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The Cause vs. The Cure

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Have you ever felt like you don't know what's worse... the sickness or the cure? That's kinda how I feel now & then.

Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision last year by moving. Not that I am not overwhelmingly pleased about my current place... because I am. It's better than anything I ever had in my own mind... but then God has a tendency to do that when you keep faith.

The thing is, I miss a certain someone... a lot... even though we made each other nuts.

Plus I miss my doggie. And, worse than missing him, is the stress that I have over trying to find a place for him to live. I don't want to have him put-down just because of lack of a place for him to live. When the time comes I would like to think he will either die of natural causes or I will have him put down due to illness. But to end his life over living arrangements would probably kill me too. I, really, would never allow myself to own another dog if that happened.

Anyway, I guess I have to take my own advice and keep faith. God will help my baby... and somehow he will either help my heart let go of this guy, or he will turn it into something good.

I just had to get all that stuff out right now. If I sound like I'm rambling it's because I am. Thanks for listening Sparkers. You guys are awesome. Oh, and thanks for helping with the great response on my Worship Melodies blog site lately. It really means sooooo much to me!

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SPARKYCARLEY 7/27/2011 2:31PM

    Thank you soooo much. You guys never fail to amaze me at how awesome humanity can be sometimes. You are all beautiful examples of it.

It seems, as of today, that I have a place for my doggie to live... until God changes things so that I can bring him home with me where he belongs (I NEVER give up hope or prayer about that!). My Mom has a friend that lives outside of town, about 45 minutes from here. She's a widow and has a little dog of her own. She said she is very interested; especially since it won't cost her anything. I will continue to pay for his food and expenses. We will go see her this weekend. I won't get to see him often, but I truly believe that God has a plan to reunite me and my baby. My Mom's friend is a very loving woman and I would trust her with my baby any time.

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MRSJERRYBUSH 7/27/2011 1:53PM

    Send me your doggie if all else fails. I have two shih tzus for playmates.

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MISSLISA1973 7/26/2011 10:21PM

    emoticon We considered moving once where we would have to get rid of my doggie. It was killing me just to think of it. I can only imagine what you're going through. Those doggies sure know how to steal our hearts! emoticon

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1_AMAZING_WOMAN 7/26/2011 9:39PM

    As far as missing the guy... it is up to you to 'retrain your brain' to put him in the past. He was not good for you, and you deserve someone good in your life. Focus on finding a positive relationship and let go of the past harmful ones.

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SLIMLILA 7/26/2011 9:36PM

    I can relate.. I am not strong enough to separate, but dh makes me very unhappy and I feel worthless much of the time. I hope you are able to make the right decisions and live with them. Remember God will not give us more than we can handle.

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Dream Interpretations

Sunday, July 24, 2011

I had a weird dream last night. I'm wondering what it means. Anyone have any knowledge or education in how to properly interpret dreams? Here's how it goes... what I remember about it.

There was a guy... someone I started dating. It is someone I know in real life, but I don't remember who. I just remember that I like him a lot and was excited to be with him. It is possible that it is a guy I had one date with recently and it didn't work out. I thought it did, but apparently he didn't. He sent me a nasty email the next day. I was very hurt.

Anyway, in this dream, we were going back to my place one day. We were driving a mini-van. Someone else was with us. I'm not sure who, but I think it was my friend from church... who is like a best friend for me now. She's 14 years older than me. She was my mentor in the mentoring program. Anyway, in the dream, when we got back to my place, the apartment wasn't in the the building I'm living in now. It was the house I used to own back when I was married... except I didn't own it in the dream. I was renting the downstairs apartment (which is where my ex-husband lived when I met him, before we purchased that same house together.) That's what I remember about my dream.

And, a side note... today (July 24th), would have been our 18th wedding anniversary if we were still together. I'm not dealing with it well. Which is 2 days after my birthday which I am also not dealing with very well. There are a few other things that piled up on me this week besides, but that's another story.

Back to the dream. We all got out of the van and went into the garage so we could go into the apartment (the separate entrance to the apartment is inside the garage of that house). Anyway, when I opened the garage door to start in, my ex-roommate was there. The one I talked about in my SP blog a while back called "Stockholm Syndrome". I was sooooooooooo happy to see him, and he was happy to see me. It was like we were in love or something, and I was happy that this other guy was going to see that. I suddenly wanted this new guy to see me in love with someone else because then maybe he would go away, or maybe he would suddenly want me and I could tell him "you're too late".

Oh, a few other small points... I think the mini-van was burgundy... not sure where that came from. Either that it was light-blue (same color as the one my dad used to own). Finally, this happened on a bright sunny day.... which considering the super hot temps we're having lately, is not so far fetched in a dream... besides, I loveeeee summer! :-)

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MISSLISA1973 7/24/2011 10:43PM

    I wish I knew more about dream interpretation. I'm not sure how to know the legitimacy of interpretation, even. But I have some pretty crazy dreams like this one and always wonder if they mean something. The sciencey people I've spoken to always explain dreams as a way of our minds processing events, thoughts, and feelings from the day.

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20 Things that I Just Do NOT Get!

Saturday, July 16, 2011

OK... last time I talked about "20 Things that Make Me Happy"... which really wasn't a concept that I came up with myself. I saw it somewhere. However, it did trigger this new topic.... "20 Things that I Just Do NOT Get!". It's sorta like the flip side. Except, to me, the flip side, really, would be things that make me angry, or things that make me cry. Though that could be a couple blogs on their own, I really don't want to write about them. My best writing comes when I'm 'in the moment'... and I just don't want to get myself that upset. So here's the next best thing. There are some things in this world that I don't understand. For the life of me I just simply cannot wrap my brain around them. Things that make you go "hmmmmmm?!"

I''m going to start from the last one, first, and work my way up to the number one thing that I just do not get!

emoticon 20. How to cook bacon without having the house full of smoke and the smoke detector going off saying ďFire. Food. Fire. FoodĒ in that annoying voice!
emoticon 19. Rap or Punk Music. Itís just noise. Isnít the part about Ďmusicí supposed to have some? This doesnít.
emoticon 18. Pointy toe shoes.... ewwwww! Ugly. Points are for weapons, not wardrobe!
emoticon 17. Why anyone would want to wear wool! As much as I really hate Ďcoldí, no amount of warm is worth that much itching!
emoticon 16. Older... OK, maybe that one is wishful thinking! I am a dreamer, after all! LOL
emoticon 15. The fascination with Hummers... letís face it, theyíre ugly!
emoticon 14. Clock faces without numbers. I mean... really... isnít the numbers kind of the point of the thing?!
emoticon 13. Why God made coffee. The stuff stinks!!!!!!!! How can you people drink that stuff?!
emoticon 12. Why JR doesnít like me. So... I nearly made him as crazy as he made me... is that a good reason to be so pissed?! LOL
emoticon 11. Atheism. It takes wayyyy too much faith to believe that all the world... itís perfect order, the incredible detail right down to the atom, how it all works together; right down to all creatures recognizing their own kind... was all created out of nothing. To believe that some huge cosmic burp suddenly happened, out of nothing, and created all that there is in amazingly perfect detail is just not logical to me. My thinking is that Someone had to have made it, or at least started the ball rolling. Besides... Iíve seen presentations that show that science backs up the bible. I can send you some links to do some reading on it if youíre interested.
emoticon 10. Star Trek.
emoticon 9. Laid... I know TMI. I need a husband. Anyone have any spare single male friends? Iíll pay for shipping. Even a hubby youíre about to kick to the curb would do right now! LOL
emoticon 8. Men. Nuff said! Hmmmm? I wonder if this is related to #9?
emoticon 7. Why God made winter. Itís cold! Cold = Very uncomfortable = Not good!
emoticon 6. Slapstick Humour or Bathroom Humour. I donít see where the funny part is in that.
emoticon 5. Tapioca. Itís gross. My Grandfather said it best ďwhoever ate that the first time can have it backĒ. Again, Nuff said!
emoticon 4. Why God made cats... or Mosquitoes. Some things just donít seem to have a purpose... outside of annoyance.
emoticon 3. Golf. Itís just weird.
emoticon 2. Twitter. Why do I care what someone else is doing? Why do they care what Iím doing?

...aaaaaaand, drum roll please, the number one thing that I just do NOT get...

emoticon 1. The Facebook 'Poke'. Seems to me itís as annoying as someone being next to you poking you with their finger. I mean, seriously... doesnít that make you wanna just smack someone?!

Well, I hope you enjoyed my list. Or maybe, I've caused you to start wondering! Either way... see if you can come up with 20 of your own! Even this topic, was kinda fun putting it together.

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LIVESTRONG2010 7/19/2011 4:14PM

    I agree with you on 9 and 13 but on so much on the cat! You made me smile on most of theses thanks.

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SPARKYCARLEY 7/17/2011 8:25AM

    I never understood Star Trek because I never could understand how this stuff can really happen. If I don't see that I don't understand why I'm watching it. My brothers on the other hand could not have survived without it. lol

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SEVEN70 7/17/2011 4:07AM

    Star Trek? OMG!! I built my life around that show!! lolz, cool list. And yeah, I really do like the trek! ;-P I'm a nerd. :D

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DAHNDEE 7/16/2011 2:07PM

    This is so totally funny because with the exception of #20 and 17, I am completely and totally opposite of you! LOL love the list idea, i'll have to try one of my own.

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WESHAKAT 7/16/2011 2:04PM

    Another coffee hater! I also hate beer. Basically a social misfit in any situation.

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20 Things that Make Me Happy!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

No matter what my day has been like, no matter how low my mood swing may have dropped, I can always count on my SparkFriends to bring me up. SparkPeople doesn't even feel like a website. It feels like a whole world by itself. It is a wonderful world filled with wonderful people. Thank you for that.

I got this idea for a blog topic somewhere else a while back. I thought it sounded like fun... and today I need that lift... so writing this list and writing it for my SP friends is what I need right now to give me that lift.

20 Things that Make Me Happy...

emoticon 1. My church
emoticon 2. My new apartment
emoticon 3. Cheesecake... sorry, but there has to be at least one sinful food in that list! :-D
emoticon 4. SparkPeople Team "THE RED BRA PHILOSOPHY - for tough life issues"
emoticon 5. Pansies
emoticon 6. Sunny days of summer
emoticon 7. Puppy kisses
emoticon 8. A bottle of vodka! Oh, wait, maybe that's a different kind of 'happy' LOL
emoticon 9. Pics of Vince Neil or Tom Cruise. Oh, or Axel Rose in the 'Sweet Child of Mine' video!
emoticon 10. Good hair days
emoticon 11. Tigger
emoticon 12. Dance music... the good stuff... not the stuff they call dance music now-a-days
emoticon 13. A good, comfy support bra... and yes, I love the under-wires... and a smooth seamless cup
emoticon 14. Remembering my Grandma... especially when she started to giggle!
emoticon 15. Hearing "I love you"
emoticon 16. Hot dates at the drive in... oh wait, scratch that one. Make that, watching great movies with a good friend. :-D
emoticon 17. Listening to Gary Allen music..... AWWWWW Oh My GOSH... He is sooooo hot it just makes me crazy!
emoticon 18. The little plastic pick thingy they make for flossing teeth! They're soooo much better than regular dental floss!
emoticon 19. Exclamation points!!!!!!!!!!
emoticon 20. How much Jesus loves me. :-D

OK... Done... I'm 'lifted' and happy. Thanks so much!

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SPARKYCARLEY 7/15/2011 8:48PM

    Thank you for all the awesome comments Ladies. You guys are the bestest.


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EDWARDS1411 7/15/2011 8:22PM

    GREAT list - and it made me happy reading it!! Thanks for sharing!!! (See I like exclamation marks too!)

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FRANCES-AGAPE 7/15/2011 8:01PM

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Thanks for sharing.

You ALWAYS have such neat
things on your blog

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BLESSINGS, Dear Sister !

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SPARKLISE 7/15/2011 10:28AM

    Love you're list! emoticon emoticon
Makes me want to make one too. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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1_AMAZING_WOMAN 7/15/2011 1:18AM

    Great list and sense of humor!!!!!


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TICKLEBEE 7/14/2011 8:25PM

    it's so great you have a list of happy things!!

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30 in 30 Complete Topic List

Thursday, June 30, 2011

For anyone who might be interested in doing this 30 blogs in 30 days to let others get to know you just a little bit more, here's the complete topic list. I did not write it. I got it from another SP friend. It's a big commitment to do this, but I really recommend it. It's a lot of fun, and I learned stuff about myself as well as my readers. Don't forget that the idea is to always share a photo too!

emoticonDay 01- A recent picture of yourself with ten facts about you
emoticonDay 02 - A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest
emoticonDay 03 - A picture of your inspiration for weight loss
emoticonDay 04 - A picture of the cast of your favorite TV show and A picture of your favorite color
emoticonDay 05 - A picture of your favorite animal and A picture of your favorite memory
emoticonDay 06 - A picture of a person you'd love to trade places with for a day
emoticonDay 07 - A picture of your most treasured item
emoticonDay 08 - A picture that makes you laugh
emoticonDay 09 - A picture that motivates you to do more and A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most
emoticonDay 10 - A picture of your closest friend
emoticonDay 11 - A picture of your IPOD or other music playing device on shuffle, and then list the first 10 songs that play and A picture of something you hate
emoticonDay 12 - A picture that defines you and A picture of something you love
emoticonDay 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist
emoticonDay 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without
emoticonDay 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die
emoticonDay 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you
emoticonDay 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
emoticonDay 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity, and the reasons why it is the biggest
emoticonDay 19 - A picture of your nicknames you have; why do you have them.
emoticonDay 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel
emoticonDay 21 - A picture of something you wish you were better at
emoticonDay 22 - A picture of an exercise you canít do, but would like to try (and then try it if you want to)
emoticonDay 23 - A picture of your favorite book; why is it your favorite and A picture of what I would find in your bag
emoticonDay 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change
emoticonDay 25 - A picture of your favorite super hero and why
emoticonDay 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you
emoticonDay 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member
emoticonDay 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of
emoticonDay 29 - A picture that can always make you smile
emoticonDay 30 - A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
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SPARKYCARLEY 7/13/2011 12:17PM

    I like the animal prints too... I think it represents that little part of me that I know is a bit of a "wild child".

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NDTEACHER1 7/13/2011 11:46AM

    This is great! I think that's the hardest thing about blogging, all I can think of to say sounds a lot like mindless rambling. I may not do all this, but some of the ideas. I'm not as tech savvy, I don't know how to download pictures yet or change the background of my Spark Page like you did, which by the way, I really like although my signature print is zebra;)

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MRSJERRYBUSH 7/1/2011 12:43PM

    Mine won't be done in 30 days, but it will be done!

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LCULL56 6/30/2011 10:55PM

    This looks like fun! Big commitment, though. It would really take some thought to come up with some of a picture of something you are afraid of. I am bookmarking this and may try it in August when I get back from visiting family. Or maybe using the questions in my written journal. Thank you for making me think!!:)


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