Wednesday, February 09, 2011
My inspiration for weight loss was knowing what was hidden inside of me.
This picture is me at age 26. I weighed about 150 lbs (after losing 70 lbs the previous year, a hard battle) I may not have been perfect, but I felt like I was on top of the world. I maintained this weight and healthy lifestyle for close to 4 years.
The many years I was overweight, I always had the mental image that this person was trapped inside me. I always had faith that I would find her again.
In 2005, I lost the weight a second time
I made it down to 172 that time, and again felt like I was on top of the world. This time, it lasted only 2.5 years.
Finally in 2009 I saw a picture that changed my life.
I was really scared. I couldn't see the thin, healthy girl in my mind anymore and I was almost certain she was gone forever.
So that was my inspiration in a way. I will always fight with my weight, and I am never going to be a person who can not exercise and eat what she wants. I am ok with that. Statistically I am likely to gain it back. I don't think that will happen this time. I have spent so much time in the past 1.5 years journally and revelling in being that person. Losing weight doesn't make anyone happy by itself, but for me it helped me be able to do the things I want to do (hike, climb, ski, bike) and that makes all the difference in the world.
I am still 50 lbs overweight and my journey isn't over, and in truth I know this journey is a lifelong journey, it has no end. I intend to enjoy it, and life every step of the way.
The final picture is me last summer at the start of my first triathlon. Sometimes there is even more inside us than we can guess when we are at the beginning.
Saturday, February 05, 2011
This is how I often feel about logging calories...guilty
One of my biggest hangups on the Spark has always been inconsistent calorie logging.
I always log breakfast. Why? Because I (am boring) and eat the same thing for breakfast every day. 1 cup of Kelloggs Raisin Bran Crunch, 1/2 cup of soy milk and 1/2 cup of fruit (usually blackberries, sometimes strawberries). Total ~275 calories
After logging, I pat myself on the back and think: today is going to be a good day.
Then comes lunch. Have I ever mentioned my husband packs my lunches? Turkey sandwich, chicken vindaloo, veggies and/or fruit. Pretty painless to log.
Then....comes evening. On a "good day" after dinner I behave (ie don't snack for hours) and log my calories...On a bad day - I have a snack-a-palooza. A rice cake, hmmm....no not what I was "hungry" for, maybe some crackers, nope...maybe I want a few M &Ms (always starts with 10)...all the sudden I don't want to log anymore....so I don't
(I always thought M & Ms were the reason I didn't log calories, the truth is that guilt is what got in my way)
This week, one of my goals was HONEST logging. I actually did it (everything that went into my mouth got logged) and interestingly (despite 2 days over 2000 calories)...I STILL LOST WEIGHT. Even more interesting, I didn't feel as guilty about what I ate once I logged it. I felt honest. I felt accountable and you know what, it felt pretty good!
I have always been afraid that logging my "bad days"would make me feel worse, more guilty (if that is possible). What an a-ha moment to realize it actually did the opposite!!
Pretty eye opening for me.
Any of you have this experience?
Tuesday, February 01, 2011
Beating the Winter Blues
1. GO OUTSIDE. Yes I am serious. It isn't THAT cold. Buy some long underwear, layer, do whatever it takes, but GET OUTSIDE. There is sun out there somewhere
2. Exercise - only have 10 minutes of spare time - get it done! Have longer to exercise - consider yourself lucky!
3. Eat when you are hungry: like many people I will use any excuse to eat: I don't feel good (eat), I am stressed out from work (eat)...it is cold outside (STOP -DON'T do IT!!!) Remember food is only fuel
4. Ignite your Spark buddies - We are all in the same boat (except those of you who are lucky enough to live in Cali or Florida) it is cold, dark and somewhat depressing at times in winter. Now is a great time to reconnect with Sparkies for the support you (and they) need!
5. Warm up with a cup of tea. Preferably cinnamon spice, but any kind you like is fine
Hang in there Sparkies...winter is halfway over!
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