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Wednesday, July 21, 2010

June 21-July 21, 4.5 weeks…. Month #1

I joined SP the day before my 63rd birthday on June 21, 2010, and was “Sparkling” brightly by the 4th of July. emoticonIn the first week my attitude about everything had improved 100%. Physically I felt better than I had in years (partially because I hadn’t even admitted to myself how poorly I felt) Emotionally I got honest in private and then with others by going public with my blog and as the mental and emotional purging began I just got lighter and brighter. I was beginning to face my stuff instead of stuffing my face.

Week two, I was riding HIGH and busy surfing the SP website finding the tools that worked best for me. The nutrition tracker became my new bible. I’d caught the Spark and was happily following the light while showing good results on the scale. My dear husband gave me all the time I needed to explore my feelings and begin to get comfortable with the real possibility of change. My physical presence was finally getting in line with my spiritual beliefs... thank you GOD =]

Week 3, started off with all the July 4th traditions, I was confident I wouldn’t be tempted to over indulge while partying, unfortunately my husband got sick with the flu and we had to cancel our plans. My attitude took a nose dive and all I wanted to do was eat which brought up some new insights about myself. Thank God my attitude adjustment didn’t end up including a margarita or over eating! The week ended with a fresh outlook and I began encouraging others with the reminder that” Motivation is what gets you started; Habit is what keeps you going.”

Week four, started with a big family celebration that included champagne and dessert. I didn’t used that dirty four letter word (diet) but did have to say “No thank you” more than once while being encouraged to over indulge and really began enjoying my new mindset & lifestyle. I got pretty good utilizing the SP website and found more and more people just like me. Their stories are moving, some times heart breaking, always inspiring. It’s very comforting to be able to admit out loud that I’m human thus flawed, a glorious work in progress, filled with hope and falling back in love with my self and my life. I started reading The Spark and by week’s end had reached my 1st short term goal… I lost 10 pounds and rewarded myself with a new scale.

Here I am in the middle of week 5, celebrating my first month with SparkPeople and no longer wondering when this love affair with life is going to end. The whole experience has been no less than a miracle for me. I’m not that naïve to think that it won’t be difficult some days and I might begin to slip back into destructive habits but now I know I can forgive myself and get back on track no matter what thanks to Chris and his Spark Team and the community who have welcomed and supported me the past 30 days. I believe this is just the beginning of a life long journey and I’m excited to support others who believe in miracles too.

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JINLYNN 7/22/2010 3:32PM

    What an inspiring blog - thanks for passing along some of your positive attitude and motivation.
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MJMOONEY 7/22/2010 10:24AM

    Way to go!


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KARRYB1 7/22/2010 8:51AM

    With your attitude and motivation it will only get better.
Congrats on your first 10 lb. loss.
We love Spark and all our helpful friends. emoticon

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GINGER1OF16 7/21/2010 7:36PM

    emoticonHard work and great attitude never go unrewarded. Congratulations for completing month one. You are off to a good start.

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RB2KSSRB 7/21/2010 3:29PM

    Keep going! You are an inspiration! May God continue to give you the strength to make your goal...He will guide you and help you along with our team...blessings, Rosie emoticon

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SHORTCAKE48 7/21/2010 2:46PM

  What a wonderful blog. I, too, started Sparking in late May, 2010. I was clicking along, doing well but then my routine changed last week when my sister came to visit and I fell back into some of my old habits. BUT thanks to SparkPeople, I have picked myself up and am back on track. thanks for motivating me.

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JAKEANDNELLIE 7/21/2010 2:26PM

    Awesome blog about your great progress!
You will be successful because you are focused, determined, and positive!

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SPARKLINGDAWN 7/21/2010 1:57PM

    You´re surely on the righ track. Wonderful that you like it in here - so do the rest of us. Welcome to a wonderful world emoticon

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KARYN7806 7/21/2010 1:37PM

  emoticon Your doing a great job!! Such an inspiration emoticon

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KESTRIE 7/21/2010 1:36PM

    "Motivation is what gets you started; Habit is what keeps you going." -- Love it!! Very inspirational :)

"I’m human thus flawed, a glorious work in progress, filled with hope and falling back in love with my self and my life." -- This is beautiful :) emoticon

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JOANNS4 7/21/2010 1:30PM

    Congratulations to you. You are doing so well! This is a great place. Have a good week!

Jo Ann
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New scale

Sunday, July 18, 2010

My DH bought me a Taylor # 7404 Ultra Thin Lithium Scale with Brushed Stainless Steel Platform and Backlight (weight only) from Costco for less than $20.00. Amazon carries it for $40.00 with 4 out of 5 stars so I’m stoked. emoticon

It does weigh by 2 tenths of a pound so I was up a smidgen… less than half a pound, but that’s A-OK with me because there’s plenty of room for my clod-hoppers and now I can get on once and I’m done.

On to the next goal with a new tool that I can rely on… yes, Shelia life is good


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JAKEANDNELLIE 7/19/2010 7:53PM

    Good for you! It's important to have a good scale. I was happy to discover that the new one I got weighed me exactly the same as my doctor's scale!

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KARRYB1 7/19/2010 1:06PM

    Your husbad is a keeper!

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MARSHASTAR 7/19/2010 10:13AM

    I THINK having a decent scale really improves my attitude. Just knowing I don't have to step on it 3 times to get an accurate weight makes the weigh in less stressful.
Your DH was really thoughtful to buy that for you. Happy weighing!!
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NETTWC 7/19/2010 9:42AM

  Happy to know that there's a scale that can really tell where you are. May it help keep you motivated and on track for your goals.

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JOANOFSPARK 7/19/2010 2:14AM

    oh, wow!! that is soo cool.....love the idea that you can tell exactly how much you have lost to the tenths of an pound...... emoticon
this will really help you on your weight loss journey.. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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WYWIWOMAN 7/18/2010 3:22PM

    Nice scale! May this be one more tool to support your hard work on your journey!

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Thursday, July 15, 2010

I’ve set some long term goals… I’d like to lose 143 pounds, Yikes!!!! If I don’t that’s ok because any thing close to that will be reward enough. I joined SP to feel better and that goal was met in the first week so I’m changing that long term goal to my first short term goal… which I’ve met. emoticonWooHoo

Now... rewards are another thing all together for me. There’s been a little voice inside me that’s whispered “you are not worthy” for so long that I had to dig deep in the past to even be aware that that’s why I’m not good to myself. I’m my own worst enemy… there’s not one person out there that would be more pleased to see me fail than me. So forgiving myself is my second long term goal…. Figuring out for what will be the journey. emoticon

Back to rewards… see how I go off instead of addressing being good to myself…..


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I keep thinking reward = food. I’ve said I’m not going to do that any more but saying it and NOT doing it are two entirely different things. Could this mind set go as far back as when I was a baby and if I cried I would be fed? To a toddler, when I didn’t cry I’d get a treat? When I skinned a knee I’d be pacified with food?? Good grades = food… Failed a test = eat… Jilted, stuff my face. Turn another year old = cake AND ice cream!!!! emoticon


I’ve had issues with money all my life. Growing up my parents were frugal and I think that’s a wonderful thing, I enjoy frugality too. When I was widowed at 27 with a four year old and an 18 month old the financial crunch was overwhelming. The next five years were tough and when I remarried we blended families… totally enjoying the yours, mine and finally an ours to complete the nest. Not a lot of discretionary money through out those years. But we did have to eat so it makes sense that food = rewards. emoticon = emoticon

Breaking THAT habit will take some time but sounds like it could actually be fun =]

So back to the rewards….

REWARDS: 10 pounds…. emoticon emoticonNew scale (mine sucks, it’s a 20 year old hand-me-down that I have to get on and off of four times and then take the middle number as my weight loss for the day grrrrrrr)

20 pounds…. Get my hair cut emoticon8/25/10 (Took me 20 minutes to come up with this one)Actually got it cut on 9/16/10

30 pounds…. I’ll need some new clothes by then!!! (Easy)

40 pounds…. Take a class in…. to be decided. (I’m most excited about this one)

50 pounds…. An over night trip with my honey!!! (He’s most excited about this one emoticon

Oh, and I reserve the right to come back any time and change the rewards if I think of some thing else I like better… and I promise it won’t be food =]

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KLH1982 7/16/2010 12:37AM

    Good Job Mom!!

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JAKEANDNELLIE 7/15/2010 7:20PM

    Yep - food was a reward when I was growing up, too - and I continued using it for many long years!
You're rewards are great - don't forget things like manicures, pedicures, facials, a music CD you've been wanting, a movie you'd like to see, jot things down as you think of them. If you're like me, the reward list changes as my life changes!
Stay positive,

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1SUNSHINEGIRL 7/15/2010 4:20PM

    Wow...was reading your blog and it really fits my LIFE with the reward=food.

Great job in digging down deep inside and seeing what is/was happening with you. An even better job on setting your goals and rewards...and 'specially reserving the right to change those rewards! Hang in there!

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JINLYNN 7/15/2010 4:06PM

    What great rewards - and some good insights with regards to food & rewards. I can identify with you - how many times have I rewarded myself with food. Too many to count. Best wishes on your journey. Jineane

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Triggers… food vs. people

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

Socrates' guiding rule was, "Know Thyself." I’ve been self actualizing since a psych class I took in college way back in the 60’s. Since joining SP and reading Chris’s introduction to “The Spark” it’s as if my once keen sense of self is transforming from a fuzzy focus to a much clearer vision of what really triggers my emotional eating.

For decades I’ve found myself standing in front of the pantry almost in a fog… looking, looking for something to make me feel better and as my glazed stare would sharpen I’d some times say out loud to myself, “What am I looking for?” Food of course… but why? Had I seen, smelled, thought of food or realized I was hungry? No, I was standing there because I had had some kind of uncomfortable encounter with someone. Not always the same person, never for any particular reason but clearly because I’d been triggered by anxiety of some sort.

I’ve known for a long time that paying the bills always triggers a hot flash… and now that I realize its people that make me want to eat I can use more appropriate responses to deal with the anxiety… like affirmations or exercise or maybe even something naturally sweet like strawberries to take that bitter taste out of my mouth. emoticon

What triggers your over eating?

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JAKEANDNELLIE 7/14/2010 10:12PM

    Triggers - wow - so many! Some I have control of, some I still struggle with.
Being around my older brother very long - reach for the chips and dip - maybe the crunch will drown him out! That's one that's deeply ingrained and will probably always be there - I'll just deal with it!
This time on Spark has been a true learning experience for me and I am thankful for all that I've learned.
Stay positive,

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DANBON 7/13/2010 6:42PM

    Hey,What you said is me all the way.Love that part about the bill paying and hot flashes.My grandkids lived with us for a year because of family problems.They are back home now and things are looking good.I still wake up at night though, feeling anxious .We need to change the things we can change for the good and realize the things we have no control over.I believe there are toxic people that we need to avoid too.Find your peaceful space,protect it from people who would intrude on it,and go there as often as you can! No thyself.Love thyself emoticon

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An excuse is still just an excuse

Friday, July 09, 2010

Even if they are valid an excuse is still just an excuse NOT to do something. If it were something I wanted to do I’d put down or aside whatever got in my way of doing it and be all over it like white on rice. Just look at all the hours I’ve logged in playing Quake and Thief online over the past 10 years.

Short of going door to door I’ve been singing the praises of SP for, well, for all of three weeks now. Not really that very long I know but still…..

The past few weeks have saved my life. Sounds dramatic but it’s absolutely true and I know there are tens of thousands, maybe even hundreds of thousands who are finding, not only, peace with themselves but all the tools one needs for a healthy and happier life style right here on SparkPeople and it’s FREE!!!!!!

I feel like I’ve won the lottery and want to share it with everyone. Perhaps once I’ve walk the walk and talked the talk long enough family and friends will begin to see the new me and ask, “Wow, what’s happened to you?” And then they will listen.

How long did you know about SP before you checked it out and joined? emoticon

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SHORTCAKE48 7/10/2010 10:13PM

  I read about SparkPeople in All You magazine. I logged on, took a look around and was so overwhelmed with all the information that I just got off the site. But something drew me back time and time again. Each time, I spent a little more time looking around and then when I discovered the Spark Pages and started reading some of the inspirational stories I was hooked.

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KERANCE 7/10/2010 6:31PM

    I found Sparkpeople when it was mentioned in a magazine I read called 'Zest'.
It's a UK mag and the artical was litrally a tiny square, no where near the amount it should have been. It said "if you wanthandy free tools to track nutition & fitness go to www.sparkpeople.com"
That one sentance has changed my life and I'm so glad I went for a nosy.
I love the place and the community is the best.
I shout from the hilltops about Sparks but I don't think people understand the greatness of this site.
I have even deleted my Facebook page as Sparks is all I need.
I've been here a year next month and I still love the place as much as when I first found it.

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JAKEANDNELLIE 7/10/2010 10:35AM

    I had cousins visiting from California at the end of September last year. Two of them were Spark members, and kept telling me I should join.
At the time, their words hurt and upset me because I have always been ridiculed about my weight and have always felt embarrassed about the way I looked. (I had to change that sentence - I originally wrote "made to feel embarrassed" but I've come to realize no one MAKES you feel that way - you do it to yourself accepting and agreeing that you should be embarrassed.)
I waited until they'd been gone several days and then checked Spark out. I didn't join that day, but did on November 9.
I thank my cousins for their words now - before, all I heard from their encouragement to join Spark was "you're too fat," and now I know that those words changed my life.

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MARSHASTAR 7/10/2010 10:30AM

    My sister told me about SP a year ago. I finally took her advice and joined in Feb '10.
You are right about the excuses. I know I make excuses to NOT exercise.
Right now I can find a lot of so-called "reasons" to avoid my walk today, but all those "reasons" are just excuses.
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RONNIEHUEY 7/10/2010 4:32AM

    A friend joined and it took a year before I was interested enough to check out the site emoticon

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JOANOFSPARK 7/9/2010 5:43PM

    emoticon emoticon good for you.....

I read about SP in a magazine...I had already been to see a dietitian....so I was already tracking my food, exercise, and blood glucose every day in a journal...so when I read about the site, I just had to check it out and I liked what I saw and have been here around 50 days....and I will continue to stay here because as you said, it was a lifesaver for me. I had gotten to a plateau and I know that if I hadn't discovered SP that I would have given up....maybe not right away but sooner or later, I would have..

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SUNSET09 7/9/2010 5:03PM

  I call some excuses reasons as they are reasons we elect not to do what we should do. I tell friends, family and whoever will listen that you're going to be the same age if you do it, or not do it so age is not a reason (excuse) not to pursue your dream! We all have priorities and what's important to us, we make time to do. Your message has really and will encourage a lot of people to just do it! I"m ready to go and walk my mile for today, thanx! emoticon

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