Saturday, December 10, 2011
So as winter settles in, here are some thoughts on cold winter days:
1. If penguins like it, it can't be too bad
2. Snow falling is one of nature's most beautiful things
3. Every snowflake, like each one of us is individual, and beautiful
4. There are just as many winter sports as summer sports
5. Children love winter, snow and don't mind the cold
6. It is never too cold, you just aren't wearing enough warm layers
7. In a word....SKIING!
8. Winter makes us appreciate spring
9. Hot chocolate is not as inviting in July
10. It is 3-4 months of the year - make sure you enjoy it while it is here!
Hollynn aka SpunkyDucky
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Today is a "WHOOOO-HOOOOO" day!
After 8 days of the painful (but oh, so important) process of calorie logging and exercise I stepped on the scale today and reaped the rewards - 7 lbs
I got on it again -seriously! I started jumping up and down like I was a contestant on the Biggest Loser. 7 its? I mean really, wow! I have never lost 7 lbs in a week before (6 was my prior most in a single week - in the very first week on the spark).
Talk about lighting a spark. After being down to 190, being up at 226 last week was a new (renewed?) all time high. I resolved to start over, and make good choices. I felt so much better all week - more energy and happier with myself for doing something positive. Even if I wasn't perfect, I was putting in a lot of effort, something I always respect, regardless of results
So 7 down...70 to go
I go back and forth between thinking - wow, 70 -that is a LOT and remember that I lost 98 lbs in a week just one year ago -makes 70 not look so bad.
So from here on I will be happy for 1-2 lbs a week. I recognize that there will be plateaus and even rotten weeks when the scale goes up, but I am here on the journey
Wanna join me?
Saturday, October 22, 2011
So here I am after a full year of backpedaling, still trying to figure out where I went wrong so I can try to not make the same mistakes in the future...
So here it is: too much resistance and wishing
After losing 98 lbs and feeling like I had it all figured out, I started to resent my new lifestyle. Bizarre right? In retrospect, it seems so foolish, but I thought writing it will help me come to terms with it. I actually resented that I felt like I had to exercise every day and eat so healthy. I was like a rebellious teenager that just wanted to be like everyone else. I envied my thin, fit friends who were able to indulge and I wished I could be that way too. So I started to indulge - I felt invincible in many ways, like I was somehow immune to gaining weight back. I had seen others on Spark regain weight, but I didn't think it would happen to me...
So yeah, I wish I had a great metabolism
I wish that I didn't have to track my calories - I hate doing it
I wish I didn't have to exercise everyday (even though I love doing it)
I wish I was naturally thin
I wish it wasn't so hard
I wish it wasn't always going to be a temptation
Now that I am done with my pity party - here is reality
I DON'T have a great metabolism
I MUST track my calories for my own accountability
I DO have to exercise regularly, and honestly every day is just easier for me
I have NEVER been naturally thin, and who cares, I will appreciate it more when I do get there
It is HARD, but it is important, and it is valuable to me
There will always be temptations
It is what it is
And what it is - it's ok
I don't have to fight it or wish for something else
I have to accept me how I am and work each day for how I want to be
Sounds so easy, right?
So yeah, I am back on track, swallowed my pride
Today is day 6 of continuous exercise and calorie logging
Cheers to regaining lost ground
Wednesday, July 20, 2011
This past week I was out of town and had the chance to catch up with a fellow sparkie, Kristina (Karvy09). We went to dinner and I was surprised by how easy it was to fall into a rhythm talking, like old friends. One of the things we talked about how important it is for all of us to not go through this process alone. It is a strange journey in many ways because it is impossible to always be where you want to be (how many times have I wanted to be just 5lbs less!) I can't tell you how good it feels to know that others struggle, plateau, gain (oh no! - but yes it happens to ALL of us), feel tired and cranky, or exuberant and joyful. We are a group with a common experience. In fact we are a tribe. All of us know what it is like to look in the mirror and not like what we see or to feel like our bodies have betrayed us. When any of us succeed it feels like all of us have, or at least like all of us could. For me that is the strength of this site, when I am having a rough week - I depend on all of you to help lift me up and similarly when I achieve something hopefully it inspires others. Check on a few of your friends on this journey today. Wherever they are - you have been or will be.
Love my sparkies!
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