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Can you see my vision?

Monday, October 20, 2014

Here's an attempt at a vision board.

Actresses Rutina Wesley and Linda Hamilton have the biceps I long to have.

Supertrainer Rachel Cosgrove has the weightlifting and fitness knowledge that could get me there.

And Fred Rogers -- along with whoever created this hilarious motto: Just Let Me Put My Deadlifting Shoes On And I'll Be Right With You -- have the attitude I wish I woke up with every day:
Smile? Check.
Friendly? Check.
Empathetic? Check.
Patient? Double-check.
Ready to hit the weight room? Heck, yeah!

If I was at the fitness level I desire and throw in the patience of the man who sang "let's make the most of this beautiful day" EVERY DAY and I could become the mom I wish I am:
Able to clean-lift a 27-pound 2-year-old without huffing or puffing.

That's my vision today.

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RORYLYONS 10/20/2014 10:08PM

    I love this an incredible vision indeed. emoticon emoticon

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MCFITZ2 10/20/2014 9:21PM

    really well thought out emoticon

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MARYBETH4884 10/20/2014 6:14PM

    What a wonderful vision!!

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UMBILICAL 10/20/2014 5:56PM


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Honesty is such a lonely word

Tuesday, October 14, 2014

I have been challenged to write down my meal plan and to write out a plan for when a bad day strikes.

Both of these are tough tasks because they require me to be honest about my intentions with food. I know, choose your hard, right?

This weekend started with a small plan: healthy omelet for Saturday breakfast; homemade wonton soup for lunch; pork ribs, steamed yams, Brussels sprouts for supper. Great.

The unplanned was cake and ice cream afterward.

The next day was all emotional turmoil. I skipped breakfast. Homemade pizza for lunch. Skipped supper except for eating DD's leftover mac and cheese, boiled corn and peas.

Today was bran flakes, skipped lunch, homemade chili for supper.

See the pattern?

My bad day is every day, like in "Office Space," every day is worse than the one before. So I have no rainy day plan.

My plan for a bad day is always the same: junk food, fast food, sweets, drink too much -- whatever I can get my hands on at the time. Usually I can't afford such luxuries, but I always find a way to be unhealthy.

I need to get honest with myself and focus on replacing the bad habit by adding a healthy habit.

Is that too honest?

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PREDEL 10/17/2014 11:12AM

    Wow, have you been shadowing my life? I so respect your honesty! It's so difficult for most people. I don't lie to myself but I'm having problems breaking the pattern. Right now 2 Azure sisters and I are experimenting with IE (Intuitional Eating). I think I'm seeing the light but I have so many years of bad patterns, it's not going to happen overnight. Perhaps for people like us, small changes is where success while find us. One small change at a time. Okay, that's my thought for the day.

Your blog is great and has given me a lot to think about. We're on this journey together. Care to hold hands? emoticon Pat from Azure

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CHICAM 10/14/2014 5:42AM

    The best thing you did was being honest to yourself. We have all been there. We need to look at all of our hard. We know we have to have a good plan and stick to it or else we will fall down and then feel miserable of what we have eaten or not accomplished in our healthy life style change. On Sundays it is a busy day for me. I make all my healthy meals and save them in Tupperware, some stay in the fridge and some I freeze. This is my number one savior for me cause I do not turn to the easy way out of not having time to prepare a healthy meal during the week emoticon emoticon and then turn to fast food or sweets. Believe me this works. You can do this, we can do this, stay strong we are all with you.

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DANNIELLEFIT 10/14/2014 1:18AM

    I totally understand where you are coming from. I have learned that if I don't meal plan and have the meals made, I will always go for the easy and not so healthy choices. Now that you have put it out there, you will need to find something that will help you not get off track. Try having a backup plan for when you don't eat. This way you won't go for whatever. Just take it one day at a time, you will get that habit turned into a healthy one.

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MCFITZ2 10/14/2014 1:18AM

    Every journey starts with the first step. Can you find an emergency snack that would be healthy and satisfying and portable. Have it in your purse so when you get stressed or unable to have a real meal you can grab it. I have a box of protein meal bars in the trunk of the car and usually some almonds in the back seat. I also put an apple in my workout bag to have after I worked out so I am not going to try and eat anything I can get my hands on when I get home. The meal bar is 180 cal and 10 grams of protein,
the apple is about half that and the almonds -32- are under 200.
I find myself more satisfied than celery and carrot sticks. emoticon plus they travel easily.
I know you can work this out. Best Gecko buddy emoticon emoticon

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Put your paws up, put 'em up!

Monday, October 06, 2014

This week's BLC goal has been mental toughness.

I am all lip service and no actual muscle on this topic.

I have all the Weight Watchers mottos memorized.

But I never forgive myself. So this blog is about a time I had the courage to do what was right for me.

I joined Weight Watchers online almost 12 years ago. My SO made a comment about my eating that made me feel bad about my weight, size, life, self. So I decided to make a change. I researched nutrition plans at that time, knowing I would not succeed at counting calories on my own.

The WW plan at that time allowed me to "bank" points that I earned. So if I went to the gym in the morning and earned points for activity, I could "eat" that number of points any time that week. I bribed myself with the knowledge that X number of minutes at the gym in the morning meant X number of pints at the pub that evening. It was a perfect fit for me.

And it worked. I lost weight the first week. I bounced back from that comment that made me feel so awful, and I channeled those horrible feelings into a positive change in my life.

That was the spark of my life.

That was a long time ago, and I've been seeking to reignite that spark for many years now. I feel like the courage I channeled at that time has left my grasp. I feel helpless to defend my feelings from everyday comments. I explode with emotion and get myself into arguments daily. None of this is helping me to live a healthier life when I all I want to do is destroy myself.

I hope to find some of that empowerment again.

Maybe it's somewhere over the rainbow ...

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ROCKYCPA 10/6/2014 9:28PM

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CANDOK1260 10/6/2014 8:23PM

    emoticon just take it one day at a time

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KATELJM 10/6/2014 6:56PM

    Start with small steps that can become habits. Maybe first it's getting used to tracking every bite, or drinking 8 glasses of water. Give yourself credit for following through. Many of us have succeeded at reaching Lifetime, only to have to repeat. I imagine how what I am choosing to eat is nourishing me and how my exercise wakes up my body. The hardest part is starting, so just start.

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What I expect in the next 12 weeks

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

I want to accomplish some health goals within the next 12 weeks.

I want to start a 10+ daily activity streak
Measure my food at breakfast
Eat more veggies at lunch
Choose fruit for snacks
Say no to seconds at supper
Aim to lose 20 lbs

My wish list would be:
Join the fitness training class at work
Plan all my meals and follow those plans to the letter
Get back into weight-lifting and carve some pipes
Lose 24 lbs

My reality is:
My family and job place demands on my time
I make excuses and procrastinate
I am unhappy all the time

The best I can expect for the next 12 weeks is to try those small steps first and believe they will pay off.


Another day, another good effort

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

I worked out again today. Again, it wasn't easy to rearrange my day around getting sweaty, when to shower, how to get other things done, but I did the workout.

Yesterday a magazine came in the mail that proclaims on its cover a plan to lose 10 pounds in four weeks. So I added that strength workout after my video workout. It took up a lot of time, but I feel good about getting it done. And the next time will be easier.

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ZRIE014 12/19/2012 1:43AM

  just remember that today is the first day of the rest of your life and you need a plan to make the most of it. emoticon

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