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Some inspirational scriptures

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Some quotes from the Bible I found about people who were depressed and also some comfort that the pain will pass....
Job 7:15-16 -> I would rather be strangled-rather die than suffer like this. I hate my life and don't want to go on living.

1 Sam 16:14 -> Speaks about Saul's dark mood

1Kings 19:3-4 -> Elijah was afraid and fled for his life..He sat down under a solitary broom tree and prayed that he might die.

John 12:27 -> Now I am deeply troubled and I dont' know what to say. But I must not ask my Father to keep me from this time of suffering . In fact I came into the world to suffer.

2 Corinth 7:6 The God who lifts up the downcast lifted our heads and our hearts with the arrival of Titus

Psalm 42:11 -> Why am I discouraged? Why is my heart so sad? I will put my hope in God! I will praise HIm again - my saviour and my God!

Psalm 34:18 -> The Lord is there to rescue all who are discouraged and have given up hope

Isiah 9:6 -> Darkness and despair will not go on forever....The people who walk in darkness will see a great light.

  
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PINKROSE8 7/17/2011 12:48PM

    Thank you for the scripture!

I've had a long history of depression. I've read what you wrote and I wrote all of them down to read more thoroughly today.

It was nice of you to share these to help others!

Dee
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Rollercoaster got stuck! HELP!

Sunday, April 17, 2011

So have you ever noticed that life really is like Brayn Addams says like a rollercoaster. Well the last couple of weeks i think mine got stuck somewhere...maybe in the big loop. And now I'm hanging...screaming my lungs out hysterically!

Where to start...mmm...well I was at home for the holidays when I realized I had been having these major stomach pains for a while and decided to go to the doctor. A sonar and some blood tests revealed the problem was actually my liver. My insulin levels were 41 and it's suppose to be 9. So I'm what they call insulin intollerent...whatever that means. Then they sent me to a dietician who said that my eating habbits are aside from some minor things actually fine. But then she said the dreaded word...she said i was obese...really I'm 75kg. I know I'm over weight but obese...isn't that a bit harsh lady. Darn.

Anyway I was down for most of the week and then my boyfriend decided to add to my depression and dump me...aparently we're in seperate stages of our lives.

So I came home with a stack of work and we were having lunch when I finally cracked. I scared the jeepers out of my parents cause I started crying and I just couldn't stop. I couldn't get a word out.

Then I forced out the words: I CANT DO IT ANYMORE! I realized it's rock bottom. I couldnt go on living like this. I hated every day. Everything made me misarable. To make a long story short we started talking about my studies and my dad asked me whether I was even studying what I really wanted to anymore. And then I realized what I have probably known for more than a year...I didn't want to be a lawyer. That's why I was struggling my ass off as well...this wasn't what I wanted to do. I never was cut out to be a lawyer. I love animals. I live for nature. Not paperwork. So we decided to stop my studies.

I'm in a bit of a panic now cause I don't know exactly what I'm going to do with my life but it feels like an adventure now. I have to figure out who I am. Don't know how yet but I'm getting there. And I've narrowed my choices down to doing either a service year for Christ or studying again next year. Now I just need to figure out 2 things...what am I going to study. And what am I going to do for the rest of the year. I've started by realizing some stuff i don't want to do like waitering.

Any ideas....?

  
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BADAMS86 4/20/2011 12:05AM

    That was certainly a tough decision to come to, but it sounds like it was the right one! So many people would just stick with it because they didn't know what else to do, were afraid of trying something else, or didn't want to let others down (family, significant other, themselves even).

It is a brave thing to know when to back out of something, even when you are unsure of what new direction you are going to head. Part of figuring out what we want to do in life is trying things and figuring out what we don't want to do first. Sure, some people are lucky and get it right the first time or have always known. The majority of us don't, or never do.

You have an amazing journey ahead of you, and I wish you the best of luck!

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JUDITH1654 4/18/2011 7:22AM

    Have you considered being a veterinarian? Or perhaps working at a zoo or some ecological organization? Find what makes you happiest and then pursue it. You might even try doing some volunteer work at a couple of places to see how you fit into that niche. It would be better to take some time to be sure of what path you wish to pursue before going back to school, in my opinion.

Hooray for your dad for getting to the crux of the matter. Good luck and keep us posted!

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STORMFAN 4/17/2011 1:41PM

    I do not have any suggestions but just wanted to let you know that I am sorry all of this has you bummed out but we are here to support you so don't feel alone. hugs

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CLPOLLY 4/17/2011 10:40AM

    AK2799 is so right!
Keep your chin up and look ahead. Look at what you want your life to be and go for it!
I have been where you are. I was studying Biology to be a doctor but realized that I was only doing it just to be able to say that I was a doctor, but I didn't love it. I decided to follow what I love, which is writing, so now I am working for a degree in English and let me tell you, it is amazing. I have never had such a sense of purpose, I feel like I am finally doing something and I am loving every minute of it.
Do whatever you want and you will find happiness.
Get that coaster moving!
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ALICIAYOUNG1127 4/17/2011 10:28AM

    Hi! I know your depressed and unsure..but I am telling you that you are in the best position of your life!! You had the guts to admit you dont want to be a lawyer..now you can choose anything..all you need to do is feel productive while you learn more about yourself and what you want to be!!!Your boyfriend dumped you? well, I am sorry you are hurting, but damnit..you are free to do as you please..like focus on your health..without interference..and your parents seem to be very understanding..so your on the right track!!!!You will find when looking back at this time it was like a chance for you to start over..with a clean slate! hell maybe you will find yourself in criminal law, defending animals!!!! or running charity races raising money for animals..or your law knowledge will help you properly open a shelter..the possiblilities are freakin endless! I am envious..GO FOR IT!!!! emoticon

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this means war!!

Wednesday, January 05, 2011

So i finally reached a point today where I could take it no more. I've gained a lot of weight since being on the new meds, so much that I had to buy new clothes. In the mean time my doctor gave me some meds that block fat absorbtion and gets the metabolism going a bit. Today I started training again. Decided to get on the treadmill and sweat it off. I've got a month before I go back to varsity. By then I want to be back in the shape I was when I left there emoticon

  
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SHEILA1505 1/5/2011 11:03AM

    Hi there - with that attitude you will get there :)
Hope the meds will get themselves sorted out and that you enjoy your battle

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BOBBIENORTHERN 1/5/2011 9:59AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon never give up and never quit no matter what happens keep on going forward.

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So random #3

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Tell about a family tradition...

  
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SERENEMOM71 12/30/2010 11:17AM

  One of our family traditions is to cut down a Christmas tree every year. In my family, we have done this since I can remember and I am closer to 60 than 50! This yea, however, my DH and I took a vacation in December for our 40th wedding anniversary (early) to the Grand Cayman Island (had the best time!) and left the watering of the tree to my daughter who lives with us. When we returned, the needles started to fall! By Christmas, the lower half of the tree was totally gone and by the day after, most of the tree was bare. If you have ever wondered how many needles are on a live 8 foot high, 6 foot round live Christmas tree, ask me! Way too many!!!

Until this year, I thought it was a wonderful tradition! Next year, we are getting a fake tree! LOL! I am too old to do that again! Actually, we have been talking about it for several years now as it is hard to put up a live tree year after year and clean up the mess - although it has NEVER been this bad! We will let our younger daughters carry on our tradition with their children, our grandchildren! emoticon

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The so random game 2

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

If you could have a committee of 3 people (living/dead) to help you make decisions, who would it be?

  
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DARK_CINDERELLA 12/22/2010 8:25PM

    My old pastor, my hubby, and Solomon

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LITTLEGUYSMOM1 12/22/2010 3:56PM

    Jesus, my Oma, and my hubby

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VICKIM5 12/22/2010 1:40PM

  My mother, my Dr/Boss and My friend Mandy E

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