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Loving myself more than food…

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

And boy has it been a lovely romance!!!!

“Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.”



How sweet is that!!?? Never in a million years did I expect to fall in love with ME this year.



My weight loss journey has introduced me to someone worth loving. Someone my family already knew. I couldn’t understand how my husband could possibly love me… so I didn’t believe him. I never understood why my children never bought into my self deprecation or why my grandchildren didn’t notice how much weight I have lost this year.

Then I realized they saw me for what I really am… not the exterior I’d wrapped in a hundred pounds of self protection. Only I heard the inner voice that told me I was not worthy to be loved. I’m still not sure where that voice came from and it really doesn’t matter any more because I’ve learned to take responsibility for every thing I do. And do it for me.



I can either continue to make progress, or make excuses.

So I’m calling BS on all the excuses that cast shadows on my journey and embracing the reality that when I am anxious it is because I am living in the future. And when I am depressed it is because I am living in the past. What a waste of precious time… the present is all we have… today… and today I’m loving myself more than food and living the charmed life I always dreamed of. No more living in twilight. I’m no longer living in a dream and walking in between the sunrise and sunset…

www.youtube.com/watch?v=J6biXEjQ_Wg

Join me Sparkfriends. You’ve been lead here…. now drink deeply and start living the rest of your life as you would want those you love to live.



Are you making progress, or making excuses??

  
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AMARILYNH 8/22/2011 3:27PM

    This is SOOOOOO true: "Then I realized they saw me for what I really am… not the exterior I’d wrapped in a hundred pounds of self protection."

If only we can all believe it we can begin to love ourselves and make the changes we need to make!! Great blog!!

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BETHV10 8/12/2011 9:10AM

    Thanks for this blog! I need to love myself more than food. I have had way too many excuses lately. Beth emoticon

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HARRINGTON5 8/5/2011 6:31PM

    OMG! So well said! These are words to live by and I want to follow along.

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SUEJENN 8/4/2011 8:58PM

    A shift in paradigm even a little one accounts for big changes down the road. Thanks for stopping by my blog.

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KSNANA2 7/23/2011 6:35PM

    Wonderful things to think on.

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DUSTYPRAIRIE 7/23/2011 8:51AM

    Great blog! One I'll be thinking about throughout the day.

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OCTOBER2842 7/22/2011 10:34PM

    Nice blog

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COMPUCATHY 7/22/2011 8:54AM

    Progress for me...no more excuses! TGIF! And thanks for your encouragement! I hope you've had a great week and have a great weekend ahead! Keep up the good work! Spark on! emoticon

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 7/21/2011 11:10PM

    I love your blog - wow!! I'm going to use that phrase to remind myself what to do - hope you don't mind!!



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MEEBELO 7/21/2011 12:24PM

    This is a BEAUTIFUL blog. Thanks for sharing! emoticon

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TORTILLAFLATS 7/21/2011 11:56AM

    Linda, thanks for sharing from you heart. I need to grasp onto those words especially about living in the present.

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HAPPYSOUL91 7/21/2011 10:48AM

    excellent and get right in your face thoughts

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GRUBBMEISTER 7/21/2011 9:41AM

  Linda.. you spoke straight from my heart..great blog..

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NARNIAROSE2003 7/21/2011 9:39AM

    Wow... just WOW. You are where I so want to be. Thank you for letting me see that I CAN get there! No more excuses!

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WOMANCHEF 7/21/2011 7:23AM

    What a great blog! You really speak the truth. Thank you for sharing and reminding us of this.

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JILL313 7/21/2011 1:31AM

    Linda, You are such a beautiful person thin or otherwise and your family and friends love you no matter what your size. . .I just love your honesty and can relate to a lot of what you are saying. I have a very hard time forgiving myself for my many past mistakes even though I try to move forward as they can't be changed. I certainly need to live more in the present as it's reality now for me. . .You've come a long way in your WL and are living a healthy life--WTG!! I really do admire you and know you will continue to have great success and reach your goals.

Love,

Jill

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SUNNY2010 7/21/2011 12:06AM

    Linda, I look forward to your blogs always! Your mind is so beautiful, and your heart is so big!
It's a very inspiring blog!
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GMO_JEN 7/20/2011 11:49PM

    This is a wonderful blog, and so true! Thank you!

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TUBLADY 7/20/2011 11:20PM

    Linda this is a great blog. So truthful.
We can always find excuses, to some people it makes it easier to live each day. Much easier than facing the truth.
I am glad you came to this realization for yourself.
You know I am living in the present. Have hopes for the future, but today is all we really have.
So accept that the past is over, we can't change it, but we can stop from repeating our errors and mistakes.
So enjoy your new found freedom and love.
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KAYTIE22 7/20/2011 11:11PM

    This is a wonderful blog. You have much to say here that is so true. I'm glad you have discovered this for yourself.

I really needed to read this now and it came at the perfect time. Thank you so much.



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MISSY455 7/20/2011 10:04PM

    What an awesome blog! Thank you for sharing! No excuses, just progress!

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JOANNS4 7/20/2011 9:45PM

    A great blog. thank you my dear friend.
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GRANPATTIE 7/20/2011 9:15PM

    Linda, I have to say here that I agree with my big sister. This was outstanding. But I've grown to expect nothing less from you. Your blogs are all truly meaningful to me.

Thanks for writing this one!
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MADKAPKID 7/20/2011 8:40PM

    Linda ...my friend. This is an OUTSTANDING blog! It gave me lots to think about.....you , my friend...are amazing. Thank you for sharing.....have a joy filled day, Karen emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ESILBO 7/20/2011 6:53PM

    JUST GREAT...THANK YOU...

LISE

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ERLYWA 7/20/2011 5:55PM

    Incredible blog!!! You are simply amazing, Linda. I loooove this!!
Erika

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IOWAGRAMMA 7/20/2011 5:46PM

    Linda, very powerful blog! Thank you for sharing your insights! Jeannie

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DIY Challenge Assignment 3, 7/9-7/10

Sunday, July 10, 2011

1. How many fitness minutes did you rack up in Assignment 2?

Tuesday... 60, Wednesday...60, Thursday... rest day 0, Friday, 30… total emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon = 150 minutes emoticon

2. If you picked a day to add up how many calories you drank... what was the total? If you didn't count, do it on one day this weekend. Just the calories you drink.

I generally only drink water but occasionally I have a glass of wine with dinner or an 8oz glass of Naked Green Machine Juice for a snack = 140 calories. A few days a week I have a 30 gram protein shake 160 calories… every day I do have two cups of coffee with 2% milk and sugar at 99 calories. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

3. This weekend, you either have to make and take a picture of two beautiful healthy meals you create, and upload the pic to Sparkpeople...


Started in our freggie garden for Saturday nights dinner.


Created this emoticon471 calories, 41 carbs, 17 fat, 35 protein, 260 sodium. emoticon

Baked Wild Alaskan Marinated Sockeye Salmon
Tomatoes
Grilled pineapple rings
Grilled onions
Red potatoes w/scallions
Green beans
Grilled green peppers
Wine


Sunday morning breakfast….433 calories, 73 carbs, 13 fat, 13 protein, 293 sodium. emoticon

Whole wheat toast with 1 tablespoon creamy peanut butter and smiley prune face emoticon what an oxymoron!!!! Seven fresh fruits cup with strawberries from our freggie garden and 2 cups coffee with 2% milk and sugar.

4. Get in a workout this weekend that totally screams YEAH IM STILL ON BOARD! SEE! IM STILL FIGHTING!

Going to a wedding this afternoon and plan to dance my ass off emoticon emoticon emoticon

  
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ESILBO 7/13/2011 9:31PM

    GREAT IDEAS LINDA...YOU ROCK

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ENCY23 7/12/2011 8:03AM

    LOVE your food pics! The salmon plate looks absolutely gorgeous! Not to mention DELICIOUS! I love salmon! Hope you had a great time at the wedding! :)


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MARSHASTAR 7/11/2011 11:08AM

    You are so creative. That bread is so cute! ..SO ,,, you DO play with your food..
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SUSIEPH1 7/11/2011 12:28AM

    How delightfully pretty your plates of food are ..
My hubby laughs at my rainbow plates... but they are doing the job!
I have never eaten so well in my life!
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MADKAPKID 7/10/2011 10:11PM

    LInda you are doing really well. Your photos look awesome. You are getting in those "'FREGGIES" and exercise. I love grilling the food....yummo! I smile when I see the happy face toast...how cuteis that. That fruit salad looks like it has MY name on it. Wish I had been with you to eat it,. Have a joy filled day, Karen emoticon emoticon

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 7/10/2011 8:23PM

    Yum - love the salmon dinner! So, um, maybe you could call me before you're fixing it the next time so I can come over to join you? Haha! Guess I could just fix it for myself [duh!]

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GRANPATTIE 7/10/2011 8:22PM

    I want to come to your house and eat dinner!!! That meal looks and sounds wonderful!!! You are so good at this spark stuff, and the challenges.

Keep up the spectacular job you're doing,
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KSNANA2 7/10/2011 7:12PM

    Those look and sound like delicious meals! Beautiful! emoticon

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JILL313 7/10/2011 6:09PM

    You are doing so well. . .Exercising and eating healthy. It's great that your eating fresh veggies right out of your garden. Enjoy and groove to the music today. You Rock, Linda!!

Hugs,

Jill

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KAYTIE22 7/10/2011 5:56PM

    Great blog and the meals look so healthy and yummy! Thanks for sharing.

Have a great week!

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FITFOODIE806 7/10/2011 5:01PM

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the pics are great. I want your garden!

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MY Declaration of Independence….

Friday, July 01, 2011

We’ve all heard it and probably even have said it from time to time…

I am my own worst enemy. Well I WAS!!!! For a long time. Lot’s of self deprecation going on inside my head that would often slip out verbally and take even me by surprise. I really wasn’t very nice to myself in a lot of ways.



A year ago I decided to become my number 1 priority and I started taking the time to concentrate on ME. The results were astounding… low and behold, everyone whom I had devoted my entire life too in the past began to benefit as well. Not something I had expected. Another one of those win~win situation. emoticon

And as a result I’m now my biggest fan…. My own best friend… A true believer in Linda.



I’ve come a long way in just a year. This June I celebrated my one year Sparkversary, turned 64, reached my 60 pound loss, was voted Spark Motivator, named member of the month on the "Over 60 with 100 to 200 pounds to Lose" team... thanks again ladies. But it was also the first month with my least weight loss. I felt stuck. Still tethered to the past. Not completely liberated. Something was still holding me back from feeling whole, complete, satisfied.



When Yoovie asked; What was the best way to motivate me? I answered…. “Notice my progress and praise me when I make good choices. Yeah, like a ‘lil puppy dog… sad huh!!”

My answer made me think how much my self worth is still wrapped up in what others think of me… I am still giving other people all the power to make me feel either good or bad about myself. At 64 years old you’d think I’d be my own woman by now. Pfffttttt… I guess I’ll stop learning when I die. In the mean time I’ve decided….

I want that power. I want ALL the power over Me….



So, Today I start the final break from that constant childish need of acknowledgement and appreciation from others. I MUST evolve or die.



My Declaration of Independence is from the need of approval from others. I believe once this occurs I will find the unconditional self love I seek to break free and move on to the next realization… whatever that may be. Oh, I’m sooooooooo ready!!!!

BRING IT Summer of 2011, I’m ready to sizzle my way to looking as HOT on the outside as I feel on the inside.


June 22, 2011... my 64th birthday with my sweetest cheer leader always at my side emoticonHe calls me skinny now emoticon

  
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RELAXYOURBACK 7/8/2011 9:43AM

    Wow. Cool! Looking forward to watching you do YOU! I hope your DIY challenge sizzles! :)

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STALEYK 7/7/2011 6:23AM

    How Wonderful - thanks for sharing this with us

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OCTOBER2842 7/7/2011 6:07AM

    A great blog, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY a little late

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PATTILYNN224 7/5/2011 1:52PM

    I love your blog and your picture!! Good Advice. Thank you beautiful lady!!
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MFABER3 7/3/2011 2:36PM

    Linda, what wonderful words of wisdom to share. I can so appreciate where you are coming from and where you have been. Keep up the good work & be free!

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TUBLADY 7/3/2011 3:00AM

    Linda I loved your blog. So thoughtful .
I does make me think that I too used too seek approval of others.
I still like recognition but that's different from approval.
Acknowledgement of a job well done or a complement is nice, and appreciated, but I don't live for those approvals.
Welcome to independence.
Loved the picture of you and hubby.
And yes you are skinny, more so than before, A work in progress.
Have a happy holiday.
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JILL313 7/2/2011 6:29PM

    Hi Linda, I certainly, like so many others, relate to your thought provoking blog and I still care what others think but more what I think of myself!! I grew up a people pleaser who never said no to anyone and really didn't like myself much. Now, that I'm older and hopefully wiser I'm more concerned what I think about myself. . .It shouldn't be so hard but it certainly is maybe because I'm been single for so many years. . .and my ex hardly ever supported me or gave me much approval. Great blog!

Hugs,

Jill

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FRANCO1230 7/2/2011 4:00PM

    Thanks for sharing...this is something I need to work on, too.
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HAPPYSOUL91 7/2/2011 11:36AM

    Excellent insight and thx for sharing it with me

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GRAMLORI 7/2/2011 10:16AM

    You ROCK!!!! Many congrats on all your accomplishments, as well as realizing that you've got to love yourself! What a wonderful picture, too. You are beautiful, and your happiness is evident in your face. His too. That's one you should have framed!!!

And a late Happy birthday as well!!

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IOWAGRAMMA 7/2/2011 9:25AM

    Love your thoughts about your need for recognition and approval from others...I can easily identify with them. What a great idea to declare your independence--and at just the right time. Let's all work on this together!! We'll be stronger in union than trying to do it all on our own. Thanks so much. Jeannie

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PIXIEMOM13 7/1/2011 10:47PM

    Hi Linda!

I'm taking part in the DIY challenge and I had to check out your declaration. And all I can say is I indentify with a LOT that you had to say!

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MADKAPKID 7/1/2011 9:11PM

    Linda, my friend...YOUR blog is really AWESOME! ( the gun picture that first caught my eye, kind of scared me....Tee hee hee but grabbed my attention...that is for sure.)

As usual your blog is very well thought out and written. AND...the words and incite you shared is something that IS like MY very own thoughts. While I think it is good and helpful to receive warm fuzzies from our friends and supporters. What we need most is to appreciate OURSELVES a little more....accept what we are doing and work to reach our goals the best way we can.

You are an awesome sparks representative to me. Motivating and inspiring. I am blessed to call you friend. And "SKINNY", I love the picture of you and your husband. Have a joy filled day.....Karen emoticon

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GRANPATTIE 7/1/2011 9:07PM

    Linda, I think we have this not so little thing in common. You, me and an army full of women, probably. When I was married, I did OK, and even thought I was over all my past silliness. Then he died, and there it all was again. When I had no cheerleader, I relied on what everyone else though. NOT a good way to live. I think I'll join you in trying to kick it to the curb this summer. We can be Warrior Women for Independence!!!

(And I haven't forgotten you...I just tend to procrastinate. It'll come)

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KSNANA2 7/1/2011 9:01PM

    Life is a journey. And hopefully we learn and improve as we go. You are making some major steps in the right direction. I think I need approval from others. Say a few flattering words and I will do just about anything for someone. But I am just as easily crushed. I have gotten better with age though, but still have a ways to go.

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BETHV10 7/1/2011 8:50PM

    You are sooo right. Worrying about others opinions really is something we don't need. If we are fine, then that should be all we need. I'm still learning to treat myself better as well instead of always putting myself down when I'm not perfect.

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A Perfect Circle…

Tuesday, June 21, 2011



Today I celebrate my One Year SparkVersary…. tomorrow my 64th trip around the sun!!!! The past 365 days completes the “Perfect Circle” on my quest to a healthy lifestyle. A journey I started at my highest weight, broken, in pain and yearning for a life worth living.



Me at my 63rd birthday party weighing 326 pounds… yes, I was as miserable as I looked. On June 22, 2010, when I blew out the candles on my cake, I wished for less… less pain, less regrets, less of me to love… yep, I wished for less instead of more and my prayers were answered when I decided that day to make a New Year’s Resolution.



So I joined SparkPeople and quickly learned….



…. and the self intervention began!!



I took advantage of every tool available on SparkPeople and armed myself with all the latest knowledge about nutrition and exercise. I surrounded myself with thousands of other people just like me that were on the same adventure realizing that….



But the results were measurable in just a few weeks because,



I looked at the 756 months that I had already lived, mostly for others, and dedicated the next twelve months to me. June 2010-June 2011, became My Year and now I can say that I am no longer addicted to food. I’m actually “Eating to live, not living to eat.” I know for a fact that “Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going.” So start small with a couple streaks in mind like drinking 8 glasses of water a day and eating 5 freggies, you can do it and YOU won’t be sorry that you did. Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't I give myself reasons why I can by exercising BEFORE I Spark. I’ve learned to love myself unconditionally because “Everyday in everyway I AM getting better and better,” as my weight is just a number and the scale is no longer the only way I measure improvement. I know I can do whatever it takes to lighten up my life regardless of my abilities or age, thanks to all my SparkFriends who candidly share their disappointments and triumphs while blogging. I have as much time as it takes to cross any finish line I choose because life is a marathon not a sprint. Healthy living is a way of life as I continue to love myself more than food.



It may have taken me 52 weeks but SparkPeople has instilled in me the difference between portion control and dieting, the value of exercising for strength and stamina. And that nothing tastes as good as healthy feels!!!!



60 pounds thinner and light years happier. I’m so proud to display the One Year SparkVersary logo on my page. And I owe it to two simple words I use every day… NEVER QUIT.



My birthday wish has more than come true. I’m so very happy and in better shape than I have been in years. It’s no doubt that SparkPeople works if YOU work it… there’s just one little side effect I had not anticipated, when joining, and that’s all the wonderful people I have come to love and respect… the virtual icing on the cake. They remind me that, there really is no “I” in team but there can be no team unless I participate. My SparkPackage included a lot of emotional healing… and group hugs are a very important part of the healing process.



I plan on Spreading the Spark for another year and posting many more before and after pictures so let's get this emoticonstarted emoticonToday is emoticon

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PATRIZIA67 8/1/2011 12:39PM

  Congratulation
You have done an amazing Jon. You must feel so great.
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ACIMPEGGY 7/19/2011 11:15PM

    Wonderful, honey! How did I miss this?!

Just had my first in April; will be 65 the first of next month.

You've lost a bit more, but we'll both get there.... emoticon

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BABYINBOO 6/26/2011 2:39AM

    Thank you, and congrats on your spark-versary! Never give up! emoticon emoticon

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KESTRIE 6/22/2011 11:34AM

    Happy birthday! and Happy Spark Re-birthday!! Congrats on the 60 pounds!! WooHoo!!!!

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RORYLYONS 6/22/2011 1:55AM

    You are such an inspiration..What a beautiful way to share your amazing year..I'm so proud of you..Give you a big hug... emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MEEBELO 6/22/2011 12:50AM

    Your journey to health is inspiring and know that because of your bright spirit, your spark buddies CHOOSE to walk with you. You're awesome!

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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 6/21/2011 9:52PM

    What a great blog - I love it!!! And HAPPY SPARKVERSARY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

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JOANNS4 6/21/2011 7:52PM

    How far you have come in a year. I'm so happy to know you. I am so proud of you. Happy 1st anniversary. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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GRAMLORI 6/21/2011 5:15PM

    WOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!>
What an OUTSTANDING blog and and OUTSTANDING person you are!!!

CONGRATULATIONS, AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY a little late!!!

THREE CHEERS FOR YOU!!!
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KSNANA2 6/21/2011 2:54PM

    Congratulations on your successful year with SP. Reading about your year has made me feel like I have been to a pep rally. I want to jump up and get cracking on my exercise plan and get that kitchen pantry organised and those healthy meals ready to go! I too am going to have a successful year! Love reading your blogs! emoticon emoticon

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JINLYNN 6/21/2011 1:41PM

    What a wonderful inspiring story. Thanks so much for sharing your journey and for all the support and encouragement you give to me and others.
Congratulations on your one year spark anniversary and the 60 lb weight loss!
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HAPPYSOUL91 6/21/2011 12:59PM

    What a great year and look how much you have learned. .... congratulations

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JILL313 6/21/2011 11:56AM

    Linda, You've had an amazing year and has made me know I need to use tough love on myself more in regards to eating healthier. I've started to exercise, finally, 30-50 minutes a day but need to eat more freggies and less processed foods. I really admire you for having the determination to get healthier and happier--and I want that for myself to. Just looking at how happy and beautiful you are in your picture motivates me to get serious about this healthy journey as no one can do it for me but me! Great Blog, thank you.

Hugs,

Jill

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LINDAKAY228 6/21/2011 11:23AM

    Great blog! Congratulations on your first sparkversary and the changes in your life over the past year!

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JAKEANDNELLIE 6/21/2011 10:27AM

    Your story is an inspiration to us all!
Congratulations!
Always keep your Spark!
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GRANPATTIE 6/21/2011 10:21AM

    Happy Sparkaversary! Congratulations on your success to date! Linda, you are a true inspiration to me. You've done this so much better than I have. My plan is to get with it again. It was to start yesterday by going to the pool again. Then I fell instead and am very sore today. When the pain eases...I'm going to the pool! Hopefully that will only be another day or two. Your blog has bolstered me again in what I need to do.

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MRSJERRYBUSH 6/21/2011 9:30AM

    Wow! What a difference a year makes! You have a real gift for blogging and inspiring others. You go, girl!

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MADKAPKID 6/21/2011 9:02AM

    I love your blog...and YOU know I love you! We are those kindred sisters. I am proud of you and what you have done in your sparks year. Can't wait to see what you do by the end of year two. YOU really have done well and come a long way! I think we all need to have one of those NEVER QUIT bracelets. I know I would love one. LOL Have a joy filled day....KEEP SPARKING...KEEP SMILING....KEEP BEING YOU! Karen emoticon

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IOWAGRAMMA 6/21/2011 9:00AM

    Congratulations!! You've done an amazing job and I wish you much success in the journey ahead. You have certainly learned all the tools needed to get there. So happy for you. Jeannie
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YIGOBUTTERFLY 6/21/2011 8:25AM

    Go Speedy, go! Good for you!

Loved your blog!

Jane on Guam

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ACIMPEGGY 6/21/2011 8:10AM

    Sweet friend, this brought tears to my eyes! You lost 10 or so more than I did my first year. It feels wonderful! Bet you've noticed some of the same changes I have.

We're still going strong, gf! We will get there yet...tracking helps me enormously.

I am so glad we discovered Spark People!

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JECKIE 6/21/2011 8:07AM

    Awesome! Happy Sparkversary! You look fantastic - and I love the hat! :)

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STARTINGATSIXTY 6/21/2011 6:40AM

    Happy SparkVersary. I love your blog. Beautifully done! What a journey you are on. emoticon Spark is a wonderful site and yes, like you, I feel the icing on the cake are all the wonderful friends here. Thank you for sharing your journey with us. I am leaving your page feeling I too can make the journey...with a little help from my friends. emoticon

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My Dad....

Sunday, June 19, 2011




William Mortimer West
January 15, 1927 ~ December 24, 2007

This collection of memories about my dad, Bill West, has been loving put together as a keepsake for my mother…. his bride of 61 years.

Through My Fathers’ Eyes….

As you read these tear stained pages, soon to be wedded with your own, our hope is that you know, Mother, how very much daddy, grandpa, Pop-Pop & Uncle Bill was and will always be loved by family and friends whom he touched and inspired every day of his 80+ years. From hero to father-figure to surrogate “big-brother” you will find, while reading these precious memoirs, a theme that’s woven itself from the earliest recollections through his very final days. Each holds examples of his infamous humor, unconditional love, inspiration and support. Some memories we share will surprise and delight you; some will tug at your heart and make you yearn to be together again.

He was a serious self taught man with wisdom that came from years of experience and yet he was silly, and fun. Yes, he could irritate the hell out of you too but only for a little while because you’ve come too realized just how far that 18 year old boy had come since you first met.

As a family we’ve all been appreciative that you both found each other and worked so hard to make a life together raising two sons and a daughter who in turn have had the great pleasure of giving back through the addition of grandchildren and great-grandchildren who will always honor and respect the wonderful parents you both strived to be.

John and Tom and I have looked through our father’s eyes at a world that he taught us to respect by just the way he lived. An honest businessman with integrity who delighted in what he did because he wanted to be constructive, not destructive. Dad was a proud patriarch who shared in the joy of all the successes of his family and their offspring’s. With his simple dedication to his vegetable and fruit gardens… he taught us to be lovers of things living and growing. His perseverance to take care of what he owned instead of just replacing it when it wore out was a lesson well learned and much appreciated. His silliness made every effort to lighten and entertain even the glummest of strangers and lives still through the laughter and humor we will always share as a family.

Dad had a wonderful sense of being able to spark your imagination and did so with many inventive family projects like “SWRD” and the group Lotto program he spearheaded. His thirst for knowledge wetted my appetite as well as his love of classical music and of course, his creativity…. from the first “Do-nothing” he built for me to the final boat he created for his great-granddaughter Stella and all the clever creations in-between.

I watched as dad’s gentleness grew through the years of joy and sorrow you both shared. I was able to strengthen my spiritual beliefs as we shared our perspective of life and death across Tom’s bed. I was often reminded how lucky a child I was to have him for a father as I watched his love of the grandchildren give him another chance to be the dad he may have wanted to be when we were growing up but didn’t have the time or patience for because he was working so hard to be a provider leaving you, mom, to be the nurturer and cheering squad for us kids. I watched him gently welcome dozens of cats who had no where else to go. And I remember the families he graciously invited into your home, giving them respite on their rough journeys. We all continue to benefit from dad’s willingness to share his business and knowledge with Michael and me. I’m especially thankful and privileged to have been present while Dad continued to evolve into a man of patience and support who portrayed a great strength through Tom’s illness and ultimate passing.

What a blessing to have watched my father fall deeper in love with my mother these last several years. Growing into a man who was unconditionally supportive as they both struggled to be excepting and strong through their trials and tribulations together…. truly a role model to all who had the pleasure of knowing him. What better legacy could he have wanted than to be a true hero to so many?

Mom, you knew dad best…. all his faults… all his triumphs. You will surely miss him the most, as it should be. Just know that we will remember and honor his life as he continues to live in all of us for we are so blessed to continue to look at life through our father’s eyes.

With love and appreciation your daughter…

“Keep a memory of me not as a King or as a hero,
But as a man fallible and flawed.” ~A quote from “Beowulf”

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PATTILYNN224 7/5/2011 2:00PM

    Oh Linda, what a wonderful tribute to your dad. You have been much blessed to have him as a father. You are a wonderful daughter and the love you have spills out on the pages in your writing. It puts me to thinking about my dad and all that he is to me. Thank you for sharing.

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MEEBELO 6/22/2011 12:49AM

    Wha a wonderful tribute!

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LINOVER 6/20/2011 9:11PM

    This is a lovely and touching tribute to your dad! A wonderful gift for your mother!

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JOANNS4 6/20/2011 2:15PM

    What a nice tribute to your dad. Thank you for sharing a part of your life and heart with us.

Jo Ann


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PAWKETS 6/20/2011 10:51AM

    A beautiful tribute to your dad
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LYNDALOVES2HIKE 6/20/2011 8:12AM

    What a sweet tribute to your dad - I really enjoyed reading it!! This was my first father's day since my dad passed away and I wrote my own blog about memories of him. It's not the same as having him around but somehow it seemed to help me feel closer to him and after reading your words, I feel closer to you and your dad as well.

Have a great week!

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MADKAPKID 6/20/2011 12:41AM

    Linda you are such a lovely tender hearted friend. YOU are a blessing. YOU are also a gifter writer. This blog is such a truely wonderful tribute to your father. Your father and mother and love. Thank you for sharing this with us. It is very very touching. Have a joy filled day, Karen emoticon

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FRANCO1230 6/20/2011 12:39AM

    Absolutely beautiful! Thanks for sharing him with us.

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KAYTIE22 6/19/2011 10:58PM

    What a beautiful tribute to your father and what a caring and loving family. I know you can look back at the times you shared together with lots of smiles. Thanks for sharing these special moments with all of us.

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GRANPATTIE 6/19/2011 8:17PM

    Linda, this is an unbelievably beautiful tribute to your dad. I'm sure your mother's tear ducts were working overtime, and her heart was filled with love, pride and longing. It's not hard to tell that you had two wonderful parents. Their parenting skills shine very brightly through the person you've become! I'm grateful we're friends. You're one of my blessings.

Always count your blessings,
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JILL313 6/19/2011 7:58PM

    This is such a wonderful tribute to your Dear Dad and how much he means to your Mom, you, your brother & all your GG & GGK. . .It is beautiful and touching and brought back memories of my Dear Dad and Mom. You are so fortunate to have had such a caring Dad who loved you very much and grew in patience and love the longer he lived. I hope your are celebrating Father's Day with your DH and family!

Hugs,

Jill

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7PASTORMIKE7 6/19/2011 3:53PM

    Thank you dear sister for sharing your precious dad with us !

God bless you
Pastor Mike

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YIGOBUTTERFLY 6/19/2011 3:25PM

    Thanks Speedy! What a tribute to your dad!

Jane on Guam

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