Friday, June 06, 2014
Yesterday I blogged about the comfort of nature, today I thought I would tell you a bit about what comforts me at home. Meet Sadie and Scout. They are 9 months old and wonderfully curious. Sadie is a true cat - and I am her person, Scout (the fluffier one) thinks she is a dog and loves everyone. They sleep in bed with me and every morning nom on my blanket after the alarm goes off, paddy-pawing and nuzzling each other. It would melt the coldest heart (even you non-cat people out there would not be able to resist). I think if there were more kittens in the world, people would be happier...
Thursday, June 05, 2014
Today I had what I can only describe as the perfect ride...
It wasn't the longest
or the fastest
the sun wasn't even shining
but it was comfort for the soul in every way
The picture above is me starting out - cloudy day but happy to get out of work in time to still enjoy some time outside.
Shortly after a light rain started and suddenly I noticed it...
the air was thick, heavy, full of the smell of wildflowers along the trail
it was completely impossible to ignore...even my music was distracting me from this aromatic heaven and I removed them so I could just focus on deep breaths of meadowsweet and honeysuckle
Earphones now off, I listened to the rain falling through the trees, slipping from leaf to leaf like a soft symphony, then noticed a louder sound further off the trail. I left my bike and ventured into the woods to find a lovely unmarked falls
Pretty amazing right...just 100 feet off the trail, was this perfect mossy glen. And to honest, the sound of the water falling over rock combined with the warmth of summer and the smell of the wildflowers almost made me giddy
You can't always get what you want...but you get what you need
and I needed this...
The rest of the 20 mile ride, I stopped whenever I saw something pretty and it is amazing how many flora and fauna I saw....
Taking these pics lifted my spirits every bit as much as the 20 mile ride.
Grateful for this beautiful world we live in...
Tuesday, June 03, 2014
(You all know that right)
I just finished the longest binge that I have had in about 5 years
10 days of chocolate, chocolate and more chocolate - I made myself absolutely sick
Getting on the scale yesterday hurt but but I needed to get it to stop
What I did and will do to prevent this from happening:
1. Exercised a lot for the past 4 days - cycling, hiking, walking
2. Got on the scale and got honest - 6 lbs in 10 days OUCH
3. Forgave myself - forward is the direction I am going - not interested in looking back...
4. Logged every morsel today and yesterday
5. Reset my spark page - new pic, new goals, new words on first page
and I took a lot of deep breaths
Goal - be healthy tomorrow without worrying about yesterday
Everything past that is too far in the future
I am really bad at asking for help and support
but I could really use it right now
Hollynn aka SpunkyDucky
Saturday, April 12, 2014
Ok, so anyone who has read my blogs recently knows that 2014 has been difficult for me. In fact, at some point I actually started feeling like a victim. One thing added to another and I actually started to believe that I could not escape this circle of hell. Marriage over. Job not satisfying. Finances a mess. Then my health gave out 2 weeks ago while I was at a conference and I ended up in a hospital in New Orleans and I felt totally alone. You know you are at the bottom when you feel like there is no way out. That feeling lasted for several days. Then it occurred to me that no one was going to save me except me. I have to be enough. The truth is, as sad as I am, I know that somewhere under all this hurt, lies the heart of a warrior.
I am stronger than this and I WILL NOT allow myself to feel or act like a victim. I will pick myself up, shake off this pain and dance in the rain. I will get through hour by hour until I can stretch it to a day. I will be positive, and I will be responsible for myself. I will seek out things that make me happy including sunlight, exercise and friendship. And I will smile and be grateful for the things in life that I am lucky enough to have.
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