Saturday, January 29, 2011
Last night, a friend who I hadn't seen in about 6 months came into town, and my fiancée and I went to meet up with him at a nearby restaurant (because that was the only place that was open at 10:00pm.) At that point, I had already eaten dinner, so I just ordered some hot coffee. He and my fiancée ordered slices of pie.
My point is, when they were ordering, he said "what, you're not getting anything?" and I said " no, I'm just going to get coffee. I'm not hungry." and he said "what about just something to just casually munch on?" I replied with "I don't casually eat anymore...." The last time I saw him, I would have gotten the casual slice of pie.
It's things like that that remind me of how other people saw me, and what my social expectations were. I have known this guy for literally 9 years. He knows the 'old' me. The one that just ate unabashed by the fact that I was over-stuffing my my overweight self. I am definitely happy that I can keep my cool when other people order desserts. I can can recognize when I'm hungry.
I didn't exercise yesterday or the day before. On a good note, I have already met my calorie burning goals for this week, and I have not gone over my calories food wise. I really should pick myself back up today though. Two days of rest is plenty if you ask me. Aside from that, I've been increasing my jogging, and I'd like to eventually be able to jog for a straight hour-even up hills!
I read somewhere that it takes anywhere from 21-28 days to form a habit. Yesterday happened to be my day 28. It amazes me that 28 days have elapsed and we're almost a full month into the year 2011. I plan on going grocery shopping today. I want to look up some recipes that will help me out. I could definitely use some salad and more fruits in the house.
Thursday, January 27, 2011
I did already post this on my status, but one thing that was REALLY encouraging was when I was jogging yesterday (I didn't anticpiate on continuing as long as I did, but after this, I seriously had the motivation to keep going) and this random stranger sees me, and she yells "You go girl!" It was seriously really kind of a moment when I realized that I'm actually doing this! I am making the changes and I am reaping the benefits of my efforts.
At school, one of my class mates was doing an informative speech on cupcakes, and she ended up bringing some very tasty looking cupcakes as part of her presentation. I didn't eat one. I am becoming less embarassed about the fact that I want to better my health.
I know that as long as I continue to communicate my needs, I'll be a lot happier and I'll continue to make progress. Hell, I even dressed up nice today ^_^
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Something strange happened yesterday when I went to eat my 'fruit and cream' oatmeal breakfast- It was too sweet! I guess that's what happens when you stop eating candy and ice cream for a while. I seriously almost could not eat it, but I was hungry. I bought two boxes thinking it was going to taste like it normally does, but I didn't anticipate this. I'm not going to be able to eat the rest of them : / I had to opt for Cheerios with Banana this morning with an Apple and some skim milk. I already agreed with myself that I will allow myself ONE Cadbury egg on Easter-but who knows if I'll even want it then...
I am really proud of my progress. Sure, I was at this point weight wise last year around June or July, and it's not like I've never weighed what I do, but mentally, I'm in a better place. I used to just feel like a fat girl that was trying too hard. Now? I feel like a woman who is setting out to improve herself. I don't feel so down about myself. I am actually happy.
The exercise has definitely played a large role in keeping my moods in check. Maybe that's why I crave it so much. Not only that, but it's been sunny here in the mornings which is a great mood booster. I think of spring, and I think about where I am in life, and i just feel so optimistic. The best part is I am doing this. No one is doing it for me.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
I've lost 15 pounds since the first. I'm not over exercising, and I'm definitely eating enough calories. I guess it's not unusual for your body to drop a lot of weight at first then kind of slow down to an eventual plateau. Either way, I'm feeling great. I'm feeling very confident in my ability to succeed. I went to the gym at the community college to find out more about it and possibly look into using it. Apparently it's actually for a conditioning class. You just sign up, go to the orientation, and work out on your free time. For three months, it's a lot cheaper than a gym.
I'm predicting a plateau in a couple months which will be just around when the new term begins so using weights and having more variety in my workouts will help conquer that should it occur.
Food wise, I'm still doing well. I am actually VERY proud of myself for what I've accomplished so far. I am literally taking it a day at a time. One thing that has helped me with my workouts is to use it as time to think, and be mentally productive. I've actually taken quite a liking to it.
It's definitely 'me' time.
On Friday, I am going to see the last production for the drama teacher at the high school I went to. She's retiring which is good for her considering many of us thought she was going to retire a lot sooner.
A couple of people that I went to high school with are going to go too. I don't know if we'll see them there, but it would be interesting if I did. I hadn't seen many of them in about 8 years. It's amazing how fast time flies. Regardless, I'm sure it'll be at least entertaining.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Well I'm sure most of you are aware that the process of "changing your life style" seems to consist of being "on" the wagon, or "off" the wagon. Personally I'm not sure why we're still using a wagon...
Anyway, Since the first, I have not caved into candy, chips, cookies, or white bread. I've exercised a decent amount, and I've already lost 13 pounds. The best part of all of this? I DON'T miss the junk food. At all! My fiancee has noticed that I don't obsess with food as I had before. I simply eat when I'm hungry and stop when I'm full. I don't talk about it a ton like I did before I had my breakthrough. He said he has a feeling that this is it for me. He has faith in me that I will in fact reach and maintain my goals :) So good to know that the love of my life believes in me.
I am going to jog again today. I've been doing it every couple of days so I'm not sore. I love the feeling though and I eventually want to be able to run a mile in under 10 minutes. I know over time, I'll get there.
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