Friday, January 06, 2012
I thought of putting down my idea of what I think has changed in me in 2012.
So here is a quick checklist::
I am 5 kg lighter than in 2011 ( 70kg from 75)
I can run!!! yes I can jog for 2 km at a stretch(not always, but I can, I did that many times). I nore more huff and puff after 200 mts now.
RUNNING IS NOT A PUNISHMENT anymore. I actually look forward to weekends.
I do not feel th eneed to buy 'SPECIAL' food always. By this I mean, diet coke, fatless yogurt, wholegrain bread etc etc. And by this statement I mean I dont feel like doing something else than the rest of my family and feel different. I know I can do everything in moderation and thats the point.
I can live without eating potatos. I have not died in last 4 months
I know rice is not a poison and I can drink something when I am hungry and the hunger goes away for sometime.
Walking is always easy and doable. even if my thighs are sore, I can still walk a mile.
And now comes the things that have not quite changed:
I can not help comparing myself with others.... I still cant stop doing that.
I cant stop believing that all others as more beautiful than me... This is SICK, but I still cant help feeling miserable.
I cant still help myself when I am with Food. There are endless options and they all taste great. Aweeeee.... I am such a helpless person when it comes to food. All I plan for when leaving office is Dinner!!!!!
Can some one take all my mone so that I cant buy crap while going back home ? poor me..
Somethings are done, somethings are in process and something needs a big tight slap to stop... but I am still making progress. Some one said you should never stop working on your self.
Hope all you my wonderful friends are doing great in 2012. Thanks for reading my blog. I love you all ............. Have teh happiest new year.