Thursday, November 16, 2006
not so much fear as loathing....i am in self hatred mode. not really much ANYONE (but myself of course) can do about it.
i am lazy. i am fat. i have lost all motivaation. and really....i just don't care.
this time of year, this weather, this lack of liking my job, this 'it's just easier to eat bad or just eat' moment is taking it's toll on my life.
i don't wanna run. i don't wanna work out. i don't wanna have to watch what i eat every freakin minute of my damn life. DOES IT EVER END?? the answer is no.
sorry to be miss downy downerson.....i just can't help it. everyone is doing so well on their lifestyle changes... they have given me some credit for inspiring them.... well kiddos, i am glad that i could spread some inspiration.... but i am in some SERIOUS need of some myslf right now.
i am mad, i am frustrated and i just don't give a shit..................