Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Last night on the news there was a story about how many people and families can't eat healthy because of the high cost of healthy foods. This is hardly a 'shocker' though they made it seem as such in the news article. But then the news is often famous for that... making "news" out of things that the rest of us have known for decades! For the average family this is WAY OLD news. People have, since the first supermarket, had to purchase according to price. The biggest shocker for me was the extreme range between the price of the same item from one place to another around the country. I know that other places pay more for food... but I had no idea the range was so great.
For the most part, at least for the items that were used in the examples; Barrie, Ontario seems to be the cheapest place in Canada to shop for food. I had no idea this was the case for so many items. I guess I'm lucky to be living here in Barrie. As it is I'm having a hard time making ends meet and keeping enough food on the table, and I only have myself and my pets to think about at the moment.
I used to eat only one or two meals per day and it wasn't all healthy food... just because of a budget issue. Now I try to eat 3 meals of healthy food. The cost is higher than I can handle most months. Other bills I have are suffering because of it. But my thinking is that if I eat healthy, my health, both physical and mental should improve, and thereby giving me some important tools that I need to get my life back on track and then money should be better as I'll be able to go back to work. Seems logical to me. But if pricing in Barrie goes any higher than they are, especially if they were to go as high as in some other parts of the country... healthy eating would not be a possibility for me. It would simply be out of the question. It's almost there as it is even with the prices I pay. At this rate my 'cure' could be as bad as my problem!
Going back to old ways of eating would not only mean putting my weight loss efforts on hold, which in turns means putting myself at risk again for other health issues, but worst of all it means my depression will start getting worse again instead better. All the progress that I'm making.... slow though it may be... would be reversed. Every time I regress instead of progress... it seams harder and more impossible to get back to being healthy and not depressed again. I'm so afraid that if I let myself regress again that there will be no way back... eating healthy or not.
Being in that dark, terrifying place with no way out is the most horrible thing anyone can experience...and when you're in it all alone with no support it's even worse. That's why SP is so important for me. It, literally, is my therapy that keeps me functioning... especially in today's society when GOOD quality medical help is almost impossible. I wouldn't wish that dark place on anyone, not even my worst enemy.
Here are a couple of links to the news stories that I watched on TV. You might be shocked at the pricing difference. They're both from Global News... one is the National News and one is the local Toronto News.
Of course, all this healthy food doesn't even take into account the cost of gym memberships for those who like to go to a gym for their fitness & exercising! That part of healthy living is out of the question for some of us. I got some information on the YMCA's membership assistance program... even those rates are more than I can afford to pay! For me fitness has to be free or it's not a possiblitiy!
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
I thought you might like to hear this story about what happened today. It's amazing! God helps with the littlest things!
Last night when I was chatting via email with my friend, Ruth. She's lives in Albany, NY. She told me that the day before in church she learned about a thing that is meant to help you let go of problems you can't let go.
I talk to her via emails all the time. She's been my friend...as of June of this year for 30 years. We met during the summer when we were between grades 7 & 8. Ruth & her husband, Gary, are coming from Albany this summer for a visit to celebrate 30 years. I confide in her about stuff all the time... though for a long time not as much as I used to. But now thanks to the wonder of the internet I think it's getting back to the way it used to be.
Anyway... she told me that in church they said that you need to get a box and label it "SFGTD" which means "Stuff for God to Do". Then you write on a piece of paper your problem, put it in the box and then let go of it 'cause it's in God's 'to do' box now and He'll take care of it.
She said she put in a worry she's been having for a while now about their car needing fixing and they didn't have th money to have it done. The next day (yesterday) the part for the car turned out to be only $15.00 and her worry was over!
I told her I thought it was a great idea and that I was gonna do the same thing. Though, I was thinking maybe a cardboard box with some decorative paper around it so it wouldn't look ugly on a shelf somewhere! LOL Keep in mind all this happened last night.
This morning when I was on my way out with Casey (my dog) I looked into the laundry room, through the glass door as I passed by, toward the table like I usually do as I go by to see if there's any cool stuff there that I'd like. They have a table there and if you have stuff you want to get rid of you can leave it on the table and if someone sees anything on the table they like then they're welcome to take it. Well, I saw what I thought was 2 or 3 photo frames stacked together. They looked like very fancy frames. When I got back from my walk with Casey I went to the laundry room and the frames were instead a beautiful box with a photo frame lid. I've attached pics of it. It's wooden and lined inside with black velvet. The perfect box! Hand delivered to me ASAP by God!
The next thing I thought was that I need something appropriate to put in the lid frame. So I looked through my bible cases where I also keep little religious cards and prayers written on papers. And I found a little playing-card sized thing with a drawing of Jesus on it. I thought it was the perfect thing! Then... to add to my amazing list of coincidences... on the back of the card was this prayer below!!! Again, the perfect prayer. So my first item in the box, though it's not a problem... is this prayer that I printed on a small piece of paper... 'cause once the card was taped to the label and put in the frame you can't see the prayer on the back of it anymore. So I printed a label and put the pic in the middle of it. I put on one side "Let Go & Let God"... the same thing that's on that little sun catcher that I got from Hour of Power a while back. Then on the other side of the pic I put "Stuff For God To Do" like Ruthie told me to do.
I'm always amazed at how God bothers His time with the tiniest details that seem, otherwise, not so important.
Jesus Help Me!
In every need let me come to You with humble trust, saying: Jesus, help me!
In all my doubts, perplexities and temptations: Jesus, help me!
In hours of loneliness, weariness and trials: Jesus, help me!
In the failure of my plans and hopes, in disappointments, troubles and sorrows: Jesus, help me!
When others fail me and Your grace alone can assist me: Jesus, help me!
When I throw myself on Your tender Love as a Father and Savior: Jesus, help me!
When my heart is cast down by failure, at seeing no good come from my efforts: Jesus, help me!
When I feel impatient and my cross irritates me: Jesus, help me!
When I am ill and my head and hands cannot work, and I am lonely: Jesus, help me!
Always, always, in spite of weakness, falls, and shortcomings of every kind: Jesus, help me and never forsake me!
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
My name is Carley... well, OK... it's not really Carley... but that's what a lot of my friends call me and I like it so I go with it. I'm desperate to loose weight. I've been over weight for about 10 years now, at least. I don't like it. I've never grown to be comfortable with my over grown body. Even now I forget sometimes and when I catch myself in a mirror, it takes my breath away in shock for a second. I recently lost 4 pounds which got me all excited and motivated to work even harder on my workouts... then I weight myself again... & I had gained it all back plus 2 more pounds. I've been counting calories and working out for about a month now and I've lost no weight. So here I am... on yet another site that I'm hoping to help me figure out how to do this weight loss thing and / or help me figure out what I'm doing wrong!
Here is my story....
I accidentally discovered another site such as this one about 2 weeks ago when looking for information on how to properly count calories. I had no idea there were sites like this in existence! I was recommended to FitDay by a friend. I have spent the past week downloading and trying diet & fitness software packages. I tried freeware programs and I even purchased one. I spent $40.00 and it was completely useless. I could hardly believe what I was looking at when I found this site. It's everything I was looking for. As a matter of fact this site has so many features I'm finding it to be completely overwhelming. I guess it just takes time to learn.
I am 42 years old. As a child I was very shy. I spent my whole child hood and about half my adult life being very skinny.... just naturally skinny. As a child I was so thin I was constantly made fun of. But I ate as much as my brothers at home. I wasn't sick and I didn't have an eating disorder. Though many people would ask my mom "What's wrong with her? She's so skinny. Is she sick?" But no... just thin. On top of that I was tall. I grew fast and finished growing at an early age so I was taller than my classmates... another thing that I was constantly teased about. As a result, the only way to get clothes that were long enough for me was to get them a little baggy. By the time I hit high school I needed to wear the baggy clothes... which turned out to be a bonus... 'cause in baggy clothes people didn't realize how skinny I really was and they stopped teasing me as much!
As I went into collage, I gained some weight... though it was more of what my Grandmother called "filling out" than gaining weight. I went through my 20's & part of my 30's as an averaged sized adult. I got lots of attention from guys and I had a lot of fun wearing sexy clothes and learning to be outgoing. Then I got depressed from a divorce and went on medication for years... which put over all... about 85 lbs on me! Life as an overweight person is so completely different. I had no idea how different it is.
It doesn't feel natural to me. I still forget sometimes that I have all that weight on me and I catch myself in a mirror and get surprised for a second. My body feels like it's still thin... with a lot of extra padding on me that I'm just caring around hanging off my body. Then there's how differently people treat me as an overweight person as compared to when I was thin. Even going to a department store or a grocery store... the service isn't as good, the people aren't as friendly. It's incredible how different things are just because of some extra pounds on my body.
My depression got so bad about 10 years ago that I had to stop working full time. I've finally gotten in a position to change that, and I'm hoping by next year to get my life completely back on track... get a full time job... and hopefully loose all the weight that I've gained. I need to make myself productive again, and I want to get married again some day. I don't have kids. I have some medical problems and I'm not sure that I can have any... and now my age doesn't exactly help that matter either. So I have to learn to live a life without the only dream I've ever had... to be a mom! But kids, or no kids... I gotta meet someone, and to do that I have to make myself into something that a man would actually want and be attracted to... inside and out! So I've decided that it's time for this weight to come off.
About 3 weeks ago I started cutting down on the amount I was eating... not that I've ever been a big eater, and I definitely don't eat for emotional reasons... when I'm emotional... food is the last thing my stomach can handle. My big fault is stuff like pizza, cake, gravy on my meat & potatoes! I've been doing well with my diet in the past weeks. I also started working out. I've been doing some workout videos... one in particular that concentrates on giving your stomach a work out... which is where I carry at least 80% of myweight... so I figure it's the most important part to work on. But I purchased a mini-trampoline... which is fun... but HARD work! Great workout on the hips, thighs, & buttocks! I started out jogging on my rebounder because jumping was just too hard. I couldn't breath my heart pounded so hard I thought I was going to pass out. So I decided that jogging might be easier and it was. I worked my way up to 30 minutes jogging. But I wanted to do the real work out... the jumping. So I started to jump and started with only 30 seconds once or twice per day. I got up to 2 minutes after several days and found that after that length of time my vision stated to go fuzzy at the 2 minute mark so I thought it would be best not to push myself. Then I twisted my knee.. so now I'm not doing it at all because I have to wait for my knee to heal. Though the video workouts for my stomach which I do every other day are still good because most of the workout is done on the floor.
The problem is even with all this working out and dieting... I haven't lost even one pound! I am so frustrated I can't begin to tell you. So that's when I figured I need help. Something to let me know if my calories are in the right amount. So I went searching for software... and the rest, as they say, his history! Here I am. This is my first day and I'm asking for prayers and as much advice as anyone can give me about using this site, dieting & fitness. Add me to your friends list if you wish. I'll be looking forward to it.
God bless, & good luck to you all in reaching your goal weight.
Oh... any advice on using this site would be appreciated. I've used other sites, but this one is completely overwhelming. There's so many features, and I'm not finding it to be overly user friendly. I'm still trying to figure out the basics.
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