Wednesday, December 11, 2013
Today I was like, hmm I wonder what percentage of body weight I've lost so far. I even made a random guess that it was 1/3 or 33% and I was pretty close! Currently 29% but in 3 lbs (when I've lost 70 lbs!!) It'll be that!
So I'll be 1/3 of my original weight! wow!
I think I will also have to go clothing shopping! I hope.
this was my prom dress I wore over 10 years ago! omg! The zipper is actually broken though so I don't know for sure if it actually fits...I think I still have a bit to go though before it technically would. But still, I never thought I would come this close for many years.
Sunday, December 08, 2013
I wanted to blog about this at the end of yesterday, but I had already blogged one blog and I wanted to get the sparkpoints for it today...and not right 2 blogs in one day.
Anyways, I had a major breakthrough with my running ability yesterday!
I decided, upon opening runkeeper, the app that I use with my workouts outside, to set my workout as a run instead of a walk for the first time. I've only been doing run/walk intervals for the past few months, but I always considered them more of a walk. Then I proceeded to run almost the whole time with some pretty small intervals of walking, for 45 minutes (although 5 of those minutes I was cooling down at the end). I was aiming to get just below 13 minutes per mile for my pace. I was just trying to get in the 12:50s. But then I saw that I was surpassing that, and that I could easily aim for 11:52. I finished with 11:51 min/mi. OMG
And I am SO close to no longer being obese bmi wise. I weighed myself yesterday and it said 168 which technically means I am now at an overweight bmi category. However it was just after the run and today it was 169.2 so I'm going to weight until next week to completely declare victory on that if I end up being 168 or lower!
I was also taking a shower when a huge runner's high/high from doing so awesome hit me. I ended up deciding I had to write a blog on my actual website (beyond this blog you're reading now)...I came up with the idea of what I wanted to say--Here's the link to it.
Saturday, December 07, 2013
well I am writing a blog because I would write it in a status, but it'll probably be a bit longer than that.
As of this morning at like 1 am, I am no longer on my no binge eating streak :( I was having insomnia and felt really hungry. And then I went to eat something but couldn't figure out what I wanted to eat, and still felt too hungry and...yeah I ate too much.
I think it'll be okay as long as I commit to avoiding it the rest of the day, tomorrow, etc again. I know I can do it again. Keeping track of the days I'm on a streak really helped me avoid it, so I'm going to go back to that. Also like I saw on someone else's blog me: 5, bingeing: 1. That's the recent score. Not bad.
And I tracked pretty much everything I ate (except for one food that I didn't have the info for...) and I think I can still stick to the range I need to be give or take. I'll also probably not eat the types of snacks I usually allow myself to have and eat fruit instead.
I feel weird talking about this because I think people might think I'm being too hard on myself or obsessing over food too much. The problem is, in the past I have not cared about controlling this sort of stuff to my detriment. I want to maintain the wonderful progress I have made in getting to a healthier (and continue with my journey) weight/size. And I don't want my health problems to come back.
But to change the subject to more positive things while I'm here:
I was procrastinating working on my math lab homework this whole semester basically. But this week that finally changed. And I took an exam for it yesterday. I was aiming to get at least a 75, but I actually got an 88! GO ME! So happy!
I have a ton more stuff to do for school though, it's crunch time. I need to try not to be on the internet doing non school work stuff as much...but in the past few days I've somehow stopped caring about facebook which can sometimes cause anxiety/overwhelm me for some reason. I have not been keeping track of my facebook friends statuses as much...and it actually feels relieving! So, I think I'll try to limit that because it makes me feel good. Although I'll have to work on having more of an in person social life too.
Ok the following is a little story about my love life: It's slightly personal and slightly sickeningly cute at times, so be warned...and try to keep a somewhat non judgmental attitude if you can...I don't have another good place to write about it but here...but I'm writing it mostly for myself and my sparkfriends that I know might get a kick out of it.
Speaking of social things...haha. I recently broke up with my boyfriend. It just wasn't working out, I think we'll still be good friends but we're not cut out for a romantic relationship. He seemed to understand and be good about it, not that I really expected anything else.
I guess I'm excited though, and maybe feel a little weird that it happened so fast, but a guy started talking to me online the next day. He is really cool. We were talking about just being friends, taking it really slow and stuff, but we talked so much in messages back and forth really in depth. It was really cool and I was/am very impressed with his ability to have things to talk about me, relate to me, and I don't know...his personality and seemingly compatibility with me. We both keep saying we are going to be slow moving....but I don't think that is going so well since the next day (yesterday) we went out for coffee (I had tea) and then to a tea house where he had beer and I had (more) tea (the second tea was even better than the first tea! it was chamomile vanilla bean and it tasted like candy! only problem was it was a small teapot and I drank it all and there was a line for the bathroom, haha). We kept joking about how we're supposed to stay slow moving...but there were a few things that just didn't stay that way. Like he scolded himself for commenting on my appearance (I didn't really care, it's nice to hear I'm cute haha), and some other little things like...I was talking to him and feeling weird about what my hands were doing and he noticed and I was like "well ideally I'd want a toy thing like a stress ball or something...I like to fidget)" and he was like "well it's not slow moving so I can't hold your hand" --good thing it wouldn't have really helped with my need-to-fidget problem, because I probably would have failed at slow moving right then and there and took him up on the offer.
Later on though...when we came out of the tea place? It was pouring! And I was the only one with an umbrella. haha. I was the one who told him he could walk with me under the umbrella, but my umbrella doesn't cover a lot of area...whoops...so he asked me if it was okay to walk really close to me hanging on to me...haha. He gave me a ride home only because there was basically no other way--I took the bus to meet him, and if I took the bus home, I would have had to walk 2 miles back home in the dark and rain. So, uh almost near my house he was asking about seeing me again, and did hold my hand. Except I got worried he'd cause and accident, haha. But we did sort of continue holding hands for like...idk a few minutes. And then when we got into my neighborhood I was like "take the long way not the short way too my house! I don't want to stop talking!" haha. But eventually we still ended up saying goodbye pretty quickly, considering as he says we are "slow-moving adults" hahaha.
All in all though, or in summation, I don't think it's going to be as slow as I was hoping before I really started talking to him. Whoops. I think the plan of being totally platonic for awhile is impossible. It's already failed. I'm okay with that. I just am not going to jump into a serious relationship right away. I want lots of dates and to get to know him really well before we become an official couple! Like...at least 2 months of dates, or something? I don't even know! Taking things slow is actually quite new for me...but I'm glad I am trying...but also kinda giddy and hopeful? ummm yeah.
Monday, December 02, 2013
well, it's sort of silly looking but here is my progress so far! So proud of myself and I'm back on track!!
Sunday, December 01, 2013
I'm doing pretty well. Getting over a cold though, which had prevented me from working out as intensely as I would have liked for a week. During that week I started making green smoothies and eating more fruit, and I am keeping up with an even larger than previous (even though I'm a vegan) fruit and veggie intake. Which is awesome.
I'm feeling a lot better but am still struggling to run as much as I could before, because there is still some stuff in my throat...so I'm trying to take it easy and not push myself too hard.
The only thing though, is that before I got sick, and shortly after I started to feel a lot better, is trying not to eat too much food. I was having a lot of trouble sticking to my calorie range going over it for days on end. Mostly I'd be good until dinner time, then feel really hungry and not be able to stop...or a bit after dinner...and then have a craving for something I couldn't quite pinpoint and go on a binge...I think it was mostly my mindset.
However, I've worked the past few days on changing my mindset, and setting some new goals, and talking to myself in my head more. I've also kept up with trying to prepare really healthy veggie centered meals and having more fruit as snacks. I'm really trying to avoid snack foods and instead have one to two rice cakes with some kind of savory spread (like hummus, or I made baba ganoush on thanksgiving) and that seems to be working fine. I'm also setting a goal every day in my mind and giving myself more of a push to not let myself start eating at times when I know it will lead to bingeing on food.
So far, it's been 2 days since I have binged. I don't want to say three yet until I wake up tomorrow, because it usually happens most the time after 9pm, and it's only 8:37pm now.
Also, another thing that's been helping is drinking as much water as I can. I've read almost everywhere that the 64 oz of water (as suggested by sparkpeople) is not the standard rule really. I mean, if that's all you can do it's better than nothing, but really you're supposed to drink according to how much you weigh...multiply your weight by 2/3 to get the amount of ounces to drink, and I'm not meeting that usually...I weight like 170 which means I should be drinking 112 oz a day...I only did 88oz today, unless I drink some more now which I may just do...but yeah, the more water I drink especially when I want to eat, the better, but it's definitely difficult to reach the amount for my weight.
That's all I really have to say now! I also think I should try to find some more active sparkfriends...I'm kinda crappy socially even online, but it'd be nice to have more people who want to talk about stuff, especially fellow vegans or people have other similar interests or are around my age (I'm 29), are in school, aren't married or have kids yet, or whatever other things we may have in common that we can figure out. Honestly I'll be sparkfriends with anyone despite those wishlist kinds of things, and it's cool to encourage each other as much as possible in my opinion!
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