Monday, April 04, 2011
Off to the beginning of a great week! MIL told my friend Saturday was OK. First thing she did was tell us the chicken tenders we'd sent her home with...she wouldn't eat them while we were together...but when she got home...we hard as can be and she couldn't eat two of them at all. Wasn't complaining just wanted us to know. Hubby went to train show with buddies and I took her to brunch and she kept trying to trick/talk me into blowing off the day and doing something with her. If we walked her too much the day before (and she had same shoes on) and she had an OK time...why would I want to take her out...or why would she want to go back out with me another day? We are planning to take her out on river boat dinner this Saturday and I'm tempted to cancel it. Can't bring myself to make reservations yet. She informed me I needed to go home and make her a BD cake. She is really a piece of work right now. Maybe because she wanted to go back to Missouri for her BD and we couldn't take her she is upset. We usually do what she wants and it just wasn't possible right now. It's not like she offered to pay her way...she expects us to do it all and she's along for the ride. I just have to work through my emotions right now. Don't want to start war between us. I just have a bad attitude towards her right now. God is using this to mold and shape me. I desire to have His attitudes and not selfish one my self wants to have. Know I need to learn boundaries. Its a vicious circle...I am growing more angry with her and then feel guilty for feeling angry. Need to set boundaries...that I am free to do things with her some times and it's ok to need time to do things at home. If the roles were reversed her house would come first...why does she expect me to be at her beck and call? I just need to work through it and hopefully come out more Christ like.