Monday, March 18, 2013
So I’m not very good at this weight loss thing!
Every time I try I always give up and gain the weight back and then I just feel sorry for myself I guess because I’m looking in the mirror hating every inch of myself for giving up again, and turning back into the blob monster with extra muffin top to spare.
I hope I am not the only person to talk bad about themselves, or give myself a hard time!? I know I need to do less of that and get back on track. As you notice I am only blaming myself, because I know I am the one that’s in control., I decided what I put into my mouth and I decided what exercise I did not do!
Just wanted to post; I know if I don’t start doing what I used to do, I will never get back on track to get this weight off!
I tried to make excuses that oh I gave up because I moved and my routine was screwed up & then my mother died, I realize I cannot use my mother’s death as an excuse to kill myself with this fat any longer!!!
It’s amazing how you can really tell a difference in the way you feel just by gaining 9 or 10lbs. It really does make a difference. I started to notice more frequent urination, more laziness, more bad moods, getting sick more; jeans don’t fit good, ha-ha I know I can do this. I was doing great…the weight was coming off and it was so exciting, I hate that I gave up for so long…but I believe I am coming back, slowly. Just trying to pull myself the rest of the way out of this dark spot I’ve been in.
Well while I am writing. Let me ask my Sparkpeople friends!!! My calorie range that sparkpeople gave me is some where between 1700 and 2100…Would it be bad for me if I eat LESS than that??? I don’t want to starve myself & I don't think I will because I LOVE food, but does it just make the process a little slower by staying within “Sparkpeople calorie range”?? Can someone tell me?