Friday, October 07, 2011
Been a crazy week...working over some and then gone every night of the week. Feel worn out and hubby wants me to go to parades tonight and two tomorrow. The pace is wearing me down. He's obsessed with being in everyone.
Work has been a struggle and more to come. Co-worker had meeting lunch with boss and it's my turn next week. He's going to be changing what I do more to sales, sales, sales. Not what I'm good at, not what I'm comfortable at. I grumble, gripe and grown about work more and more with many tears. Is it me that needs to change? When I interviewed we discussed I wasn't a sales person. I am administrative and want to help a business thrive and grow. That is what I am good at..it's how I'm wired. I like to create an environment where everyone can be successful. I don't need to be in the limelight. I like to see people excel and celebrate their victories. I like motivating others to soar with the eagles.
Life seems such a struggle right now. Feel like I'm trying to keep too many plates spinning and not good at any of them. On overload. Exercise helps reduces stress. I pray for wisdom and guidance.
Maybe I obsess and make too much out of it. Do my job and go home. Seems like it's affecting all of me. Something has to change...maybe me.