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Finally sugar free!

Sunday, March 25, 2012

I never thought I could say this again but I am finally free from my sugar addiction. Last Sunday I had a bad cold and didn't even leave the house. I ached from head to toe and knew a great deal of my feeling so lousy lately had been just because I was living almost on sugar. I was getting embarrassed by telling people I was on a diet and then pigging out on junk and gaining weight. So, I decided it was time to get it together. I ate only 1 tablespoon of sugar on Sunday and Monday. Cut down to 1/2 Tbsp the rest of the week. I went and bought a bag of Splenda and told myself that when the sugar bowl was empty, there would be no more sugar in this house. I ran out of my last 1/2 Tbsp yesterday. The great thing is I don't even miss the sugar! I used a small amount of splenda this morning in my coffee and a small amount in my iced tea this afternoon.
We always have bagels and donuts at church on Sunday mornings. I have never had the will power to not give in. Today I took a banana and my yogurt and didn't even want any of the sugary stuff. Actually, just the smell of it almost made me sick. A couple people teased me and tried to get me to cave in but I didn't. Boy were they shockied!
I am feeling so much better. By Wednesday my joints were feeling better and I even went for a 2.5 mile walk this week. Two weeks ago it hurt just to do what I had to at work. Yesterday I cleaned out my storage shed which was a mess and today I raked up 15 bags of leaves.
The last check on Friday I was down almost 3 pounds already. Just cutting out sugar and the bad foods. I only went over calories one day this week and I believe that was Sunday. I finally realized it was a horrible circle and until I decided enough was enough, it was just going to get worse. I truly seeing myself at my goal weight by August and seeing me as the "hot" preacher lady when I do the big wedding on the 18th em>334.gif" alt="emoticon" width="42" height="42" border="0"> emoticon.
Oh, one other crazy awesome thing that happened this week was that as a Life Enrichment Coordinator in a retirement community, I have to plan and implement the fun, crazy activities. We decided to have a jelly bean guessing contest. My assistant and I counted out over 4500 jelly beans. I didn't eat one! We also had to stuff easter eggs with candy, which set on my desk in large quantitiesw ALL DAY. I didn't even eat one, or really even want one. That not only shocked me, it shocked everyone I work with, as they all come to me when they want candy because I always have a basket full for residents when they stop by. I have moved the candy basket out of my office just to be on the safe side though. emoticon
I have written a book but just wanted to show how serious I really am this time. I can and I will prove that I can do anything I set my mind to and that I am a winner!


I just can't find the motivation

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

I don't want this to sound like a poor me thing. Bottom line is that I'm not motivated and can't seem to get the motivation I need. I was so excited to join the weight loss group at work when I first started there. Unfortunately it was the holidays and we all fell off the wagon together. We never seemed to get the steam back. We did attempt to get going again and made up some new goals. That was okay until most of the people in the group decided to go with one of the new fad protein diets. That means they will be losing several pounds a week and if I actually really work at it, I will be lucky to lose a pound. I am sure that mine will be easier to keep off in the end but it is still a hit to my ego each week on weigh in day when I'm still not getting anywhere and they are dropping the pounds. I don't plan on staying with the group and get the booby prize each week. I have to be honest and say that I don't care how I look anymore but I do really need to get the healthy thing going again. I have a hard time walking because my feet and legs get to hurting so bad. I have no strength or energy to do anything after work. Somethings got to give. I don't think my biggest problem is losing weight as much as it is eating healthy but I just simply don't have that motivation. I just need something to kick me in my butt and get me moving again.

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SUSIEGKORN 2/22/2012 1:05AM

    I've been fighting those same feelings for 2 weeks now and it HAS TO STOP! We ARE important and it is so very worthwhile getting healthy! I'm hoping a praying today is the day to get back on track! Here's to us finding our motivation and determination back!

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CRISSA1669 2/22/2012 1:04AM

    I can hear the discouragment through your blog...this is tough. I wrote a blog about motivation last week, here is the link. I hope that it can encourage you and perhaps give you a change of perspective regarding motivation.

If nothing else, you should know, motivation is Optional, not a requirement to making the choices you need and want. I hope my blog helps you and you just decide to move forward with the things you know you need to be doing...motivation or not. Take Care:)

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Getting back the willpower

Saturday, November 19, 2011

I am finally finding the strength and willpower to make and stick to a good, healthy way of eating again. It used to be just a way I lived but then I slowly slid out of it when I worked for the veterinary clinic. In just the week of working this new job, I see my attitude, health and energy returning. I actually worked overtime this week and it didn't seem even half the amount of time at the clinic where I usually put in less than 35 hours a week. It just goes to show how attitude affects our energy and desire to take care of ourselves.
I don't know if I'm really losing much weight yet but I do know that I am already feeling better after only a week of trying to be healthier and more consistant in my eating and exercise.
Thursday I didn't use the elevator but once and that was at the end of the day. The amazing thing is that I found out I can do the stairs faster than the elevator can get me there emoticon. Unfortunately yesterday I only took the stairs a couple times but I had several different activities going on that required a lot of things to carry so it was easier on the elevator.
We weigh in each Wednesday at work and I hope to be the "Biggest Loser" this week. It's my first week and I want to show them all the "new girl" is taking it serious and kicking some butt. Also since I"m the Actvities Coordinator its my job to get everyone fired up and going, right? emoticon
I guess I had better stop rambling for now but just wanted to brag a little on my success this week and that to say life is finally getting better. I am going to really work at reaching my goal this time. I can actually see a little light down the road now.

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CATHEMARIE 11/19/2011 10:47AM

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FANORONHA_14 11/19/2011 10:24AM

    You are emoticonYou are emoticon
Never Give Up!
Life is Good!
Good health is the Greatest Wealth!
I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
Philippians 4:13
Give Thanks and Praise God.
God Bless You.

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I finally have incentive!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

I started a new job this week and I am so blessed to say, they have a weekly way in, monetary consequences for bad eating and then the good side is they have a nice little fitness room I can use.
the downside is that there is always food around. The upside is that if someone sees you starting to eat something you shouldn't, they will ask you if it's worth it. Since I'm very low on finances right now, nothing is that good emoticon.
My scales are telling me lighter than the ones at work so I am going to start using the work weigh in. It is a little discouraging because it says I weigh 5 pounds more but I guess that makes me want to see the number I have been seeing at home.
My goal is to be down to my goal weight by the end of January at the latest. Of course it's going to take a little extra willpower since we are heading into the holidays and all the goodies but I know I can do it if I set my mind to it. I did it once, I can do it again.
It's time to get down to business. I know I can't do this with the strength from my God. He will give me the help I need. I need to stay focused on Him. So, here I go again. I have been doing better each time I try to get started again. I pray this time I will truly succeed.

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SUSIEGKORN 11/16/2011 11:11PM

    I love feeling all your confidence and determination come through your blog! Good for you! Congrats on the new job! Sounds like some positive perks come with it! Best to you!

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Trying "again"

Monday, October 24, 2011

I am wanting to get this last 20 pounds off and the goal was to do it by January 1. Well, it's not impossible I guess but at the rate I've been going this year, I just don't see it happening. Do I sound discouraged? I guess maybe I am.

I have moved this past month and the adjustment to a whole different way of life is difficult for me to adapt too. I do think eventually it will be easier but for now it is taking some getting used to. I am committed to this lifestyle "downsizing" for at least the next year. I know that it will help me grow mentally and spiritually but these "growth pains" aren't exactly fun at the moment and just trying to eat right and get in my exercise is difficult.

Things have been so hectic the last 6 months. Working two, pretty physically challenging jobs has taken a big toll on my body and mind. Praise God, I will hopefully be starting a new job within the next month that will be much better hours and not nearly as difficult on my body. Plus I won't be working different hours constantly and having to get up in the middle of the night to get to work.

I am one of those people who can "go with the flow" but I still need some semblance of routine. I haven't had that in so long and it's really starting to wear on me. When I was successful when I lost the 30 pounds before, I had a fairly consistant routine and could work my food and exercise in pretty well most of the time. Now I just manage to get through each day and grab a couple of hours sleep before it's time to go again.

Thanks to SP, I have managed to stay within only 5 pounds at the most of my lowest weight. I'm trying to cut out the soda, eating out and stress eating. It's so difficult to not just grab something on my way home when I'm totally worn out. No one but me seems to care if I lose weight or get into shape. There is literally no support. It's so discouraging. Most days I start out with good intentions but as the day goes on, I just give up and tell myself it's just not worth the hassle. I know I need to change this mindset.

Okay, I guess I'm just rambling now but I needed to get it all out so maybe, just maybe, tomorrow I can start out fresh again and begin finding new ways to get back on track. I have had so many wonderful blessings the last few weeks and yet I am still giving up on myself. I need to get it through my thick head that God wouldn't have given me these gifts if I didn't deserve them. So now I need to start takig care of myself and giving back.

Thanks for letting me vent tonight. Thanks for being here for me SP. Things will get better and I will eventually get motivated again. I just need to learn to put as much time into myself sometimes as I do others.

Tomorrow is another blessed and wonderful gift from God. Lets not waste it. God Bless!

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SPEEDY143 10/24/2011 2:29PM

    emoticonback.... emoticonIt sounds like you are getting plenty of movement between working two jobs and just living. I agree with DMEAMT cut out the soda... relpace it with water and you will have a weight loss. That in and of it self will make you feel better and give you some stamina to stay strong until your new job starts. As far as picking up food for convenience, find healthier choices and remember that WE care here in SparkVille and want you to be successful emoticon


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DMEAMT 10/24/2011 4:09AM

  Keep at it, if you are able to cut out the soda you will loose and if you drink LOTS of water you will loose more and as far as getting in your exercise you can boost it by doing little things like parking farther from the door or taking the stairs or searching for exercises you can do at work, it doesn't always have to be a sweat filled cardeo workout ( baby steps count too)! I know it's not easy but it can be done just don't give up, it's much harder to start all over than it is to hang in there. Ask me how I know. You Can Do It !

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