You won’t find any before and after pictures here.. yet, because this is just my 3rd week at SP. What you will find is my new appreciation for life and living it fully once again.
I’ve always chaptered my life with the term “before & after” For instance, I generalize about the first 21 years of my life as “before-marriage” then there was that dark period “after my first husband died” that I call “before-Michael” The next 21 year period I call “after-Katy” (who was my fourth child born in my mid thirties) Those were the sweetest of times. Then there was “after-grandchildren” quickly becoming one of my favorite chapters ever!!!
Which brings me to the here and now. A time I really wasn’t expecting to grow and blossom personally. A period in my life I’d heard called the golden years that wasn’t feeling all that golden to me.
I’ve decided this new chapter will forever be called “after-SparkPeople” which will always have liberal references’ to “before-SparkPeople” when I struggled with body issues that lead to poor health.
I know I’ve only been here two weeks but the realizations and changes I’ve made have had a profound effect on my life already. I’m excited and looking forward to this next chapter… so far it looks pretty Golden to me =]
One of the first things I’m tackling since committing to better eating habits is portion control.
I knew I was filling my plate way to full but prided myself in the fact that I NEVER went back for seconds. Truth is I didn’t want to have to get up and go get more because I hurt too much and one trip from the kitchen to my chair in front of the TV was all I could manage; besides my hands were full with hubby’s plate too.
Ah, two plates, and one always had more on it than the other. But did I give that fuller plate to the construction worker who’d been up since 4am? Honestly, every single time I’d hand a plate of food to him the same thought nagged at me. And every single time I’d hand him the plate with less food. This has been going on for years. And because I’ve always been a “good-little-girl” I’d clean that over-filled plate even if I was full.
There I said it out loud. Another cockroach squished!! End of back story, on to portion control.
I’m finding it’s actually easy to use a smaller plate and dish up less food the trick is becoming educated about what your stuffing your face with then keeping track of what you’ve consumed. SP’s Nutrition Tracker has become my bible…. I’ve noticed the first thing you enter after the food item is serving size. Well, I’m getting schooled on that and have had a number of “Ah ha” moments in the process. For instance a banana is considered two servings… half a dill pickle spear = 2 servings… a box of cook and serve Jell-O pudding with three cups milk serves SIX!!!! Are you kidding me??? OMG I’ve been eating for three, some times four…. its no wonder I have a weight problem.
Portion control is a huge part of any program and yes, less does = less but until you face those devilish details it’s easy to over eat. On a high note I’m finding a less shameful little girl under all this fat whose learning that single portions are satisfying and I don’t have to reward myself with dessert.
Pfffft…. rewarding myself with dessert for what? Over eating?? Now who would do a thing like that???
Yep, it was my stomach growling and she was saying “Feeeeeeeeed me, feeeeeeeeeeeed me NOW!!”
I haven’t actually heard my tummy growl in a long time. Funny thing is I don’t feel crummy like I would while over eating when my blood sugar would take a dive and I’d get nauseated and blurry eyed. It’s just my tummy telling me it’s empty and ain’t that a good thing!
So instead of grabbing a bag of chips or a hunk of cheese I look at the clock and tell myself I can wait until dinner and then I drink some more water
I joined just a week ago today and every day my Spark has grown a little brighter.
I feel 100% better already.... physically, emotionally, and mentally.
I've told secrets and then owned them.
I've taken steps I thought were too late to take.
I've asked for help.
I'm more excited than I've been in years.
I am hopeful and see a future.
My blood pressure was 128/61 tonight.
My pulse is 57.
And........ I've lost 4 pounds.
I worked really hard too. Spent more time this week focusing on and using many of the tools available at SP than I have spent on any one thing in a few decades.
In fact, looking back on the week reminds me of all the time I spent when I brought my first baby home.... but this time the baby was ME
Praise God for prayers answered and thanks to my sweet husband, who said, "Take all the time you need" Like they say "Happy wife, happy life"
A month ago if I had thrown out perfectly good food I would have flogged myself for sure. Last night at the most I whipped myself with a wet noodle because I truly felt better throwing them away instead of finishing them off.
I stood right there in front of the sink and was about to eat the cold leftovers right out of the pan... telling myself there's not nearly enough to save for tomorrow but a tad too much for dinner (having successfully practiced my new portion control) YaY me =]
Back to the sink... Pot in hand with spoon filled noodles headed for my open mouth sure did Spark the memories
I was raised by depression survivors.. you know those people they call "The Greatest Generation" and in a lot of respects they were. But having heard all my life to clean my plate 'cus there's children starving in Africa and/or if I wanted dessert ALL my food had to be gone........
Well guess what, there's still children starving all over the world and my over eating didn't have a thing to do with it.
I tried real hard not to raise my children the same way.... I left out the part about the starving children but I did bring up dessert more than I should have
Unfortunately, I did continue to NOT throw any leftovers away... even the ones left on my kids plates. I'd stand at the sink, ready to scrape it into the garbage disposal and finish most of it off. "Waste not, want not" I always say. Very bad mantra for a fat girl.
I became the garbage disposal.... well not any more. That's one bad habit I can break!!
Now I donate, in my grandchildren's name, to Heifer International, who give starving people all over the world animals and food to raise and grow for themselvs and teach them to share with their neighbors. And I plan on cooking less so there is no waste.... "Waist not want not... it's all in how you look at it.
It's been a challenge after cooking for a family of 6 to cooking for just hubby & I but that's a new habit I plan on honing... and no I haven't had the same problem with my 5 grandkids' plates.... because those little buggers have GERMS!!!!