Tuesday, March 15, 2011
I am reflecting on all my blog entries the past year as the days come up, this is the one that was written one year ago today:
Monday, March 15, 2010
Doing this a bit differently this time...
So, when I began this process on the 9th/10th...I didn't have a clear program in my mind. I didn't know what I wanted to do...I just wanted to lose weight and be healthy! Now that I've been going at it for a couple of days..I want to revamp my plan to make sure I do not include things that were my downfalls in the past.
For example, the scale ALWAYS messes me up. I now it is very motivational for many people..it is so discouraging to me when I get on that scale after busting my butt off just to see that I have GAINED weight. I know that what I am doing is good, and I don't need a scale to tell me that. I would like to keep track of my body fat percentage more so than my actual weight. I have decided that my goals are going to focus on body fat...my goals are going to be set based on the guidelines of healthy body fat percentages. When I'm tracking my weight, I get restless and give up. My other goals are going to focus on getting out to the gym and burning calories.
I am really starting to get into working out again..yaaay! Makes my life so much easier..I LOVE Spark People..I truly believe I wouldn't be where I am without all the goals this site helps me set and all my Spark Friends and Teams! You guys ROCK!! :)
Loved my mentality of throwing away the scale-something I have had to adopt one this time. I am going to start a challenge for myself that has been a lot different than the one's I have set in the past. It is going to focus on creating a normal relationship with food (which obviously means I won't be bingeing!). I had a normal relationship with food for like the whole 7 months that I started on Sparks. Then, when the comments started again and I felt like I was being controlled, my bingeing began. I can't make excuses anymore though. Ultimately, I am responsible for myself.
This means no eating when I'm not hungry, no overeating, etc.
I am going to aim for 8 glasses of water a day, stopping eating when I am full, eating whatever I want in moderation, etc. I am also not going to plan my workouts. I am following the C25K plan right now..but it just takes like 30 minutes every other day. I also have a personal trainer for the next month, but we're going to mostly focus on lifting weights and building muscle.
I have a much clearer mind this way. I have realized the goals I have set for myself during the past year have been great, but it's time to find another area of my life to improve. :). For those of you that aren't regular readers, I neeeed to be accomplishing goals that I set for myself. I'm very much a goal-oriented person. When I graduated college, I all of a sudden didn't know what to put my energy into. That's when I found SparkPeople and put it into getting healthy and losing weight. I think it's time to focus on other goals...such as my career and stuff more than being healthy. If I could develop a healthy relationship with food (where I don't have problems with bingeing no matter what anyone is saying to me), I would be so proud of myself. I think that starts with focusing on only eating until I am full.
Maybe starting a streak of being conscientious of when I am full? Today is day 1 :)