Friday, September 24, 2010
Isn’t she cute!!!!!
That’s exactly how I felt today when I got on the scale and it read 296 pounds.
I’ve lost 30 pounds in less than 4 months and feel 100% better physically, mentally and emotionally.
I’ve had my head buried in the sand for so many years and in such denial about my health and well being that I honestly don’t remember how I got from midlife to my rocking chair years. I took care of everyone else but me. That’s what we do as woman. And it’s the worst possible thing we can do to ourselves and our families.
Honestly, I had no idea the damage I was doing to myself. I was too busy taking care of others to see how much I wasn’t taking care of me. A few years ago I began to notice how beat down my mom was. I knew why, but still didn’t see myself in the same light. You stop looking at yourself when you don’t like what you see. You loose focus and it gets all blurry and then you stick your head in the sand so you can’t see yourself at all and life goes on and the pounds settle in and you realize your get-up and go… got-up and went. Sad but true, especially for my generation.
I don’t want my daughters and their daughters to wake up one day and find they’ve lost themselves to years of neglect. I don’t want my sons and their sons to bury themselves in the pursuit of material things to bury their loved ones under. I don’t want to sit in a rocker because I can’t get up and move around any more.
I want to live as the good Lord intended with a healthy mind and body. I want my girls and boys to find that happy medium between taking care or each other as well as themselves. I want my grandchildren to not spend one moment of their precious lives with their heads buried under the sand. And when I do sit down in that rocking chair for the last time I will be counting ALL my blessings and saying “Thank YOU God for giving me my life back in the summer of 2010.
There comes a time when autumn asks,
“What have you been doing all summer?"
And I answered, “I’ve been taking care of me.”
Autumn will be over before we know it and winter will be asking the same question.
Will you have the right answer?