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I though I had hit rock bottom in Sept. but I was wrong!!

Monday, February 23, 2009

This sucks! I have hit an all time weight and I am absolutely miserable with myself. I suffer from depression and through the holidays it got totally out of control. I'm one of the lucky ones...I GAIN weight when I'm depressed. I have put on all of the weight I lost in 2007 plus some! GRRRRRR!!!! I am absolutely miserable and I need to change the way I am living or I will die. My cholesterol is almost 300 and I am having joint and muscle pain due to excess weight. I turned 40 and have hit a wall. I really need some support outside of myself and I really haven't been able to get any from my immediate friends. I need sparkpeople support so here I am AGAIN to get my life under control!

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ZVER1028 2/23/2009 12:48PM

    Keep blogging and talking about how you are feeling on this site emoticon emoticon

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Too scared to get on the scale!!!

Thursday, September 04, 2008 has been over 3 weeks and my routine is doing much better. I have been eating much better and getting my cardio in. Unfortunately I enjoy jogging outside and it has been raining for 5 days straight because of the hurricane. I haven't been getting in as much exercise as I want too but I'm not too discouraged. I am TERRIFIED to get on the scale. It can either make or break me. If it hasn't moved I will just go bananas! I don't think I can take the disappointment if I haven't lost at least a couple of pounds. Anyone else scared to get on the scale????? emoticon

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    Then don't get on until you are comfortable with it.

Mind you, a loss will exhilarate you but if you can't handle the possible disappointment you don't need to set yourself up for defeat.

Just keep jogging.


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My first week....

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Ok, week one went OK. I did do all the excersice I intended to do. I had a few slip ups with the food but for the most part I did pretty well. I really enjoy getting back out on the road and running. I feel really good when I'm finished. I am not back where I was but it will come in time. I'm not going to beat myself up for not going as far as I used to go. I'm carrying extra weight so it it harder but I can feel some differences in my legs. They feel stronger and my arms are getting more toned just after a week. Week 2 I will concentrate on curbing my carb cravings and keeping my excercise going.

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VSINGLE72 8/29/2008 12:01PM

    emoticon I'm proud of you, keep up the good work!

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    I'm just so proud of you! I knew you could do this!


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Monday, August 11, 2008

Last year I worked my butt off to lose weight and now I have started gaining it back. I get it into my head that once I reach a certain goal I can quit. I worked for a year and did a total lifestyle change and for some reason I went back to my old habits. I am so frustrated with myself but I can't dwell on that. I have to just get back to doing what I was doing before and not beat myself up about it. I have got to get myself moving again! I loved the way I felt and looked. I was so happy to be looking hot again in my clothes. I am going to get back into my skinny clothes and keep it off this time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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TATASTHA 8/13/2008 9:03PM

    Just take little steps and you will get there. You have done it one you know the way

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