Tuesday, December 03, 2013
So yesterday my bootcamp started and I am following along the program with my bootcampers. I gave them the assignment yesterday of going on a two week long diet detox. I am going to be journaling about my own diet detox here! :)
So...today, I walked to breakfast...which was about 8/10 of a mile there and back. I walk quite a bit because I use public transportation to get everywhere :) I Love it! That started my day out on the right foot.
Immediately after breakfast, I went to the gym and did 20 minutes of cardio. I also was reading my book, Quantum Wellness, while I was on the treadmill listening to music. It felt good to hit two birds with one stone.
Then, I came home and Emma-Jean had inspired me to do some of Leslie Sansone's walking DVDs...but I only did about 3 minutes before I decided I wasn't feeling it. haha.
Later, I will be going into the city for a meditation...so I'll be doing more walking.
As far as my diet goes, I'm trying to get as much water in as I can. I'm not doing anything specific right now...just being mindful while I am eating. That's what feels right to me right now.
As far as motivation goes, I've been reading the book, "Quantum Wellness" to keep me motivated. In addition, I am still keeping up with my focus lists in the other areas of my life. For the next two weeks, my diet detox is going to replace my focus list for my healthy lifestyle plan. :)
I will write more tomorrow :)
Today is day 4 of doing my focus lists consistently! Woohoo!! :) I'll write tomorrow!
Sunday, December 01, 2013
I think one of the things that makes is so hard to lose weight is momentum...or really a lack of it. Even though I teach this stuff constantly, I still find myself wanting to do more than supports building momentum in the beginning.
The truth is, momentum can be built so fast if we let it. When we set up to-do lists with a million things to do, we kill any chance of momentum being built. After all, how can we feel like we're getting things done when we're unable to check all of our to-dos off? When we expect too much of ourselves too soon, we set ourselves up to feel hopeless.
My routine is going to be a little different today, as I am going to a 2 hour meditation and will be doing TONS of walking around the city today. This is something I will need to take into account..though streaking always does work best for me :) Oooh! It's kinda exciting to figure out what works for me healthy lifestyle wise again..it's been awhile since I made it a focus because a lot of the habits have become who I am.
My food is STILL something I need to put regular focus and intention on. My eating disorder began developing when I was five..and while it is healed when it comes to bingeing like I used to...I definitely do not naturally crave healthy foods unless I am putting a lot of focus and intention in that area. So I want to slowly get back to doing that without stressing myself out :)
I just woke up not too long ago, so I haven't finished doing the to-dos for my focus lists but here's what they are:
Vitality Goal: I have established a self-empowered lifestyle. This was my intention before. Something that I think is more tangible and makes it easier to track is "I am 125 pounds." The only thing is that I'm not crazy about putting the emphasis on the scale...and to be quite honest, I'm not even sure how much I weigh. haha. I stopped weighing myself awhile ago and focus more on my clothes and the habits. I'm going to think about this one for tomorrow because I want a goal I am able to measure...but I also think the scale isn't so great of a measurement...hmmmm...I need to figure this one out.... :)
[ ] Nutrition: I have read "Becoming Vegan" for at least 15 minutes
[ ] Fitness: I have walked 2 miles
[X] Motivation: I have written in my SparkBlog
My goals are definitely going to get done, I just wanted to make sure I wrote this blog. It helps set it in stone more :)
I Love blogging..it gets me excited about my goals and about the possibilities :)
Hope you guys had a great weekend!
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Hola! I'm back :) I'm on the fifth day of my presence process experience and felt like writing a little bit today. I may be bouncing around a little today..I have a lot on my mind.
Something inspired me to write about the last start of my weight loss journey and how it was different from the millions of other times I had started new plans. You see, I had failed so many times on my weight loss journey...for the first time in my life...when I started, I didn't go crazy with creating some program that I always found to be exhausting to keep up with. Instead, I just did what I could in the moment. The result was amazing...I FINALLY was able to lose weight...without being stressed out and feeling like I wasn't doing enough because I couldn't keep up. I wasn't spending time beating myself up for not following my crazy workout and diet plan that I had created. As a result, I was actually motivated to eat healthy and do my workouts. Funny how that works, right?
I think at the root of getting anything done is learning how to be kind to yourself and honor where you are currently at. Especially with my weight, I spent so much time thinking that if I were to just lose weight..I'd finally be happy. I focused on my body in an extremely negative way..and as a result, I manifested a 95 pound weight gain. The more weight I gained, the more I wanted to lose it...none of that seemed to matter though and change the fact that I was continually gaining weight.
When I started on my weight loss journey for the last time, I finally realized that I was where I was and I could either hate myself for it like I had all the other times or accept it with Love as I moved toward my goal. I realized that hating myself and my body had gotten me absolutely no where and that I would try my best to focus on all that I was grateful for. For instance, some people can't even walk or are missing limbs..and I'm complaining about weight that I can lose???
I started to look at the bright side of things and what a great perspective gaining weight gave me. I had been bullied, made to feel less than, and learned to appreciate the internal qualities that make me the sweet, caring, and compassionate person I am. At the time I didn't realize it, but it also gave me the greatest gift granted to me in this lifetime...to help other people heal so they can lose weight and create permanent results like I did. It really isn't about the weight though...it never has been...it's about what these people do with the confidence they gain from FINALLY being successful with something they have struggled with for so long. Suddenly, much like myself, they have the courage to go after their dreams and fulfill their life purpose. That's what I Love most about what I do. I truly believe every experience in my life has lead me to this point..you know?
It can be hard to start on this journey. It takes a lot of courage. In my opinion, it also takes a lot of processing. The reason why we have this excess weight (at least in my experience) was because we have learned to avoid dealing with our uncomfortable emotions. I leaned on food from the time that I was 5 because it seemed like it was all I had. Like I was talking about yesterday, I was taught that negative emotions were bad and should not be expressed. Food helped drown those negative feelings that I wasn't allowed to express.
When we stop making ourselves wrong for our food issues and excess weight and start examining the cause (note: it is NOT your lack of willpower and self-control), we start to make shifts that were impossible to make otherwise. We start to see a difference in ourselves and our relationship with food. We start to Love ourselves for who we are now because that's the only way we're shifting away from it. It can be easier said than done and takes some work..but work that is completely worth it.
So...I ask you...how can you Love yourself more today? How can you appreciate your body more? What would it look like if you stopped making yourself wrong for where you are now and started to honor it while making a plan with baby steps to shift to where you want to be?
As always, I Love you guys :)
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