Treading water...

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Right now I feel that I am doing all I can just to keep my head above the water. Water keeps splashing in my eyes and I just keep wiping it away. I am totally bummed about a test I got back today. I got a 72. That's not normal for me. It seems I am in constant tug of war with school and losing weight. Tonight I only did 30 minutes on my elliptical and I feel so guilty because I wanted to do another 30. But I know I had to get this paper written and do my Sparkpeople stuff because lets face it, sparking is a way of life. At least it is for me. I love to support people and read blogs and make comments and watch my fitness minutes and sparkpoints go up. I don't want to deny myself that pleasure. BUT when I saw that grade my heart broke. Our teachers make it a point to tell us there are A students that aren't the best social workers and there are C students who are awesome social workers. I am just having a really hard time giving my best to both my studies AND losing weight. There has to be a happy medium. It also doesn't help the fact that I am a very organized/like stuff clean person. I can't relax until I know all the house stuff is done then I can move on to me stuff (school and weightloss). At least I got my 30 minutes of activity in. I won't meet my 10k steps goal but that's okay. I've done the best I could do today.

  

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MANDARULES 3/10/2010 9:00PM

School is SO hard. Combined with losing weight and all of the other daily-life stuff that happens, it's nearly impossible. A 72 isn't so bad. I realize it isn't what you hoped for, but next time you'll do better. And remember...it'll average out and "B's get Degrees." No reason to strive for perfection...let's strive for completion. No employer will ever request a transcript. Comment edited on: 3/10/2010 9:01:21 PM Report Inappropriate Comment

ROCKCHALKSPARK 3/10/2010 3:31PM

Don't get yourself down; Everyone has their good days and their bad. Just remember to *BREATHE*. Report Inappropriate Comment

NIELSENSLADY 3/10/2010 3:21PM

I understand. When I was in school, I had good and bad days. Now I work full time and I still have my share of bad days plus fitting healthy living, eating, exercising in. It certainly takes work and time. Just do the best you can! You're gonna be great! Feel free to talk to me anything you need anything! Report Inappropriate Comment

NICOLE12-01 3/10/2010 12:38PM

Awe, it is so difficult to juggle a new lifestyle plus work and then to add school, I can only imagine it becomes a NIGHTMARE! But keep your head up above that water! You're doing a GREAT job at being the juggler. Even the best jugglers lose their grip on one of their bowling pins every once in a while. I know it wasn't the grade that you wanted, but you will do better on the next exam. You're working 3 jobs right now. This new lifestyle is more than a full time job. It takes up every minute of our lives. You're going to be an AMAZING social worker. Today is a bad day. Tomorrow will be better. All you need to focus on is one day at a time. And if that seems overwhelming...one hour at a time. Everything will get done. We're here to support you! (((Hugs))) Report Inappropriate Comment

MLKDUD 3/10/2010 10:56AM

Balancing school, work, family, and YOU is SO hard!!! Unfortuntaley I have no good advice, because I was horrible at that! I totally let myself go while I was back in school. And now I'm paying for it! But it sounds like you are doing a fairly good job! There could be so many factors to that test grade, so don't beat yourself up over it!! Report Inappropriate Comment

RONDAJONES 3/10/2010 10:45AM

Totally understand here too. I would feel the same way. The bad part of all of this, and I know we have talked about it, is that losing weight is sooooo time consuming. Between tracking calories, workouts, planning, and just trying to stay motivated...it can almost be an all day affair...EVERYDAY! Hello...people have jobs, families, and other parts to life. It makes me feel as though I am being selfish, but I know that I am not. A "C" is not the end of the world...but it is the price (it looks like to me) that you paid for losing those wonderful 3.5 lbs last week to take care of yourself! I would do a trade off like that too! You are doing awesome... Report Inappropriate Comment

DTSOBEL 3/9/2010 11:10PM

I agree with everyone else. I understand what you are going through. I, too, am going to school (getting my teaching credential), work full time as a teacher and trying to spark and take me time too. There are days that I feel the water is lapping over my head. But we are doing it. And one class with a "C" isn't the worst thing. Now go study! Report Inappropriate Comment

KASS72 3/9/2010 10:26PM

Your doing great! Your juggling alot around in life right now and somedays get stressful more than others! You should be very proud...and keep on a treading, the water will get shallow as the days go by! Always remember to take that "me" time, I think it makes this journey alittle easier. You worked out for 30 minutes today, that's better than nothing! You can do this! Report Inappropriate Comment

KA_JUN 3/9/2010 10:18PM

Doing your best for today is all anyone can ask, keep up the good work! Report Inappropriate Comment

Short and Sweet

Monday, March 08, 2010

That's what this post is going to be. I need to finish up one paper and start another, get my exercise in, get my 10k steps in, laundry and then make breakfast and lunch for tomorrow. I am so glad next week is spring break.

Hope everyone had a fabulous Monday!!

  

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VILLAMARIA 3/9/2010 4:19PM

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JULIETEXAS 3/8/2010 11:55PM

Ya'll have it together, I am just trying to survive Monday! Report Inappropriate Comment

ANNIE_HEALTHY 3/8/2010 8:31PM

wow you are so focussed and have a pretty full on plan for the day - sounds like my day!!! Hope you get it all done and good job prioritising the exercise.... Thank goodness mine is done for the day and i have completed two reports, have a work meeting for two hours and then have to clean the house a bit and prep for my interview tomorrow eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek i hate interviews!! Have a great day!! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

MLKDUD 3/8/2010 7:59PM

Ok, I am tired just from reading this! Try not to work too hard! Work smart, not hard!! Your roasted cauliflower recipe was pretty good tonight! Report Inappropriate Comment

You Mango Me Crazy

Sunday, March 07, 2010

Today I actually tried fresh mango for the first time EVER. Unfortunately, it wasn't ripe. I should have researched how to pick a ripe mango before I bought it. Note to self green mangos are not ripe. Ripe mangos are more orange in colour. I still managed to have a good breakfast anyway.

I haven't really done that much today. It's been nice. I've had a few temptations this weekend but I successfully resisted. Yesterday on my way home from getting my hair cut the man kept saying he was hungry. We were going to go out to eat but he decided he would rather have fast food instead. So I ended up stopping at What*a*burger. OOOOhhhh how I wanted one of those juicy things. But I remembered I am only 1 pound away from seeing a new decade on the scale and that stopped the temptation in it's tracks.

This evening when I decided to work out I looked down at my pedometer and I was sitting at around 2500 steps I thought well I am at least going to get my 30 minutes in even if I don't meet my 10k steps. Well 30 minutes turned into an hour and now I just need 500 more steps to make my 10k. I have my vision collage hanging directly in front of my elliptical. And on it I have a picture of me at 140 pounds. That picture just does it for me. Seriously. If I could only have one thing on my collage that picture would be it. It reminds me that I can do this. I have done this before (granted I didn't have to lose half of me) and I can do this again.

  

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ALICIABORTON 3/10/2010 7:57PM

I eat a mango just about everyday! Love, love, love them! Report Inappropriate Comment

RACHELH211 3/9/2010 9:54AM

I know - those pics of being skinny are both wonderful and depressing! Report Inappropriate Comment

MLKDUD 3/8/2010 2:00PM

mmm...mangos...I like to make a mango salsa to put on fish.. yum! and way to go on working out!! Report Inappropriate Comment

KASS72 3/8/2010 11:16AM

I have never tried Mango's...might put that on my list of new things to try. :) Good job at resisting those tempations!! Report Inappropriate Comment

NICOLE12-01 3/8/2010 10:50AM

I love the idea of having your vision collage and a picture of yourself in front of your elliptical! When I first started exercising, on the days that it seemed unbearable to workout a second longer, I would put in the video of our honeymoon when I was around 140 pounds. It helped me get through some of those workouts by giving me that boost of motivation! I LOOOOOVE mangoes! I'm sorry you had a bad experience. Definitely try again. They're DELICIOUS! Report Inappropriate Comment

HUNTINGGODDESS 3/8/2010 6:22AM

Mangos have to be soft. And the more red the sweeter they are. I ate one the first time a week ago. Oh my God. Soooooooooooooo Gooooooooooood. Report Inappropriate Comment

RONDAJONES 3/7/2010 10:57PM

Way to go. DD loves loves loves mangos! DH likes Mango Mojitos...LOL Funny you have a pick of you on your collage. I was going to try to find one of me before DH and I got married. I was at about 125 then...my goal is 130...so it would be close enough to motivate me. All the good pics I have I am about 110...which I am a rail. LOL (Which isn't a bad thing...just totally unrealistic I think after 2 kids!) Night and talk to you tomorrow. Report Inappropriate Comment

I (heart) Jamie Oliver

Saturday, March 06, 2010

I've been a Jamie Oliver fan for over 10 years now. I was so happy to read about his latest campaign and NEW television show called Food Revolution. Anyone else fans and looking forward to the new show?

Click here to read more about Jamie and Food Revolution
www.jamieoliver.com/campaigns/jamies
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RACHELH211 3/9/2010 9:47AM

We were planning to watch it. When did it start again? ABC right? Report Inappropriate Comment

JULIETEXAS 3/6/2010 6:48PM

No Food Network in Samoa ;). Maybe I can follow it on the web. Sounds great!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

MCMISTY 3/6/2010 4:04PM

I've been a big fan of his, every since I was flown in and trained on his cookware to help promote it, when it first came out about 7 yeas ago. Report Inappropriate Comment

NIELSENSLADY 3/6/2010 3:52PM

I love Food Network. It makes me hungry though. LOL! Report Inappropriate Comment

Weekend Weigh-In

Saturday, March 06, 2010

Drum roll please....................................
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Weight today 250.50!!!! I LOST 3.5 pounds!! I am officially past the 20 pound mark with a total weight loss of 20.5! Can I get a wha wha??!!! It has been my observation that increasing my calories to 1600 and some change HAS paid off.

  

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RACHELH211 3/9/2010 9:51AM

Great job!! :) Report Inappropriate Comment

KASS72 3/6/2010 6:11PM

I'm proud of you! You are doing a great job!!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

SHIPESTA 3/6/2010 5:22PM

woo hoo! I just increased my calories yesterday and it's sooo hard to eat it all, but I'm hoping for larger pay offs each week as well - this is great to hear that it worked for you. :) Keep up the awesome work! Report Inappropriate Comment

NICOLE12-01 3/6/2010 4:27PM

Can you get a Wha Wha??? You BET you can!!! WHA WHA!!!!! Congratulations on the 3.5 and the 20.5 pound total!!! That's freaking AWESOME! You R-O-C-K!!! I'm sooooo smiling a big toothy smile for you right now!!! See.... Report Inappropriate Comment

SHIMMY2BFIT 3/6/2010 4:01PM

WOOT WOOT Report Inappropriate Comment

TXDREAMSPINNER 3/6/2010 12:39PM

Congrats! 3.5 pounds is awesome. Keep up the great work! Report Inappropriate Comment

SWEETNEENI 3/6/2010 10:27AM

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MLKDUD 3/6/2010 10:11AM

awesome!!!!!!! Report Inappropriate Comment

TRATLIFF15 3/6/2010 9:08AM

Congrats!!. and a big ole WOO HOO to you!. I experimented with increasing calories one day during this week and lost 2 lbs. It's strange how that works, and I will be fluctuating my calories for the next couple of weeks ......(experimenting).. hoping it pays off. I wish you all the best of luck on your weight loss journey! Report Inappropriate Comment