Friday, September 09, 2011
Second 6 mile morning ride in a row, and I fit it inbetween taking Grandpa to have blood drawn, and work. I actually gave up going to breakfast with my Grandpa and my husband for a bike ride! I know I won't always want to skip out on family time, but today it just seemed right. I'm getting a little selfish with my time, I've noticed. I need time to do what I need to do for myself, and I'm really putting my foot down when something gets in the way. I know I have to roll with life's punches and I may not be able to have my way 24/7, but for now, when I can, if I can, I'm standing up for my time, my healthy meals, my amount of water, I, me, me, mine! I know this might sound ridiculous, but I have always been such a passive person, rolling with everyone else's needs or whims, and suddenly my needs are very important and I am not willing to sacrafice them without a fight. I think this must be a healthy point of view, since it seems to be working for me so far! Change, so mysterious, so beautiful.
Thursday, September 08, 2011
My creation came out really awesome. Only 280 calories per one cup serving. Very nice, had it with grapefruit for breakfast and I feel very fine.
4 cups cooked brown rice
1 cup black beans (I used organic canned, got them for like 69 cents at Grocery Outlet)
1 cup part skim ricotta cheese
1 cup roasted green chilis, diced small (bought them in the frozen section at $1.99 for 1 pound, saved me a lot of time, I love roasted chilis)
1 cup spinach
3 cloves of garlic
1 cup low fat cheddar cheese
salt and pepper to taste
Mix everything together except the cheddar cheese, put in casserole dish, top with cheddar, bake at 350 degrees for 30 minutes
So darn good!!!! Gonna try to post my pic, it wasn't working earlier, so let me try again.
OK, no pic, with those ingredients how can you go wrong. The only thing I might try next time is adding some tomatoes, either sun dried or canned, maybe even fresh, think that might have been a nice addition to the mix.
Wednesday, September 07, 2011
It looks as though I am going to reach my first weight loss goal. I never officially made this a goal, because I thought it was a little far reaching for me, but I did have the "loose 10 pounds in a month" dream in the back of my head. And if things go as they have been I will reach that goal by the 16th, which is my one month sparkversary. I only have 2.4 pounds to loose in 9 days, I truly think that is possible. What is really amazing me is how easy it seems. I know as I get smaller it will probably get harder, but for now I really am in shock as to just how a little bit here and a little bit there really adds up. I always did the gung ho approach to health and fitness. I went head in as hard and heavy as I could and burned out in a few months time. It was the starvation and, exhaustion cycle. Oh and my three month stint at Food Addicts Anonymous, now that was truly hell on earth. Not to give them a bad name, for those that have been successful, but for me, wow, I still feel like I have PTSD from going there. It was like a prison camp for overeaters. So disturbing. No freedom, scary strict. I "cheated" one day and my sponser said that if I did that one more time she was going to kick me off her team. And in their book cheating is ONE BITE of something that isn't part of the meal they plan for you. It was just far too intense for me. Turned out that that very sponsor that did that to me ended up falling off the wagon and gaining a bunch of wieght after I quit. As the world turns........??Enough of FA, I get on a rant with that group, but that is part of my past torture with dieting and my attempt to conquer this nightmare of emotional overeating. And for some reason now, it's like I'm finally playing with a full deck, like I have all the puzzle pieces and can finally see the whole picture. The pieces may not be put together yet, but atleast they are all there. I am really amazed that eating healthy balanced meals and moderate exercise is allowing me to succeed for the first time in what I have said is the most important thing in my life. I truly feel that if I can achieve this, there is nothing I can't do. I want a healthy body, (life) so bad, it's been so important to me for so long. I have prayed so many prayers and cried so many tears. I have had so many conversations with so many people about losing weight. I never gave up completely, but like a lost sheep in the desert, I just coudn't find my way on my own. I felt helpless, and hopeless. The day I found SP was after a particularly hard conversation with my husband about how much weight I had gained and how I had to do something, anything to get it under control. If it weren't for SP I would still be lost, wondering this wild desert of life with no hope, no direction. Because of SP I am found, and have just spent some of the very best weeks of my life learning, growing, sweating and falling in love with myself and the world around me. This is nothing short of a miracle in my life. I will be forever in awe of what a great shepard SP is for all of us lost and lonely sheep out there. It's becoming a very bright world and all I want to do is give myself what I need, so that I may give others what I have. To all you glorious ones, let joy fill your hearts, for we hold the keys to everlasting health in our hands, and for that we must rejoice!!
Tuesday, September 06, 2011
This journey is so much more than a competition with the scale, but it sure is nice when you are on the winning end of that competition. My battle scar has kept me from doing a few of the everday activities I have been doing, but I am not going to let it stop me dead in my tracks. I think I have found the key to my calorie intake dilema. I was kind of over/under and back and forth for a week or so, but I have found that if I make three meals at nearly the same calorie value, and have fruits/veggies/grains and a little protein at each meal, I am doing pretty good. I stay satisfied and never feel too hungry or cheated. I am still a little frutstrated at night, right around 4th meal time, but I am now just going to bed earlier. Instead of staying up till 1am, I am laying down around 9:30, right about the time I used to start eating till I dropped. It has been a little bit of a struggle to get myself to fall asleep without food to make me pass out. But I am noticing once I do go to sleep, I sleep really well, all night, and have been having good dreams for the first time in a long time. So, for today all seems well in the world. Almost makes up for the fact that my poor mans Wii fit I bought yesterday at Goodwill didn't come with a power cord! I'm not letting that stop me, I'm calling the company and attempting to get a replacement cord, I'm sure I can get one. Well beautiful people, I hope you all had a wonderful weekend. I enjoyed mine very much. Not really ready to say good bye to summer yet, but I have a feeling this winter is not going to get the best of me this year. I think with all of my newfound activities and overall peace in life, I will make this the best winter ever! Have a blessed day, and don't ever give up, this is the path less traveled, and it will make all the difference.
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