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Tuesday, July 08, 2014

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AJDOVER1 7/9/2014 1:51PM


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REGILIEH 7/8/2014 5:07PM

    It is wonderful you had a great birthday and that DH is doing so good! Yea!

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LJCANNON 7/8/2014 3:04PM

    emoticon Happy Belated Birthday!! I am sorry I missed it!!
Enjoy the Pool!!

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My Bday is July 6. Spark People has helped SO much! I'm trying to maintain!

Thursday, July 03, 2014

I'm up over my 3# limit. Trying to get back to reality, for my Bday. My body is craving SO much more than I am use to eating. The temps have been up to 116 degrees & I am still working & delivering & doctors appt. for DH, in this extreme heat. I AM drinking LOTS of water & trying to stay hydrated. Sun screen every 2 hours, but my body wants/needs salt! So I have been adding salt to hard boiled eggs, eating more concentrated foods like popcorn 100 cal packs, etc. Still 4 cups of raw veggies, daily & chicken, but is it the extra salt keeping me over goal. It is kind of like a mini battle inside my body.

I get up before I'm really ready 5am to walk LUCY dog, at about 87 degrees. The park is just watered, we walk in the shade spots of the trees so she won't get hot. I love this time of the day, the moisture & flowers on the trees & birds singing, etc. Is beautiful. By 9 am it is about 100. I swim in the pool before the sun hits it. The water is 84 today. Then Pilates 2 times a week & Zumba 3 times a week. After working in the heat I come back home & practically collapse for the rest of the day. Trying to keep my body happy is taking a bit of a toll on my mind. I need time to regroup.

DH is now having the nurse come 3 times a week instead of 7, so that will help with all the activities of guests. I think this will help a little. So I can get out to work before it gets too hot. I came out of Costco yesterday, our car temp said it was 137 on the parking lot. No joke! I thought I was figuring out the dehydration thingy, as ZUMBA burn about 900 cals per hour. So I rehydrate after with protein drinks before. BUT THIS HEAT IS VERY HOT! OK, I'm back to learning this new computer, off my soap box! I'm so HAPPY DH & I are figuring out all the things I did for his business, so we can keep it going!

Happy 4th! My Mom use to tell me that all the people in the park, for the fireworks display were there for my Bday. We use to celebrate then. By the time I was 12 I finally asked, if they are here for me to celebrate, where are the presents? LOL. This was in Van Nuys, CA hundreds of people, sweet memory's!

Love you!
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April 2014 Selfie

Our pool, I am SO lucky!

March 2014 at goal

Happy 4th to the USA! Happy weekend! Happy Sparkpeople!

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FIT4MEIN2013 7/7/2014 1:47PM

    That's hot! Where do you live?

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FLORIDASUN 7/7/2014 8:27AM

    Of course they were there for YOUR birthday! They just forgot to bring presents... emoticon Wow...I don't know HOW you tolerate that kind of heat. I turn into a whining mess when the temp gets in the 90's here in super sunny FL. I really think the humidity is the killer's 100% at 6 a.m. UGHHHH...but I surely don't complain in January now do I? Well...maybe..the traffic is AWFUL! emoticon BUT I'll take traffic over humidity ANY day!

Stay hydrated and don't push yourself too hard. Surely you don't do zumba without air conditioning? emoticon

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EILEEN828 7/7/2014 5:33AM

    I think all bets are off during that kind of heat. Looks to me you are maintaining pretty well. Keep taking dips in your pool. emoticon

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MSLZZY 7/4/2014 8:22AM

    emoticon Keep on Sparking and happy birthday!

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AJDOVER1 7/4/2014 12:02AM

    I'm looking forward to celebrating your birthday! What a blessing you are to my world!

Stay safe and cool -- don't sweat a little blip in the weight since it's weather related. Things will cool down by November or so!

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SPARKFRAN514 7/3/2014 7:09PM

    A memory is a treasure that survives. enjoy your birthday memories and have a special day. have to agree that getting out early in the day when its so warm is a good plan get your water in and don't get your hat and sun glasses along with the sun screen
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MARGARITTM 7/3/2014 4:14PM

    Pool looks fantastic.... enjoy your week end and Birthday

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HOLLYM48 7/3/2014 2:43PM

    You look fantastic and the heat will sure does suck! Wow, we may be cold in MN but I don't think I could take that kind of heat. ufda! Stay cool as much as you can, stay hydrated and do your best, that is all you can do. One day at a time. You have been juggling so much and it is very stressful I am sure. Give yourself a break but stay diligent! You are doing great! Big hugs and Happy Happy birthday week to you!!!!

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Thank you to all my Spark friends! You helped me through the hardest year of my life!

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

You have all helped me so much these past 6 months! WOW! We are finally seeing the rainbow at the end of this VERY long trying time of DH staying alive! He is still having nurses, daily to help with his wounds from hospital. Truly wonderful people! IF you live in Las Vegas & need at home nurses, they are AMAZING! Integrity home health.

I'm flying to dance & play with Zumba today. I'm on a scale of 1-10 with 10 being the highest, an 11 today as far as joy is concerned! Your the best! Thanks again! Love you all!

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ps... this new computer is hard for me to learn, BUT it works SO fast, I love it & you!

Flowers from the internet!

Woo Hoo! USA! Still in the soccer games! Let's go team USA! emoticon

Happy Canada day! emoticon
I love having a clean house! & swimming
I love my life!

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FLORIDASUN 6/30/2014 12:05PM

    I'm SO VERY happy things are looking up for you and have been there for him all along and now it's time to enjoy the fruits of your labor!

Hugs to you my dear friend!

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EILEEN828 6/28/2014 1:10AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon That flower is amazing! So are you!

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ARCHIMEDESII 6/27/2014 12:22PM

    That's a pretty wonderful looking rainbow ! I can see it all the way in Boston.


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TREV1964 6/27/2014 11:25AM

    A while back when things were pretty bad for you I was sat here over in England hoping that days like today would begin to happen for you as soon as it was able to happen. That light at the end of the tunnel seems to be getting ever more brighter.

Great stuff

Cheers, Love and respect as always


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AJDOVER1 6/26/2014 11:53AM

    It's such a joy to share this journey with you!

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MSLZZY 6/26/2014 6:40AM

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SPARKFRAN514 6/25/2014 9:34PM

    emoticon husband on the mend your feeling better and getting out of the house. thanks for sharing the pictures . we made it though hump day and now on to Thursday emoticon

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  Happy for you!!

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SLIMMERJESSE 6/25/2014 2:08PM

    It's wonderful to begin to see that rainbow. Wishing you and your dh many healthy days ahead.

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WIFE48 6/25/2014 12:28PM

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REGILIEH 6/25/2014 11:59AM

    So happy for you!!!



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I am FINALLY feeling like our life is going to be 'normal' again!

Wednesday, June 18, 2014

emoticon It's been a LONG, LONG year so far. Plus I am really waiting for it to start! Yes! I still have our Christmas tree up. When DH is strong enough, he will reopen his presents!

I'm getting a new computer, so I will be able to Spark SO MUCH FASTER!!Got it, now all have to do is figure out how to access ANYTHING!3 hours looking for stuff & found nothing! XP to windows 7. It took teck guy 4 hours just to set up. I'm on tablet......I sure feel dumb!

I'm flying now, have fun!!

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TREV1964 6/27/2014 11:23AM

    This is most wonderful news - things really seem to be getting better on a daily basis for you at the moment.

I have not been around a for little while owing to students exams and a very hectic time but am back in here now and am rapidly catching up with everything.

Keep going and keep building the strength.

Cheers, love and respect as always.


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EILEEN828 6/22/2014 7:41AM

    Starlight, I'm so happy to hear you feel this way. Congrats on the new computer, that's something my husband and I have been thinking about doing also. I'm very unlearned in the ways of teckieness, ha ha. I was looking again at your pool, I so want to dive right in, it's so inviting! I hope you've been being a lounge lizard out there by the pool. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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AJDOVER1 6/19/2014 6:37PM

    so good to hear!

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FLORIDASUN 6/19/2014 6:04PM

    I'm so happy to hear that things are moving in the right direction. Heck, I'd just leave the tree up at this point and call it 'early' for next season! emoticon emoticon

Fantastic on the new computer...I'm excited for you..when does it come? You've really been diligent about still doing your sparking with a sluggish computer...woo hoo...can't wait til the new one comes! emoticon emoticon

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MSLZZY 6/19/2014 6:44AM

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MILLEDGE2 6/19/2014 6:19AM

    The title of your blog says it all! Hooray! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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REGILIEH 6/18/2014 9:41PM

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SLIMMERJESSE 6/18/2014 8:46PM

    Oh, this is such good news!

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Feeling a little overwhelmed with caregiving my DH. SP helps SO much!

Monday, June 09, 2014

I'm feeling a little guilty about feeling overwhelmed caregiving DH, today. Sometimes I 'over due it' & sometimes I have several places I feel I could do better:-) :-)
This has been an VERY intense 1/2 year! He was in hospital 4 months, rehab 1 month, & now home since May 7, (wow a month!) I DO have help! A nurse comes daily to clean his level 3 wound, he got in hospital Jan. 3. It IS healing, but I feel I need to be at the house, to let them in. I always try to make people who come to our home feel welcome. After all they are HELPING us so much. He also gets Physical Therapy 3 times a week. The angels that come to help him, really are a God send! He has a hard time with the fact I still need to do so much for him. Cooking, all household chores, driving, helping keep him clean, etc. I feel it is OK, as I see him get better & better. Then he'll resent me if I go over the boundaries. I'm still learning what the boundaries are.

We are also trying to keep up with the business. This is a VERY hard thing for him, as he should not be sitting up very long & off the wound. I think we are doing pretty good, considering everything. His attitude is quite positive. We are VERY close & know each other VERY well. We have been together off & on since 1968. He can tell when I am frustrated & that makes him frustrated. We can REALLY push each others buttons!

I continue with my favorite ZUMBA teacher, 3 times a week. But my own marionette business is starting to need attention, if I plan on continuing that. Everyday I look for the joys in our lives. The fact that he survived & is getting better, is magnificent! Our love is stronger than ever. We have our home to live in. Our LADY LUCY THE WONDROUS CIRCUS DOG keeps us remembering to live in the present & our beautiful LUCKY, a parakeet, keeping us all cheeping, everyday! Sparking has had to take a back seat for me, because of my time constraints. I DO keep my records moving forward, that is what is keeping me remembering my goals & wishes. I have maintained my weight & we are eating VERY healthy! I try to keep us fed in an energizing way. Lot's of veggies & everything required for our health! If I could just REMEMBER this is a TEMPORARY situation, he will get back to being independent, once again. But during the 'uncomfortable' times I forget that!

Thanks for reading! I found a website for support for caregivers. That site helped me remember I have a whole world of Sparkers, helping each other! If there is anything I can help YOU with please, just ask!

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A selfie from my SP anniversary March 16, 2014

Our pool, lot's of cleaning but I can finally get IN! 107 outside today! WOW!

ENCHANTED, is my favorite Disney movie. This is an 8 ball I just bought on ebay! VERY fun!!

PS... update things are better, everyday. communaction is GREAT! We are figuring it out!

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EILEEN828 6/14/2014 6:16AM

    You are doing such a good job, your husband is doing his best as well. It's easy to let it all hang out when frustration sets in, it can feel hurtful but in a round about way it is also a complement that he trusts you enough to be very real with his frustrations. He also knows that he's taking advantage of your loyalty when he's short tempered and I'm sure he feels guilty about that. Both of you are learning the true life lessons of patience, humility, compassion, empathy, forgiveness and most of all, love. Time will make things better, and in the long run you will be stronger, more resilient, more connected, not only to yourselves individually, and as a couple, but also to God. This is a lesson you've needed to learn on a deeper level than you ever have before. It is an improvement to your soul. Remember how far you've already come, this is another milestone that you will look back on, and you will marvel at how quickly things progressed past this point. Give yourself a big hug, forgive yourself and him, treat yourself to things that lift your spirits. Congratulate yourself for having done an amazing job, something you can truly be proud of in front of others, and in the depths of your heart. You've proved that you have become an improved version of yourself, and you can feel proud that you've followed through on what is something you would want someone else to do for you in their same circumstances. Your integrity is all there. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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SPARKFRAN514 6/11/2014 11:21PM

    I know it can be a struggle being a care giver i cared for my mom from 2004 until 2010 some days we to pushed each others buttons . enjoy you Zumba time . remember you are human. Its nice you feel you the need to greet the care givers when they arrive which is good how long are they with your husband after greeting them could do a few errands or go for swim while they are caring for your husband? take a relaxing bubble bath ? this time might be your spark time you would be in the house . I am sure your husband knows what you giving up to his care giver. and feels bad he can't do more for him self. hugs form some one who has been a care giver for two aunts and mom emoticon emoticon emoticon

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FELINEBETTER 6/11/2014 6:55AM

    Your feeling overwhelmed is completely understandable and natural! You have been through a long and challenging year that continues to challenge you. From my experience, when you start to feel very overwhelmed, it's a signal to find some time for some self-care. Even that is something as simple as having a bubble bath, going to Zumba class, going for a walk with Lucy the Wonder Dog.... whatever.

You have done a magnificent job of not only taking care of your husband but also the business and the regular day to day living stuff. Of course you're exhausted!!

Please try to carve yourself out a little time each day to show yourself some of the love you've been generously sharing with everyone around you.

You will get through this -- but be sure to care for the care-giver as well.


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SEASONS_CHANGE_ 6/11/2014 4:54AM

    You definitely have your hands full and it sounds like you're doing a marvelous job at maintaining it all. Soon DH will be back to his old self and life will get back to normal.

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MSLZZY 6/10/2014 9:45PM

    Hang in there! A time will come when you can devote some time to other things but you seem to be doing well. Spark on!

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LJCANNON 6/10/2014 6:42PM

    emoticon I know it is Hard, and some days will be nearly Impossible!! But, in my Opinion, the Most Important Thing is to Take Care Of YOU!! It is NOT "Selfish" to get away for awhile, or to delegate some of the Chores that you do for your DH.
emoticon And when he says or does Hurtful Things, remember that it is the Illness and Frustration talking, not his True Heart. (it will Still Hurt, I know, but maybe it will be easier to Forgive when you remember "Who" is talking)

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FLORIDASUN 6/10/2014 8:03AM

    You are facing a very difficult life situation and my heart is with yours my beautiful friend! When I brought my dear little mother with Alzheimer's home from Ia. to live with us it was like caring for a child once again.

I had to take her to the table, sit her down, put her food in front of her and cut it up and get her showered, toenails and fingernails cut and dressed. I had to make sure she went to the bathroom okay and then clean up any accidents. Since the hubs and I were still working full time and our dear son was still in high school that set forth it's own challenges.

I worried that Josh was getting the sleep he needed at night because mother would get up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night and then get lost even though the bathroom was only steps away from her bedroom.

Josh's bedroom was right next to hers so she'd pound on his door even though he had it locked.

We had to get her ready for elder day care and take her and pick her up every day.

Gosh...looking back I don't know how we handled it for the 14 months she stayed with us before we found a nursing home and then I felt so horrible about doing I had deserted this sweet loving little mother of mine.

But once she began wandering around the house naked and this sweet dear perfectly modest woman freaked our son out to the max...we knew it was time.

BUT...we do get through those challenges just as you will too! Whenever you feel overwhelmed and out of control try to think of how lost and lonely you'd be if DH hadn't pulled through for you...that will certainly help you focus on the positive and give you the strength to carry on.

I'm praying for you my dear friend...this is not easy but love surmounts ALL ODDS!

Hugs and know that I admire you for your spunk and your determination.

Keep doing the things you know you must do for your own health and try to live in the present and not worry about the past or the future...I should practice my OWN emoticon emoticon emoticon

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REGILIEH 6/10/2014 1:22AM

    I think caregiving is the very hardest job there is!

You are doing a fabulous job! Look how far you both have come.

I bet if you look you can see light at the end of that tunnel!


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HOLLYM48 6/9/2014 8:00PM

    This is a very tough time that you are going through and you just have to keep in mind that it wont be forever. When you both need some time away from one another you can do your zumba and go for a walk or swim or whatever else will give you a little time to decompress. Just remember to take care of you in all of this so you don't get worn out. Keep up the great work. This too shall pass.
You look fantastic and you are doing great!

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AUGUSTDRAGON 6/9/2014 7:40PM

    This too shall pass. Take a moment for yourself, a 10 minute break to recenter yourself. It helps. You have more inner strength than you know. DH appreciated everything you do for him. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CAT-IN-CJ 6/9/2014 7:26PM

    Yes, since you asked, there is something you can do for me . . .

Take a couple 5 to 10 minute 'mini vacations' into your busy day
and put your feet up, or do something YOU enjoy, something
that will bring you peace. or just BREATHE!!!

Please and thank you.

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AJDOVER1 6/9/2014 4:34PM

    You are an incredible inspiration to me!
You and those you love are in my prayers.

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PHOENIX1949 6/9/2014 4:29PM

    emoticon emoticon Nice anniversary selfie. Inviting pool.

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SLENDERELLA61 6/9/2014 3:59PM

    I feel for you. Caregiving is so challenging. I keep my 3 year old and 7 year old grandkids and that is one kind of challenge. My hubby is having colon and liver surgery (with 2 separate surgeons) on June 17th. I hope both are benign and that he tolerates it well. I'm not sure what kind of a caregiver I would be for him. We push each other's button a lot, too. Luckily we are both retired so no pressures of a business. That has to be rough. Good for you for cooking healthy.

I appreciate the very positive tone of this blog, when you have so much going on. Continue to focus on the good things; it will serve you well.

And thanks for your sweet comments on my blog!! -Marsha

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ARCHIMEDESII 6/9/2014 3:56PM

    Pardon the pun, but you do have a lot on your plate. So, it's no wonder you're feeling more than a little overwhelmed right now.

There is only so much one person can do. You do the best you can and take things as they come each day. Don't try to do everything or you will end up frustrated and overwhelmed.

It's awfully hard work being a care taker, but I am glad you're taking your Zumba classes. It's important that you have some down time too. Like I said, you can't go 24/7. You need a break some times too.

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