Thursday, December 01, 2011
Just continuing my blog streak! My grandpa isn't doing so well :(. He's 86, so he's ready to go..but he's taken a turn for the worse. The worst part about it is that my dad won't really let any details go because he's scared he'll scare us. Kinda stressed about it. :(. Hope you guys are having a good night though!
Wednesday, November 30, 2011
Oh no, I forgot to blog yesterday! haha-complete accident! Today, I wrote a love letter to myself. I know, it sounds cheesy! But it's time to embrace the cheese. It was kinda long though and I wrote it out by hand. It was to remind me of the things I can forget a lot of the time.
Since a lot of us struggle with the same issues, I thought I would share it with you guys :). I'm trying to reiterate that I'm worthy. Those feelings of unworthiness can creep in sometimes because of how I was raised and my perfectionism. If you ever feel like you are not giving enough, writing a love letter to yourself isn't a bad idea! :) Here's some excerpts from mine:
November 30, 2011
...Pay attention to your heart. Take stock of your accomplishments. Give yourself credit where credit is due. Live fearlessly, say what's on your mind (and heart). Who cares about being vulnerable? Who cares if someone rejects you? You owe it to yourself to say what's on your mind. Embrace your heart when it's aching. Love yourself, it's OK to do so. Just because you spend time on you doesn't make you a bad or selfish person (contrary to what you have been directly and indirectly told in the past).
Respond with love, treat others the way you want to be treated, care for yourself like you care for others. Remember you don't have to carry out every plan and dream you have this very second. Take time to breathe, you have your whole life to help others.
You deserve what you give everyone else, don't forget that! You can't be everything for everyone and you just won't be able to do it all. There's no reason to feel guilty about that and you can't help the people you do have time for to the best of your ability if you are spread too thin. Everything happens for a reason and God will make sure he is bringing you the people you can help.
Stop worrying for the sake of worrying! Get out of that habit! Worrying serves no purpose. Surrender that worry so you can allow better things to be attracted to you. You know worrying does no good, remind yourself to act like it (you can forget sometimes)!
Constantly remind yourself it's OK to be vulnerable and ask for help--it's how the best and strongest relationships are made.
Stop thinking about how bad you feel for people whose feelings you hurt years ago when you were hurt. You didn't know any better and have already apologized. The feelings of guilt are useless and you learned so much about your issues of vulnerability in your healing process. Apologize when you're sorry and accept if the person is still hurt and isn't ready to take that apology.
Accept that you still have some healing to do and quit being so impatient! The process is how you learn everything/grow and you still have lessons to learn! Trust your intuition when it comes to the healing process.
Now I'll stop lecturing you and tell you that I am so proud of you. You have worked so hard over the last 21 months and have come so far because of it. You are allowing yourself to embrace your emotions, regardless of how painful it can be. You are dealing with the past and healing, something that a lot of people don't have the courage to do. Give yourself credit for how far you've come! You have done so much in a relatively short period of time!
You are such a sweet person and have so much to offer the people around you. Your determination, strength, empathy, and love for others will take you so far. You are going to end up helping so many people and will do your part in making the world a better place. You just have to learn to make the time necessary for yourself first so you can do your best with helping others. You are worth it!
You deserve and are worthy of everything your heart desires. You are worthy of feeling the way you help others to feel. You are worthy of receiving. Do not feel guilty when others give to you, you feel this way because of how you were raised. The world is about giving and receiving (not just giving, giving, giving). Accept this and accept when people want to give you something..regardless if it be a compliment, a meal, a book, or their time. You give others the same every single day and deserve to have the same things you give other people.
One last thing, it's OK not to bust your butt all the time. You don't have to feel guilty for taking time off or time to think projects through. And that advice you got about setting deadlines to stuff that isn't completed--stop taking it. It just stresses you out because you expect too much of yourself and your expectations are too high most times. Wait to take that advice until you learn to have reasonable expectations. You never have to worry about working enough, it's just in your blood and what you do due to your perfectionism. Do not feel guilty when you take time off, you'll always be doing enough. You are worthy.
Remember, I love you and have your best interests in mind.
Monday, November 28, 2011
If you know me, you know I'm alllllllllllllll about planning. I feel like most people who put the effort into SP are. I've lived that way my whole entire life. Yesterday, I was planning and it dawned on me...why don't I take this one day at a time? Right now, I feel like I am over planning and as a result, I feel overwhelmed. I know what I need to do right now and that is what I will do for the time being. I know exactly where I want to go, I don't need to over plan and analyze as much as I do I feel like. Maybe in the future, but not for now. Hehe.
For now, my main focus is my current commitments and getting rid of all of that stuff I have accumulated over the years :). I re-started ChaLEAN Extreme today...want to get through a second round of it. I finished my last round in July :). Unfortunately, I haven't been working out but maybe once a week since then. haha. Need to get back to it :) Back to basics, ya know? Water, at least 10 minutes of exercise, and blogging everyday. Want to spend a decent amount of time on Sparks as well :)
Sunday, November 27, 2011
So today marks the last day of the Vitality Challenge :) Wooooeeey :). We have our last accountability call tonight. Lookin' forward to it. Tonight I'm making a balance plan! I'm going to track every week and aim for 14 hours a week of ME time, 14 hours a week of writing/product development (workbooks and principles), 14 hours a week of coaching, and 14 hours a week of website/marketing stuff.
If you know me, you know I sometimes forget to have my me time :). I am going to spend this time reading, meditating, and doing other things by myself. I am going to be tracking on separate sheets every week and cutting myself off when I have spent too much time on any one area (I tend to overwork). I think this will really help me see how I am spending my time as well. I don't want to forget to have fun, which I have a tendency to do since the perfectionist in me is a natural workaholic :)
Can you guys relate? hehe.
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