Wednesday, December 12, 2012
Been getting a little cheerier these last few days. I went to a really great Christmas concert featuring a few of our clients from the shop. It was really good and managed to lift my spirits. Also my Mom and I sponsored a few families for
Christmas this year, and last night we spent shopping for those families and it was a lot of fun. I think this is going to be a new tradition for me. It seemed to mean so much more buying for children that I know aren't getting truckloads of stuff already.
I saw this online today, and I just have to share, makes me chuckle, and think, so true, so true!
Lately I've been really searching myself to try and find who I really am, and how I fit into this big, wide world. I came accross this, and it seems to fit right where I am now.
All my soul searching has lead to an inner peace that seems to spring forth even in hard times. I've had to test this recently, since I found out yesterday that Tim is going to loose another job. I can't even count how many jobs that is in the last 5 years. It's been so many, that it doesn't even phase me anymore. This time it's for really complicated reasons, stemming from him telling the truth, so I am not upset. It is what it is, there is nothing we could do about it. But I have to admit my faith has been tested, and tested again. But, all in all, I choose love, peace, freedom from stress and worry and guilt and fear. I beleive that as long as I am alive, everything will work out the way it is supposed to. It may not be what I want, or expect, but it will be what God has planned, and ultimately what I need. It's hard to look at some of our struggles these last years, and admit that it was all a learning leasson that we needed to go through, but it is true. Every trial we have had has made us stronger, wiser and more in love with eachother. So, I say, bring it on. I'm not going to whine and cry and say "why us, why now, why????" I am going to say, OK, we'll get through this, like we got through the last trial, and God will show us what it is all about when we are ready and have the ears to hear.
On a cool note, I found out that the local pool has year round, daily lap swim. I bought two new swimsuits and plan on starting lap swim very soon. I can't wait! I was a lifegaurd and swimming instructor in High School and ever since then I have LOVED swimming. It is my favorite way to exercise, so hopefully I'll be at it really soon.
If I can consistently put into practice all the great things I've learned from SP I'll really be on a roll!!! I'm excited about the new year and think that 2013 should be wonderful. Have a lovely Christmastime. Hope the season is bringing great things your way.
Tuesday, December 04, 2012
Just when I was feeling anti-Christmas, I ran across this today! This turned my frown upside down and made me really want to go to a Christmas party so I can do this!
Tuesday, December 04, 2012
I don't have internet access at home anymore, so that has significantly cut down on my sparktime :(. That is OK though, I've been reading a lot more and the apartment is always clean now! I also lost two pounds over the last week, wich is 11 down since the middle of September, which equals just about a pound a week. I am really happy with the slow and steady pace. This is exactly what I wanted, and am really, really happy to be on track with my goal in this area. I've noticied that overall, to pinpoint my days, I am eating less and moving more. I know that is the key to success, and that seems to be what I am doing. I find ways to be busy, I've been waking up early, and stay moving most everyday, all day, and drink tons of water. I am also exercising in traditional ways, and recently bought a yoga video to add to my routine. I am excited to start doing this on a regular basis, yoga always makes me feel so good.
My bunny is doing really good, he is such an adorable part of our household. I think Tim and I are completely smitten with him. He is getting bigger and can jump onto the couch now! I came home from work on Saturday, and there was Tim, watching TV, with the bunny fast asleep on his lap. There aren't many things cuter to me than my big, strong hubby, sitting, petting a sleeping little bunny. Too darn cute!
I spent my day off yesterday in Sacramento, had a lot of fun in thrift stores over there. They have the very BEST thrift stores over there, too much fun. I found a nice fake leather jacket, and I passed it up because it was a little bit too small, I now wish I would have picked it up.....it was exactly what I wanted and soon I'll be able to zip it up!! Oh, well, maybe next time! I did get some nice, leather slip ons, that I'm wearing today. I must admit, I might be a little thrift addicted at the moment! I rarely spend more than $20.00 a week, but I have been going almost every week. I think it is fun, like I said, I used to spend that much or more on junk/fast food a week, now I'm spending it on fun stuff at a HUGE bargain!
So, I'm not getting swept up in the Christmas halabaloo this year. Since I am an Esoteric Christain, this season has a lot of spiritual meaning for me (yes, I know, Christains stole the holiday from many cultures and claimed it to be the birth of Christ even though no one knows when Christ was actually born). I don't let the chaos of the history of Christianity affect my love for Christ, which is all that really matters to me. So I do spend the season honoring his birth, whenever that wonderful day actually was. Having said that, I am buying any and all presents this year from thrift stores...............I believe in recycling! My mom and hubby may get one new gift, MAYBE! I try so hard to fight the pull of materialism that wafts over us this time of year. It gets easier to fight each year, but sometimes, my old ways seep in and I want to buy, buy, buy junk that no one wants. NOOOOOOOOOOOOO! Not this year. You know, Tim and I went the last three years without buying one another any gifts for anything, Christmas, birthdays, anniversary. We usally go out to eat, and that is about it. Our celebrations occur throughout the year, and we don't have to wait for "special" days to tell eachother how much we love eachother. So, that is my Christmas mini speal. I do love all times of the year, and see the beauty, love and majesty of the whole year...........I just get a little sickened by the materialism of what could be an otherwise beautiful holiday, spent honoring old and rich traditions. To any of you who celebrate this time of year in alternative ways, please share with me what you do. I love to educate myself on what other people/ cultures do to celebrate this time of year.
Well, I'm keeping as sparky as possible, not giving up. I'm not pushing as hard as I could be, but I'm not giving up either. I am happy with my pace of weight loss, and pray that I never give up on my quest for health and happiness. Cheers to all you brave sparkers out there fighting the good fight to live a quality life. Hope this season is full of lots of good things for you, and your loved ones.
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
It is time to revamp my goals. I have lost the spark a bit these last few weeks, and although I haven't gained, I haven't lost either, and there is a reason, I have slacked on fit mins and on food tracking and on water consumption. Wow, that is a lot of slacking! So it is time to pump it up. I've had half my water today, started the day of with 25 fit mins and have tracked everything I've eaten today. So for today, I'm doing better than I have in a couple of weeks. It is truly apalling how easy it is to quite for a day, which turns into a few day, then a week, and before you know it nearly a month can go by and I've lost my motivation and my spark.
I need to fix my bike tire, this is huge for me. I know it's a quick easy fix, but I've been putting it off for over a month. When I have my bike, it is easy to get a good 30 minute ride which always makes me feel so much better. I also need to get back into my ST routine. I was feeling much better when I was getting steady ST in.
I've realized that I not only want to feel better/stronger, but I also really do want to look better. I know that may sound funny, but my looks have never been a big motivating factor in my desire to loose weight. But recently I've realized, I truly do want to look healthier. And that can only happen if I put my health as a priority, everyday, throughout the day. I have a terrible tendency when things are stressful, to put anything and everything as priority over my health. I always think in the back of my mind, " I have time later, tomorrow, next week, etc." Well this thinking is what got me through my first year on SP without any real wieght loss, and if I don't change this thinking, I will be working on my second year with no substantial weight loss. This is not what I want. I really want to be serious, without killing myself in the process. Balance in this area is so incredibly hard for me. I know I'm not alone in this, but I also know that there are many people who have had great success with SP and I want to be one of those people!!!!
I think I am going to pick up the Spark book and work my way through from the begining again. I think that is what I really need right now. With a clear goal in my mind, at all times, it is easier to get done what I need to do.
Well, my pep talk is over for today. It is time to truly focus on what I want and make it happen, no distractions, no excuses, just focus, focus, focus!!!
Keep on sparking, your spark is what makes me know there is light at the end of this tunnel for me!!!
Tuesday, November 20, 2012
Tim is hiding, but the point of sharing is look how sweet they are together!!
I have lot's more pics, but I'll leave it at that for now!! I think I am going to be like a true proud mama with the little bunny! He is soooo cute, I love him so much! I was going for the name Zoey for a girl and Jasper for a boy, but my husband really, REALLY wanted to name him Jesse. He wanted that name for a child too, girl or boy!! Haaa! So it's Jesse the rabbit and we love him sooo much. He just sits on our lap and lets us pet him as long as we want. Such a great little addition to our home.
Things have been great lately. Getting lots of fit mins in. Eating really well. The scale is at a stanstill, but I feel great! And I actually bought a pair of 16 jeans yesterday, that was really awesome. I think I'm changin my shape a little, and stengthening without seeing too much weight loss right now. I'm seeing it as success for now. I know it will come off in due time.
I'm really getting excited for Thanksgiving. It is my favorite holiday of the year. So I'm looking forward to lot's of good food, wine, games, laughs and all around joy and merriment. I plan to eat very small portions and just have what I want, but not too much.
Hope you all have a lovely holiday week. Keep sparkling!!!
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