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Goals, Successes, and Things I Need to Work On -- Day 1 -- May 6, 2010

Friday, May 07, 2010

So I must STILL be losing water weight from my vacation and the bad choices I made afterward because I stepped on the scale and weighed 173.8 (1.2 pounds less than the day before) today!! WOOHOO...I haven't been this thin for about a year and a half. I decided to adjust my weight loss ticker. It was originally set at 164 pounds...which would be a 33 pound loss total. Since my goal was to lose around 72 pounds (this isn't for sure...have to see where my body wants to be)...I didn't want the ticker to discourage me so I decided I would break it up when I was around 185. I chose 164 because that's my first step on the HHM diet. I decided I am going to change it to 168...making it 29 pounds...which is still a big loss...but at 168 I'm officially no longer obese! woohoo! So after today I have 5.8 pounds until I am in the overweight category. How exciting!! After that, I think I'm going to do my weight loss goals in 10% of my body weight increments (so the next step will be 156.4). It'll be another 17.4 pounds.

I can remember deciding I wanted to lose weight back in March and beginning to plan it...I was so overwhelmed with losing so much weight in order to get into a normal range (for me it would be 57 pounds--putting me at the very end of the normal range at 140). I'm glad to report I now have 33.8 pounds until I am in the normal category--I've lost 23.2 pounds and I'm not quite halfway there (I will be in 5.3 pounds)!!

I'm so glad I decided to lose this weight--not only for my health...but it makes me feel so accomplished when I reach a goal. I couldn't believe my eyes when I stepped on the scale and for one of the first times in my life--it was a good thing! Once I get down to 168...I will be at a weight I haven't been in just under 2 years! It's amazing how a little bit of hard work and eating healthy can cause so much weight loss! I feel great too--so healthy :)

Day 82 of being smoke-free!!!!

Anywho--onto my goals!!

Nutrition
[X] Eat a breakfast that is high in fiber and protein
[X] Eat two fruits or vegetables
[X] Don't drink soda
[X] Don't eat in front of the TV
[X] Drink eight cups of water a day
[X] Measure out portions
6/6 = 100% WOOHOO!

Fitness
[X] Exercise for ten minutes
[ ] Do something active outdoors (forgot to--whoops!)
[X] Stretch for ten minutes
[X] Track calories burned
[ ] Do 15 minutes of exercise while watching TV (forgot to as well!)
[ ] Use a stress/squeeze ball (I still need to buy one of these!)
[X] Sleep for 7-8 hours a night
[ ] Do strength training 2x a week
4/8= 50%

Motivational Goals
[X] Tell one person about your goals
[X] Give yourself a five-minute mental pep talk
[X] Post a message on SparkPeople's message boards
[X] Read a motivational story or book
[ ] Reward yourself
[X] Read an inspirational quote
[X] Listen to a get-up-and-go song every day
[X] Visualize my goals each day and how I will feel when my goals are finished
[ ] Rent/watch an inspiring moving once a week via Netflix
7/9= 78%

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: I will blog daily and write five things that I did right that day and two things I could work on (without beating myself up).

Five things I did right:
1. I stayed within my calorie ranges
2. I used the Wii Fit for encouragement to stay on track (taking a body test)
3. I ordered a salad without cheese and used hardly any of their high-calorie dressing
4. I obtained all of my SP points possible
5. I worked out for my goal of 40 minutes--and hard!

Two things I could work on:
1. I did not track all my food yesterday.
2. Adding all my goals so they can be tracked on the SP goal page

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Work my hardest to ignore negative people who are critical of my weight.
I wrote a blog on this yesterday about the two high school girls at the gym.

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Let people know when they hurt my feelings and also put them in their place (as the rude person who is in no place to judge).
Since I didn't know them, I didn't walk up to them and put them in their place--but I also didn't feel like I had to...I don't really care about random rude strangers! haha.

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track all of my calories, no matter if I have a "bad day" (I had a habit of not wanting to). ANYTHING and EVERYTHING must be tracked.
NEED to work on this :)

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track my calories BEFORE I decide what I am going to be eating. This will help me make healthier eating choices.
NEED to work on this :)

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Follow the Hilton Head Metabolism diet six days a week, be mindful but indulge a little for the 7th day to keep my metabolism ramped up.
Starting today!

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Only consume alcohol one night every two weeks and no drunk munchies!

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate fitness goal: Work out every single day (at the very least with my DVDs), but preferably at the gym as well.

Reflections:
Yesterday was a pretty decent day for me. Although I didn't track my food, I don't think I went out of my ranges. I was just having a lazy day. It's pouring rain down here, which I'm disappointed about since it rained so much in Carbondale while I was down there! I have dinner plans for tomorrow night...but I am really thinking about taking a month from today off of drinking..to see how much more weight I can lose than when I am drinking. I obviously hear all the time that booze is SUCH a killer when you are trying to lose weight. Once I get to 155, I don't care how long it takes me to lose the rest. Then I'll be 15 pounds away from a normal range. Although I'm still going to aim for Thanksgiving as my goal...just to keep me motivated on my little journey.

Write tomorrow! :)

  
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B-N-ME 5/7/2010 8:48PM

    Try not to overwhelm yourself with too many goals, that is quite an energetic list!
I wish you much success, you can do it!

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EPOLLEY06 5/7/2010 4:38PM

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Very inspiring!!!

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ZANNACHAN 5/7/2010 12:20PM

    Sounds like you're doing well to me! You have made a lot of positive changes in your life and have a clear plan for where you want to go from here.

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Where do people get their manners?

Thursday, May 06, 2010

haha..so I was working out today..and this really irks me because I know so many people who do not want to go to the gym because they are afraid of being judged..I decided to REALLY push myself today (and when I REALLY push myself my face gets SOO red--always has my whole life--even when I was "thin"). After going on the treadmill for a brief warm up, I decided to go on the elliptical for 32 minutes (what was leftover of my 40 minute daily requirement) and REALLY work it...get some stress out...you know how it goes...

Well the ellipticals are right in front of the strength training equipment and there were two late high school (maybe early college) girls standing there and I saw one of them just like blatantly staring at me and then say something to her friend. Then her friend turned around and looked at me with "the look"..clearly they were saying something about me being either overweight and working out or me pushing myself too hard for being as big as I am (it wasn't a "wow--I wish I could do that" look--it was a "I'm making fun of you right now" look). haha. I just smiled... Old me would have been embarrassed and discouraged...NEW me smiled just thinking how big of brats these two girls were.

But it does bother me, because I know this is the type of thing that discourages people (some of my SparkFriends even!) from going to the gym and really having a good, sweaty workout. And I don't blame people for getting discouraged, I used to be as well. Then I realized that there is ALWAYS going to be something you are self-conscious about and people are ALWAYS going to feel entitled to judge you. I say...judge all you want...because I'm FINALLY happy with who I am...and it's because I don't let people's judgements hold me down. I AM a good person with a good heart that genuinely wants to help people...what does it say about them if they just want to tear people down? It says that the jokes on them! haha..they can have fun searching for their happiness..but I have a feeling they won't be finding it soon! :).

The truth is, I'm WAY happier now at 175 than when I was 125 pounds...which is further proof that your weight won't buy you happiness. Honestly, I don't even think losing the weight is even what makes me happy...it's the feeling of accomplishment...the feeling you get when you step on the scale and your hard work pays off..it's addicting!! Sure, all the compliments are great..but I also think it feels the best because people NOTICE your hard work...which feels good, no matter what it is they are complimenting!!

I can remember being 125 (I have a medium build and am 5' 3'') and wanting to be OVER TEN POUNDS SKINNIER...and thinking that would be what makes me happy...how ridiculous!! And I would have never realized how ridiculous that was if I didn't join Sparks and realize how outrageous the expectations society sets for young girls are. For example, I was on a site the other day...most of the people we look up to for our weight goals (celebrities) are between 95 (Kelly Ripa)-108 pounds!! Personally, according to my body fat %, at 109 pounds I am at 0% body fat! And there were honestly times when I wanted to weight 112...ridic!!

Oh and another question...if you aren't going to really push yourself at the gym and utilize the equipment to your maximum ability...what's the point of paying for a membership?

Just sayin'!! :)

Officially down 22 pounds today :)

Before pic is from March 10th or so, after is from May 6th!
I use the same shirt for all my pictures :)

  
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SAASHA17 5/7/2010 12:23PM

    way to go girl!! reallyy glad u took it positively...people can be weird...i remember a friend's skinny wife commenting on how i wouldnt be able to bike for 16miles...Its such a weird thing that people feel that if ur skinny ur healthy and have this amazing stamina...she was literally out of breath and faint after 0.5miles and it wasnt even the hard part. her hubby had to stop every 5min for her...and me and my friend (both of us are overweight but do the elliptical regularly) just breezed through the whole thing (i mean it was tough but we did it)...man was that a good feeling..

anyways what i wanted to say was u didnt let it get to u and stop doing what you were doing...9 pointers on elliptical is awesome..u go girl!!1

have a nice weekend
manasa

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ZANNACHAN 5/7/2010 12:13PM

    Wow, you're looking great! You're doing a fantastic job!

A part of me cringes when I'm in situations where people might judge me, I confess, and that part of me is very uncomfortable in public venues--not just gyms. But part of me is also aware that when people belittle other people like that, it really says more about them than it does about me--because the only way they can feel good about themselves is by putting other people down. I think you handled the whole situation very well.

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EPOLLEY06 5/7/2010 12:13AM

    You look fantastic! After having my baby that realization of how good I looked when I was at my thinnest really hit me. I wish I could go to myself back then and tell my skinny self to stop focusing on the cellulite, and this pinch or that I wanted to get rid of. I looked amazing and I never thought that back then. At 19 years old I was 119 and 5'6. And I remember think - just a few more pounds, on more than one occasion. That's why since having my daughter I have been hyper-focused on making sure I'm not calling myself fat or pointing out what I perceive as flaws anywhere near her. I don't want her to ever think I have those negative thoughts like that about her or about how she looks, so I need to be sure and be the example of how to treat myself positively.

Sorry this is going on and on - just wanted to say that I totally agree that we put too much on ourselves when we're young. We really don't appreciate what our bodies are capable of.

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LETMEBME 5/6/2010 10:42PM

    Great blog and great attitude! Keep doing what you're doing 'cause clearly it gives results! Just look at your photos! I can really tell a difference in your boobs and your shirt looks so much bigger now. Way to go!!!

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KISSYTINA 5/6/2010 10:38PM

    Great Blog! And, you are looking fantastic!

I hate that people feel the need to judge others. I can only say that they must be SO insecure about themselves if they have to judge others just to feel better. Those girls will never be as happy, or as beautiful, as you!

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BLAIRJ1 5/6/2010 9:38PM

    I love this. I am one of those people that gets down when I know people are making fun of me. You totally put things into perspective. Thank you! And...you look great!

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SPUNKYDUCKY 5/6/2010 8:51PM

    Happy to hear that you are happy with yourself! Those girls were brats!

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JCDROLSHAGEN 5/6/2010 8:49PM

    Well there have been rude people for decades but it does seem a little more prevalent now. Anyway the two little girls are probably facing their image issues so guess that they are just projecting to make themselves feel better. You are right to smile: you have wisdom and experience on your side and to top it off you will look great to boot. So the little ones can have their snicker but you will have satisfaction because of your hard work. Keep Sparkin on!!

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CPOTSKY 5/6/2010 8:30PM

    Oh honey you are so right. It is funny that you are speaking of manners because I am currently really trying to teach my 5 and 4 yo kids manners, lol! I also get so frustrated with people and their lack of manners but I am so PROUD of the way you handled the situation! You are someone to emulate! Oh and hey I also turn really really really red in the face and always have. I am sure there are people that want to call an ambulance on my butt after I get done with a workout, lol! You just keep on doing what you are honey and be PROUD of yourself. HUGS!

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CHRISSIENAPIOR 5/6/2010 8:06PM

    wow! i can see huge progress in your pictures! congratulations. and i totally agree with your blog! those girls might think they're all that right now...but just wait until they go to college and get a chance for that freshman 15 to creep up on them. they won't be laughing then!

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ANDI_3K 5/6/2010 8:04PM

    Manners have gone the way of the dodo. People who have them are a rarity and they got them from their parents - who insisted on them, and enforced them. People who mock others likely have self esteem problems or other issues...and their comments are more a reflection of them than of their victims. Good for you for not letting them get you down.



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DLEE27 5/6/2010 7:35PM

    Good for you for not letting them get you down. It's really unfortunate that so many people feel the need to judge and belittle. Personally, I think it has a lot to do with jealousy. They see you busting your ass to reach a goal and that's intimidating because so few people out there are working hard to better themselves.
Keep rocking girl!

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TURTLERAE55 5/6/2010 6:34PM

    Your up bringing starts at the home from our parents. I feel what you are saying. I would of ask do you know me? haha and keep on working out.

You did great.

Keep up the good work and just keep on doing what you're doing.

You do girl!!!!

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40 Day Personal Challenge Day 40!!!! (May 5)

Thursday, May 06, 2010

Today is my last day of my personal challenge!! WOO HOO! So much has changed in the past 40 days..I actually like blogging (I didn't). I have just set myself up for a new program full of goals that are attainable, yet still challenging.

No, my 40 days were not in a row because of vacation...but I still did it!! Made me realize that I may not be perfect but I can do what I set my mind too!

Last night my friend made brownies and I just couldn't resist!! But I worked off 400 calories at the gym so it evened out.

Yesterday my eating didn't go as planned as I thought..but still..did lots of good things! This is going to be the new format of my blogs:

Nutrition
[ ] Eat a breakfast that is high in fiber and protein (I was feeling uncomfortably full from overeating the day before so I just ate an orange)
[X] Eat two fruits or vegetables
[X] Don't drink soda
[X] Don't eat in front of the TV
[X] Drink eight cups of water a day
[X] Measure out portions

Fitness
[X] Exercise for ten minutes
[ ] Do something active outdoors
[ ] Stretch for ten minutes
[X] Track calories burned
[X] Do 15 minutes of exercise while watching TV
[ ] Use a stress/squeeze ball
[X] Sleep for 7-8 hours a night
[ ] Do strength training 2x a week

Motivational Goals
[X] Tell one person about your goals
[X] Give yourself a five-minute mental pep talk
[X] Post a message on SparkPeople's message boards
[X] Read a motivational story or book -- READ THE SPARK :)
[ ] Reward yourself
[X] Read an inspirational quote (on the SP main page)
[X] Listen to a get-up-and-go song every day (while I was working out)
[X] Visualize my goals each day and how I will feel when my goals are finished
[ ] Rent/watch an inspiring moving once a week via Netflix (I want to start doing this)

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: I will blog daily and write five things that I did right that day and two things I could work on (without beating myself up).

Five things I did right:
1. I tracked my calories and actually tracked everything!
2. I went to the gym and worked out for an hour
3. I created my goals
4. I wrote in my blog
5. I remembered to burn my exercise DVDs and sent them back to Netflix

Two things I could work on:
1. Staying within the calorie ranges
2. If I indulge, work on just having a bite instead of a whole brownie (or 2 ;)

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Work my hardest to ignore negative people who are critical of my weight.
(didn't come across anyone who was critical of my weight yesterday)

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate life goal: Let people know when they hurt my feelings and also put them in their place (as the rude person who is in no place to judge).
(didn't come across this yesterday)

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track all of my calories, no matter if I have a "bad day" (I had a habit of not wanting to). ANYTHING and EVERYTHING must be tracked.
I ate over 2,000 calories yesterday...which was wayyy out of my range of 1200-1500...but the good news is I still tracked everything so it made me conscious!

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Track my calories BEFORE I decide what I am going to be eating. This will help me make healthier eating choices.
(need to work on this one--I obviously ate the 2 brownies and milk before I tracked them! hehe)

( ) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Follow the Hilton Head Metabolism diet six days a week, be mindful but indulge a little for the 7th day to keep my metabolism ramped up.
(hadn't started the plan yesterday...but did buy the food so I could start it today :)

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate weight-loss goal: Only consume alcohol one night every two weeks and no drunk munchies!

(X) Short-term sub-goal for my ultimate fitness goal: Work out every single day (at the very least with my DVDs), but preferably at the gym as well.
(I went to the gym yesterday and worked out for an hour!)

Reflections:
Even though I went quite a bit over my calories for the day, I did not gain any weight because I went and worked out at the gym for an hour :). I felt good about yesterday because I completed many of my goals and noted things that are going to help me in the future. I also read The Spark, which gave me all sorts of motivation!

Write tomorrow!

PS See my SP Page for my B&A pics over the past 2 months! WOOHOO

  
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    Congrats on your 40 days!! That is awesome!!

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40 Day Personal Challenge Day 39 (May 4)

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Hey there...I'm doing like 10 different blog entries today, so I am going to use those to count as day 39 of my personal challenge. I am reading The Spark again and setting goals to help me stay on track!! :) You can read my other blogs if you are interested in my goals, rewards, and my new beginning!

xoxo

  
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LETMEBME 5/5/2010 1:04PM

    Hey girl!
Seems like somebody just got highly motivated! WOOT WOOT!!!!
BTW, you're only 1 day away from day 40!!! ROCKIN' IT!!!
Congrats :)

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Fast Break Goals and Rewards -- May 5, 2010

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

I have decided I am going to choose to do more than three of the fastbreak, since I already have built momentum and I do most of these things. It's doing all of them every day and making a conscious decision to do so...which is what I want to do:

Nutrition
[ ] Eat a breakfast that is high in fiber and protein (already did this on the HH diet)
[ ] Eat two fruits or vegetables (already did this on the HH diet)
[ ] Don't drink soda (never have liked soda very much, but completely cut it out)
[ ] Don't eat in front of the TV (I am sooo guilty of this, something I want to stop)
[ ] Drink eight cups of water a day (already did this)
[ ] Measure out portions (I do this sometimes, but want to do it ALL the time)

Fitness
[ ] Exercise for ten minutes (already did this)
[ ] Do something active outdoors (want to start doing this)
[ ] Stretch for ten minutes (want to start doing this)
[ ] Track calories burned (already did this)
[ ] Do 15 minutes of exercise while watching TV (want to start doing this)
[ ] Use a stress/squeeze ball (want to start doing this)
[ ] Sleep for 7-8 hours a night (usually do this, but not always...want to start)
[ ] Do strength training 2x a week (want to start doing this)

Motivational Goals
[ ] Tell one person about your goals (I do this a lot, but not everyday...want to work on this)
[ ] Give yourself a five-minute mental pep talk (would like to start doing this--in a private journal)
[ ] Post a message on SparkPeople's message boards (did this all the time)
[ ] Read a motivational story or book (will try to do this on SP everyday)
[ ] Reward yourself (want to start doing this through putting pennies in a jar that represent how many Spark Points I earned each day)
[ ] Read an inspirational quote (want to start doing this)
[ ] Listen to a get-up-and-go song every day (definitely want to start doing this!)
[ ] Visualize my goals each day and how I will feel when my goals are finished (I want to start doing this)
[ ] Rent/watch an inspiring moving once a week via Netflix (I want to start doing this)

Reward after week one: New gym socks
Reward after week two: Leslie Sansone DVD kit
Reward after week three: Portion control kit off of SP website
Reward after week four: SP shirt

Other possible rewards:
[ ] Compliment myself like I would compliment other Sparkers who accomplished the same as me at least once a week
[ ] Put a dollar in a jar every time I meet a goal, when it reaches $50...spend it on me!
[ ] Celebrate 100% days when I reach 100% of my goals by choosing two rewards

  
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