Sunday, August 28, 2011
OK, I have some confessions to make, I've been eyeing you skinny girls for years now, making up ideas in my head about why I might possibly be better than you. Why your smooth, long legs make you look like a hootchie, and why you are just running around in your short shorts to get attention from every man that passes you. OK, I admit it, and I consider myself a Christian, hmmmm, not exactly the love eachother mentality I am striving for. But, suddenly, slowly, I am looking at you all, now, this past week, wanting no longer to find some flaw, but instead to sit you down and ask how you do it. What keeps you motivated? And I want to give you a high five for doing it on your own, without the interactive, daily guidance from something like SparkPeople. To all you skinny/healthy people out there that I have been giving the evil eye to for more years that I can count, this fat girl is sorry. I think you are all beautiful and instead of trying to find your flaws, I am now going to use you as a source of inspiration. ( And to all you skinny people on here that did use SparkPeople, thank you too, because you are all a daily source of motivation for me.)
Saturday, August 27, 2011
I have been meeting my cardio and strength training goals and my calorie boundaries, and I have lost a few pounds and I am TIRED!! Is this normal? I am so tired! I am sure after awhile my body will get used to this new lifestyle, but for today I've been a little cranky because even getting off the couch seems a task I can't bear. I'm thinking maybe I need to just do more, maybe go swimming? Or maybe I'm doing too much? I just don't know??? This is all so new to me, the eating better, eating less, exercising regularly and as hard as I can. Yeah, this hasn't happened in my life in atleast 12 years, if ever. So I think my body is confused. I have been sleeping like a rock, for the past few nights. But last night I was so tired I couldn't do my scheduled cardio, so I passed out and did it today instead, which was supposed to be a rest day. I know it's not a sprint to the end, but I also know that if I don't push myself and see some results, I might not continue the way I want to. But I have to listen to my body. I am tired for some reason, I just haven't been this sleepy eyed in a really long time, really wondering if I am doing something wrong? Guess I'll go to the message boards and ask some questions.
Friday, August 26, 2011
Slept like a baby last night, good dreams, pillow felt like a fluffy cloud. AND I lost three pounds in 10 days. I am so excited because I had an intial loss of 2.4 pounds, and then gain of 3.4 pounds the first week. So now I have lost 3, and I am going to keep it off. I know it. I can feel it in these slowly strengthening limbs of mine! And the biggest mystery, what to eat, seems to be gradually figuring itself out. I kept figuring if I searched long enough on this site I would find a "diet" plan, one that told me all the things I could and couldn't eat and the portion sizes. Well I haven't found that, thank God, because I think with the inspiration and knowledge tools on here to choose how to meet my own nutritional needs I am so much better off than with a do A,B and C type of approach. I feel in control, and although it is spark guided growth, I feel like I am doing the work how I choose to. And that is making me feel enpowered and proud of the choices I am making, not a slave to someone elses plan that I don't really enjoy following. Been there, done that, it doesn't work for me. So I am giving myself a hug this morning, because I am proud to be me today. I'm on a path I've dreamt about for my whole adult life, a path that I'd pretty much given up on being possible for me. I have placed such importance on my health my whole life and when something is so important to you and you don't have it, and it seems like you never will, that becomes a source of constant desperation. And this morning, I don't feel that way. I feel confidant, secure, driven and motivated to be the very best I can be. This is what life is supposed to feel like.
Friday, August 26, 2011
Had my first grocery shopping experience since starting SP. So cool. I managed to get the best stuff at Grocery Outlet, which made it super cheap. Found frozen mixed brown, red and wild rice. Had it for dinner, sooooooooo good, so easy, so fast. And Annie's organic cereal for like a buck fifty! I manged to put together the easiest, yummiest, most satisfying dinner without slaving in the kitchen and without breaking the calorie bank. While I was eating all I could think about is how I felt like I was really nourishing my body, not just stuffing any old thing down my gullet just to make the "hunger" urges go away. I am really realizing just how much I ate on a daily basis, thinking I was hungry, thinking I needed to keep eating until I was completely full. It is no longer a mystery to me why I weigh what I do. I have been overeating for 10 years!! That is behind me now, I am begining to feel what satisfied feels like. Not stuffed to the gills, so full I can't move, or so hungry I can't bare one more second without food, but satisfied. It is a really great feeling. I never really knew I could feel this way. I didn't realize how easy it actually is. I mean without SP it would have been impossible, but with SP, it is pretty doable. I always thought those people who said eat less and exercise more were out of their minds, I thought that could never work!! Wow, I'll be honest, if I never loose another pound, I am still happy to be on this routine, living this way, eating this way, exercising this way. It feels really good, and I am really proud of myself. I've been telling people all day about SP, I can't imagine what I will be like when I reach my goal weight! YIKES, watch out world!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Just finished my 10-minute bootcamp workout with coach Nicole from SP videos. It was pretty good. Not too hard, not too easy, and when I logged it, it was a 222 calorie burn! I was surprised to see that, not sure if I really worked hard enough to burn that many calories. Almost broke into a sweat in 10 minutes, so all in all a pretty good way to start my morning. I think I might just do it again.
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