Saturday, May 15, 2010
This morning was my first 5 mile run in my half marathon training. As my alarm went off at 7 I proceeded to hit snooze for an hour and half; each five minutes buying me time in which I didn't have to go hit the trail. My anxiety about running that far kept growing with each alarm. My fears did have some basis. Last time I tried to run this far (about 4 years ago) I was a limping, blistered, tendinitis pained mess by the end. Reluctantly I managed to get myself out the door by 9 and off I went.
As I was running along thinking about other things to ignore the fact that I was doing this to myself I suddenly realized that I was almost done. Not only was I almost done but I was running fast. I felt like a machine running along- not tired, not winded, no blistering, tendonitis, or limping. I finished a full 10 minutes faster than I had anticipated and felt great!
This whole thing got me thinking about others things that we feel scared of (ie- losing weight, school, new jobs, trying something totally new etc). The fear is almost always worse than the actual event. Sometimes we just need to put on our shoes, get out the door and get going. In the process you might actually find yourself excelling at the very thing that frightened you.
Sometimes weight loss is a frightening experience. We all want it so badly but are afraid of failing in the process. For me at least each time I gain or don't lose at much as I think I should I feel like I did when trying to run those 5 miles 4 years ago- beat up and disappointed. But just because we have a set back once doesn't mean that it will happen again and that we should just stop trying to lose weight altogether. We need to just get up and keep going. Perhaps the next time we will be weight loss machines. Perhaps weight loss is like trying to train for a half marathon. We need to use our weight loss plan just like a training schedule. We just need to trust the training schedule and keep going and we will be amazed at where we find ourselves at the end.