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Did you hear that??

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Yep, it was my stomach growling and she was saying ďFeeeeeeeeed me, feeeeeeeeeeeed me NOW!!Ē emoticon

I havenít actually heard my tummy growl in a long time. Funny thing is I donít feel crummy like I would while over eating when my blood sugar would take a dive and Iíd get nauseated and blurry eyed. Itís just my tummy telling me itís empty and ainít that a good thing! emoticon

So instead of grabbing a bag of chips or a hunk of cheese I look at the clock and tell myself I can wait until dinner and then I drink some more water emoticon

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RHONDA_11 7/1/2010 3:33PM

    It is funny that I should read this at this time. Just moments ago, I stuck my head in the pantry and then in the fridge thinking oh, I want to snack, but instead I grabbed my water bottle and headed to the computer for some inspiration. Thanks! Rhonda emoticon

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    Now that's true progress! Congratulations!

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JOANOFSPARK 7/1/2010 1:23AM

    Good for you........ emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon and isn't it a great feeling to know that you can wait.......:) you don't have to give in to the old impulses.

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JOANEMALM37 6/30/2010 10:47PM

    Good for you on the water drinking. Isn't it funny how after just a few days of really watching how we eat and what we eat, how much better we feel


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A one week HIGH

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

I joined just a week ago today and every day my Spark has grown a little brighter. emoticon

I feel 100% better already.... physically, emotionally, and mentally.
I've told secrets and then owned them.
I've taken steps I thought were too late to take.
I've asked for help.
I'm more excited than I've been in years.
I am hopeful and see a future.
My blood pressure was 128/61 tonight.
My pulse is 57.
And........ I've lost 4 pounds.

I worked really hard too. Spent more time this week focusing on and using many of the tools available at SP than I have spent on any one thing in a few decades.

In fact, looking back on the week reminds me of all the time I spent when I brought my first baby home.... but this time the baby was ME emoticon

Praise God for prayers answered and thanks to my sweet husband, who said, "Take all the time you need" Like they say "Happy wife, happy life" emoticon

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JOANOFSPARK 6/30/2010 1:49AM

    emoticon emoticon You are doing an awesome job.....and have had a wonderful first week....I love SP and know that I will lose the weight this time and keep it off because the people here are such a fantastic group of caring and supportive people who really do help each other out and motivate and inspire just by being...So will you....:) Glad you are here; you will not regret it...... emoticon emoticon

Watch out......soon your spark will burst into a roaring flame..... emoticon

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JAKEANDNELLIE 6/29/2010 10:01PM

    emoticonYou can feel the happiness vibrating through your words! I am truly thankful that I'm on Spark and know it's what's helping me make progress.
I'm glad you're here, too - and hope you have as great of an experience as I have!

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OMG I threw away some noodles

Sunday, June 27, 2010

A month ago if I had thrown out perfectly good food I would have flogged myself for sure. Last night at the most I whipped myself with a wet noodle because I truly felt better throwing them away instead of finishing them off.

I stood right there in front of the sink and was about to eat the cold leftovers right out of the pan... telling myself there's not nearly enough to save for tomorrow but a tad too much for dinner (having successfully practiced my new portion control) YaY me =]

Back to the sink... Pot in hand with spoon filled noodles headed for my open mouth sure did Spark the memories emoticon

I was raised by depression survivors.. you know those people they call "The Greatest Generation" and in a lot of respects they were. But having heard all my life to clean my plate 'cus there's children starving in Africa and/or if I wanted dessert ALL my food had to be gone........

Well guess what, there's still children starving all over the world and my over eating didn't have a thing to do with it.

I tried real hard not to raise my children the same way.... I left out the part about the starving children but I did bring up dessert more than I should have emoticon

Unfortunately, I did continue to NOT throw any leftovers away... even the ones left on my kids plates. I'd stand at the sink, ready to scrape it into the garbage disposal and finish most of it off. "Waste not, want not" I always say. Very bad mantra for a fat girl.

I became the garbage disposal.... well not any more. That's one bad habit I can break!!

Now I donate, in my grandchildren's name, to Heifer International, who give starving people all over the world animals and food to raise and grow for themselvs and teach them to share with their neighbors. And I plan on cooking less so there is no waste.... "Waist not want not... it's all in how you look at it. emoticon

It's been a challenge after cooking for a family of 6 to cooking for just hubby & I but that's a new habit I plan on honing... and no I haven't had the same problem with my 5 grandkids' plates.... because those little buggers have GERMS!!!!


Good-bye double chin

Sunday, June 27, 2010

Double chin.... hah if I can even call it that emoticon

I've been thinking about a way to chart my progress in the picture section of my Spark page.

I don't have a lot of pictures of myself... I took control of that by being the photographer in the family... thus less pics of me... smart huh!! And current naked pictures of a 300+ pound grandma floating around the internet is hella-scary!!!! Probably why I don't stand around looking at myself in the mirror any longer than I have to or go out in public in a swimsuit any more.

Before and after pics of my clothing won't work... all my pants are streeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetchy.

Even in group pics I'm hiding behind someone... I'm tall you know so I HAVE to stand in the back.

What I have noticed over the years in pictures of myself is that extra fat that's lost the battle with gravity and slipped from my chubby cheeks to my turkey waddle. It became even more obvious to me when my "Jack Sprat" of a husband complained of his double chin in a picture taken at our daughter's wedding this past April.

"Hahahaha," I scoffed out loud, "You wanna see a double chin? Look at this" And I grabbed a hunk of me that I realized everyone can see no matter how few pictures I have taken.

Sooooooooo... I'm gonna try some face shots, front and side that shows my double chin and maybe some day I'll post a picture of me front and center, in a swimsuit, with a huge grin on my double chin-less face =]

June 2007 age 60

December 2008 age 61

June 2010 63rd birthday and Yes, I felt as bad as I looked... and that's why I joined SparkPeople at 326 pounds.

emoticonLet's get this emoticonstarted... I'm sooooooo ready emoticon



Sunday, June 27, 2010

Everyday in every way I'm getting better & better" A mantra I used with my sons when they were little that was truly lovely. I stopped telling myself this years ago because i didn't feel like I was getting better... only fatter and less fit and older... I'd peaked basically and was on the way down but recently I shared it with my oldest granddaughter who needs some inner praise to face her scary world and it sparked a peaceful cord with me as I realized I am getting better and better in everyway... every day!!! So I'm using it again and it is pure magic =]

As I "stop stuffing my face and start facing my stuff" I feel that a Spark is lightening-up my life and showing me the way to a healthier thus happier go at this realm we call "The physical"

Shameful secrets like cockroaches that scurry to hide once that light goes on above my head can only be eliminated if (squashed by the truth) (owned by their keeper) (acknowledged out loud)

P.S. My Spark glowed so brightly today I forgot to eat everything I put on my nutrition tracker so instead of having the Jello I made for dessert I drank my protein drink I usually have for lunch.... oh, and I also realized I had UN-derestimated the amount of water I was drinking. I thought my water glass held 16oz but it actually holds 20+ Woo Hoo I easily reached my 64oz quota this weekend =]


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