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Wild weekend

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Where to start.............whew I'm exhausted! Well Saturday after work, I came home to a houseful of family. I cooked for everyone, and my sister stayed over to go with us to church on Sunday. I managed to do pretty well with dinner, making mashed cauliflower, a squash and bell peppers medley and panko breaded and baked chicken breasts. Everyone was pleased and I was pretty happy with the calorie equation that day. My sister and I stayed up watching TV and chatting for ahwile, it's always very nice to spend time with her. I woke up pretty early on Sunday and got a nice jog in before the hubs and sis woke up. That was nice. I felt pretty great.............UNTIL we walked to the car to leave for church and noticed that one of our cars was missing. My first instinct was that it had been towed, which would have been financially annoying, but nothing too terrible. Well, after a few hours of mystery solving, we found out it was not towed, but stolen. Yikes, definitely not what we needed. I got pretty bummed out for the rest of Sunday. Lot's of "why's" and "what did I do to deserve this" going on. This is the second car we've had stolen since we moved to the Sacramento area. So, after a long day of being downright bummed and sad, I decided I wasn't going to let the whole weekend be ruined.

My attitude today has been pretty good, considering the happenings. I went to the local consignment clothes store and found a skirt/top combo that I was eyeballing a few weeks back that was originally priced at $20.oo.............today it was down to $2.00! I had to get it! I know, I know, drowing my sorrows in shopping is probably not the best thing, but I only spent $4.00 total on my goodies...........that's less than a fast food meal, and that is how I used to drown my sorrows, I'm thinking this was better. Plus the outfit I bought I originally thought would be too small for me. It is a one size fits all, and the skirt looks quite small, but it fit well, and is so cute! Glad I didn't spend $20.oo on it!

After my mini purchase fun, I picked Grandpa up and took him to downtown Sacramento for a doctors appt. We got there at 1:00 and did't leave until after 3:30, that was kind of a bummer part of the day. But we did get to spend a bit of fun time together. I always love it when it's just me and him and we can talk about whatever we want. I love my Grandpa so much. We got home, and he really wanted pizza. I allowed this because he lives in an assisted living place where they don't get things like pizza and brownies.............which is what he wanted, and he's 86, so he get's whatever he wants when he's with me. I just took him home a little while ago, and have been sitting here thinking about taking a quick walk around the block............but it's after 9:30, and I'm just not sure if that's a good idea tonight or not. I'm pretty pooped out.

So that was my weekend. Not exactly great, but I'm not letting it get me too down. I think I might have enough energy tonight for a quick SP cardio session, and I am already planning tomorrow mornings jog. After this weekend, going back to work will be relaxing! I've really been sooo busy these last few days.

One good way to look at things is, with a weekend like this, the week can only get better from here..........I hope!!!
Love you guys, hope your weeks are filled with healthy choices that make you proud.........that is what I am hoping for myself, and I think I have a good chance to turn that hope into reality!

  
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HIPPICHICK1 10/21/2012 11:16AM

    I know you've gotten your car back so YAY for that!
A most enjoyable blog to read.
I like that you only spent $4 on your shopping spree and that you are pampering your Grandpa, but next time make him a homemade pizza so you can control the sodium. The old dude's body would probably be very grateful.
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SNUZSUZ 10/17/2012 7:13AM

    I'm sorry to hear about your car. Hopefully you will get it back and it won't be in too bad of a condition! You have a great attitude about it though:)
That's really nice you got to spend time with your Grandpa and that he got to have pizza and brownies:)

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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 10/17/2012 5:25AM

    Having one car stolen sucks...having two cars stolen? Not even sure there is an adjective for that that I can use in public!!

However, you framed the issue so it did not drag you down. Good for you!!

And congrats on the $2 outfit. That always feels nice!!

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ME_HERE_NOW 10/16/2012 9:25PM

    man, that sucks about your car, you seem to take everything in stride, mini-freakout then move on, sounds about right ;) love that you got to spend time with gramps and are making time for fitness even when you have company or are really busy, that is the mark of a true spark champ...i managed 5 workouts last week and gonna attempt to keep that up. you are rockin it girl!!

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BIGPAWSUP 10/16/2012 1:01PM

    I think you are handling things quite well. You did have a fairly good weekend with one back kick in the teeth. Proud you didn't give up and give in. You kept going and had a good day with your Grandpa. emoticon

Way to focus on the positive!

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RIDMYCOCOON 10/16/2012 9:47AM

    Do you have insurance on the car? Sorry that happened:( However, you are really facing this head on and that is so admirable! I am happy you bought yourself a little something. Sounds super cute! You even made time for your grandpa what a darling you are! Have a good week at work emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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BEARGODDESS 10/16/2012 9:07AM

    Sorry about the car being stolen sweetie. Sacramento can be a rough neighborhood sometimes. (Or it has a few in it) Great attitude though and I hope the car is recovered. Your dinner sounds scrumptious! I'm glad that you got to have pizza with your grampa.
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VALERIEMAHA 10/16/2012 7:11AM

    Bummer stuff AND...You.Are.Amazing!
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Turn that frown upside down with SP articles!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Lately I've been turning my desperation to be healthier into curious searching time. I've found the best articles on here. Great ideas on how to eat according to season, and how to find little ways here and there to burn calories without having to run 10 miles/day. I admit, it is a completely different way to look at life than the way I've lived for nearly a 33 years. But it is a way to look at life that I've always dreamed of. I've wanted purpose and fullness, variety and spice, goals and spark. I've wanted these things and had absolutely no idea how to get them. I am nowhere near reaching my goal of living a fully sparked life, but I feel a source of strength growing steadily inside that keeps me believing that I can and I will have the life I deserve......one little decision at a time.

It's funny. I've went from coming home at night without having dinner planned and just scraping things together, to planning nearly the whole week ahead of time. In fact, I'm so excited to try new recipes that I can't wait for this week to be gone so I can plan next weeks meals! Heee, kind of funny! I am loving the new flavors and simplicity of some of the recipes I've tried. I thought tasty/healthy cooking was much harder than this! One thing I'm not quite used to yet is plugging in and calculating my own numbers on new or revamped recipes. I know this is crucial to my success, I'm just not used to it. I'm such a cook as I go kind of cook, I'm not that great with recipes.........getting better, but I still go off the cuff a bit. But I'm seeing that it is really important to be specific about measurements if I am going to be accurate about calories consumed. I'm also having a little trouble figuring out portions for things like soup/stew/chilli, etc. It is hard to know what the finished meal is portion wise of a liquid, without measuring it all into another container as you go. Which is obviously the way to do it, I'm just coming to terms with the full reality of mindfulness in regards to eating consciously. One step at a time. It is painfully obvious that not being mindful leads down very wild and scary roads for me. Being mindful may be difficult right now, but it is definitley more the road I want to ride, than the path to self destuction I've been on for so long now.

I have not done any lap swimming at the local pool yet, but I've thought of it everyday since I heard about it. It turns out the client that told me about his aerobics class is an enemy of sorts of my mother's best friend. Guess I'll stay away from his class for now, this town is too small sometimes!! I still have the option to go work out at a local apartment complex's gym. I'm looking forward to that during the rainy months. I think it could be a really great option this winter. I also mapped out a perfect 2 mile jog last night. It is a well lighted, smooth and easy path. I jogged as much as I could last night, wich was just about half of it. I am planning to push for more and more jogging as time goes by, until I can jog the entire thing. I will be sooo happy when that day comes!!! My goal is to be able to jog a 5K without stopping.............maybe even a couple of days a week. I feel so good after jogging, I feel like I am really doing something good for my heart. I don't especially love it while I'm doing it, but afterwards I almost always feel great. So hopefully I can get those 2 miles in most of the days this week and a little ST and see how I feel. I am really focusing on mantaining versus progressing right now.I am one of those people that thinks that a weeks worth of effort should lead to a marathon. Of course I am not capable of this, so I get disappointed, and then I fail to maintain effort. I am not patient, and over estimate my personal expectations for myself constantly. So, patience, maintenance, consistency, these are all my new best freinds. I am trying to be happy working on these things while I learn how to work the calories in/out equation to benefit my health needs.

I am really looking forward to working in some fall/winter fruits/veggies into my meal plans. I LOVE winter squash like acorn and butternut. I also really like root veggies, especially beets......yummm! I read that apples and grapes are among this seasons fruits, which are two things I consume on a regular basis year round.

This season has such great things to offer us if we take the time to appreciate it's bounty. I am really gearing myself up to have a great winter season. I have a tendency to get blue in the winter, but I really want to fight it with a passion this year. I think with the help of SP and my lovely sparkfriends, I just might have a fighting chance this year. This time last year, I found out I was pregnant, and thus the begining of the end of my wistful weight loss plans! This is a better year, I can feel it!

Cheers to all of us brave and beautiful warriors. Let's burn this flame so wild, so free and so fierce that everyone (including ourselves) can see and be motivated for positive change!!!

  
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KAI_ZEN 10/15/2012 12:26PM

    Awesome! Sounds to me like you're building a whole-health focus rather than just weight/fitness focus.
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VALERIEMAHA 10/12/2012 6:53PM

    Hmmmm...is lap swimming anything like lap dancing?
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RIDMYCOCOON 10/11/2012 2:30PM

    Hey you! I like hearing you take charge in the paths infront of you. You are making some awesome choices here! Most importantly you are being honest and loving at the same time. You know how I feel about that :) emoticon emoticon emoticon I am stoked!

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ME_HERE_NOW 10/10/2012 7:16PM

    love that you are educating yourself and getting inspired while keeping your activity level up - great job! the more your immerse yourself the more you can't help doing good for yourself. nothing like the fresh breezes of fall bringing renewed strength with them!! keep rockin girl!

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BEARGODDESS 10/10/2012 3:55PM

    Enjoying the seasons through produce sounds like fun! I love the scents of soups and stews cooking when it's cold outside. You have a great spirit going into winter and we'll help to keep your spirits up!

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BIGPAWSUP 10/10/2012 3:35PM

    What an awesome blog!! This is a great attitude and your writing is infectious! I'm starting down the "cooking" path tomorrow (first time I will have cooked in 10 years). I'm kind of excited.

I'm so happy for you and all the changes in your life. Winter can be hard but we can all pull each other through!



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Some days are just bad.

Sunday, October 07, 2012

It's funny, I know I'm not supposed to beat myself up, but it is hard not to. Went to my mom's last night, she had tons of goodies that I love, I was starving, it was after work, and I went wild. So wild I have no idea how to count all the calories I ate. Ever since then I have felt terrible. I feel bloated, sick, no energy, and sad. Of course I had to weigh myself, and it was 2.6 pounds over in one day. I can't believe I ate THAT much! That's like 8500 calories or somthing! I am sure it was a lot of salt, and not enough water drinking. It was bad, that's all I can say. And it wasn't premeditated, it just happened. I was talking, and eating, and talking and eating. By the time dinner was served, I wasn't even really that hungry, which I should have stopped there, but no, I ate dinner. Then icecream. All around it was terribly bad. And I've tried to make ammends today, but I didn't start off good at all, and we took my little sister to church and then out to lunch. I tried to do what I thought was OK for lunch, but you never know when you eat out what you are really consuming. So, somehow, I've got to learn how to deal with event/weekend eating. I am not too mad at myself, more like, how in the world did that happen? It was my normal eating patterns, so that is why it seems like it's not that big of a deal. But, of course, it is my normal eating patterns that got me to the weight/health I have now. So, I'm a little bummed. I did manage to get a walk in yesterday, despite the overeating, and I've got one in today. So I'm not giving up, I just feel really bogged down. Two steps forward, three steps back kind of thing. And I keep thinking, if I could just exercise harder and longer these little set backs wouldn't be suck a big deal, but I feel like I'm doing the very best I can, without knocking myself out. So, hopefully I can chock yesterday up as experience in the real world, and learn how to better equip myself for similar situations. Especially with the holidays coming up, I'm going to need to do something, or else it's going to be a long, weight gaining time, and I don't need or want that. I guess what really hurts me about yesterday is I see just how fragile I really am, and how much hard work I really have to do. I wish I was already on top of the mountain of success, but unfortunately, I'm at the bottom, and the climb is looking pretty trecharous today. Maybe tomorrow will be a better day?

  
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VALERIEMAHA 10/10/2012 2:02PM

    AMEN SISTAH! I'm here to testify!!!

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ME_HERE_NOW 10/9/2012 12:56PM

    none of us is perfect on this journey, life happens, food in consumed, laziness rears its ugly head - it's the fact that you don't just let it slide on by without noticing, keep up the good fight, all you can do is keep trying baby! the only way you can lose is giving up the good fight!

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SIRENSONGS 10/8/2012 9:20PM

    You are being so honest with yourself, and that is so important. You will be able to develop new habits over time, because you are aware, and that is definitely the first step. We all overeat sometimes. It's just too easy to do so! Don't beat yourself up about it. Just take it moment by moment. I am sure you did not gain 2.6 pounds in one day. You are most likely right, and it is just sodium causing water retention. Remember, slow and steady really does win the race sometimes, and each moment gives you a chance for a new start. You don't even have to wait until tomorrow. It can start right now!

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 10/8/2012 12:29PM

    Hey, I've had days where I've "gained" SEVEN lbs in one day! Do not worry about 2.6 too much. Just get back on track and you'll beat the bloat soon enough. Oh and just track what you can - i usually OVER estimate when i'm not sure and then just make a note to write that day off and start again the next morning. emoticon

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BIGPAWSUP 10/7/2012 11:25PM

    I'm in the same boat this weekend. We can't beat on ourselves. We just keep going, one foot in front of the other. We dig ourselves out of the food coma and keep going. It will be better.

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JUSTRY2 10/7/2012 11:06PM

    You are so awesome for telling all, taking responsibility for your (old;) habits, and your determination to develop new ones. I'll be rooting for you this holiday season, and think of you as I reach, myself, for new responses to the same old food scenarios that are never going to give it a rest!

"It never gets easier, you just get stronger", right?

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BEARGODDESS 10/7/2012 10:33PM

    No beating yourself up about it!! We will ALL have days when things get a little beyond our control, and sometimes, I think that we need them to show us how much better we feel (physically and psychologically) when we stay on track. Perfection is NOT what this is all about. Doing your best and then being able to hit the reset button if we don't is what this is all about. You'll reach the point where exercise get's easier and easier as you go along. Just keep at it!

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HIPPICHICK1 10/7/2012 10:20PM

    It happens. We are human and food is good. It was just one day and it will probably happen again because we are human. All you have to do is remind yourself that one day a month is okay to go a little overboard because we all need to cut loose. The next day we rein it back in and get back to our routines.
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CILDEBUG 10/7/2012 10:17PM

    What you eat or don't eat today does not dictate how tomorrow will turn out. When you wake up tomorrow, just remember that it's a new day and "yesterday" has no bearing on it.

Hang in there! It's a long hard road but you've got tons of people behind you!
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Ask and ye shall recieve!

Thursday, October 04, 2012

Wow, I'm a little amazed with todays events. Three clients came in today with information about cheap/free exercise options that are available to me that I didn't even know about. The first one told me that she has a little gym in her apartment complex and she uses it regularly and invited me to come over whenever I wanted to work out with her, very sweet. The next lady told me about the pool!! Yeah, I can't beleive I didn't know about this before, but there is a local pool with year round lap swim for a very small fee. And the last was a client that teaches weekly aerobics classes including yoga, wieght training and cardio in 1.5 hour sessions. I am really excited. I was afraid that over the winter, with all the rain, my outside exercise routine would fall apart and I'd be a little lost without good fitness options. But it looks like my fears were for nothing. I can't afford a gym membership right now, but after today, looks like I won't need one. I am so pleasantly surprised and excited about all the new options presented today. If I team these options with a few good workout videos, I should be just fine. Now I really have no excuses to not keep the spark burning throughout the winter months. I feel very blessed.

  
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HIPPICHICK1 10/7/2012 9:33AM

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    Spark Cheers! emoticon

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NESARIAN 10/6/2012 12:59PM

    Awesome!

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ME_HERE_NOW 10/5/2012 7:53PM

    so cool and very timely!! awesome!

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BIGPAWSUP 10/5/2012 10:33AM

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KAI_ZEN 10/5/2012 12:14AM

    Very cool! Great to have such good options.

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JJAQUES41 10/4/2012 6:25PM

    Good vibes headed your way today-that's awesome! Take advantage of it, they were nice enough to invite you show your appreciation by showing up.

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BEARGODDESS 10/4/2012 5:50PM

    The universe is helping you out! emoticon Spark cheers!

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RIDMYCOCOON 10/4/2012 5:22PM

    emoticon Looks like you gotta a good case of "build it and it will come"-ins!
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Random sparkfriend

Thursday, October 04, 2012

When I was jog/walking tonight, I was really pushing it on the last few blocks before I got home. I passed a man, that I initially didn't notice, but I had to glance over after he said to me, "That's the way you do it! Go! Just do it!" Haaaa, that is the second time, since I've joined SP that a random person on the street has made a positive comment about my exercising.......I don't really know how to take it, except to smile and keep on pushing hard! It really made me happy that some random person took a second to encourage me, pretty cool. I remember last year when I was pushing hard on my bike ride one day and the lady said, "Look at you, go, go, GO!" I love this town!

I am in the losing game again. After last weeks potato/cheese/bacon soup I made for Grandpa, I'd gained a few pounds back. I really couldn't resist eating it, and it was obviously far higher in calories than I anticipated. So now I'm a few ounces from being at my original 6 pound loss. Which is good. It always feels good to see the scale going in the right direction. I've cut my night snacks down to apples and carrots for now, which seems to be going well. I've also stuck to a midafternoon snack of a handful of peanuts. It seems to do the trick, and doesn't break the bank calorie wise. Baby steps. I've also been able to get ST in nearly every other night, even if it's only 10 minutes.....it still feels good to work on my strength building activities. And everyday after an ST night, I feel it in the muscles I was working, so I guess I'm doing something right.

The pants I bought two weeks ago that fit pretty snug, were about to fall off today. I think it is because I'd worn them a bit yesterday, but I've done that in the past with pants and they are still as tight as can be. So I take that as a good sign. I have seen little glimpses of change in the shape of my stomache at a side glance, and also the celluclite on my legs seems to be a little bit smoother. I dont know if it's in my head or not..............but I'm taking it as a sign of progress.

I have bottles that are exactly 36 ounces, so I fill them up twice a day, gauranteeing my 8 cups of water. I always feel better when I am making sure I get my water needs met. Also, I know this is a strange topic, but my elimination processes seems to be regulating, which always is a good sign to me that things are moving more smoothly in my body.

I've been eating LOTS of fruit and veggies. It really is so great when I focus on that. I really feel better, and the full flavor of fresh produce beats anything that comes out of a box anytime. The local grocery store has been carrying a lot of end of the season produce. I've picked up some unbelievable heirloom tomatoes and very sweet bell peppers there this last week from local farms. I really love living in an agricultural haven.

This Saturday is the Hoes Down celebration. Last year was the first time I was able to go, and I had such a wonderful time. I'm really looking forward to it again this year. I might even work up enough courage to do some Contra dancing. Don't know if you have ever seen it, but it's wonderful to watch and looks sooo fun to do. I'm trying to talk everyone I know into going with me, I don't have any definite affirmatives yet, we'll see as the week winds down if I get any takers. It is really a wonderful festival, held in the heart of Capay Valley. Lots of fresh organic goodies, wines, jams, and loads of handmade goods of every kind. I am getting excited just thinking of it. I don't have much money to spend, but just seeing all the goodness is inpsiring.

The debates got me into a bit of a funk, I really don't like politics. I try to ignore it most of the time, but during election time it is hard. It doesn't help that I work with the public and everyone wants to talk about it. I try to stay out of it, because it really causes nothing but problems. But, I do have my opinions, I am still human, last I checked, and I just want a good future, like everyone else.

Well, hopefully a little ST will take my mind off of the rumbling political debates. I hope you all have a great second half of your week. I plan on pushing hard.....maybe I'll get another random compliment!

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CRYSTALJEM 10/7/2012 10:38AM

    You are really doing it! Way to go.

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ME_HERE_NOW 10/5/2012 7:49PM

    i always dodge political talk at the gym, seeing as about 95% of people in the area disagree with my alignment :P keep sparking sista, you are doing so good!!

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KAI_ZEN 10/5/2012 12:11AM

    Great job! Pre-filling bottles is a great way to get your water in.
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MIAJOEB 10/4/2012 5:20PM

    It is hard but it is Great to allow oneself to accept positive feed back.

Spark has lower calorie versions of just about everything.
I make a low calorie lazagna with egg plant instead of pasta. etc.
So check out Chef Meg or another member's version.
Don't give up the enjoyable foods in life, just make them Healthty!

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BEESPARKLE 10/4/2012 11:36AM

    When I went to my daughters cottage. I seen this young lady about 20 years old running on the beach. And I yelled to her. Way to go Girl. And a thumbs up to her.

She smiled back and said. Thank You.

Why not. We are all into being healthy and she was doing the best for her body.

I was fast walking but I was doing my best.

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HIPPICHICK1 10/4/2012 8:07AM

    I love random compliments!!
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BEARGODDESS 10/4/2012 7:00AM

    Sounds like you're doing great! How nice to have strangers cheering you on while you're doing your cardio! It's ALSO great that you're getting your ST done. It's such a sticking point with a lot of us. Have a wonderful time at the Hoe Down!
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