Day 1 - home again

Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Today is day ONE for me - I have been in the hospital for a few days.
I sprung a leak from my bile fluids. I was in such excruciating pain. I was going out of my mind with pain. Don took me to the emergency room and within a very short period, tests were performed and I was in the procedure room, having a stint put in to stop the flow of bile that was filling my body and affecting my organs. My liver function was the most affected. My body bloated so much I cannot fit in most of my clothes and I cannot close my coat. My doctor says I am stuck with this weight gain, almost 20 pounds....

I have spent too much time crying but am more focused today to continue to pray and walk by faith. God is going to continue to take care of me. I am going to take one day at a time and heal. I am going to eat healthy, walk my lil bit I am allowed to walk and pray.

  

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LALASLAND 12/29/2010 10:37PM

What does all that mean? Is it from an ongoing issue? I hope you are well soon! Report Inappropriate Comment

ECHOBLUE1 12/29/2010 8:13PM

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26M8J7 12/29/2010 5:21PM

So sorry to hear about all that happened to you and about the bloating. You are wise to take one day at a time. You have been through so much, which shows how strong you are. With God's help you will be able to do all the things that you want but like you said, take one step at a time, one day at a time. God Bless You, Barbara Report Inappropriate Comment

CBEVNOW 12/29/2010 4:18PM

Oh Jenla so sorry to hear this. Praying nothing else goes wrong, and your pain will be eased, with the touch of God's hands.Concentrate on getting well before worry about weight, it will happen. Take care and Blessings to you. Caroline Report Inappropriate Comment

DAS92687 12/29/2010 3:12PM

I am glad to hear you are home and the doctor could stop the leaking and the pain. You must feel a million times better today being home with your family and knowing the worst is over. You are in my prayers that you feel stronger every day, that your liver is healed, that your spirit is happy. Your weight loss will be back on track before you know it. Report Inappropriate Comment

FRANANN3 12/29/2010 2:29PM

Oh My Goodness Jean, how unfortunate,BUT ,Thank God , NOW you're on the road to recovery!! Do rest as much as u can, the walking will come in time..Thank god the leak didn't cause any serious problems... You ARE very strong... YOU CAN do this, deep breaths with the pain... SLOW but STRONG with God's Healing hand on you ALWAYS!Much love, Fran Report Inappropriate Comment

Merry Merry!

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Merry Christmas!
Family Christmas party today - I am excited.

Surgery tomorrow NOT excited!
Please pray for me. I NEED peace, God's peace that surpasses all understanding! I know
seek and you shall find... well I have been finding - tomorrow - I just need HIM to hold me.
I know He will. Thank you in advance for your prayers.

May God Bless your holidays with much love and joy!

I will check in when I feel up to sitting at the table to update you on my surgery.
Take care and God Bless YOU!

Heavenly Father, I thank you for the love of brother and sisters in Christ. I thank you for the gift of prayer, the gift of faith, and the Gift of Jesus. I pray Lord that you would be those who need a touch of your love this holiday season, wrap them in your arms and comfort them. I pray for someone in their life to reach out to them and show them love. Help me to be more aware of those in need in my life, let me be love this holiday season. I pray for abundant joy for all of those represented in this forum who need your touch today Lord. In Jesus name I pray. Amen.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Jean

  

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CBEVNOW 12/21/2010 11:01PM

Be well Caroline Report Inappropriate Comment

LORETTA24 12/21/2010 10:43PM

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ECHOBLUE1 12/19/2010 6:04PM

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26M8J7 12/19/2010 2:10PM

I have been and will continue to be praying for you and thank you so much for praying for us. God is Faithful!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

CYCLINGSANDY 12/19/2010 1:19PM

God can and will grant you His peace. He will hold you up nad carry you in His arms during this time of surgery and healing. Report Inappropriate Comment

LALASLAND 12/19/2010 1:04PM

I can't say it better than DiamondMama... I'll be praying for you and have a Merry Christmas! Report Inappropriate Comment

DIAMONDMAMA 12/19/2010 12:35PM

Enjoy your family today! Praying for God's peace for you and guidance for the doctors tomorrow for your surgery. Report Inappropriate Comment

Finding Peace and Joy

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Finding peace and joy in this holiday season has been challenging.
School is so crazy, two more class days and I am done for this semester!
I am proud of my work, it is so intensely crazy and busy busy busy. No time to take a breath
some days, and there are days I feel like I am going to bust!
I take it one day at a time.
Now it is coming to an end! I am finishing with three A's and one B. Although, that B could
turn into an A with my final exam.

I am seeking Joy in everything that has to do with Jesus this season, whether it is in the music I play, the lights on the tree, or the people I greet. I am trying to hang onto
the JOY of life. I am so desperately full of despair, some of what I have known before, I am
puling from my experiences to keep my faith in the ONE who holds my life. The ONE who orders my steps.

I want to THANK YOU for your prayers and support, they have helped.

I am sorry I have not been on spark very much, busy with school, work, ect. I killed my computer this week - thank God I just got a new lap top for school.

MERRY MERRY Christmas!

My surgery is December 20th. Please keep me in prayer. May God bless you!
Jean

  

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26M8J7 12/14/2010 5:20AM

congratulations on finishing the school year with great grades. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Report Inappropriate Comment

CBEVNOW 12/13/2010 11:26PM

Will be praying for you, i think it sounds like you are not slowing down, shame on you. Take care of yourself. Caroline Report Inappropriate Comment

ECHOBLUE1 12/13/2010 2:14PM

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IUHRYTR 12/13/2010 2:27AM

Terrific grades. Shows that hard effort in school or in fitness pays off. Stay positive about the surgery and keep your joyful attitude. It will also pay dividends. -- Lou Report Inappropriate Comment

SKPOEM 12/13/2010 12:33AM

Lucky you! I'm hoping to pull out with at least C+ in a few classes... I understand that feeling like things are overwhelming. I keep wondering when I am going to finally get a breather, even for a week or two! Good luck with your surgery. Report Inappropriate Comment

LALASLAND 12/12/2010 4:18PM

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CYCLINGSANDY 12/12/2010 3:05PM

Continue to count it all JOY! You know who you belong to. Your Savior will carry you through your exams, surgery and more. He loves you so much! Iwill pray for you. Merry Christmas! Sandy Report Inappropriate Comment

Will it never end?

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

More bad news today - I have to have surgery - again. Im not dealing with it very well.
This will be my 7th surgery. Most people hate surgery - the pain,ect. I am terrified of it.
Why I have been chosen as a vessel of this torture I do not know. I only know I want it ASAP and let the healing begin. I have a "growth" in my gallbladder.

May God bless my body with healing, may He guide the docs hands, and may the "growth" be normal... not diseased. Oh I know how can that be? Because God is God and I need Him to be my devine healer.

Some of you, my dear spark friends, know that I have had many trials and tribulations with my health, due to malnourishment as a kid. Thank you for never giving up on me and for always encouraging me to keep my spark ON.

I have two weeks left of school in this semester. (5 days of classes) Then I have three weeks off for Christmas break.

Right now I need your prayers and support.
I am praying for complete healing and removal of the growth with no complications or infections. I need God's grace and His peace.
Thank you all - In God's love.
jean

  

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26M8J7 12/14/2010 5:24AM

I agree with others in praying for your peace and speedy recovery. God is Faithful!! Barbara Report Inappropriate Comment

FRANANN3 12/12/2010 2:20PM

Jean, Praying for God's Blessing to you. May you be filled with strength, confidence and His healing hand! May the Dr.s nurses and everyone who comes in contact with you be Blessed. Much Love, Fran Report Inappropriate Comment

THEADMIRAL 12/1/2010 9:53PM

I'm so sorry to read about this growth and the surgery! We know that God is for you and He seeks to be glorified in your life, no matter the circumstances. I'm praying for that peace that only He can bring to you and for God to be praised during (and because of) this latest challenge you're facing. Vikki Report Inappropriate Comment

ECHOBLUE1 12/1/2010 8:27PM

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ANGORA4 12/1/2010 5:50PM

Sending along my prayers for speedy healing Report Inappropriate Comment

NORTHWOODSMOM8 12/1/2010 10:19AM

{{{{BLESS your sweet heart}}}}}, Jesus came for those who needed a physician. I will be praying for you, dear sister! Today when I walk, I will specifically lift you up to our Heavenly Father who CARES for YOU! Report Inappropriate Comment

LALASLAND 12/1/2010 10:15AM

Aww, Jean, I'm so sorry about this! I will keep you in prayers (my husband chuckles because I pray for my SparkFriends!), and hope for the very best! Report Inappropriate Comment

IAMWINNING 12/1/2010 9:39AM

Jean, I pray God's comfort and encouragement for you; that surgery will go well, and that the growth won't be a disease. Nancy Report Inappropriate Comment

IUHRYTR 12/1/2010 8:06AM

I'm with you in prayer for your health to improve. It can't be fun and likely is frustrating. Let's trust that all will be well in the bigger picture of things. Keep us updated and keep studying hard in school. We care about you. -- Lou Report Inappropriate Comment

KICKINGIT@56 12/1/2010 7:54AM

I am praying that God will provide the strength and comfort as you depend on Him during this latest trial. Believe, as Paul did, that His grace will be sufficient for you. Report Inappropriate Comment

DAS92687 12/1/2010 6:43AM

I am praying for you, for your peace and comfort and for healing in your body. Keep smiling, Diane Report Inappropriate Comment

26M8J7 12/1/2010 4:50AM

I will be praying for you and agreeing with you in prayer. He is the same God who brought you through the other surgeries and He will bring you through this one. He will not leave you nor forsake you. He is well able to keep that which we commit unto Him. In all things through prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let our requests be made known unto God and the peace of God that passes all understanding shall rule our hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. Barbara Report Inappropriate Comment

ETAGGEL 12/1/2010 2:13AM

I am so sorry to hear this. Of course you are in my prayers. God has his ways, and though very hard for us to understand sometimes, He also has His reasons. I know your Faith will see you through this. God Bless you and keep you safe Phyllis Report Inappropriate Comment

CBEVNOW 12/1/2010 2:09AM

I am so sorry Jenla,Im in agreement with you on your prayers. May God watch over you and keep you safe in his arms.We do not always understand God's ways but he knows. I to have been going through some things and have been trying to be brave. I know you will be fine. Prayers to you. Caroline Report Inappropriate Comment

Thanks - for prayers and encouragement... I need spark

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Thank you for all that have been praying for my dad. He is home. He has to go get a few more tests out patient. I am thankful for everyone's thoughts and prayers for him.


I have been very busy with dad in the hospital, school, work,homework... I am so very thankful to be able to be this busy.


I am thankful for all of the advancement in medical care. I went in for my annual physical and I did not get all good news. Being so busy is not good for my kidneys. I have been so exhausted.
One of the worst parts of kidney failure, when you get exhausted, you stay that way, until you can rest rest rest. Well I cannot rest, rest, rest until Thanksgiving week. So I am making sure I get to bed at a decent time no matter what does not get done either in the house or homework.



My exhaustion is why I have not been on spark. I have thought about leaving spark, but I am still striving for health. I may not lose weight, I didnt join spark to lose weight, I joined spark to gain health, hoping along the way I would lose some weight.



I walk everyday, I eat portions, I choose veggies and fruits over the crackers, chips, and other unhealthy choices I used to make. These things are now first nature to me.



I need spark to continue my journey. I need encouragement from my spark friends to keep on keeping on. I need the health tips, trackers, and most of all the teams.



So thank you for being part of my spark journey. I need you too!



jean

  

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CBEVNOW 11/16/2010 10:25PM

Jen, please dont leave us. But if it comes to that we will understand, you have a lot on your plate, right now, but you must get your rest. We who have Kidney Disease know that is a complicated disease and is hard to live with. We love you, so take care of your self. Caroline Report Inappropriate Comment

SKPOEM 11/16/2010 5:45PM

Sounds like you have the idea, just hang in there with the good choices! That's what matters with kidney disease. Report Inappropriate Comment

THEADMIRAL 11/15/2010 2:50PM

It all comes back to balance -- sometimes we can do a lot on SP, sometimes we need to back off. We're family and we work together. Be gentle with yourself, take time for yourself and minister to your dad. We're here for you! Vikki Report Inappropriate Comment

IUHRYTR 11/14/2010 4:58PM

That is good news about your father. One of the things I have received from this site is the encouragement and support from all of my new Internet friends and can not imagine not logging in every day to see how everyone is doing. Hope you know we're to help if we can and that we do care what happens to you and your family. Hang in there and get that rest. You need to do it for you and your father. -- Lou Report Inappropriate Comment

LALASLAND 11/14/2010 4:14PM

Jean, I'm going to be praying for you. I hope you get the rest you need before Thanksgiving. Yes, your SparkFriends are here for you, so don't forget that! Report Inappropriate Comment

VISUALLYRICS 11/14/2010 3:09PM

You can count on us here for support!! Report Inappropriate Comment

NORTHWOODSMOM8 11/14/2010 2:47PM

Rejoicing with you! Report Inappropriate Comment

ANGORA4 11/14/2010 12:26PM

So glad to hear the good news. And glad to hear you are choosing to take care of yourself, no matter what. Woo hoo! Caregiving is not an easy journey, but we are glad to be able to share it with you. It is a rewarding journey, as is your journey to health. Report Inappropriate Comment

26M8J7 11/14/2010 11:01AM

First of all it is good to know that your father is well enough to come home. I will continue to pray for him. You can be confident that I will also keep you in my prayers. Barbara Report Inappropriate Comment

ECHOBLUE1 11/14/2010 10:34AM

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