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My Want/Don't Want Motivational

Saturday, May 30, 2009

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1. the feeling of being out of control
2. aches and pains
3. meds
4. roll of fat in stomach, especially when i sit down.
5. anger at myself when I make a poor decision.
6. frustration due to slow progress
7. tent clothes
8. being tired all the time
9. depressed
10. laziness
11. feeling of failure because I am not where I "think" I should be
13. Excuses

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1. tight muscles
2. feel the bone on my hip when I lay down
3. to cross my legs without discomfort
4. I want to feel again what its' like to be in total control
5. I want to wear all those clothes in my spare room
6. a size 12
7. a size 10
8. a size 8
9. to wear a sexy outfit and see no bulges.
10. to love the body I am in
12. to move past where I am.

I will add more to this as needed

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MRSWHITEWOLF 5/30/2009 10:14PM

    You can do it!

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Reformed Saboteur

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Good question. I've been doing WW since 2002 (except for the year I took off, we won't go there yet). Took me some time to figure out that sometimes when there was a gain at the scale were weeks when he cooked often. He was the ultimate saboteur. I think he took pleasure at keeping me the way I was. Well honestly, I think he was afraid that when I reached my goal that I would leave. We went through many battles over this. I was at the stage where I had lost 75 lbs. He would ongoingly tell me I looked sick. Maybe I did, but I felt so healthy. My back didn't hurt, I was able to breath better( at the time I smoked).
Then came the year I had some miner health issues, other things happened, I quit smoking, etc...... I gained back about 80-85 lbs. It took me about one year to work up the nerve to get back into a Weight watcher meeting. I felt like it was the lowest place in my life ever.
It was at this time my husband and I had the old conversation about me "not getting to thin that I looked sick again," that I cried. He didn't get it. When I explained to him the reasons I wanted to lose weight had nothing to do with being "thin." When I explained to him that I would probably die if I didn't, I think it scared him. There were so many things that happened during the year I gained back all that weight. the fact that I did....But now I was a non smoker on a mission. I want to live and see my family grow. I need to have the pressure of this weight off my neck and back. If I'm active more, maybe my thyroid and cholesterol levels will come down.

It's funny sometimes to see him in the kitchen trying to figure out if what he cooks, can I eat it. He has come a long way from hiding the butter and oil in everything he cooks. I have also figured out that when he cooks... if it's over the top delish... take a bite and find something else to eat.

He also now questions me when he sees me with something he knows I shouldn't have. He's become my conscience.


Time Savers When I'm busy

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Breakfast-A couple times lately I have measured out my 1T of peanut butter and one of fluff. Thrown it on a lite hot dog bun and half a banana and ran out the front door. Not the best of best choices, but it wasn't a donut.

Lunch-I love to keep frozen veggies, ff cheese and soy crumbles or boca burgers in the freezer for just this reason. You can even buy already cooked rice now. Container ready......
1/2 cup or more of veggies (1/2 cup = 1 serving of veggies).
1/2 cup brown rice (either store bought ready or leftovers)
2/3 cup crumbles or 1 boca burger or any leftover cooked lean meat
1/4 cup shredded ff cheese of your choice

sometimes a little balsamic

Dinner is my tough meal. I'm most likely to grab the cereal box here. I have no desire to "make" anything after a days work. Soup is a good stand in. Baked potato with chili and cheese.

A can of baked beans is just fine with me. With a little beano of

I work in a school. Breaks are not really scheduled the same time daily. Lunch is. But whatever I take has to be portable. Microwave is doable. Two days a week I go from one job to the next. On those days I take extra snacks.
94%ff popcorn

Added note. I still need to work more on my meal planning. Over time, you do get bored with the same foods. This leads to self sabotage. In my journey, I have overcome many things. This I continue to have issues with. It's a wall I have to break down.


BON JOVI lyrics - "Welcome To Wherever You Are"

Thursday, April 19, 2007

BON JOVI lyrics - "Welcome To Wherever You Are"

Maybe we're all different but we're still the same
We all got the blood of Eden running through our veins
I know sometimes it's hard for you to see
You're caught between just who you are and who you want to be

If you feel alone and lost and need a friend
Remember every new beginning is some beginning's end

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
That right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
Welcome to wherever you are

When everybody's in and you're left out
And you feel you're drowning in the shadow of a doubt
Everyone's a miracle in their own way
Just listen to yourself, not what other people say

When it's seems you're lost, alone and feeling down
Remember everybody's different; just take a look around

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
Right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be

Be who you want to be
Be who you are
Everyone's a hero
Everyone's a star

When you want to give up and your heart's about to break
Remember that you're perfect; God makes no mistakes

Welcome to wherever you are
This is your life; you made it this far
Welcome, you got to believe
Right here, right now
You're exactly where you're supposed to be
And I say welcome...
I say welcome...



Friday, April 13, 2007


It doesn't matter
how much you earn
or how many items you own
You can always do better
no matter how small
today you can say that you've grown

Don't worry about others
don't wait for a chime
your heart wants it….it is driven
Just keep yourself going
and stay on your path
so your goals can be reached…it's a given

It doesn't matter
what you've done in the past
or how often you've failed either way
You can ALWAYS do better
no matter how small
it's all in your choices today


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