Monday, January 27, 2014
The 1st month of the New Year is coming to a close as I re-ignite my path back to feeling healthy, energetic & happy again.
I kicked off bioidentical hormone therapy about 3 weeks ago & am starting to feel some differences. I'm sleeping better, have more energy, smiling again & starting to move again (even went back to Pilates after 10 years). I now want to boost my willpower & came across an article in an old issue of Yoga magazine that connected me to a relevant link.
Week 1: Choose a Focus
Willpower is the ability to go after what I really want—even when it's difficult, or some part of me doesn't want to (or believes that you can't). To find my willpower, I first need to know what I want.
Of course, we all want lots of different things. We even have competing parts of ourselves that want different things. Part of me might want to stay in bed all day & eat chocolate (not really). Another part of me might want to change the world (ambitious). Part of me wants to eat healthfully & practice yoga every day (ideal), & another part might wonder, what's the point (sometimes)?
If I listen carefully, there's another part of me—call it my inner wisdom—that senses what I really need to be my best self, to show up fully in my life, & to contribute what only I can offer the world (food for thought).
This week, I'm going to tap into my inner wisdom by reflecting on the following questions. By the end of this week,I'll see if I can identify a specific goal, behavior, or process I want to commit to & explore over the next month. It's OK if the focus feels big, or even impossible. This first step is about opening to possibility, & inviting in a transformative vision for myself & my life.
1. If anything were possible, what would I most like to welcome in to my life? What might this require of me? Answer: To fit into size 10 clothing again, have energy, take care of my health at all times, eat nutritiously, be happy, feel like I'm growing, have peace & love in my family & to get a leadership role in my company where I can make a positive difference.
2. Is there anything in my life that I am ready to let go of? What direction would I move in, & what would be possible, if I did? Answer: I am ready to let go of trying to solve everyone else's problems, stay out of other people's business & focus on ME.
3. When I'm feeling stressed out, overwhelmed, or self-critical, where do I put my attention? What do I give my energy to? Is this how I want to spend my time & resources? Answer: I put my focus on feeling frustrated that I can't fix everything. I put my energy on feeling sad & guilty for not being able to do more. Then, I eat & sleep, which makes me feel worse. I want to change this pattern by changing my expectations of myself.
4. When I feel hopeful, inspired, & connected, where do I put my attention? What do I give your energy to? As I look forward in my life, what do I want to give my attention & energy to? Answer: When I'm feeling optimistic, I prioritize eating well, exercising & sending love to the universe. I want to give attention & energy to now loving myself which I'm not as good at so that I can sustain the willpower to stay committed to a life of well being.
How would you respond to these questions for yourself?
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Over the last 2 years, I've been gradually gaining weight, hitting a new peak since I was pregnant with my 2nd child over 15 years ago. Along the way, life's stresses have added to my feeling depressed on occasion & lethargic on most days. Work is at a fever pitch with lots of drama. DH & I have had our share of growing pains which we presently seem to be thankfully working through. The prospect of hitting 50 next year is beginning to hit & my body from top to bottom.
This past Spring, I started limping & waited several weeks until I made it to an orthopedist where I learned that I had developed painful heel spurs (which I'm guessing is aggravated by the weight gain). I did PT 3x/week for 3 months over the summer & stopped limping, but the pain never went away. I then went to a podiatrist who gave me cortisone-like shots on 2 different occasions, but I still live with the pain day & night.
Despite the pain in my heels, I re-booted a few months & got back on SP seeking some discipline & help to get my weight back under control. I dropped a few pounds which left me elated, only to gain them even more quickly back. I felt frustrated because the number of calories I consume on a given day isn't all that high, between 1400-1800 with an occasional / rare 2000. I had been hitting the gym, even spinning 2 back to back classes twice a week, all to no avail. The pain in my heels did slow me down from time to time which has been a challenge.
In search of some answers, I scheduled 2 appointments with an acupuncturist & an MD who has done bio identical hormone replacement therapy. Today, I got a small dose of Chinese medicine & discovered that I am Yin & spleen deficient (interesting info when you Google this). I learned that my body is generating heat internally which is drying up other parts of my body (eyes, lips, stool / constipation) & need to drink more water (& definitely NOT ice cold, but room temperature or even hot / warm water). I also got confirmation that eating bread, which turns into sugar, is a craving I must face & deal with. It seems that bread affects the spleen which in turn can affect my metabolism.
Today, I laid down for 20 minutes with a total of 16 needles in body (8 on each side) targeting specific points through out my body, from head to heel, that might be blocked. I wish I could say it was relaxing, but the room got cold (which was intentional on the practitioners part since I generate heat internally) & my phone, which was on vibrate, kept buzzing as my boss was frantically trying to reach me. Thankfully, only 2 of the needles initially hurt a tiny bit which ultimately subsided. I am scheduled for another visit next week & expect around 6 visits with the acupuncturist. I am hopeful that I'll see some difference in my heel pain as well as my metabolism after the 3rd visit.
On Monday, I have an appointment with an MD to see if my hormones are out of kilter which is possible. Then, I will see about the possible solutions with bio identical hormone therapy that Suzanne Sommers has been preaching for the last decade or more.
I am feeling positive that the pieces of the puzzle (my body) might finally be coming together as I work to connect the dots...
Friday, October 11, 2013
Why I Want to Lose Weight:
1. To get back into my beautiful size 10 clothing collecting dust in my closet
2. To enjoy having my photo taken again
3. To be able to walk briskly without huffing & puffing
4. To feel healthy & fit
5. To have a more active lifestyle
6. To feel sexy
7. To not feel like a fat person
8. To get on the scale & smile
9. To have lean legs so that I can wear shorts again
10.To feel young as I approach 50 next year
Tuesday, October 01, 2013
I am taking a moment to pause & recognize where I am on the road to feeling healthy & fit after a few months back on SP. Sadly, I haven't kept the few pounds I worked so hard to take off. I've gotten sucked into an adrenaline high at work with lots going on & have neglected to take care of myself. On top of that, I have been in L.A. over the last few days with sexy young 20 something yearl olds & feeling old & fat which is not where I want to be.
I downloaded a great app on my iPhone called GPS FOR THE SOUL & get daily reminders to take a break & great articles to keep me motivated & regain the confidence in my ability to lose the weight, despite some setbacks.
My homework assignments from this article:
1. Look the part.
Pick up a fashion item that makes me feel good - I'm going to look for a new wool coat in a pale pink to feel feminine again
2. Fake it!
I will walk tall, shoulders back, posture erect, head held high. I believe that I am a confident person and will carry as if I am!
3. Edit Internal Dialogue
I will practice saying positive things to myself..."I can do this!"
4. Set small goals -- and achieve them!
I will lose 5 pounds in the next 4 weeks as a birthday present to myself
5. Be happy... and grateful
I am taking time to acknoweldge that I am grateful for the love in my life, my family, my kids, my BFF & work that's invigorating.
I have traveled to the West Coast 3 times over the last 3 months & will be back again next month. I will get back to eating healthy, meditating, exercising & drinking water.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
I'm entering my 8th week of reboot & am grateful for the 5% Summer Challenge & the support of the Casual Travelers. As of this morning, I'm down 6.2 lbs which hasn't been easy. I had entered the 180's last week & got derailed at work with lots of sweets that spoke to me upon my TOM. I gained 3 lbs by mid week & then ended up kicking butt the last few days & reached a new low of 188.8 today (Yippee!!!).
I am traveling to the West Coast tomorrow (gotta pack!) until Saturday for business. I will have 12 hour work days again which is a challenge as I need my rest / sleep. I had 9.5 hours last night so maybe I can bank some (lol). Thankfully, L.A. has scrumptious fruits & veggies so will focus on eating healthy. Not sure how I'll have time to exercise, but know that if I focus on eating right that I'll lose weight.
I will meditate in the mornings or evenings before bedtime depending on how much time I have. I will walk when I have any down time & breathe.
See you all next week...
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