Monday, January 18, 2010
In 12 hours I will be headed to school. *Sigh* My stinking thinking is already kicking in. This is what I am thinking:
-I don't want to do anything tonight because it is my last night to really relax. Although I am not "relaxed" because I am stressing about the semester already.
-I don't know how I am going to wake up at 5 am and be alert enough in class.
-Are my headaches going to start up back again?
-What if I can't do it all. All being go to school full time, working 28 hours a week, exercise everyday, eat well, and get this weight off for graduation, doing well in school, keep C.H.A.O.S. (can't have anyone over syndrome) away from my house.
I just keep telling myself I can't do it all. Why do I do that? GGGGGrrrrr. I need some positive thoughts/vibes/prayers.
Taking care of myself has to be a TOP priority. I want this weight off.
I'm going to go make my brekkie and lunch right now.
P.s. I get my elliptical tomorrow! Maybe I can exercise some of this negativity right outta my head.