Friday, September 02, 2011
Went from a 15 minute, 3 mile bike ride, to a 10 minute one in one weeks time! That is visible progress if I've ever seen it!!! And I cut 5 minutes off my time while riding against the wind half way! I am pretty happy, I was really pushing myself, but I didn't realize I was going that fast. Also finished my vision collage, it's hanging on my fridge and it's gorgeous and highly motivating. Think that is what I was thinking of on my bike ride this morning! If you want to see a blurry picture of my collage, I posted it to my photos this morning. I hope for all the best today for you wonderful warriors. Be strong, be brave and conquer this day, it's waiting to be won over by you!
Thursday, September 01, 2011
I'm reinvisioning my new life. I am slowly transforming my "diet" mentality to a healthy lifestyle mentality. Of course I want to see big results, fast, hard to change that thinking overnight. Slowly it is becoming the non weight results that I am begining to really want to nurture and work on. It doesn't seem so much like a race to a deadline, as it does a lovely path through the woods with hills and valleys leading to a destination I can almost feel, but not see yet. I am begining to think about myself being thin. I bought some health and fitness magazines yesterday, along with a better homes and gardens, and began seeing this life, this body that I don't know if I've ever fully allowed myself to dream for. I picked out the very healthiest body I could, which happened to be Jenny McCarthy, someone I have really liked for a long time, and tons of motivational sayings and will work on my vision collage tonight. I was realizing as I was going through the magazines last night, that I had stopped dreaming some time back. Don't know exactly when it happened, but reality did set in, and I felt a prisoner to a life I didn't really feel was mine for years now. As I grow stronger, and turn away from food as a drug to deal with my life (I am an emotional eater) I am begining to have feelings and thoughts about myself and the possiblities for my future that I had given up on long ago. I am now dreaming of going back to school, even maybe studying nutrition. So, the long and winding road is more than a good song to me now, it is my life. The life I am choosing day by day to carve out and make my own. It feels authentic, and almost predestined in a way. Like I've always known this would happen, and I was just waiting patiently for it to come along. Like a little seed, I have been planeted in good soil, now I just need to step back and watch myself blossom.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Started reading The Spark, and I feel compelled to share with you all my fast break list, and my goals.
Create and cook one healthy new recipe per week
Exercise atleast 10 minutes/day
Post goals on fridge, in car, in bathroom, in bedroom, at work
Read my bible 3 times per week
Each goal that I reach, I give myself a dollar that goes into an envelop saved for the end of my first week. I can spend that money on anything I like............I'm dreaming for a new pair of running shoes.
Short term:Drink 8 cups of water everyday without fail, cook a new, healthy recipe once a week without fail and find some new, motivating music for my Ipod, collect magazines for my vision collage and create that with my goals in mind.
Midterm:Get involved in the local homeless shelter, set up schedule to give haircuts to the homeless/jobless people out there looking for work. Ride 6 miles on my bike without stopping. Run one mile without stopping. Loose 20 pounds by my birthday (February 5th).
Long term: Reach 100 people for Christ, loose 110 pounds, afford healthcare, find out why I haven't gotten pregnant and attmept to remedy that, get out of debt, start my retirement plan, start saving for a house, go back to school or buy my own barbershop, swim with sea turtles and dolphins ( I can dream big can't I?!)
At the end of my 28 day starting program I am going to give myself the gift of going out to Tazzina's Bistro with my wonderful husband, one of the nicer restaurants in town that I've only heard of and have not been to yet.
Wow, that felt good! Of course my dreamer brain has all kinds of dreams that go into greater details of what I want in depth for my future. But for now, this is a good, well defined step in the right direction. The Spark is a phenomenal book so far, I am so glad I bought it, and am reading it. It is really interesting and touching to hear the biographical story of Chris Downie. He really deserves to be the president of the United States or something. Day by day as I really come to terms with what SparkPeople is doing in my life and the lives of millions of others, I am in utter shock and awe. I can't seem to believe this is all real. It really seems too good to be true, but as I sit here and pinch myself for the 10th time this morning, I see that this is real. Someone cares enough about me, and my fellow human citizens to give back. Not to give something small, something hardly worth noticing, but something HUGE. Something priceless. Something so great words do not do justice. So, humbly, greatfully, and in utter shock and intermittent disbelief I come to all of you, with arms wide open. THANK YOU. And I will spread The Spark. That is the least I can do for all that has been done for me.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
I don't know about most of you, but I definitely have a complex when I exercise. I don't go to a gym, so I don't have people surrounding me when I work out, most of my exercise is outside or in my house. But I still have this embarrased feeling that people walking or driving by are just staring at my fat as I attempt my best at running or even walking as fast as possible. And the thing is, what if they are? What if they are staring, is that going to hurt me? And in all reality, no one is probably even looking in my direction at all. I do live in a relatively small city though, and I do see people I know everywhere I go. On my morning walk the other day a client of mine passed me on his bike, so I do know that I am not all alone out there on the streets. And I don't know why I think when I dress up in my jeans and non workout shirts that I look magically so much better, I never seem to be too embarrased dressed like that. I do have a shorts phobia, and I've been wearing them often for my outdoor exercise activities. I am really seeing that I have to change the way I look at myself, because this fat girl defense mechanism is really stressing me out. I don't want anyone to see me exercising, and so I don't want to exercise. Isn't that silly? I know it is. And I'm not going to let this insecurity get the best of me, I refuse. I guess I've just been in denial so long about the problem and now that I am staring it in the face everday I am seeing many layers to my thinking/emotional nature that I am not really proud of, and didn't even really know existed. So, this is a wild journey, I have a feeling there is going to be a lot more to this than just happy butterflies and rainbows everyday. But instead of these hard feelings getting the best of me, I'm going to get them, and put them right where I want them, eating my dust as I take my best attempt at a morning run. So, if someone is looking at me, hope they get a real good look, because they are not going to see me this size for too much longer. I am going to dance this dance as long and hard and big as I can. I will slay today's monsters, and in doing so, equip myself for the road ahead. March on you brave soldiers, there is no turning back on this mission.
Monday, August 29, 2011
Down 5.2 pounds in 14 days. This is so exciting. And although I am being pretty serious about my eating habits and exercise, I am not killing myself. I don't feel deprived of food, in fact I wanted to take pictures of my meals yesterday, they were so yummy and wonderful. And although I am trying to push myself in my exercise time, I'm not killing myself. Just as much as I can do, nothing too crazy. That's it!! I never would have thought that the rememdy to my decade long dilema could really be this easy. I have heard it my whole life, eat less, exercise more. Yeah, well, I always thought you had to eat so much less it would be unbearable, and exercise more than was possible for me to acheive. I really had myself fooled on this whole weight loss/healthy living thing. I just didn't realize it was so easily attainable. I mean, I'm not to my goal weight by any means, but this early success will give me the strength I need to continue through the plateaus. I am really amazed a what sparkpeople is doing in my life. I can't beleive it is free, and I can't get over all the constant support that you get here. I am a very happy girl. Oh, and prayer works, everyday atleast once I ask God to give me the strength, to help me through this, and everday I have it. God led me here, and each day leads me to a new and brighter me. Without my faith I would never be here, and for this I am so humbled, and so in awe of the power of the force that created this beautiful ball we a call Earth and all of it's diverse inhabitants. Glory be to God in the HIGHEST!!!
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