Thursday, June 30, 2011
Today's topic: A picture of you a year ago and a picture of you now
Ahhh... alas... the final day... except, I think I'm gonna miss doing this. Maybe I'll have to come up with another series to blog about. I'll have to do some thinking on that.
Anyway, back to the topic at hand. A year ago vs. now. Well, a year ago, I was just slightly thinner; but my life was a mess. I was in the middle of some of the biggest struggles I've had in the last few years. A year ago, I had just given up the apartment that I loved so much; and moved in with my parents... something that I did not want to do in the least. But, the trauma that I was going through made me just throw in the towel and give up. I felt God telling me that it was time to do this. I moved out, with no plan of where to go and no plan for my future. It was very scary, and at the same time very exciting. I felt like the weight of the world was lifted from me. On top of all that, the pastor at our church who had come to be my anchor; left and moved out of town to another church. I put my stuff in storage, and left the rest to God. I refused to even look for another place to live through the summer. I felt my sanity depended on me having some time where I could avoid thinking about my problems. It certainly did help. I felt like I was free again. I felt like I had lost another 75 lbs. At the beginning of the fall, I got a phone call that dropped a huge blessing in my life. It was a place to live... with blessings that are more than I can say. Granted, getting this place is a story all it's own, but in the end God took care of me; as I knew He would.
Today... a year later. My hair is slightly different and I've gained back a few lbs... I think, partly due to being back on meds; though it is mostly because of peri-menopause and a drop in the amount of fitness minutes that l log in. I still have problems and struggles... they're different problems than before; but I also a new life, more friends, new goals, and I am feeling a safety factor and an element of peace that I haven't felt in many years. A new chapter is about to begin. I can't wait to see what's happening next.
I love you guys so much. Really! The support that I get from you has helped me more than I can say. Thank you, for everything; and thank you for sharing this little 30 day journey and look into my life. I've learned stuff about myself along with all of you.
God bless, and TTYS.
One year ago....
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Today's topic: A picture of something you are afraid of
Number one on this list is bugs! Yep, it comes before darkness, loneliness, the boogie man and tapioca! Number one on this list is ants... there's a super ugly story behind that, that I won't go into here; but needless to say, I have a good reason to fear ants. As a matter of fact just doing this blog I ran into a problem with bugs. The idea of this whole series is to post photos. Well, I went to look for some bug pics and they looked so ugly and scary on the screen that I couldn't really look at them. So I got these instead... it's the best you're gonna get from me; and to tell the truth, I feel kinda proud that I managed to look at these!
Since I was a little girl I've always said "if it's got more than 2 legs or has wings, I'm afraid of it (except for birds)". At my wedding years ago my Dad, as Father of the Bride, did the usual speech about "Welcome to the family.... yada, yada... ". Before he finished, he officially handed over the title of "Spider Squasher" to my new husband. Everyone thought it was funny, but for me it was a bit of a relief! lol The only problem now, is how do I get that official position and the spider squasher tools back from my ex, who I haven't seen in years, when ever the day comes for me to get married again? LOL
Monday, June 27, 2011
Todayís topic: A picture of yourself and a family member.
Ahhh... family photos. One of our greatest treasures! They can either make you laugh or make you cry.... or laugh until you cry. They can help you to remember the birthday party you had for Great Aunt Sue on her 65th birthday; and how Grandma started to giggle and couldnít stop. In the end she had everyone laughing with her and no one really knew what she was laughing at. Or, they can make you end up in the worst cat-fight of your life when you remember the time that your cousin, Peggy, stole your boyfriend when you were both 16.
Like it or not we are stuck with the families we have. Whether they are birth families or otherwise... family is family. You have to put up with them, you have to love them, and you have to support them. No matter how crazy they make you feel; you would never give them up for the world. No family is perfect. Iíve always had a theory that the only truly dysfunctional family is the one that is perfectly normal and functional.
Well, here are a few of photos from my ĎFamily Albumí.
This one is my immediate family. It was taken sometime in the early 90ís. Thereís Mom and Dad at the back. In the front there is me and my brothers, Doug (on my right; the left side of the photo) and Michael on the opposite side. I am the oldest, Doug is 14 months younger; and Michael is 7 years younger than that. There was a whole family photo shoot the day this photo was taken. Doug and Michael made me laugh so hard that I really did start to cry. Mom had to scold us, telling us to behave and post for the photos properly like when we were little kids. But that was normal in my family... the laughing and joking, I mean! Oh, that was a fun day. Doug still hasnít stopped telling jokes! Heís the reason why I always look for a sense of humour first when Iím dating a guy now.
This one was taken when I was in high school (grade 10 or 11, Iím not sure which). I was in the hospital during the summer months for surgery on my eye to repair a ďlazy eye lidĒ which was a problem I had from birth. This picture was right after they finally took off the bandages, so the bruising from the surgery was still there. My brother, Doug, had just come from the airport. He had been at Sea Cadet Camp for the summer and was required to travel in uniform. Also are my brother, Michael (in the blue jacket) and my cousin, Cory who spent a great deal of time with us through our childhood. Heís like a 3rd brother for me now.
Finally, this is me and my Grandmother in the early 2000ís. She is my Motherís Mother. She was the matriarch of our family. We have a large family with a lot of extended relatives and her house was Ďoperation centralí. She passed away in 2005; and I miss her every day.
Also, with us in this photo is my dog, Casey... the one that Iíve mentioned before is now living with my friend. We are praying every day for a miracle that will allow me to bring Casey home with me. My landlords wonít allow dogs; but I refuse to give up hope and faith that Casey will get to come home with me where he belongs. But heís happy and well adjusted. Despite his old age now, he just, last week, got a great report from the vet. He has a heart murmur; among other health issues; but so far, itís not a problem. I am so thankful. Please keep us in your prayers that we can be reunited before Caseyís life is over. Thanks.
Well, there it is... a tiny glimpse into my family.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Today's topic: A picture of something that means a lot to you.
OK, at the risk of repeating myself... again... and boring you all to tears; the first thing that comes to mind that really means a lot to me is my bible.
You would be hard pressed to get me to truly be torn up over the loss of any material items. I mean.. I willingly gave up my house years ago and it didn't bother me; and I would do the same thing again, I believe, if the circumstances were the same. Material item's can be replaced. I mean... what's the worst that can happen?... You gotta go buy another one! That doesn't seem to be something that should be a big deal. Even my bible, the book itself, can be replaced, but it's not the book that means so much to me. It's the Word of God inside it that is my Corner Stone that keeps my life built on a stable foundation.
There are a few other things that I would probably cry for a little while if I lost them. I have a special necklace, and a special crucifix, and a couple other things. Plus, of course, my family photos and videos mean a lot to me. They help to remember things... good and bad. But if you don't have the photos and videos for some reason; and that time in the past is meant to be of help to you now, then God WILL bring all the memories back to you. Count on it!
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