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Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Trying to think on things above today. We have no air at work and no windows. Fortunately it's not in the 90's today. Had a old cranky lady chew me out for 25-30 minutes because her insurance is too high...she says.

Hubby got phone call to pick up Mom. She was complaining of chest pains. Took her to ER and they are keeping her over night. Guess they can check her blood to see if she's had a stroke or heart attack. Doesn't really show any signs now. My first reaction is that she hasn't had a lot of attention and got things all confused over the weekend and missed out on our company because she got mad. My thoughts are she is just wanting attention but I hate that those thoughts go through my mind. You never know. Yet I feel angry she is pulling this stunt. Then I feel mad at myself and what if this is something. We have had her to ER serveral times with Panic issues. Praying God calms my spirit and lets me love her and be kind to her as HE is to me. I know she's frightened as she walks this part of her life's journey and I desire to be there for her. This does pull our attention to her.

Got a 4:30 meeting with disgruntle policy holder. Today must be my day....

Praying that God helps me to see things from his perspective and not mine. That I become more like Him today and less like me

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DGFOWLER 8/3/2012 5:47AM

    If we didn't have these thoughts Kathleen I don't think we would be human. We can only try to do what is right and you did take her to the ER to rule out potentials. Do you pray with your mom? Donna

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MARYJOANNA 8/1/2012 6:03AM

  You are a strong person, and all the things you do for your Mom are great. Your family is your first priority and Mom will have to understand that. She is a part of your life, bit hubby is not to be neglected either. God bless you!

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EDITOR 8/1/2012 5:57AM

    I honestly think and believe it is her that needs the reassurance. And from experience that will be the case. Honestly, I hope I don't live as long to be a source of concern to anyone.
I think the cross search puzzles and mind stimulation activites will occupy her. My dad only wanted TV. You will find the right combination! My MIL only wanted her son to be around her.

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EDITOR 7/31/2012 4:05PM

    Hang in there, Kathleen!

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    hold on emoticon

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Magnificient Monday

Monday, July 30, 2012

Whew! Trying to recover from the weekend! Hosted dining out Saturday night and had 8 people over for lunch yesterday to celebrate our dear friends 50th anniversary. They stayed until 6 pm...guess they enjoyed themselves.

Mom was supposed to join us but somehow she thought she was going to the dining out Saturday night. We always try to call and reminder her when she is supposed to go but sat around wating for us and a 6 pm called us during dinner/meeting and hubby didn't take her call. I called her when we got home to remind her of schedule on Sunday and she was upset and not going anywhere the rest of the weekend. Of couse she blamed it all on me and that I had told her she was going with us. Don't know how it all happened. Guess I should get used to her getting confused and let it roll off. I am trying to...

Ate way too much over the weekend. All they wanted to do was sit around and eat and talk. I'm used to being more active.

Company leaves sometime today,,,,'

Off to exercise and get to work....

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LEANJEAN6 7/30/2012 6:36AM

    Great to hear other fellow Sparklers are exercising early---Enjoy the day!-Lynda emoticon

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NANCYPAT1 7/30/2012 6:35AM

    As our relatives get older, they can sometimes be a bit trying. My aunt who is 84 got the time wrong every time we had dinner together during my visit. I stayed with my sister and my stepmother (age 89) stayed with my aunt. My sister cooked dinner, my nephew cooked dinner, my brother-in-law cooked dinner and we ate out a couple of times and EVERY time she showed up either early or late and swore we told her a different time than we had. We love her anyhow but she can be something of a trial.

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ROX525 7/30/2012 6:32AM

    What a nice weekend you had. Have a great and healthy week.

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EDITOR 7/30/2012 6:29AM

    Have a wonderful Monday and keep on trucking, Kathleen!

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Fabulous Friday

Friday, July 27, 2012

Eating's been better the last few days. Focusing on counting calories and pre-planning and preparing meals and keeping track of what I eat. Of course we're having company this weekend so I will probably blow the weekend. Our dear older friends are stopping by for a few days. They have been traveling around for theie 50th wedding anniversary and asked to stop by for a couple of days...Sat - Tues or so.

Hubby's in charge of our club's dining out Saturday night at a BBQ place. Little nervous about that...our first time to be in charge and there is over 50 people coming. Hope most of them like it. I'm sure some will and some won't. Our friends should have arrived in time to go with us.

Sunday I invited 2 other couples over for lunch to visit and help celebrate our friend's Anniversary. With Mom and our friends makes 9. So it should be a nice time. Don't do as much entertaining since I work full time...but think I have it under control.

I have been able to make it to Curves with Mom 3 times this week. It has really perked her up. She has been doing remarkably better. Says she exercises in bed...but even she admits the machines are making her work and she can feel it. I know it does her good...just seems hard to get there recently. Have to put it back on priority list.

We survived the new phone system. We did OK. Didn't drop any calls. New learning curve. Guess God is determined that I will keep learning to change and adapt to new environments.

Planning to get up and get to Farmer's Market tomorrow morning and get some fresh cantelope and green beans for meals...and anything else that looks good. The farm market produce is just so tasty and good. No comparison to grocery store food. Yum! Yum! It seems to have so much more flavor and sweeter and not so woody tasting.

We have also gotten some rain the last few days. Been a nice break and the flowers and grass are enjoying it.

Off to make it a great day!

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EDITOR 7/27/2012 5:36AM

    The way you work, entertain and take care of Mom is always amazing to me! God is really directing your path to keep you so well functioning!

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MARYJOANNA 7/27/2012 5:35AM

  Bless you for your optimism! If you determine it is going to be a great day, it will be. Enjoy your weekend!

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Terrific Thursday

Thursday, July 26, 2012

Went to bed at 8:30 last night. Storm was just starting and oh so tired. Have gotten Mom to Curves twice this week...planning to get her there again tonight. We both need it.

New phone system at work. Yesterday we did some training and today they are supposed to be up and running. Now we can transfer to other location and it's like we're all under one roof. The plan is to eventually eliminate some of the incoming calls. When our home office hooks up billing and claims will automatically go to Home Office. I'm sure people may not always like it but we're hoping the call volume will be less so we can focus on other things and maybe have some uninterrupted time.

Knee is limping along. It is doing OK but not where it used to be. Trying to baby it and praying it gets stronger....

Have to deal with difficult issue at work today..but we will get through it.

Off to make it a great day!

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EDITOR 7/26/2012 6:02AM

    Mom sounded positive even with swollen ankle. I have that from BP at times. Hope a follow up will make her realize she is in good hands all around.

Hoping work eases up with new system.

Wanting that knee to recover. Blessings today and always. emoticon

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Terrific Tuesday

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

On my way to work always call Mom and she apologized for the way she was Sunday and how she treated me. It went a long way in diffusing my hurt. Poured my heart out to God and he answered. Fortunately I've been growing quiet when she gets that way and I don't have words I'm sorry I said back to her.

Took Mom to Curves last night after work and she had had a good night sleep and was in a very good mood. Had done her laundry, has a hair appointment today where she can walk down to it. Getting her out and being with her elevates her moods so much. I just can't do it as much as she would like. She is so draining. They have so many activities in her retirement community if she would just participate she would feel so much better. We try and take her to events if we can so she will go to them and enjoy the music or entertainment. They always have something nice for each holiday.

Mom called me Saturday night at 9 pm and wondered where I was...she was dressed and ready for church. Guess she fell asleep and thought it was morning time and got up and got ready. Maybe down the road I can look back and laugh at some of the humorous things. She is able to live by herself for now and I am thankful for that and get around on her own...for now and I'm thankful for that.

Got home from exercise changed my clothes and off to meeting until 9:30. Makes for a short night.

Was able to get in a noontime walk and knee did OK yesterday. Had the song "How Great Is Our God" rolling through my head as I walked and was so blessed by the nature all around me. Saw a doe and fawn, lots of ducks and geese around the pond with their growing babies, hear the booming voices of the bullfrogs croaking and saw such beautifu flowers blooming even with all our hot weather. Saw some beautiful pink hollyhocks growing in some of the ditches. The Nature preserve must spread seeds or plants...because I can't imagine them growing naturally in those areas...but they were such a joy and blessing to see such beautiful big blooms. Instead of walking it is more of a Praise Walk...I am just truly blessed and in awe with what I see all around me.

Bought a velcro knee brace and that really seems to help. Kept it on all day and that really seemed to help also. Fortunately it fits under my slacks.

Company coming Saturday and we are hosting dinner out with Corvette Club Saturday night. Never a dull moment around here. Then Sunday afternoon have some friends over for lunch so they can chat with our company and help to celebrate their 50th anniversary. Got a menu in my mind so will try to figure out what all I will need and make up my list.

Off to make it a great day! If weather permits hope to get in a walk at lunchtime

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MARYJOANNA 7/24/2012 5:54AM

  You are showing your Mom signs of a true Christian. How nice it is of you to include her in your many activities. It seems the table turns when parents get older and we become the caregivers.

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DGFOWLER 7/24/2012 5:44AM

    Good morning Kathleen. So glad you had a Motivating Monday and that your Tuesday is going to be terrific. Keeping a positive attitude and your faith is seeing you through the rough times you are having. You are lucky to have your mom with you right now. I would say you are making memories that will last a lifetime and even though you run across some rough patches you get through them eventually. A few weeks before my dad died I wrote this poem.

Making Memories of You

I stood at the door of your bedroom
I watch each breath that you take,
I wonder what you are thinking
But its memories dad I need to make.

Cancer has been with you so long
Oh, the toil it has taken on you,
all I want to do right now
Is make memories to get me through.

I remember when I was growing up
dad you were hard to take to reach,
I know now as I look back
lifes lessons you were trying to teach.

When I had a family of my own
dad you were always there,
now its you that is leaving me
my heart breaks its so hard to bear.

I know well meet again someday
In heaven bright and fair,
where we will never have to part
our lives once more well share.

Have a great day Kathleen. emoticon Donna

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EDITOR 7/24/2012 5:33AM

    I am so sorry that it appears I missed a day. I haven't and I am glad you are still being more generous to Mom than anyone else could possibly be.
I can not say that she will improve. Not going to happen at this stage. But your walk of kindness, gentleness,s and memories are what is important to her as quality of life diminish.

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