Tuesday, February 08, 2011
I'm remaining accountable by writing in here. Today was the most awful day I have had in so long. I'd be lying if I said that I didn't want to calm myself down with food-because I did. But I diddddn't. I ate a couple of things (Mac and Cheese from Browns Chicken and part of an Italian Beef sandwich) that I normally wouldn't, but it's OK because I didn't binge. haha. I didn't do my workout today...I was upset and it really drained me. I had $500 stolen from me by my little sister (for those of you that have read about her know a little bit more about her issues). Of course she's going to deny it...and I'm out $500. And since she says she didn't do it and it doesn't really effect my dad...I'm just out the money. Just what I can afford....
I'm sad today..not like permanently. But definitely really upset. The good news is I think I handled it properly. Which is important because I wasn't always so good at this. I skipped my cardio today..but it's OK...I can have a rest day anyway.
Today is day 4 of ChaLEAN Extreme (rest day) and day 4 of me being binge-free. I do need to clean up my diet a bit though..get rid of some of the crap I'm eating. hahah. I weighed myself..I couldn't resist..I started my period. My fat is at 45 pounds..want to get that down to like 25-30. I think? I don't know..gotta see what I look like :). Huuugs.