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100 Days of Challenging Myself: Goals, Successes, and Things I Need to Work On -- Day 1 -- May 18

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Hi everyone! I have decided to change my blog title to 100 Days of Challenging Myself: Goals, Successes, and Things I Need to Work On. I am also resetting the day count. I decided to do this because I want to start the 100 Day Challenge of getting at least 10 minutes of exercise in as well as completing my other goals.

Just so you guys know--because I've gotten some comments on having too many goals or whatever--these are things I am STRIVING to do..not necessarily HAVE to do. It doesn't matter if I don't do each thing every day..I don't beat myself up over it at all. The point is that I am constantly reminding myself what I SHOULD be doing. I also had a comment about how I'm focusing too much on weight loss. Weight loss isn't all that I'm focusing on in real life...all these things I do every day have to do with being healthy (which losing weight is a byproduct of if you have excess bodyweight). Being healthy is why I'm on SP--well that, and to help and encourage others because I LOVE to. I am also a goal-getter and a very structured person...so I love doing things like this.

Day 93 of being smoke-free!!!!

Nutrition
[X] Eat a breakfast that is high in fiber and protein
[X] Eat two fruits or vegetables
[X] Don't drink soda
[X] Don't eat in front of the TV
[X] Drink eight cups of water a day
[X] Measure out portions
[X] Track all my food BEFORE I eat it
7/7 = 100%

Fitness
[X] Exercise for ten minutes
[ ] Do something active outdoors
[X] Stretch for ten minutes
[X] Track calories burned
[X] Do 15 minutes of exercise while watching TV
[ ] Use a stress/squeeze ball
[X] Sleep for 7-8 hours a night
[X] Do strength training 2x a week
[X] Do a Leslie DVD for at least one mile
[ ] Pick random workout DVD and do it!
[X] Do Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred
8/11 = 73%

Motivational Goals
[X] Tell one person about your goals
[X] Give yourself a five-minute mental pep talk
[X] Post a message on SparkPeople's message boards
[X] Read a motivational story or book
[X] Reward yourself
[X] Read an inspirational quote
[X] Listen to a get-up-and-go song every day
[X] Visualize my goals each day and how I will feel when my goals are finished
[ ] Rent/watch an inspiring moving once a week via Netflix
8/9= 88.9%

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: I will blog daily and write five things that I did right that day and two things I could work on (without beating myself up).

Five things I did right:
1. I completed day 7 of the 30 Day Shred as planned
2. I met more of my goals that I'm striving for everyday today versus yesterday
3. I did five miles with Leslie
4. I stayed within my calorie ranges
5. I was a designated driver (something I'm really passionate about since our family friend died in a drunk driving accident) for my friends
6. I drank more than 8 glasses of water (BONUS ONE) haha

Two things I could work on:
1. Doing something active outside
2. Not watching as much TV

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Work my hardest to ignore negative people who are critical of my weight.
Had to deal with my dad yesterday!

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Let people know when they hurt my feelings and also put them in their place (as the rude person who is in no place to judge).
My dad said I should be back in the gym burning 900 calories a day--I laughed at him and told him that I'm happy the way I am and I know what I'm doing. He lost 20 pounds recently (took him 7 months)--so I was just like "excuse me--how long did it take you to lose 20 pounds?" and he told me "7 months"--I said "exactly (because it took me 2 months)-I'm just trying to be healthy--it doesn't matter to me how long it takes to reach a healthy weight!"

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track my calories BEFORE I decide what I am going to be eating. This will help me make healthier eating choices.

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Follow the Hilton Head Metabolism diet six days a week, be mindful but indulge a little for the 7th day to keep my metabolism ramped up.
Did the diet yesterday!!

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate fitness goal: Work out every single day (at the very least with my DVDs), but preferably at the gym as well.
Did 30DS and Leslie DVD as planned--woohoo!!

Reflections: WOW--yesterday was a great day for me. Not only did I reach a huge milestone for me (25 POUNDS LOST)--I completed most of all of the goals I strive to be doing everyday. Feels great! I am a bit scared because I am going on some visits this weekend to see my friends. Three of them for three separate days in Iowa, and 2 of these visits are going to be college visits. Makes it super hard to eat healthy and stuff...so I think I am going to make a plan. It is definitely going to include tracking my food before I eat and making sure I still blog everyday. :D...this plan will be in a blog post either tonight or tomorrow morning. Write then! Byebye!

Today's weight: 171.8
Pounds left until I reach my next goal: 2.9 lbs (then I will be out of the 170's AND no longer obese)!!
Second goal: 10% of my total body weight after I am out of the obese category (152 pounds)
Third goal: 10% of my total body weight to finally get me into the normal category (136.8 pounds)
I am then going to a professional to see (precisely according my body frame) what a good and healthy goal weight will be for me.

  
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CAROL3SAN 5/20/2010 11:48AM

    Keep up the good work Sparkgirl. You are doing great!! emoticon

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SCHNOOKIEPIE 5/20/2010 9:46AM

    I think this is great and it is additional motivation seeing all the accomplishments you have done...kudos!

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DANIELWIFEY 5/20/2010 7:34AM

    I think your goals are awesome, and a great way of tracking your progress. Way to go on reaching your milestone!

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SPUNKYDUCKY 5/19/2010 10:44PM

    I am glad to see that you are continuing to keep up what is working for YOU. This journey is different for each of us and you need to do what is going to make you successful. Congratulations on doing so well and on your 25 lb weight loss! Wonderful!

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ALIMESSA 5/19/2010 7:06PM

    Congrats on the 25lbs!! Keep up the great work!

As always,
Stay Strong!!

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SANDRAMARIA 5/19/2010 7:03PM

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Keep on tracking!

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PWINCESSEMILY 5/19/2010 3:48PM

    I like your goals. And you've done so well today keeping so many of them!

I figure you'll eventually find you're meeting goals for stuff all of the time and don't need to record them any more. But while it helps you track them in this way keep it up!

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ZANNACHAN 5/19/2010 3:36PM

    emoticon and emoticon on losing 25 lbs! Whoo hoo!

I think you have a great mix of goals--both weight loss and general healthy lifestyle. I am glad though that you are prioritizing them and aren't going to stress out about the ones you don't make, since you do have a lot of them and it would be easy to be overwhelmed by that (I would not be able to blog every day, for example--for me twice a week is a more realistic goal!) But it sounds like you have yourself in a good head-space about them.

I like setting up goals like that and have found the keeping track gives me an objective measure of how well in general I'm doing. I f I score 80% on my goals, than that's pretty good--that fits in the 80/20 rule. If I score 30%, then that's something to watch out for--especially if it happens more than once, or doesn't fall into extenuating circumstances (like being sick). The score card doesn't see the whole picture--how I'm using my time, how I feel, etc.--just as the scale only measures one aspect of weight loss and may be misleading (for example, if the weight gain is water weight or muscle). But it's a measure, that when combined with others gives me a feel for how I'm doing.

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CRAVE_FREE 5/19/2010 3:15PM

    I think you have GREAT goals! You are inspiring and emoticon

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BUFFALOKAY 5/19/2010 2:49PM

    Follow your goals and your plan to SUCCESS. Then share your journey with others. Great idea.


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KO1215 5/19/2010 2:43PM

    Your goals are yours any way you want them!!! Way to go!!

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KEEPGOING87 5/19/2010 1:51PM

    wow YOU ARE AMAZING my friend!!1 keep on going

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ALL Goal Check-up, Successes, and Things I Need to Work On -- Day 12 -- May 17, 2010

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

I stepped on the scale today and I was 175...meaning I put on .2 pounds since yesterday. This isn't a big deal, but I need to realize what my triggers are because I failed when it came to dinner last night (hehehe, in the nicest way possible, I'm not being hard on myself--I promise)...which I will reflect on at the end of the entry. I'm going to check in with my ultimate, short, long, and medium term goals at this time as well.

Day 92 of being smoke-free!!!! Can't believe it'll be 8 more days until I have gone 100 days without having a cigarette!! I'm so happy I made the decision to quit smoking!! Changed my life so much for the better (and not to mention I've probably saved close to $500 on cigarettes since I quit!!!). This combined with utilizing SparkPeople has made me a COMPLETELY different person--and I wanted to thank all my Sparkies for that!!!

Nutrition
[/] Eat a breakfast that is high in fiber and protein (got the protein part)
[X] Eat two fruits or vegetables
[X] Don't drink soda
[X] Don't eat in front of the TV
[/] Drink eight cups of water a day (I didn't track real well, but I got right up there, I'm pretty sure...)
[ ] Measure out portions (need to work on this!!!)
[ ] Track all my food BEFORE I eat it (need to work on this!!)
4/7 = 57%

Fitness
[X] Exercise for ten minutes
[ ] Do something active outdoors
[ ] Stretch for ten minutes
[X] Track calories burned
[ ] Do 15 minutes of exercise while watching TV
[ ] Use a stress/squeeze ball (one of my SparkBuddies is actually mailing me one of these--how nice of him!!!)
[X] Sleep for 7-8 hours a night
[X] Do strength training 2x a week
[X] Do a Leslie DVD for at least one mile
[ ] Pick random workout DVD and do it! (just added this goal!)
5/10 = 50%

Motivational Goals
[X] Tell one person about your goals
[X] Give yourself a five-minute mental pep talk
[X] Post a message on SparkPeople's message boards
[X] Read a motivational story or book
[X] Reward yourself
[X] Read an inspirational quote
[X] Listen to a get-up-and-go song every day
[X] Visualize my goals each day and how I will feel when my goals are finished
[ ] Rent/watch an inspiring moving once a week via Netflix
8/9= 88.9%

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: I will blog daily and write five things that I did right that day and two things I could work on (without beating myself up).

Five things I did right:
1. I picked a healthy entree to prepare instead of going out to eat
2. I spread the Spark
3. I talked about my feelings with my friends and how I have changed (I used to be extremely emotionally awkward)--I'm actually going to write a separate blog on this..haha..feel inspired to talk about it now
4. I completed day 6 of the 30 Day Shred
5. I kept up with SparkPeople!! :)

Two things I could work on:
1. TRACKING MY CALORIES
2. Drinking all my water!

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Work my hardest to ignore negative people who are critical of my weight.
Didn't have to deal with this.

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Let people know when they hurt my feelings and also put them in their place (as the rude person who is in no place to judge).
Didn't have to...

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track my calories BEFORE I decide what I am going to be eating. This will help me make healthier eating choices.

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Follow the Hilton Head Metabolism diet six days a week, be mindful but indulge a little for the 7th day to keep my metabolism ramped up.
Only had one meal from the diet...need to find a time to regroup and restart--probably when I get back from Iowa! :)

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate fitness goal: Work out every single day (at the very least with my DVDs), but preferably at the gym as well.
Want to do 30DS and a Leslie DVD :)-goal for today!

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OVERALL GOAL PROGRESS REPORT SO FAR:

[-] Ultimate life long-term goal: I want to feel genuinely happy with myself while being a mentor and example for people who want to be healthy (checking in on this on November 10th to report how long I have felt genuinely happy). Why?: Obviously because being happy is everyone's ultimate goal in life--it feels amazing to be happy!
Reward: SP Calendar for the 2011 year AND a trip to Vegas for the SP convention!!
I am doing GREAT with this--I am the happiest I have ever been in my life--let's see if this remains constant!!

( ) Medium-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: I want to become a SP Community Team member on my three month Sparkversary (June 9, 2010). Why?: Becoming a mentor makes me feel great about myself and I love knowing I'm helping other's. It also helps me remain accountable.
Reward: SP stainless steel water bottle
I am well on my way to doing this!! 3 more weeks! I also want to be out of the obese category by then (168.9) :)

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: I will blog daily and write five things that I did right that day and two things I could work on (without beating myself up). Why?: It will keep me accountable and make sure I remember what I am doing right...and make sure I am not too hard on myself, but still know what I need to improve on.
Reward: After my 28-day program, I will write gratitude cards to my best friends letting them know how much I appreciate them.
Been doing this! As you guys know...

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Work my hardest to ignore negative people who are critical of my weight. Why?: Because there are so many people like that out there and it shouldn't hurt my feelings that they are shallow.
Been doing this too!! So proud of myself!!

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Let people know when they hurt my feelings and also put them in their place (as the rude person who is in no place to judge). Why?: Because many people do not realize they are even hurting someone (so I should help them realize they do), and if they do realize they are hurting someone, they deserve to feel like a shallow loser.
Been doing this!! :)
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[ ] Ultimate weight loss goal: By November 10th (eight months after I joined SP), I want to reach my goal weight of 125 pounds. From today, I want to lose 50.4 pounds by November 10th (a little more than 6 months away). Why?: While I'm comfortable with myself around 155, that is still considered "overweight" BMI wise. This goal isn't a do-or-die thing, I just thought I looked best when I was around this weight. I want to see where my body naturally wants to be before I invest in a specific number.
Reward: Shopping spree at my favorite clothing store!!!

I have 50 pounds to lose by November 10th--but it's OK with me now if it takes longer than that! I just want to be happy and continue to lose weight or maintain (not gain)!

( ) Medium-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Lose 10% of my body weight (17.8 pound loss or weigh 160.2 pounds) by June 15th. Why?: Losing 10% of my body weight is a manageable goal but feels like a big accomplishment at the same time. To give me confidence in my ability to lose weight.
Reward: Buy EA Active for Wii!
I got sort of off on my goal because I haven't been doing this..I am redoing this and I want to have it done by July 15th (only 17.5 pounds)..because that's now my body weight!

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track all of my calories, no matter if I have a "bad day" (I had a habit of not wanting to). ANYTHING and EVERYTHING must be tracked. Why?: So I can realize exactly what I am putting into my body, which will help me immensely.
Reward: After my 28-day program, I will buy the SP Magnet and an SP keychain
Been doing this!! Just need to work on BEFORE!

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track my calories BEFORE I decide what I am going to be eating. This will help me make healthier eating choices. Why?: Many times I would eat something and go to track it and think to myself "I would have never ate that if I would have known just how many grams of fat that had." This will prevent this from happening.
Reward: After my 28-day program, I will buy the Smart Portion lunch kit
Need to work on this!!

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Follow the Hilton Head Metabolism diet six days a week, be mindful but indulge a little for the 7th day to keep my metabolism ramped up. Why?: When I am on the diet it makes me feel SO full of energy and I drop weight pretty easily if I follow it.
Reward: After my 28-day program, I will buy the Meal on the Go Combo kit
Need to work on this!!

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Only consume alcohol one night every two weeks and no drunk munchies! Why?: Alcohol is unnecessary calories, but still a fun time to let loose with friends. I don't want to eliminate alcohol completely (I already did for Lent), but only will drink every couple weeks during social outings with friends.
Reward: The WooHoo SP shirt!
I decided to cut this goal out...I want to still have fun...instead I think I am going to make it a limit on how many drinks I can have. 4 ounces of vodka before the bar and one drink while I am there :) Save me some money too!
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[ ] Ultimate fitness goal: Be able to run a 5K by next September. Why?: I have never been able to run three miles straight and reaching fitness milestones (like my heart rate going wayyy down when I started working out in March). Doing that would make me feel very confident and would motivate to continue working out everyday.
Reward: New running shoes!
I haven't been working on this goal at all--I think I may postpone it because I am more interested in working on my strength training and combining it with Leslie's walks since building muscle increases my metabolism!

( ) Medium-term sub-goal for my ultimate fitness goal: Follow the Couch to 5K program. Why?: The program is easy to follow and gradually gets harder, which will make it easier to follow.
Reward: New exercise DVD
Will do this...some day :)

( ) Medium-term sub-goal for my ultimate fitness goal: Begin the 100 Day Exercise Challenge that requires you get at least SOME form of exercise every day for 100 days in a row--NO excuses. Even if it is just a 15 minute walk. Why?: So it makes it very difficult to get out of the habit and makes it easy for me to make a habit of exercising, which will help with my long-term goal.
Reward: SP Knit Skull Cap
I will begin this two days ago :)...will get this done!!

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate fitness goal: Work out every single day (at the very least with my DVDs), but preferably at the gym as well. Why?: While my home DVDs are great, training on the treadmill is going to get me 5K ready :)
Reward: After my 28-day program, I will get a SparkPeople towel!
Need to work on this a bit!!!
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I also want to try to practice gratitude, tolerance, and really listening to people when they talk to me instead of just waiting for my turn to talk. Why?: I want to be a better person/the best person I can be!!
I have been doing a GREAT job with this--I'm actually pretty proud of myself!!! :)
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Reflections: Yesterday my friends wanted to go out to dinner..I suggested instead we MAKE dinner--and said I wanted to make something healthy off of the SparkRecipes site. SO I did--I chose the Garlic Shrimp pasta (pretty good, PS)..which a 1 cup serving was only 165 calories and under 3 grams of fat--perfect!! One of my weaknesses (especially at restaurants) have always been that darn bread basket--especially when it includes olive oil and parmesan cheese for dipping. Not only did my friend have that at her house..she had rosemary and olive oil that was already mixed in the bread--seriously the best I've ever tasted. Then she made a concoction of olive oil, parmesan cheese, pepper, and salt..which if anyone has ever had this--HEAVEN. I overindulged on it..I had less than my friends but I still had about 1/5 of the total loaf. It was just so good. I'm not going to beat myself up about it..but check this out:


The olive oil ALONE was 54 grams of fat!!!!!!!! 500 calories..which I knew olive oil had a ton of calories and fat--but JEEZE LOUISE!!! haha. Thought I'd share because if I would have tracked BEFORE I ate it--definitely probably would have had like half as much or not had the olive oil concoction at all :). I estimated my dinner on the high end (should have probably portioned it out-silly me!)--but it came in at 1,341 calories, 116 carbs, SIXTY-NINE grams of fat, and 64 grams of protein. haha. Definitely overindulged.

The good news is that I found one of my triggers--I rationalized eating the bread because I had made a healthy main course. But my healthy main course was thrown out the window when I had the bread and parmesan cheese--which was almost 1,000 calories. This really taught me I need to be tracking everything before I eat it--regardless. I think I'm going to start planning my meals out before I eat them to further track my calories better.

I'm going back to basics and portioning EVERYTHING I eat. I don't care who I'm with or what they'll think--it will give me an opportunity to tell them my goals and maybe they will be a person that keeps me accountable. My new goal is to be 168.9 lbs by the time I am a community team member (June 8th). That's 6.1 pounds in 3 weeks--totally doable. Especially because I think some of my remaining water weight from menstruating and not keeping completely up with my water intake (gotta start tracking that religiously again as well) is causing me to retain water.

I did the 30 Day Shred level one, day seven today. I actually had a question for my fellow shredders. I really don't think I'm going to be able to do level 2 (I've been doing level 1 pretty well with 2 pound weights--my upper body strength sucks and I wouldn't be able to do it with more I don't think). I don't want to actually count a day unless I can really get through it. With all the planks and emphasis on upper body strength I doubt I will (but I am still hoping high-I know I can do it-but realistically). What do you think I should do until I can get completely through level 2? I was thinking of continue with level one in the morning with three pound weights instead of 2 and then try level 2 at night with 2 pound weights until I can completely get it done. I really don't want to "cheat" the Shred...I want to be able to finish it and finish it with CONFIDENCE and be able to say "I DID THAT!!" I also decided even if it takes longer than 30 days..I'm OK..AS LONG AS I ACTUALLY CAN ACTUALLY FINISH IT! Day 7 went great..I was just thinking of the future..cuz I always do. haha. And just watching level 2 made me exhausted! haha-I hear level 3 is easier! Maybe going from level 1 to 3 back to 2? Any advice? I'll post this in the 30DS forum too so people can help more there! Good luck to all my other Shredders out there--we can do this!!

  
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VICIOUS421 5/19/2010 1:09AM

    You are doing really great and I love your motivation!!!!!

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SRABANTI 5/19/2010 12:09AM

    I agree with DLEE27. I believe this weight loss is the only thing on top of your mind all the time. Instead i would suggest you to losen a bit and work on some non-weight related goals. As for me, i kept a 10 full pushups at a time and 1000 fitness minutes in May as a short term goal. I have incorporated few changes diet-wise and few easy things like not using elevetors, getting less sugar etc in my day to day life. I believe they are working for me...
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Dont think about your weight ALL the time and enjoy life as it is while continuing your good work. I know you'v already seen changes in you~ Keep rocking baby.

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CAROL3SAN 5/18/2010 11:33PM

    You are doing a great job with your transformation. You are going to lose those 50 pounds too!! emoticon

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NIKFODO2 5/18/2010 10:41PM

    I found Level 2 to be a little easier than 1 - but that might be because I hate jumping jacks!!! LOL.

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KARISSATX 5/18/2010 7:11PM

    When i quit smoking 10 years ago, i exercised like a fool to keep from gaining wait - i didn't lose weight during that time, but i didn't gain any either. later on, i was able to lose weight. keep at it and don't give up! i'm so glad i can BREATHE now! emoticon

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CHEMMD 5/18/2010 6:08PM

  way to go on the smoking! Keep it up!

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ALIMESSA 5/18/2010 5:17PM

    You sound so happy and committed to this new lifestyle you have created for yourself...Congrats on that! Keep up the great work and remember that we are all cheering for you!!

As always,
Stay Strong!!

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TENACIOUSLADYT 5/18/2010 4:34PM

    SparkGirl, you are doing an amazing job!

As far as level 2 goes, I say try it out when you get to the day you are supposed to start it. We are all going to have a hard time with it, and it will be good to see how we all do with the transition. You may surprise yourself. Plus, what's the worst that could happen? If it is way too hard, go back to level 1 and move up in weights maybe?

Keep up the great work. You are definitely a source of inspiration and motivation.

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MELMAVWILLDOIT 5/18/2010 4:19PM

    Hey! I think that you should do level one until you have 10 days under your belt, and then try level 2. I think they say to do 10 days on each level! GREAT JOB so far! emoticon

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PRAIRIECROCUS 5/18/2010 3:34PM

    Congratulations on being smoke-free !
You are now embracing SparkPeople's ways of healthy living !
All the best on your SparkPeople journey !

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I like how you have your goals all laid out, and how you can be flexible and say "well, I thought I wanted this, and still do someday, but for now I'm concentrating on that instead....."

That bread sounds really, really wonderful (I love bread!) but WOW that's a lot of calories. Bread is one of my tripping points at restaurants--especially the ones which provide freshly baked bread with your meal. Yum. But it's something I need to watch!

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DLEE27 5/18/2010 2:22PM

    This is just a thought, and maybe it's just me, but how do you stay focused on so many different goals all at the same time? Don't you find it's a lot to pay attention to? I know for myself that I tend to have more success when I focus on just a couple of really important things and then don't starting adding to that until the really important ones have become habit.
Don't get me wrong! If this is working for you then that's fabulous!!! Just thought I'd mention it and to say don't be too hard on yourself if you can't check off all of these goals every single time. We're cheering for you!
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DYDAN33 5/18/2010 2:09PM

    I like how you have all your goals so well thought out and documented!

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Goals, Successes, and Things I Need to Work On -- Day 11 -- May 16, 2010

Monday, May 17, 2010

WOW~!! I have gotten really off track since Thursday..but in all fairness it was the weekend. I don't think I've lost any weight the whole month of May...I weighed in today at 174.8. I'd really like to make my goal of 168.9 (taking me out of the obese category) by the end of this month..but it doesn't look like it's going to happen. Not the end of the world though. I'll reflect more at the end of the entry.

Day 91 of being smoke-free!!!!

Nutrition
[ ] Eat a breakfast that is high in fiber and protein
[ ] Eat two fruits or vegetables
[X] Don't drink soda
[X] Don't eat in front of the TV
[ ] Drink eight cups of water a day
[ ] Measure out portions
2/6 = 33.3%

Fitness
[X] Exercise for ten minutes
[X] Do something active outdoors
[ ] Stretch for ten minutes
[X] Track calories burned
[ ] Do 15 minutes of exercise while watching TV
[ ] Use a stress/squeeze ball (I still need to buy one of these!)
[X] Sleep for 7-8 hours a night
[ ] Do strength training 2x a week
4/8= 50%

Motivational Goals
[X] Tell one person about your goals
[X] Give yourself a five-minute mental pep talk
[X] Post a message on SparkPeople's message boards
[X] Read a motivational story or book
[X] Reward yourself
[X] Read an inspirational quote
[ ] Listen to a get-up-and-go song every day
[X] Visualize my goals each day and how I will feel when my goals are finished
[ ] Rent/watch an inspiring moving once a week via Netflix
7/9= 77.8%

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: I will blog daily and write five things that I did right that day and two things I could work on (without beating myself up).

Five things I did right:
1. I stayed within my calorie ranges
2. I logged onto SparkPeople and tried to comment and keep up with everything
3. I walked around while I was talking on the phone instead of sitting around
4. I didn't beat myself up when I realized I hadn't lost much weight at all for the month of May
5. I encouraged others in their goals

Two things I could work on:
1. I haven't done the 30DS since Friday :(...need to get back into the program and will do so today!
2. I need to start the HHMD once again..will do today!!
and I'm adding this one as an extra..
3. NEED TO DRINK ALL MY WATER FOR THE DAY!!

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Work my hardest to ignore negative people who are critical of my weight.
Didn't have to deal with this.

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Let people know when they hurt my feelings and also put them in their place (as the rude person who is in no place to judge).
Didn't have to...

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track all of my calories, no matter if I have a "bad day" (I had a habit of not wanting to). ANYTHING and EVERYTHING must be tracked. (I tracked yesterday but forgot to on Friday..boo!!)

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track my calories BEFORE I decide what I am going to be eating. This will help me make healthier eating choices.

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Follow the Hilton Head Metabolism diet six days a week, be mindful but indulge a little for the 7th day to keep my metabolism ramped up.
Going to start following it today!

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate fitness goal: Work out every single day (at the very least with my DVDs), but preferably at the gym as well.
Want to do 30DS and a Leslie DVD :)-goal for today!

Reflections:
I think I am starting to allow my drinking to get in the way of my progress because I have gotten a lot more comfortable with how I look thanks to SP. I figure as long as the 30DS is continued, that will ensure I work out everyday. I need to make sure I am prioritizing correctly and at the very least not drink as much so I don't end up making poor food choices. :) I'm 174.8..which means I've gained like 2 pounds..but I'm OK with that. I'm going to update my ticker and my goals so they are changed. Love you guys!

  
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HEALTHYKHELLE 5/18/2010 1:16PM

    You are doing great girl, keep it up!!!!Those are all great goals and you have achieved so much already! You inspire me!!!

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TIMS4FISHING 5/18/2010 5:07AM

    You're really focused, aren't you? That's awesome, and reading what you wrote...really puts what I have to do in prospective. You've got a way to motivate with your wise words. I'll probably come back a few times and read this over and over and over again.
Listen especially what OCFERNAN has said in his reply. He's right on target and knows what he's talking about. I too have some excellent options to share in regards to a high protein/fiber breakfast using whey protein powder. There are so many variations you can use with that stuff. I like to get the vanilla flavor and mix 1-2 scoops with low fat or fat free milk in the blender with ice. Add a couple servings of the sugar free or low fat chocolate syrup or even the Quik chocolate milk powder. Then, 1-2 tablespoons of peanut butter. Soooo good, it'll make you wanna lick your eyebrows! Taste like a Reece's Peanut butter cup. Also, the vanilla whey protein with milk and ice. Add some pineapple (frozen works great) and a couple teaspoons of coconut milk. High protein/alcohol free pina colada. I like that one after a workout. It's more refreshing.
There's gunna be a time where you're probably gunna hit a plateau. And of course, you'll get discouraged. DON'T!!! I'll help you get thru it! And, don't pay attention to the negative people that will say "You're building muscle, and muscle weighs more than fat!". Believe me, you'll hear it, and I want you to just laugh at their ignorance. Because, 16 oz. of fat, and 16 oz. of muscle..they both weigh the same!!

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ALIMESSA 5/18/2010 3:58AM

    Congrats being 91 days smoke free...that is absolutely AWESOME!

I think it is awesome how well laid out your goals are. Keep up the great work and don't sweat the small stuff...you know what you need to do, so do it! (I know...easier said then done!) You are on the right track...I know you can do it!

As always,
Stay Strong!!

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 5/17/2010 8:37PM

    Looks like you have some pretty good goals. I know you can make it, you seem determined. On the drinking front, drink a glass of water inbetween alcoholic drinks, it helps up the water intake and reduce the calories at the same time.

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BUBBLES1987 5/17/2010 4:20PM

    The good thing is that your still maintaining, even if you're not losing. Stepping on those scales and not seeing a difference is one of the biggest challenges. Its great that your still completely up for it. This used to be the stage that would throw me off the rails! But if you can fall off the wagon and get right back on, you know that you mean business this time round!
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CAROL3SAN 5/17/2010 2:16PM

    Continue to do your planing and positive thinking. It is working right now I'm sure. Keep on drinking the fluids as you know you should.
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JENMCALLISTER 5/17/2010 1:43PM

    You can do it. Its okay to get off track as long as you see you are off and get right back on. You can get the weight off. It will work for you.

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ZANNACHAN 5/17/2010 1:34PM

    You can do this! You may have hit a rough patch over the weekend--it happens, but you have a great attitude and I'm confident that you can get back on track!

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BLAIRJ1 5/17/2010 1:20PM

    Drinking is one of the hardest parts of this! I love that you're staying positive and just taking this as part of the journey, though. You are looking fabulous and doing a fantastic job so you should be proud. :)

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OCFERNAN 5/17/2010 12:27PM

    some observations -- and i'm saying these assuming that you don't do them regularly --

Eat a breakfast that is high in fiber and protein -- it really will help, esp on days you're gonna workout. the fiber and protein will help you feel full/satiated til lunch. i love having shredded wheat fiber cereal (it's an equivalent to Fiber One) with bananas with 1 tbsp Smucker's natural peanut butter (6g. fat, I think 8g. of protein, but i forgot)...and along with warm milk bluberries/strawberries and dash of cinnamon, the peanut butter make it tastes esp. really yummy!

Do strength training 2x a week -- strength training is a definitely important part of exercise. not just cardio and stretching. it strengthens and tones the muscles (don't worry about bulking up in case you have that misconception).

Eat two fruits or vegetables -- in fact, at least 5-7 of a combo of fruits/veggies is most important per day. this will also help you get a good source of fiber.

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LETMEBME 5/17/2010 11:47AM

    Just get right back on track and you'll be fine! Wow, I can't believe you haven't done the 30DS since friday! You got me so motivated that I went out and bought it on May 12 (exactly 30 days before my b-day) and i have done it every single day except for May 14th when it was my hubby's b-day and we went out for drinks. I even did it the day after that being lightly hangover! Oh well, i hope it delivers the results it promises. 4 more days and I hope to progress to Level 2.

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Weekly Vlog -- May 14, 2010

Friday, May 14, 2010


Just my week :)

  
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CHAOTIC-KITTY 5/20/2010 2:33PM

  awww..what a cute doggy you have :)

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OCFERNAN 5/17/2010 11:59PM

    yay! it does work indeed. and a treat because you were all dolled up :)

hope you had fun over the weekend!

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CAROL3SAN 5/17/2010 2:10PM

    I was actually holding on for awhile until I got the joke. Hope everything is good with you and you will do a video soon emoticon

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OCFERNAN 5/17/2010 12:19PM

    ah ok. hopefully it can be fixed (by the way, in case you don't know about this aspect of blogging on this site: when you respond to a comment in this way, we don't get an automatic email that says you responded. we'd have to go back to your blog manually to see if you said anything. that's why i'll send a private message)

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SPARKGIRL32 5/16/2010 4:54PM

    Yea I think it was a bad upload :(

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OCFERNAN 5/16/2010 1:06PM

    i couldn't play your vblog. i don't know if others had the same problem.

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Personal Story & Goals, Successes, and Things I Need to Work On -- Day 7 -- May 12, 2010

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Hello..today I have been keeping up with my new goals officially for a week. I love this new layout--really keeps me accountable. I need to make it so this list coincides with my goals listed on my goals page of SP. I also need to remember to check in with my medium and long term goals..I'll do that later today probably! Please read my reflections at the end of this blog! :)

Day 88 of being smoke-free!!!!

Nutrition
[X] Eat a breakfast that is high in fiber and protein
[X] Eat two fruits or vegetables
[X] Don't drink soda
[X] Don't eat in front of the TV
[X] Drink eight cups of water a day
[X] Measure out portions
6/6 = 100%

Fitness
[X] Exercise for ten minutes
[X] Do something active outdoors
[X] Stretch for ten minutes
[X] Track calories burned
[X] Do 15 minutes of exercise while watching TV
[ ] Use a stress/squeeze ball (I still need to buy one of these!)
[X] Sleep for 7-8 hours a night
[X] Do strength training 2x a week
7/8= 87.5%

Motivational Goals
[X] Tell one person about your goals
[X] Give yourself a five-minute mental pep talk
[X] Post a message on SparkPeople's message boards
[X] Read a motivational story or book
[X] Reward yourself
[X] Read an inspirational quote
[X] Listen to a get-up-and-go song every day
[X] Visualize my goals each day and how I will feel when my goals are finished
[ ] Rent/watch an inspiring moving once a week via Netflix
8/9= 89%

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: I will blog daily and write five things that I did right that day and two things I could work on (without beating myself up).

Five things I did right:
1. I completed day 3 of the 30 Day Shred like I had planned.
2. I autocorrected and didn't fall into making bad decisions because of the poor choices I made Tuesday
3. I tried to motivate others by posting on their SparkPages
4. I accepted the offer of co-leading the "A New Beginning for Me and You" team, which will keep me motivated and help me help others.
5. I stayed within my calorie ranges

Two things I could work on:
1. While I did stay within my ranges...my dad came home with high-fat tacos that are not good for me and offered and I accepted. While this isn't something I am going to beat myself up about, I want to work on this. I don't want to eat something that has so many fat grams in it just because it is offered to me..plus, it offered little nutritional value.
2. I only did the 30DS yesterday..and have been wanting to make sure I at least do a Leslie Sansone mile as well...will do so today!

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Work my hardest to ignore negative people who are critical of my weight.
Didn't have to deal with this.

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Let people know when they hurt my feelings and also put them in their place (as the rude person who is in no place to judge).
Didn't have to...but I did think about the types of things I could say to someone who is mean about my weight (see end of blog for some thoughts).

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track all of my calories, no matter if I have a "bad day" (I had a habit of not wanting to). ANYTHING and EVERYTHING must be tracked.

(/) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track my calories BEFORE I decide what I am going to be eating. This will help me make healthier eating choices.
I did this for for about half of my meals yesterday...but when it came to that taco, I obviously didn't.

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Follow the Hilton Head Metabolism diet six days a week, be mindful but indulge a little for the 7th day to keep my metabolism ramped up.
I haven't followed it the past two days--I need to get on track with the diet because it makes me feel so good and helps me lose quickly! :) Tomorrow!!

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate fitness goal: Work out every single day (at the very least with my DVDs), but preferably at the gym as well.
I did work out to the 30DS, but I want to do more today!

Reflections: I thought I would write an entry about how mean people can be because I know all of us deal with it. So, to give you an idea, this was what I looked like when I first got to college:

My family is OBSESSED with looks. I always say, they'd rather my IQ drop 20 points than me gain 20 pounds. My dad is literally paying me to lose weight ($10 a pound)..which works out, because I want to lose weight for my health (at 197 pounds when I started, I was 30 pounds into the OBESE category and my weight was starting to effect my quality of life) and it's free money. He's been bothering me to lose weight since I was 128 pounds--I can literally remember how much I weighed, what I was wearing when he said this to me, and already thinking I was fat! ha-funny! But that was the atmosphere I grew up in. If you weren't keeping up with your looks, you were nothing. For example, my junior and senior year in high school I decided I wanted to stop wearing make-up and getting all ready for school (I started getting really involved with extra-circulars and work and really wanted that extra hour of sleep)...my dad would still beg me to every morning. My parents would say stuff like, "you're such a pretty girl--I just don't want to see that go to waste" all the time when I started putting weight on or when I wouldn't get completely ready.

As a result, not surprisingly, I had extremely low self-esteem. My parents would congratulate me on my grades (which were always very high) maybe once a year..but my looks were commented on ALL the time. I felt like I was so much more than just a pretty face. I got good grades, I tried to connect with people and help them out, I tried to relate to people..but I was still always looked at as the "pretty" one. Well, honestly..being the "pretty" one always sucked. Because no matter how "pretty" you are--someone is always going to find something wrong with you. And they did. So my self-esteem at the time, which was based just on my looks thanks to my parents, wasn't always good enough. For example, I have a gap in my two front teeth that I used to be so self-conscious of because people would ALWAYS make fun of it...when I was given the opportunity to get rid of it by my oral surgeon when he got my wisdom teeth (I was 20 and gained more self-confidence by this time)..I thought long and hard..and decided to keep it because it was what made me ME.

Anyway, it wasn't just my family that was like this. When I returned from college, I can't count how many times I heard "What the hell happened to her?" being said by some drunk idiot that knew who I was in high school while out during my college years. Ex-boyfriends' reactions to my weight gain often times has made me feel like the only reason they ever liked me was because I was pretty. The irony is that I have so much more self-esteem now than I did then. The old me would have been so upset about this...the new me realizes I'm happy and have grown into a better person who is comfortable in myself. I mean..really..what did I lose when I gained weight? Pretty much just all the shallow guys who only care about looks hitting on me at the bar...haha, which I can live without.

I honestly think I subconsciously rebelled. I was sick of being the "pretty" girl--I wanted to be the SMART girl and the COMPASSIONATE girl. I'm glad to say that since gaining weight, I have become both...I wonder if these traits would have developed as much if I hadn't gained this weight? I doubt it. It almost makes me dread losing the weight though--I don't want to deal with the creeps that hold expectations like that for me. At least this time I am confident enough in myself to explain to them what I explained here. Looks will fade, it's a fact of life...so what's the point of concentrating on it so much?

You know what makes my weight loss journey different than all my other past failures (and there were a lot of them!)? I want to do it for my health! Not some superficial reason like making my parents happy or making a shallow ex-boyfriend think I look good. That is so key to any weight loss journey I think.

Just my two cents for the day! Remember, go through this journey for YOU--not because other people think you should conform to some standard of beauty. It feels great to be healthy..and even though I have some weight to lose (a little less than 4 pounds until I am not obese and about another 30 until I'm in the normal range) before I am officially no longer at risk..I am enjoying this journey and though I still get the "what happened to her?"--I can just smile..because my answer is "I found myself...and I'm a smart, compassionate, and loving person who wants to help others..regardless of how much I weigh" :)

Love you guys!

  
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WALNUT5612 5/17/2010 9:48AM

    Great blog! You are groomed for success!!! Ya got me all 'geeked up' for success!!!

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HDHAWK 5/15/2010 11:02PM

    I'm so proud of you for writing this blog and having such great insight at your young age. I think I'm still working on it at 51. You've always had the qualities inside you that you see now. How difficult to be raised the way you were. There is so much more to all of us than how we look.
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RAGGARWALAX 5/15/2010 9:04PM

    You wrote a beautiful blog and I'm glad that you were able to put it into words - I'm sure it was very cathartic! Good luck on your goals - you will succeed for you!


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ZANNACHAN 5/15/2010 4:07PM

    Great blog. I think the way your family prioritizes physical looks is horrible--and very unhealthy. No wonder you had self-esteem issues!

I was definitely a "smart" girl rather than the "pretty" one--I don't think that's any easier, because no matter how strong your strengths are there are always flaws and others will always find your weaknesses. We need to learn to love and respect ourselves as ourselves--for our strengths and our weaknesses, even if we aren't skinny or have the highest grades or whatever. Self-esteem isn't about being sure that you are the best at anything--it's about knowing that you are worthwhile even if you are imperfect, and parents can go along way to encouraging that by loving us unconditionally. That doesn't mean that they won't whack us upside the head (metaphorically) when we screw up royally--that's part of being a parent. But they should also hug us and reassure us that they love us even when we're being stupid.

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CPOTSKY 5/14/2010 7:22PM

    Sweetie...as always I think you are a beautiful person...not just outside but inside. I wish there were more people in this world like you as it would make is such a nicer place to live. All I can say about your family is WOW...I mean how did they get so lucky to have a daughter like you? I can only wish and hope and dream that my kids turn out like you...to be compassionate, to think of others first, to respect others, to just be a GOOD PERSON. You honey are your own greatest gift. If your parents and family can't appreciate you for all the gifts you have to offer...that includes your physical beauty...then they are so missing out. I feel so honored to know someone like you and it makes me want to be a better person. Keep going honey...you ARE loved for who you are! HUGS

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GYOZAGIRL 5/14/2010 1:56PM

    Great post!! You're kicking ass and taking names, keep at it!! :)

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SHERRIWEBS 5/14/2010 12:13PM

    You are doing amazing. I loved reading your blog! emoticon

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CALLIKIA 5/14/2010 11:38AM

    Thank you for letting me see the other side. I was the smart girl...my A's made up for what my looks were lacking. I had a "pretty face" but really good grades! It's nice to see that "pretty girls" struggle with some of the same issues as I always have. Keep up the wonderful work and keep up that chin! You are an amazing, intelligent, beautiful, wonderous woman and the best part is - you know it!!
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HOPE2BSKINNI 5/14/2010 9:18AM

    What a great blog! I love the format of the upper half of your blog! (I just might need to borrow that!) I love the reflection you wrote....I also came from a family where being skinny was the only thing acceptable....my mom is stick thin, my sister is thin, everyone is THIN and I remember always gaining weight starting in Junior High. I can't believe your dad is PAYING you to lose weight! Wow... i guess my family was never as straight forward as yours...but Wow! I can totally see how that can hurt your self-esteem...especially being asked to lose weight when you are 128 Pounds! WOW....128 pounds is tiny and I probably won't ever see that weight in my life! I remember weighing 130 pounds and thinking I was sooooo huge...and it really was because my mom was always saying I needed to lose weight, etc. When in all reality, i was a normal sized girl. You can do it girl and I'm glad you are seeing that you need to do this for yourself and not for anyone else :) xxxx

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GREEKSPARK 5/14/2010 9:10AM

  Your parents sound like my parents. I've been battling my weight since I was 8, and I've never even been seriously overweight, I think my highest ever was probably around 155. It's so silly. But I love how you're doing this for you- such a good mindset. Loved this blog!

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SPUNKYMOM30 5/13/2010 8:53PM

    LOVE! I Love love love this blog! You are an amazing writer. You are finding your inner beauty. Journaling about it is wonderful. I am just amazed, so amazed at the wisdom you hold. I can relate to this. I was always 105 lbs thru high school, now I am 30 and heavier than that and I know people have commented on me like "What the hell happened to her!"
I was all looks to anyone, that was it. They didn't care about anything else. My family wasn't quite as harsh, which is shocking to read how they treat you. I am proud to say that I don't wish to be 105 again. Those were depressing years for me and I am stronger now and happier in my life. Much love to you!

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DLEE27 5/13/2010 8:49PM

    Great blog sugar! emoticon

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BLAIRJ1 5/13/2010 8:16PM

    This was wonderful. You are such a great writer! You are in this for all the right reasons, I have a lot to learn from you. You are beautiful, AND smart, AND compassionate. Thank you for making SP and the world a better place :)

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KENDRA.PESCE 5/13/2010 7:16PM

    I really like this blog. I liked that you wrote what you did right. We're generally so hard on ourselves.

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RUNNINGOLLIE 5/13/2010 6:28PM

    Great blog and so true! Other people can be so short sighted! I was always told I would be so much prettier and "hotter" if I lost weight in high school and college- I was only 165lbs and running cross country and on the crew team! I actually liked my body at 5'6" and all people wanted was for me to be smaller, smaller, smaller! My mom was the worst because she was 6'0" and always felt bigger then everyone else even though she wasn't she was just tall!!! but boy did her ideas rub off on me I just never felt skinny enough! I developed such a low self-esteem and gained a ton of weight!

Now I just want to weigh around my lowest and be healthy and a great runner-so if that means the scale reads something other then 165 then so be it! I'm doing this for me and what feels comfortable for my body!
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MAGIC10FINGERS 5/13/2010 5:13PM

    What an amazing blog. U have come SO FAR all on your own. U have SO MUCH to be proud of & are an inspiration to many young people out there. Thanks for sharing your story, I know it will help many people with their weight loss journey.

BIG hugs,
Ruth

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LETMEBME 5/13/2010 5:04PM

    Let me tell you something - not only have you changed inside and outside, you have also grown tremendously. Reading your blogs is like reading blogs of someone much older and wiser and I congratulate you on that. Nothing happens without a reason, so I think you were meant to gain all that weight and have a better understanding of yourself and your goals and wants and needs. And then you were meant to find SP and loose the weight so that you can become one healthy person that is beautiful inside and outside and compassionate and understanding of others.
FYI, I also have a gap in my two front teeth that I was teased about at school all the time, so I totally get where you're coming from. There was times when I wanted to correct it so badly, but never had decided to, and today it is what defines me. I'm not perfect and never will be. The trick is to accept yourself and love yourself for who you are. I'm still learning to do that. Keep up the good work as you sure know where you're heading :)

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KENA101585 5/13/2010 4:41PM

    Wow - I am shocked that your family treated you like that but I am glad you have turned out well. Keep up the work and I am glad you have grown into a smart woman!

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SPARKGIRL285 5/13/2010 4:29PM

    your parents sound just like mine...my dad used to make me stand in front of him and tell me all the places I needed to lose weight and I was only around 130 anyways I love your attitude and congrats on the weight you have lost...don't do it for anybody else except yourself

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CREATINGAMANDA 5/13/2010 4:23PM

    Amen, girl. You're doing this for YOU and for nobody else. If they notice, great, but if they don't it wasn't about them anyway.

You're doing great with your goals and looking beautiful!

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