Monday, May 09, 2011
Had a nice Mother's Day. Took mom out for brunch. Only 45 minute wait. Mom complained most of the time. Upset we were going to bigger mall than the small one (but we thought better selection so she could find something) etc. didn't like the back seat of the car but wouldn't ride in the front, On and on and on. She found 4 pairs of capris though. They got me (I don't like shopping especially grocery shopping with them)...she brought her grocery list so after mall we went to SAMS, Walmart, Krogers and never got to get her flowers for her yard. Finally around 5 we got home. Then instead of working on house...we went for a ride. Gorgeous weather. Had a great time but now wishing I'd spent more time inside. When we got home...was tired and watched mystery Sunday. 3 more days to work on house before company. Waiting on hubby to get some of his stuff moved so I can finish some stuff up also. He is so slow. Mom demanded blue recliner be removed immediately...so guess hubby will work on that today. Not sure why Dad's chair has to go today...we get one thing done (birthday gift card used) and she always has 5 more ahead that need immediate attention. Have been pretty patient the last 3 years or so but suddenly I am worn out and have had enough. We have little time and what we have we give some to her and it's never enough and she complains the whole time. Drains me dry. I have to work on my attitude. I used to be fun and tease with her. Now quiet and hold my tongue most of the time. Between work and her attitude - she wears me out. She has so much to be thankful for and complains and is critical. I see where she is less able to function more and more in the little things. It will get worse as the Alzheimer's progresses. Unfortunately she'll probably not be the happy person.
My challenge is to rise above and be positive and loving to her. Just not feeling much right now. God is working on me to mold me and make me more like HIM.
Taking her to exercise if she feels up to it tonight. Exercise really helps her attitude and physically...plus it gets her out some.
I get on a role about Mom and then forget...this is the beginning of a FANTASTIC WEEK for me...daughter and boyfriend coming home, days off work, massage, son's college graduation, Best friend coming in for two days...life is good and sometimes I get focued on the negative when I have so much good going on.