Friday, July 01, 2011
Struggling with writing a blog. Hubby visiting daughter in Florida. Enjoying time to myself but have been booked solid. Trying to work on that some. Debbie Downer came back to work after 4 days off and she was in rare form. Seems like I'm her victim of choice to release her frustrations, At the end of the day she apologized to me for being so quiet...it wasn't her quiet that I have a problem with...it's her mouth and attitude. I'm not good at verbal sparring so figure it's better to keep my mouth shut. Besides if I hit one home she'd e-mail the boss I was being mean to her. So keep my mouth shut. Question whether this isn't my nitch...but where to look. Got to go to meeting for my boss and that really reves me up. I enjoy being out and networking and being around positive energetic people. Working in the other office today...which will be a good break...unless Debbie Downer is sick today. Know this isn't job I hired in for...but with Debbie Downer being sick and other co-worker going out on surgery soon...I fill in where they need me. I'm a team player...but it seems to be wearing me down. Trying to read a lot of business books, positive readings and praying and drawing close to God. He may be working and growing me to deal with difficult people. I'm a pleaser and like to get along with everyone and this is wearing me down...fighting a loosing battle. Hubby says she's jealous...I go out and do buying for the office and run errands for the boss and fill in for him...so I'm her victim to take out her jealousy on. Besides most business writings tell you...be prepared...there is always change. After her baby is born she may not want to work or drive the distance she does. So only a couple more months to see what happens. Hubby not getting a paycheck right now so my working is good..So going through alot of thinking and striving to stay close to God and learn through this.
Taking Mom to Community Night tonight. They block off streets once a month and have entertainment. Tonight is Big Band Music. I enjoy listening to it and gettingout especially when the weather is nice. Tomorrow Farmer's Market. Sunday afternoon travel to my son's to meet up with them and daughter in law's grandma and Mom for Brunch to a place we've talking about adventuring to. Hope Mom is up for an adventure. Change is sometimes upsetting to her and she is dfficult. But I think change is good for her so she doesn't get stuck into such a routine and can't get out of it. She loves Kristie's Grandma so maybe it will be okay. Then Monday back to son's for July 4th celebration with Kristie's family. They celebrate it right! Mom enjoys their family celebrations. Makes her feel part of a larger family. So much for struggling not to blog...I'm rambling on and on.
I will make it a great day! Enjoying time to ponder and think through things.