emotional eating thwarted! Ha!

Friday, August 26, 2011

Been wanting to eat all night.
Went to the kitchen and started to make a pot of couscous(one of my binge food).
Put the water to boil and went to sit down on the computer and got on .
When I went back to the kitchen,the water was boiling.
I looked at the pot,and I looked at the couscous in the bowl.
I looked again at the pot, and I looked at the couscous.
Then I told myself"it's your choice. What is it going to be?"
So I through out the water and put away the couscous and I feel .
One battle won!!! Only a million more to go!

  

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TEENY_BIKINI 9/9/2011 9:11PM

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GEMINIGEM6 8/27/2011 10:05PM

Yay! Great job!! :) I love Spark too. It keeps me from doing the same thing when I feel tempted. Report Inappropriate Comment

BLUEANGELLK 8/27/2011 9:54PM

YIPPEE!!!!!!!!!! You are a champ! I hear the theme song to the Rocky movies playing. You go girl!!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

MILLISMA 8/27/2011 2:01PM

and that's what it's all about.....one step at a time! Report Inappropriate Comment

CRAZYDOGLADYBO 8/27/2011 1:53PM

That was a great win! Report Inappropriate Comment

SENATOR9 8/27/2011 8:59AM

It's a daily battle one day at a time Report Inappropriate Comment

INSEARCH4MYSELF 8/26/2011 8:28PM

one step at the time, one day at the time. sparkpeople is amazing, I am starting noticing my little successes as well, just very similar to urs :) thanks for sharing! Report Inappropriate Comment

New day-again!

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Today is a new day.
Got my spark back and i'm back on track.
SP is so great because when i feel like giving up,i think of my friends and don't want to give them up.
I just came back from a Christian youth camp with 200 teenagers. I got very tired,came back limping,big bruise on my leg,couldn't move my left arm and had lost my voice,but i had the most wonderful,funnest week that i've had in a long time.
My husband reminded me that i'm not 20 years old anymore!
I had been wanting to go for a few years but i was always too afraid. This time,even though i binged last week over it, i walked over my fear and i went and gave it my all.
It opened my eyes to what is missing in my life -FUN!
My job is serious. My kids have fun with their friends now. We don't go out much anymore and my life is pretty dull.
The lesson that I had out of this week is that if I can face my fears,my life will be blessed.
Also,it's ok to open my heart,even if it's sad,it will not break.
I grew,I learned and I connected. It was worth the lack of sleep.
Now I have to apply what i learned in my weight loss game and to the rest of my life!

  

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WILDFIREKRISTIN 8/26/2011 12:15PM

Bravo, bravo girl! Take a bow! You faced your fears and you won. Rawk on! Having banged up your body so bad, must have felt good because it meant you were alive and doing something with your body that you hadn't done in forever. Every day is something new for us and making strides like this is what is going to keep you on the track to success. Very proud of you my friend ,VERY! Hugs, Kristin Report Inappropriate Comment

TEXAS_GRL 8/21/2011 3:56PM

Wooohoooo! Glad you found your spark again -- it was right where you left it!! Remember this is a lifestyle not a journey and there may be bumps in the road, but always finding our way back is a test to our determination. Report Inappropriate Comment

SENATOR9 8/17/2011 7:27AM

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Day 1

Wednesday, August 03, 2011

This is day one of my new program.
Did exercises this morning and wrote them down.
Wrote down everything I ate but i did not have time to put them on the site.
Wanted to do some cardio,but just did not have time.
Lots of e-mails that are going to go unanswered.
Not a bad day today. Hope for a good day tomorrow!
Have to go to bed because i have to get up early.
Oh! I did my visual of my goals,broke them down,and put some rewards at every 5 lbs.

  

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MAGGIEROSEBOWL 8/4/2011 10:36AM

Sounds like you're getting back in the groove. GO GIRL GO! One step at a time, but always forward. Thanks for your nice comments on my blogs. I find coming here keeps me motivated and inspired and lately I have been spending a lot of time here, because I NEED IT. Thanks for providing me with some of the Spark I need to keep going! Report Inappropriate Comment

BOMBSHELLBEAN 8/4/2011 7:36AM

We all have days we can't catch up. The important thing is you wrote everything down. You saw how the day went but you kept a positive attitude. I'm glad you found your Spark again. Report Inappropriate Comment

SENATOR9 8/4/2011 12:34AM

It a brand new start Do the best you can Report Inappropriate Comment

re-finding my spark

Tuesday, August 02, 2011

Ok.
Enough of this pity party!
Now is the time to get my butt in gear. Again!
Been feeling down,kinda depressed.
Life is not what I want it to be.
SO?
Get over it,stop feeling sorry for yourself,and start living !
The weight is coming back on.
But I still have a 20 lbs lost.
So. TIme to regroup and rethink my goals.
I have 2 goals gone, and I'm going to reach my 3rd as soon as I can.
Tonight,I'm going to make a visual collage(that i didn't do yet) with specific goals to reach and with rewards after each one, so when i am tempted, i (hopefully) will think of that.
But ,to do that tonight,I will have to leave this site, because one of my goals is to get 8 hours sleep as often as i can(sometimes it's just not possible).
Successful spark people are who keep me going,because I know if they can do it, I can do it.
I tracked everything I ate today,but I was 412 calories over!
I will just have to do better tomorrow.

  

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DROSS0616 8/3/2011 8:13AM

You can do it! Good luck! No one is perfect, the key is to keep inching forward! Report Inappropriate Comment

BOMBSHELLBEAN 8/2/2011 8:48PM

Good Luck. Wishing you the best!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

MADKAPKID 8/2/2011 8:38PM

regrouping and getting back to the basics is always a good thing. I know YOU can do it! Just slow and easy ..... YOU can do it! Have a joy filled day, Karen Report Inappropriate Comment

SENATOR9 8/2/2011 7:39PM

No one is perfect.We try we stumble and try again Report Inappropriate Comment

KMCLAUCH 8/2/2011 6:56PM

You can do it! I wish you all the best! Report Inappropriate Comment

gotta find my spark again.

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

It's raining outside today! It will water my garden.
People complain about the rain,but compared to other parts of the world,we are very lucky.
No floods and no lack of rain.
I heard today that 2/3 of the world population don't have access to adequate toilet systems, and that a lot of children die needlessly of simple diarrhea in these places.
Makes me realise that we take so many things for granted over here.
I often feel like my life has not meaning,that i have nothing to strive for and that i just don't have the get up and go to do something with my life.
Hearing statistics like this always make me feel a little guilty because I have so much and the possibilities are endless of what I could do, but, I feel like my life is just passing me by.
Gotta find my spark again!

  

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PATRICIAANN46 7/29/2011 2:28PM

I find it helpful to be with someone who naturally makes me feel good about myself. That feeling stays with me and helps me to do things that are good for me. Whatever works for you is what you should do. Report Inappropriate Comment

GREENMOUSE 7/28/2011 9:25PM

I love the comment "it's right where you left it ." Just picking back up ONE thing that you used to do, be, or think... that's the road back :-) You're doing so WELL! Report Inappropriate Comment

ANJII7 7/28/2011 8:57PM

Some days are hard, and rainy days are hardER!! You are on the right track, desire eventually leads to motivation! Report Inappropriate Comment

CHAMILTON50 7/28/2011 7:34PM

We are soooo blessed to live where we do! is milnor....I think we can live with that. on losing 20 lbs! ....I'm hoping to get there by Sept. Report Inappropriate Comment

ROCKMAN6797 7/28/2011 2:45PM

Keep looking it is there where you left it! Remember, you are doing this for you and you are worth it! Report Inappropriate Comment

GEOPENGUIN 7/28/2011 9:09AM

When you find it you will know...until then: K I C K I T Sometimes the spark will find you... Report Inappropriate Comment

SENATOR9 7/27/2011 9:50PM

We have it easy compare to many Report Inappropriate Comment

BLUEROSE73 7/27/2011 3:06PM

You can do this. You can't solve the worlds poverty problem by yourself today. Yes, you will find a way to help out. I'm sure of that. But it really is an overwhelming problem. Want to know what you can do today? Take advantage of the time you've been given today. Do what you can today to reach your goal tomorrow. Make great food choices. Take an hour (or two if your brave enough) and focus on you. Go for a walk. Go to the gym. Go swimming. And when it's all said and done, pamper yourself for the rest of the time. Hot tub. Soaking in a bubble bath. Or just a nice hot shower to relax your muscles. You will feel so much better. About everything. You will feel you took a step in the right direction to meet your goals tomorrow. You will just feel better overall. Exercise has that nice side effect. Heck, if you do it enough and get your heart rate high enough, you will get those endorphins. Let me tell you, they are the BEST happy pill out there. And 100% natural. You can do this. I believe in you. Told you, I can't race to Onederland without my race partner. What are you going to do today to loose that next pound? How bad do you want it? Are you worth the effort? I say YES YES YES. I posted a new pic on my page. copy and paste this address into your web browser. It'll take you to the picture. http://www.sparkpeo ple.com/mypage_photo_gallery_en large.asp?id=3957998 The saying on it says, I never said the journey would be easy. But I promise you, it will be worth it. It's staring me in the face every minute of every day right now. I need to remember this. And focus on it. It's going to be a long hard journey. But it will be so worth it in the end. Report Inappropriate Comment

WILDFIREKRISTIN 7/27/2011 1:45PM

You can do this new spark friend! We do have so much more then most people in this world and you are right, we take it for granted. Are you keeping that journal? I know it is a pain, but it is so worth it. I used to think blah, blah about it, but now I can look back and go wow, I really didn't feel this way did I? I can also find where I lacked motivation and how I pulled myself up out of the slump. Did you get rid of the FPT? I am crossing my fingers for you and I just know that you will find your inner strength once more! Report Inappropriate Comment

BLUEANGELLK 7/27/2011 1:43PM

You can do it. Just start with one thing, even if it is just walking to the end of the driveway and back or eat one more veggie serving than you normally do. You can do those things easily. You will succeed and then you can go for more. Don't worry that you aren't doing everything, just be thankful you are doing something. Report Inappropriate Comment