careful. I had gotten that 'runners high', then I got the 'runners sick'. oh well. As I continue doing this, my body will get used to it.

I'm totally going to enjoy the sunshine today :D

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JOHNHANCOCK 5/4/2011 8:15PM

  I feel you there. I strained my left pectoral the first week of March and without the consistency of almost daily workouts keeping me motivated I went off diet. I still ate fairly healthy, lots of chicken breast, eggs, peas and apples. Luckily, I only gained about 5lbs in the ensuing two months. I've been eating strict (nothing processed) again for the past four days and I'm down almost five pounds.

Let's be honest, your weight loss has almost hit a dead stop because of your daily diet. Losing weight (body-fat, more specifically) is all about what you consume. Most dietitians and fitness professionals will tell you it's a split somewhere along the lines of 90/10 between diet/exercise.

Pushing your body through a 2.1 mile jog and then feeding it garbage is really not good for you. At your weight I don't think your body is going to get used to 2-mile jogs, there's just too much stress on your hips, knees and ankles. I know when walking, the landing foot/leg takes 3x your body-weight in force- I could only imagine what it is when jogging. Be really careful because once you injure a knee, even with rehab it's never going to be 100% again. With nice weather here, you should really look into cycling. No impact and you can really push your cardio threshold vs. jogging.

On another note- if you fail to plan, you plan to fail (in regards to diet). Only buy healthy foods. Stick the meat, dairy and produce sections of the grocery store, don't even walk down the aisles of processed garbage. If you don't have chips/cookies at home, you won't eat them. Bake, grill or stir-fry a couple of pounds of chicken breast at a time so it's always ready to eat. Get up a little earlier and make a 2-3 egg omlette* with peppers, onions and 1oz of lower fat cheese. Walnuts are a great and easy to take with. Even low-sodium turkey breast from a deli is good.

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Not feeling it today

Sunday, May 01, 2011

In spite of the fact that I've lost about 40 pounds so far this year, and have dropped about 2 pant sizes, and it was a beautiful day today, I'm just not feeling all that motivated today. I don't want to exercise today, I don't want to eat, and I don't want to do what I'm supposed to do.
I guess things like this happen every once in a while. I know in the back of my mind I'm not giving up. I guess I'm just feeling down today. I hope tomorrow is better.

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HEATHERALB 5/2/2011 8:23AM

    We all have off days. Just remember you are worth it! This is a journey and you are on the right path. I second the idea of others to give yourself some me time and pampering - a good book, a pedicure, a nap, music, etc. Here's wishing you a happy day after. :)

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TJHIERS 5/2/2011 7:22AM

    We all have days like this, give yourself some me time, and way to go on your weightloss 40 lbs is a great motivation to continue on your journey !
take care of you, tomorrow is another day, smile , you have done a good job !

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GABBY2876 5/1/2011 11:13PM

    I think you should pamper yourself with something you truely enjoy. A hot bath, good book, uplifting music or just whatever works for you. And then go to bed happy for a wonderful day tomorrow.
Good Luck,

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Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Today my mom and two sisters went to my Grandparents' house. I couldn't go because I have classes that I cannot miss. My sister happened to find an old picture and sent it to me. It was taken when I was about 330 pounds. It's in my photo collection now, so anyone can feel free to take a look. With it she said 'You've lost SO much weight! You have so much to be proud of"

When I first saw it, I was in my art class. I literally looked at it and began crying. I was so taken aback by how terrible I looked. What made it worse was I didn't even realize it at the time. I was wearing an outfit that I thought was cute. The change had been so gradual. I later showed my fiancée and he too looked shocked. I guess my big take away for all this is it works both ways. One day, sooner than I think, I'm going to look at the photos I uploaded today. When I do, I'm going to be just as amazed and proud of myself as I was today. Even now, I can see my photo as I type this, and I'm amazed at how my body has changed. I know I've talked about all this stuff before, but I'm just so excited and motivated by all of this.

Another thing that has changed is my mentality. I still sometimes feel like I'm a fat girl, but those thoughts don't pop into my head very often. I'm actually starting to feel like I'm a normal person.

I am quite happy. emoticon

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MRS.HOS77 4/27/2011 10:06PM

    That's amazing! Truly inspirational!

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RYDERB 4/27/2011 2:52AM

    Wow! You're doing such a great job. You've come so far already, and I know you're going to reach your goal. Thanks for sharing.

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