Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Yesterday was the first day since I've started this journey (this year) that I've really fallen off the wagon.
I've broken a promise to myself that I would never lose control like that, but I'm not going to let it get me down. I'm determined to learn from the experience and move on. I don't want to gain the weight back after all of that hard work and sacrifice. So let's go over what went wrong, shall we?
Breakfast: I had a doughnut. It was NOT worth it. All of that anticipation that was built up in my head about having a doughnut after so long was so entirely wrong. It was too sugary, near stale, and not filling at all.
Snack: Peanut butter pretzels. They were partially worth it. Around half a bag they became too rich for me and stopped being satisfying, but I continued to eat them anyway. Why? Because that voice in my head said that I was going to be back on track tomorrow so I shouldn't waste perfectly good snack food I continued to eat beyond need and satisfaction. I need to learn that it's better to "waste" food than waste my weight loss progress. I wish I had seen that before, but I think it's a very valuable lesson learned.
Lunch: Small salad. Great choice and no regrets. Lunch is almost a no brainier for me at this point and I always feel satisfied and full. It's amazing to me that I look forward to my lunch salads. That would have NEVER happened a year ago!
Dinner: Thai food - chicken pad see ew. No regrets. I had planned to eat this, but at dinner we skipped an appetizer and didn't feel bloated and stuffed at the end of the meal. I felt satisfied, but today I'm not dying to have more Thai food. It was a nice splurge that I would take again in a couple of months. It was nice to see that I had some self control here and I was fully prepared to box away or leave leftovers when I got full, but it didn't happen.
Desert: Sweet Frog, frozen yogurt. I mostly regret this one because of my poor choices from the morning. This was also ridiculously sweet and because the cups are pretty big I ended up getting more than I needed and ate beyond satisfaction. I think if I stick to one flavor and one topping next time I would be much better off. Good treat, but I need to learn how to portion out better for next time (if/when there is a next time).
So today I'm reaffirming my promise to myself that I will not give into temptation. I will not let my mistakes yesterday determine my actions today (ie. poor choices) and I will only eat until satisfied. That is the biggest lesson I learned from yesterday.