Friday, March 11, 2011
Yesterday I was eating way too much...I did have like 3-4 servings of fruit, but I ate way more than I should have...
So today, Friday March 11. I have decided to "start over". The last time I worked out was on Tuesday...
I got up and I worked out this morning. I did 2 miles of one of my LS dvds. I tell you it is killer when you haven't worked out in a couple of days and especially when you haven't done a LS dvd in a week or so..But it was good, plus I was really feeling it. So I know I had a good workout. I have a plan to do another workout a little later today.
I need to stay focused some how. I am hoping that because I worked out already I will want to stay focused and not eat so much today. For some reason, yesterday, I wasn't all that hungry after I had my sandwich, but then I just keep eating. I was kinda craving something sweet and I think this has to do with the fact that I gave up chocolate candy for Lent. I think it is all in my head and that I just need to take pics of how much bigger my stomach has gotten these past couple of months so that can be what I think of when I grab something else to eat.
I know it is hard for a lot of us...I guess I just didn't think it would be this hard. I have been thin for the majority of my life and didn't gain weight until I was pregnant with my daughter (15 yrs ago). And even then it wasn't an issue...I know this is true, but it just seems that the older I get the harder it is. I know that I need discipline and that I need to focus on the big picture and take it one day at a time. I know this, but some times I get lost in the shuffle and I don't know which end is up.
I think this could have a lot to do with being out of school now and looking for a job...It was hard out there a yr ago when I first lost my job and even now after school (will graduate in Spring)...it doesn't seem to be any easier. I think I am in some type of "depressed state" and to be honest with you I am the first person who will tell you that I don't get depressed (mom mom suffers from depression and is on meds for it..has been for yrs), but after seeing a lot of symptoms I am thinking that I might be in some type of depression...where I don't have a job and I haven't had one for a long time...I spend a lot of time alone..I live with family, but I enjoy spending time alone, but sometimes you need people around...I really can't explain it other than that...But that is the only explanation I have that I keep eating food. Normally I am not like this...Normally I can stick to eating healthy and not splurge..but this time it is different...it seems different... So, I know that I just need to find another way to meet my goal. I find coming on this site and reading other blogs and what others hve to say and articles helps me. It helps me know I am not alone and that there are other people who have similar issues. I just need to get some motivation to stick with my program and try to set challenges for myself so that I don't feel so overwhelmed and out of place. I think setting challenges for myself will help me to move forward and reach my goals in a more healthy way. I can't keep obsessing over the food I can't eat or the food that I did eat.
Today is a new day. I will treat it like one and take it one step at a time. I will wait 20 min after I haven eaten for my stomach to feel full. I will keep myself busy so that I am not thinking about eating food or candy/snacks. I will try to eat every 3-4 hours so that I can keep my metabolism working and not be starving when I finally sit down to eat. I will try a new exercise once a week to spice it up and keep me on my toes and to keep my body from getting bored with same exercises (same muscles worked). I will drink more water when I am feeling hungry and I just ate. These are small goals that I need to think about each day. I need to do cardio at least 20-30 minutes per day. I, also, need to get more sleep.
(wow that was long!)