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A new day

Friday, January 17, 2014

Stretching this a.m. And realizing I am making positive changes in small increments. I try to challenge myself to make a choice that my body will appreciate and benefit from.

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LETSGETSHAKIN 1/21/2014 4:09PM


I too am making small changes and seeing some big ones in how I look and feel. Keep it up.

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New I go!

Monday, October 28, 2013

I am now two months postop total hysterectomy...fortunately I had the laparascopic procedure so recovery was not that bad. I am officially going through "the change" and I can envision a better life for me, a more comfortable life in my own skin. When I was younger it was all about that I am a bit wiser, I realize it is about living a longer life and feeling well while doing that. Of course my ego continues to tell me it is about looks, but my body tells me otherwise. I have been struggling with some severe foot pain, but my motivation simply grows and is not hindered by this momentary speed bump. Today...I am drinking more breakfast...a protein shake (suggested by my physician), yoga breathing...a morning stretch...that is a lot of positive change for one morning.

PLANNING IS THE KEY. I am realizing now that planning is the key to all. I kept hearing myself say "well I am traveling...what else can I do but stop at a drive-thru" uh...hello Carol....sweet...excuse-making Carol. Planning is the answer...plan for these trips...plan for being hungry from time to time when poor choices may be very easy to make...have a back-up. Bottled water and nutritious supplement bars/snacks would be a great way to combat the cravings or drive-thru situations. I know that I can do this. I know my body is not giving me a choice, which is fantastic. I am learning to love what I see in the mirror, and to look at myself with a graceful and caring eye. I am replacing the negative inner monologue with encouragement instead of hatefulness.

Be your own best friend...and tell yourself what you need with gracefulness and caring thoughts/words. Take care of yourself. Speak only to yourself with love and careful discipline. You can do this...I can do this. Let's do this together.

I am not good at asking for help. I need help. Community help me. Sparkpeople help me!

Here is a saying that used to be recited at a women's group I went to "Place your hand in mine, and together we can do what we never could alone." your virtual hand in mine and let's help each other to be the best version of ourselves.


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A_BIT_AT_A_TIME 10/30/2013 10:16AM

    planning is so important - when I find myself spinning my wheels it's usually because I've forgotten my plan

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LETSGETSHAKIN 10/29/2013 7:31PM

    When I had my tubal done I gained most of my weight with in months of it. It was hard to see me go from just a few pounds to lose to a lot. I too get in the mode of I'm out so i need to eat, I'm trying to either have snacks on hand for those moments or make better food choices when going out is the only thing. emoticon

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MTAL203 10/28/2013 11:38AM

  You are on your way to exactly the right frame of mind. We CAN do this, and we will. Some days will be easy, so a bit more difficult, but together, one step at a time, we'll get there. Best wishes on your journey, and keep us posted!

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Today is the first day

Saturday, May 18, 2013

A note to myself: Dear Carol, I am glad you decided to return to Spark and to begin again to journey toward a healthier life. It will be difficult, but you will have friends along the way to keep you going when you feel like you've had enough. Today is a single day...try to just get through each hour reminding yourself that you are worth the time and effort to feel better, look better and enjoy what life has to offer. Be well Carol and Be nice to Carol!

I want to see you back here tomorrow...if for no other reason than to add another entry in your blog.

Blessings...your faith will sustain you.

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XHASTEDMOMOF2 5/18/2013 10:15PM

    Great self note!!


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--ALYSSA-- 5/18/2013 8:24AM

    Awesome note to yourself! You can do this!! Hugs!

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EWL978 5/18/2013 8:01AM

    Keep on keeping know that you can do it and we're all here, in the same boat, and ready to rally around and help you win!!


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DARJR50 5/18/2013 7:52AM

  Welcome back

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RIDLEYRIDER 5/18/2013 7:50AM

  from one Carol to another......we can do this!

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I am not my body, I am not my mind, I am my spirit

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

I have been having trouble lately finding nice exercise clothes that fit, are comfortable, and not horrible looking. I also have been having trouble with exercises and yoga poses that my current belly size/shape don't allow me to do. I have decided to stop trying to force the world to conform to me and I refuse to conform to the world. I will be transformed by this experience and find my own way.

I attend a yoga class once per week that is a beginner class and not in a brand-name, designer studio with outrageous prices and filled with students who have obviously been doing yoga for a long enough time to achieve the bendy-straw-type-poses.

I love myself...finally after years of hating myself. I am learning to love my figure even though it hinders me. I don't love it enough to keep body has reached a place in its journey where aches and pains and arthritis cause me to finally want to change my unhealthy ways. I have been working on my mind first and foremost, delving into why I repeat bad habits. Then I started to do things that offered healing to my spirit. Now I am taking it one day at a time, one moment at a time to do things that offer healing to my joints.

Never give up. Take your time. Find what works for you. The suggestion to me was to set achievable goals for yourself. I started by meditating one minute each morning...just one minute. Then, I extended it to 5 minutes each morning and on to 10 minutes. The practice then spread to 10 minutes in the morning and 10 minutes in the evening and that is where it stays for now. I started attending one beginner yoga class per week. It is at 7:45 in the evening and seems to be a great time not to interfere with other family responsibilities. There is a water aerobics class at my YMCA on Saturday mornings that I try to attend fairly regularly. Small changes. Nothing too taxing. A lifestyle change does not happen overnight for this is a process, a process that will take as long as I want it to...but as quick as my aches and pains want it to. Love your is who you really are. Listen to your body. Everyone has their own journey, their own path and there are very different things for different people. For me, listening to my body and really hearing what it needs is first and foremost to my personal success.

Blessings and peace
Om Shanti Peace

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JUDYHELP 11/21/2012 9:55AM

  emoticon Keep up the yoga!! I can tell the difference when I don't do it. I do mine of the WII and I wear my pj's. I know they don't look the best but they are comfortable. You will find something that feels good on you. The best thing is that we are doing it. The biggest laugh is me doing the tree pose. (tears) emoticon emoticon Together we can achieve our goals together. Have a great "thanksgiving" we all are blessed . emoticon emoticon Judy

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TEADYBEAR77 11/21/2012 9:48AM

    There's wise words in your blog. We are spritual beings. I don't do yoga because I don't bend in those positions. You have to find out what works for you and go for it.
Thanks for sharing.

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okay...that's it...

Monday, July 23, 2012

I am older than I once was, have physical limitations I didn't used to have and have more weight on my body that ever before...and everytime I decide to do something about it...there seem to be only options for young, skinny, energetic gymnast types who have cornered the marked on exercise class options and routines. I AM OVER IT.

Where, I ask you, is the option for the 220 lb. 43 year old who has had back surgery and a 8-5 job with children to pick up and a family to feed??? Where is it?

I am the turtle in this race. No more quick fixes or fast cures. I am a turtle darn it and I am actually (for the first time ever) proud of being a turtle. I am going to take this one step at a time, one hour at a time, and by gosh...I am no longer trying to match up to some unreachable unreal standard set by the media and pop culture. I am a mom and so proud of it. I do not need to be anything other than a healthy person who is a loving mom. To each his own...and my own is not trying to be a 20-year-old. I am in love with my 40's, but my knees aren' jeans aren't, my pocket-book isn't since I keep having to go out and buy the next size up.

So, enough I say...enough is enough. I just want to dig into my psyche and figure out where the motivations of my heart and soul have gone wrong and work on those things, and in the meantime while I am rediscovering myself (sounds goofy, but I don't care anymore...I'm doing it) I will eat the next right meal, and find one minute, two minutes, three minutes, five minutes, 10, 15, 20 and even 30 minutes to stretch, exercise and take care of myself at my pace. I just wish I could find a class at the gym for beginners that happens any other time outside my work hours.

Seems like the YMCA is just not willing or able to have the beginner class for the slow as you go, committed new beginner with the physical limitations who just wants a better life and to feel better.

Maybe I should start my own at my house and see if I can get any sparkpeople in a similar predicament to join me in my quest.

Keep on keeping on people...we didn't get here overnight, and trying to lose x pounds by x date is just an expectation waiting to turn into resentment.

Carol! Today I am trying to do the next right thing....because it is PROGRESS, NOT PERFECTION I am striving to achieve.

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WIZINTN 8/1/2012 7:38AM

    Nice & Easy. It really is the way to go for many of us, especially if we set realistic goals and are consistent. It enables us to keep going, instead of having to stop to get over injuries and pain. Keep on keepin on...

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RODERUNR 7/26/2012 10:30AM

    You ROCK Miss Turtle!! emoticon Slow 'n Steady wins the race they say!! Congrats on taking a stand and making a promise to yourself and your kiddies/family!

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NONIE_C 7/23/2012 1:01PM

    Hallelujah!!! I am with you all the way.
Here's to us turtles!!! emoticon
Slow and steady wins the race...

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CJ_SPARX 7/23/2012 11:21AM

    You are awesome. Don't worry about what society says is the right way to look. What matters is how YOU feel. You're trying to get to a point where YOU are comfortable in your life. The media heaps unrealistic expectations on all of us and we kill ourselves trying to meet those expectations... until we get fed up, as you have, and realize the media is full of it.

I think my mom is in the same place... She has bad knees and can't handle the faster-paced classes that seem to be in abundance. I wish you luck in finding a class!

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JENDA9138 7/23/2012 11:09AM

    thank you for sharing your thoughts with all of us

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