Sunday, October 07, 2012
Daughter in flight home. She should get there around 8:30. Had a wonderful time with her. Got to spend a lot of time with her, Grandma got to spend time with her, got to spend time with her dad and with her friends. Hard to see her go but know she's become the beautiful lady she is by doing what she does...so we give them wings to soar.
Hopefully she and boyfriend will be home in 2 1/2 months for Christmas. Just when they become wonderful people to be with...they move far away....
Mom was a pill today. I woke up and thought about calling her and then forgot. She called us at 8:30 and wondered where we were...we had told her 9 -9:30 and we always call before we come get her...and she called on my cell phone and boy was she mad at me because I'd told her 8 am. Daughter and hubby and I had together told her 9 - 9:30 but she was hot at me....probably why she called my cell phone. Guess it's part of the Alheimers...used to let it roll off but it really ticks me off. I try never to say anything and tend to get quiet and take it. It does no good to argue as she gets more upset and angry. Guess it's another clue that moving her in with us would be a very bad idea down the road. Not sure I want to live with all the anger and confusion...will have me thinking I'm right there with her. It would be so much easier if she was easy to get a long with but she has always been and Extra Grace Required and it's growing worse as the disease progresses. My dear sweet aunt at 90 is such a joy to be around and my mother in law is 76 and so contankerous and difficult and moody and seeminly so ungreatful. She is always complaining about something and my Aunt is always talking about her blessings....and dwelling on the positive.
I sound like her right????? I have felt so blessed with this visit from my daughter. She is so good with Grandma...more like I used to be. I enjoyed my time with my daughter. God knows doesn't He! It seemed just what my heart needed. A good long visit. And time with my son here as his wife was traveling. How precious to have them both under our roof once again. How very blessed and special memories I have to treasure. Daughter and I got many early walks in before I went to work. Precious times together. I am so thankful and feel so blessed, Our God is truly awesome. He sometimes blesses us in ways we never dreamed or beyond or dreams and thoughts.
I do try to remember that Mom is so precious to us as our only living parent. I try to remember how fragile and fleeting this time is with her. One day she too will be gone and I will wish for the aggrevations back just to have her around once again. I try always to remember that which helps to keep my mouth shut when I want to argue or speak back when she is angry with us or mean., I know this is a scary season of her life and control is slipping out of her reach.
I'm in this seaon for a reason and planning to learn and grow from my experiences.
Have a report to type up for work tomorrow. So hard to focus with phones and customers coming in to think it all through and put it down.
Off to enjoy the evening and treasuring memories of a lifetime.