Saturday, October 30, 2010
Ahhh..I have seriously gotten like 10 calls/texts/Facebook chats from friends about going out tonight. I thought that my whole problem would be saying no to them when they asked. Turns out, my plan of asking myself questions to psychologically make myself WANT to stay in worked..but it didn't prepare me for what is actually happening..being annoyed. haha.
All of these people are giving me so much grief about not going out..I haven't heard so many different variations of the word "lame" so much in my life before. I knew it was going to be the worst the first weekend because people aren't used to me not going out and it's Halloween..but JEEEEEEZE. Sometimes when I explained why I wasn't going out (I have a lot to get done, wasting too much money, wanting to get my last 15 pounds off before work gets crazy, I'm kinda over doing the same thing every night, etc.), they respected it. Other times it was "BUT it's HALLOWEEN..are you serious!? That's so lame!!" yada yada yada..makes it so awkward. I just want to be like, "you're wasting your time..I'm not going out so you can stop b*tching already."
I might ask a close friend if they are sure they don't want to go out ONCE when they say they don't really feel like it..and usually I don't even do that. If someone says they don't want to go out and explains why, why continue to nag them to?? Soooo annoying.
The same goes for drinking or eating during dinner..why do people INSIST you have a drink? haha..as terrible as it may sound, I don't drink if I'm going to just have one drink. Maybe I will once I stop dieting..but I TRY (hasn't been working lately, haha) to limit myself to like 1300-1500 calories a day..you can bet that 100 of them aren't going to be spent one alcoholic beverage when I can use them towards eating something that will fill me up and give me nutrients. haha.
Quite honestly...there's a part of me that hates drinking holidays like Halloween. I loveee socializing with people, it's actually my favorite thing to do, but when places are packed (as they usually are during drinking holidays)..I HATE IT. And I love going to bars too...it's just when they are packed, they are the last place I want to be. Same with when the music is really loud and you can't hear anyone talk. What's the point of going to a bar just to listen to really loud music? haha..obviously dance clubs are completely out of the picture for me. Just the idea of "grinding" on some potential creepo is too much for me to think about. Guys are so weird (no offense fellas)...and get even creepier in the dark with the music on while drunk. haha.
I wish my mom wasn't going out tonight though so we could hang out..haha..it's going to get boring later I bet. But whatev, I can always go to bed early and wake up to work out and then get things done. I watched my nephew all day today so I didn't really do much. But I'm so so so happy I got to spend time with him.
Still recovering from all that chocolate...haha.
Off to do some Jillian tapes...make up for what I have been missing on the 30 Day Slim Down due to my laziness.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Sooo...my little Sparkies...little sad news...but I gotta keep myself accountable.
So yesterday, I was perfect all day... and then I got called to meet up for dinner with some friends. And then the day stopped being so perfect.
haha. I decided before I left, I just wouldn't eat dinner and have it there and skip my minimeal if my dinner was really big. On my way there, like a good little Sparkie, I looked up the website. No calorie count..darnit. haha. That means I was going to have to use common sense and guestimates. haha. "Oh welllll," I thought. So I picked out what I figured would be the safest bet...a chef salad...and got the cheese and dressing on the side. Their soup was lentil bean..so it couldn't have been that bad..ordered that too. When the salad came out I was like DANG...it was huge...seriously probably like a pound of turkey/ham on it. I said to myself I would take some of it home...haha, ended up finishing BOTH the soup and the salad. NO big deal though...I thought...just burn a couple extra calories at the gym tomorrow morning.
Then the other 3 people I was meeting (I was like a half hour early) all ordered chicken quesadillas. When one of the girls was finished, she insisted I have her last one (I was telling her I was already extremely full, which I was, but she was like 'come on, it's really good!!!' haha). These people are all kinda acquaintances as of right now and we never have had a meal together..so I would feel kinda weird being like "ACTUALLY-I'm trying to get my last 15 pounds off and I am already sooo full (because I was..like I said..that salad was HUGE and I had the soup). Then they were all having a drink..which I was driving and it's just empty calories so I really didn't want to have. When they asked if I was going to order a drink..I told them "oh, I'm not drinking tonight-I'm driving" haha-once again, not really wanting to go into detail about how I'm trying to follow my diet really strictly..then it was the 3 of them against me saying that it was just one drink, yada yada yada. So I had a small drink (Absolut Pear and water). If it would have stopped there...I wouldn't have been too disappointed in myself. haha..but it didn't.
So I had to take the 20 mile drive home, where there are 4 McDonald's on the way. I wanted sweets..I don't know why, but I did (I'm usually a huge salt person..love crackers, chips, etc. over candy and chocolate)...my period doesn't start for like a week and a half..and I don't even usually crave chocolate. So I got on my phone and started looking up the nutrition info for some fast food restaurants desserts that were on the way home. I was going to just get a McDonald's vanilla cone (only like 150 calories)..but decided I wanted something MORE..haha..so I got the McDonald's hot fudge sundae (330 calories, 10 grams of fat). If I would have stopped there, I would have just been slightly disappointed...haha.
On the way back home..I started thinking about how I blew it...much like we hear when we read all the food psychology books and articles on Sparks. I caught myself thinking "screw it--I've already messed up...just do whatever tonight and make up for it tomorrow." GAH...the worst mindset EVER. haha. I haven't had so many of these thoughts since before I found Sparks. I was usually really good about restarting after the meal I messed up on. haha. But there I was..thinking about the huge bowl of Heath Bars and Hersey Fun Size Bars and Reese's Cups at my mom's house. haha. So what did I do? Welp, went over there and binged on like 1,000 calories worth of chocolate. Fail. haha.
Goodness..it has to be more than the alcohol that's causing this then. I don't know what it is..but it needs to stop. I wasn't even this bad when I first started on Sparks and was trying to regulate my calories and get used to not bingeing at every single meal. I was fine with food for months and all of a sudden I'm reverting back to behavior that I had before I started losing weight..and not snapping out of it. I'm really curious as to what's causing it, that's why I'm doing all this writing...but I can't figure it out for the life of me!
For the record, I woke up this morning at my mom's (I usually stay with my dad) and ate more chocolate..how sick is that? haha. It didn't even taste good and I had a stomach ache from the chocolate overload from the night before. Then I went to this pumpkin carnival this elementary school puts on (took my nephew)...and ate brownies. haha. Which makes me realize...I haven't had real food yet today. I've just been eating brownies and chocolate. haha. should go probably make a lunch that consists of something healthy...and then I'll be off to the gym!
To fix this..I'm just going to take my booster days out of my diet (set for Tuesday and Wednesday). These are the days each week that I eat more calories to rev up my metabolism. Welp, that was already done yesterday...that's for sure! haha.
Here's to getting on track...again...even though I never was really on track. But here's to trying to get on track. haha. Gotta make every mistake a lesson...
Let's do work.
Friday, October 29, 2010
So yesterday was and was not a success. Little recap...
1. I prepared all my meals the night before
2. Prepared my herbal supplements (I take a ton, haha) the night before as well
3. I followed my meals as planned
4. Did a foot detox at work
5. Worked out two separate times to keep my metabolism up
6. Didn't binge like I had been doing Saturday-Monday
7. Kept up with my BCTNY planning sheets to keep me motivated (structure excites me)
1. I went over my calories
2. Didn't meet my goal of burning 500 calories for the day
3. Ate like a container of mints because I was bored/so I wouldn't eat crap...didn't mean to have so many when I started. haha-so many unnecessary simple carbs and eating as many as I did gave me a tummy ache
What I'm going to do about the negative:
Since the HHMD is originally 1,000 calories, I up the portions so I'm getting at least 1200-1350 calories. I had a few snacks yesterday though that added 331 calories onto my daily total (I usually will figure I will have around 100-150 calories outside of the program each day, so I had around 180-230 calories more). I want to keep this number lower (especially on the days where I'm not making my exercise calorie goal) or maybe lower the portion sizes back to what is recommended so I have room for them. The good news is that my calorie count for the day (1569) was wayyy lower than it has been. I just need to get more into the groove again since I have been eating wayyy more than what sustains me lately. It wouldn't have been a big deal at all if I made my daily calorie burning goal at the gym/worked out harder..I was lazy though. haha. I'm going to work to make my calorie burning goals (already have for today-woohoo!) and not eating out of boredom. I'm also going to get sugar free gum instead of just eating mints. haha. It lasts way longer and is cheaper anyway.
Macros (I have my food diary public if you want to take a peak of what I ate, haha):
Carbs: 307 (OVER)
Weight (10/29): 142
I'm too lazy to go upstairs and send the pictures I have on my phone to my email and then crop and upload them (befores, some stuff I ate yesterday, etc.)...but I'll do that sometime today as well. haha.
Update: Here's the pictures!
My official befores for Boot Camp to Thanksgiving:
The BEST Cereal EVER...Archer Farms High Protein Cinnamon...YES, you read that right...15 grams of PROTEIN...in cereal...that tastes ahhh-mazing.
My breakfast omelet...3 servings of veggies...249 calories (23 grams of carbs, 3 grams of fat, 33 grams of protein). ABSOLUTELY DELICIOUS!!!! Opened up and cooking and then the second picture is the finished product!
Foot detox after 30 minutes!! Yuck!!
Dinner...stir fry with shrimp and a baked potato...mmm mmm mmm mmm good!
LUNCHHHH...baby carrots with a can of tuna made into tuna salad with onion, celery, fat free mayo, mustard! NOM NOM NOM
Thursday, October 28, 2010
haha...I feel like such a dork that I labled the program SERIOUS. But Boot Camp was already taken...hmmm...here's a thought Mini Boot Camp to Thanksgiving! haha...it'll be a mini boot camp inside my big boot camp! haha.
Yesterday was good!!! I don't have time to write much (gotta work out before work), but I did want to get my measurements down somewhere:
Day 2 of 28:
I took before pictures too...upload them in tomorrow's blog. Weight loss ticker is reset for today (up 1.4 pounds...wah...but I gotta be accountable for my binges if I'm ever going to fix them)! I won't have much time today to Spark..but tomorrow I have off :) :) Talk to you guys then!
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