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What??!! What is this new element in my it called ENERGY???!!!

Monday, October 01, 2012

Well, started my day off with a didn't feel good, at all, and I only jogged about half of the 1.3 mile route. I really had the intention of doing the whole thing, but alas, I had to walk half of it. BUT something really interesting happened when I got home. Since I started early, I had finished the jog/walk, breakfast and morning chores all by 9:00, which on my Sunday(Monday) is practically unheard of. It isn't rare (without sparking) for me to sleep until 11:00 or later, and lounge most of the rest of the day. Which is actually OK with me, if I've had a really hard week, since it is my only day off to do that. But today, at 9:00 in the morning, with my days meals already planned and prepped, I decided to go online to look for hiking trails in my county. My brother told me of a site he uses, and that supposedly there is a nearby trail that leads to a waterfall!! Yeah, a waterfall, that is about like seeing a unicorn for this desert rat girl............I'm still getting used to living around natural water, and it's already been 6 years up here. So, I went to the closest hike, which was the waterfall one. But once I got there, it was soooo hot, and it was a 6 mile hike, there and back. So I decided to go up the road a bit to see if I could find something along the creek that I wanted to walk around. I ended up at Camp Haswell, a lovely little stop on the road that I found a few years back and haven't been to since.

View of a spot in the creek where it widens.....must come back for swim sometime

This is the inside of the lone building on site.......kinda spooky. This shot is getting me in the mood for Halloween.

As I was walking I began to smell the fresh, unmistakable aroma of mint. I had to harvest a bit.......which I used in my lunch when I got home!

Another ode to the spooky month........I call it Skull Rock.

One of the few signs of fall. Most of the plants down by the creek were actually budding!

Sweet little deer I saw while I was exploring.

Such a lovely day, it was warmer than expected for October, and oh, so lovely out there.

Was soooo hungry when I got home, after nearly 4 hours out there, so I made my new fave, thai chicken, but instead of the called for basil, I used the wild mint I found...........super good.

Then when I got home, I STILL had energy. So I started getting things ready for dinner. I had a whole chicken and cut it up myself, which was much cheaper than buying the pieces already cut up. I made enough chicken/veggie soup for this weeks lunches. I turned the wings of the chicken into spicy wings, for a nice snack, or lunch with fruit and salad. I LOVE hot wings, but I can eat way too many, so I figured if I just did those two, it would be way to binge if I only have two! I BBQ'd the breasts for dinner, and made it with ranch green beans, and garlic brown/wild rice. I have enough chicken left over from what we didn't eat to make chicken salad, and I boiled some eggs for a quick egg salad later this weak.

Amongst all the hiking, photo taking and cooking I did today, I managed to do my laundery and actually clean the kitchen........which shouldn't be a pat on the back moment, but often after I cook a lot, I just let the dished sit for hours, before I finally get around to them, or get my husband to do them. And, as I sit here and type this, I am planning some strength training tonight. I'm in love with the SP workout generator, and really enjoy doing the exercises it's suggests according to what areas of my body I want to work out. Today it is definitely arms, and arms are getting unruly. They need some serious TLC.

So, that was my day. Even though I'm as broke as I've ever been, and have no idea how I'm going to make ends meet, as usual......... I decided to have a good day, to make the best of what I do have, and I did. I used less that a quarter of a tank on gas during my adventure, and didn't spend any other money today. I'm learning how to do more with less. How to buy the right ingredients that can be used in many ways, and how to spice things up, and change it around, without using packaged, low quality food. I'm learning, and it's exciting. With each day that I choose to say yes to quality food, water and exercise, yes to new recipes, and new exercises, I am saying yes to the life I want, and not the life I've dealt with all these years. I knew I had it in me to live a quality life with energy and just took finding this wonderful site and all you wonderful people to teach me exactly how to do it. Love you guys so much. Hope your week is filled with new and inspiring wonders.

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MIAJOEB 10/2/2012 7:13PM

    Well I, for one, a, appreciating you shareings too. Beautiful pictures.

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BEESPARKLE 10/2/2012 5:06PM

    What a wonderful day to spend outside. I love fall. I love your Background.

It is a happy background and the fruit and veggies. Healthy indeed.

Great your energy is up. I like the wee dear. I am a country girl so I enjoyed your blog and pictures.


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HIPPICHICK1 10/2/2012 1:41PM

    What a completely emoticon blog!!
Good for you for getting 'er done. You are rocking the Spark, baby!!

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RIDMYCOCOON 10/2/2012 12:06PM

    I feel like I went with you! Awesome photographs!!! You have quite a talent there girlfriend! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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KAI_ZEN 10/2/2012 11:37AM

    You made it a great day! Good job! Thanks for the beautiful pictures.

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BLUE42DOWN 10/2/2012 12:05AM

    What an emoticon way to spend the day!

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BEARGODDESS 10/1/2012 10:05PM

    What a great day you had! Beautiful hike and beautiful pictures of it! (And yes, with a touch of spooky in it!)

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Sunday, September 30, 2012

Besides better health, more energy, great recipes and many great ideas on how to deal with lifes ups and downs without sabotaging our bodies with overeating, and lethargy, there is something priceless about this community..........and that is us! The wonderful people on here make life so much better. Something so great about having contact with so many people that care about themselves and about helping others to learn to care for themselves is just amazing. I am so much happier with my sparkfriends in my life. Love you guys!!

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MIAJOEB 10/1/2012 7:30PM

    Well thank you, it is humbling to be appreciated..... emoticon

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HIPPICHICK1 10/1/2012 4:24PM

    Love you too, ma belle!
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RIDMYCOCOON 10/1/2012 3:23PM

    Love, love, love YOOOUUU! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 10/1/2012 1:55PM

    Well said! emoticon

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BEARGODDESS 10/1/2012 11:29AM

    The positive supportive community here is awesome and like nothing I've seen anywhere else!


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KAI_ZEN 10/1/2012 11:02AM

    Ditto! We're surrounded by amazing, inspirational people. What a privilege!

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SNUZSUZ 10/1/2012 10:46AM

    SP are great! I feel the same way:)

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SIRENSONGS 10/1/2012 10:20AM

    You are so right! Meeting people here who are going through the same things is so helpful to me on my journey! This is just such a wonderful and supportive community, and I'm learning so much from others, and constantly being inspired. :)

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    Aww!! We love you too!! I tell you, honestly, I have never found another weight loss related social networking sight that even compares to SP, there are so many wonderful people on here!! emoticon

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AZUREBREEZES 10/1/2012 12:30AM

    I just joined this month and I too have discovered that there has been wonderful Spark friends here. What a wonderful community. I have been receiving wonderful feedback on my blogs. I really enjoy that so many people care.

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KAYE454 10/1/2012 12:16AM

  Sparkpeople is Great

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SAC-6582 9/30/2012 11:59PM

    The spark community is an awesome place to be.


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Finding my perfect weight

Thursday, September 27, 2012

I read the most interesting articles on here just now. It was a three parter on the topic of finding the right weight for you. The first article was scientific, dealing with BMI and hip-to-waist ratios. It went into many things like body type, and also how different people burn and store calories differently. It spoke on the differences between societal beauty norms versus our own true personal idea of beauty. But what hit me the hardest was at the end of the last article. It asked, if we lived in a place with no scales, not BMI indexes charts, no media marketing based on cetain body types/shapes how would we determine what weight was ideal for us? In this place the clothes we wear are unisex and do not emphasize any certain body parts. This made me really think. I have to admit, even at the size I am now, I do have certain clothes I wear when I want to feel "sexy". Clothes that show a little cleavage or certain cuts in shirts and dresses that accentuate the positives, and I don't think anything is necessarily wrong with this. But what I did realize is this thinking is not the real reason I want to loose weight. I do not want to look "sexy" or "hot", that is not, and has not ever been my goal, atleast no my main goal. I realized, finally, that the real reason I was to loose weight is because I want to be able to do more things. I want to be able to go on longer hikes, I want to be able to jog atleast 1 whole mile without stopping. I want to be able to do summer activities in a bathing suite/shorts without wondering who is staring at the cellulite on my legs.

Someday I want to go ziplining, now I don't know what the weight limits are, but I imagine I'm pushing the limits, and really, and don't know how comfortable I would be strapped into that little harness, even if it would hold me. I want to live my life to it's fullest, and I feel like I truly can't in many ways. I have watched my brothers be active in so many areas their whole lives. They are both runners/bikers and do amazing things like snowboard, white water rafting, hiking, long distance biking among a variety of other things. I always feel left out when they do many of these things because I am just too large and in many ways get too tired to keep up. I went hiking with the younger brother a few weeks ago and I know he could have gone much futher and faster, but had to lag behind so that he didn't leave me in the dust. I don't want to be the slow, uncoordinated, fat, lazy sister anymore. I want to keep up with my siblings. I am the oldest, but I'm only two years older than the older of my two brothers, six years older than the next and eight years older than my little sister. That is not a huge age gap, but so often I feel a lot older because I'm not as mobile. I actually ache sometimes just from a days work. I get tired easy, my ankles, feet, knees and back hurt, and I am overall just way too inactive and out of shape for my age. I want more out of life, not to be sexy, or look sexy, whatever that is, but to be capable of having a truly active lifestyle. I want to be up for whatever the road holds and not feel like I have to hang behind because I can't keep up.

So, to answer the question, in this world with no scales and no revealing fashion styles to gain attention, I would determine my perfect weight based on what I was capable of doing, and overall how strong I was.I guess this was a big AHAAA moment for me. I never really pinpointed what my exact goal for losing weight was. I mean, even at my wieght now, I sill look in the mirror and think I am really beautiful! Not in a conceited way, I just really love myself and know all the struggles I've seen in life, and am really proud of the woman I am becoming. So, outer appearance alone is not really enough to drive me to the success I truly want. Which is success of having a body that has enough energy and is capable of doing all of the things I want to do in life.........which are far too great to number here. I don't ever see myself wanting to climb Mt. Everest or anything that challenging, but...........honestly, why not? I mean, the sky is the limit, and that is the true goal for my weight loss journey. It's not a number on the scale, or a certain clothes size, it's really a capabilites motivation. When I loose weight, and get stronger, I will be able to do more, and that, my friends, I've learned today, is my true goal!

I am really excited by this blog because this is truly a brand new revelation, and it is the deepest, truest desire I have for wanting a healthy body/lifestyle. I hope you all find your true motivation, it's a really great feeling!!

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ME_HERE_NOW 9/28/2012 7:14PM

    i love this post, i love are so strong and beautiful, inside and out, you have lived thru struggles and conquered them and have every right to look at yourself eye to eye and say 'hell yeah, i rock!' i have a lot to live up to to be strong and awesome as yourself, but in the journey to get there i can only get better. thank you for being an amazing friend!!!

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RIDMYCOCOON 9/27/2012 11:31PM

    Ahaaaa! Moments RULE!!! I am with ya sister! Great reflections and inner knowledge goings on here XOX I am stoked! emoticon

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KIMPY225 9/27/2012 9:54PM

    This is great!
I used to want to lose weight just to be skinnier. Now that I lost a lot of weight so far, I realize I want to be healthier. The weight loss is a bonus. I need to work hard and dedicate myself to get to the weight I want! We all have our own goals & need to do whatever WE have to do to get there!

Have a great rest of the week!

Also - the last place I looked at for a zipline said their max was 250lbs. It probably depends on the place itself! Good luck!

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BLUE42DOWN 9/27/2012 7:19PM


It's so wonderful when something triggers these sorts of introspections and we learn something new about ourselves!

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HIKINGFIT 9/27/2012 3:08PM

yay! for your aha moment

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BEARGODDESS 9/27/2012 2:42PM

    I agree 100%! I have another Spark friend who always signs her blogs with the words "Live Lightly" and just those two little words summed it up for me! I also have things I'd like to do before I'm too old to manage them, like longer hikes and learning to raft the Rogue and kayak, and those things are my motivations too.
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Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Had a bad eating day today. But I tracked everything I ate, and found out I only went over my daily calorie maximum number by 100 calories, which is really not as bad as I thought. I'm not happy I did this, but I am glad I was able to stop myself from going into full binge mode. I did try to regulate the amount I was eating, even though I knew I shouldn't be eating the things I was eating. I realized that starting my day off with protein is definitely a good thing. I have been eating a small breakfast for the past few days, which leaves my starving by 11:30, and I feel like no matter what I eat I'm really hungry the rest of the day. So, a little here, a little there, trial and error, I am determined to figure all of this out. It is really a daily choice to live healthy, as we all know. Some days I don't want to really be conscious of everything I am putting in my mouth, since emotional overeating has been my method of drug abuse for the last 32 years. But I am really determined to stop it. Even though I am not pleased with todays actions, I am glad that I tracked everything I ate. Usually when I know I've eaten poorly for a day, I just give up tracking and kind of do what I want for that day, feeling defeated and unable to have a "perfect" day. I know healthy choices are not about perfection, but about making good decisions for my health the majority of the time. So, lesson learned for today. No matter how bad the day is, eating wise, it is better to track everything so I can see where I can do better next time. Lesson learned, atleast for today. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Tim is leaving town tomorrow morning to go to AZ to pick up our car. I am glad he is getting the car, but I don't want him to leave. I am so enjoying our time together this last month. He will go back to work soon, and with that comes lots of time apart, so I just try to soak all the luvins up while I can. I guess it's a good thing that I like to spend lots of time with the would be terrible if I didn't!

To end this blog on a good note, I did buy a pair of 18 size jeans yesterday, which was great. I am not fully in 18's, because not every pair of 18's fits right, but it did feel good to find a pair that did fit. I know the size is just a number......but it does show me that I am making a little progress already, and that is very encouraging. So, tomorrow is a new day. I might right my bike to work again tomorrow. I rode it yesterday, and it was a very easy way to burn 200 calories. Plus it forced me to stay at work for my lunch break, allowing me to make a little more money, ( I work commission, so the more hair I cut, the more I make.) So, all in all, things are moving in the right direction, one baby step at a time. Oh, and I also found a really yummy sounding new recipe to try, so my one new recipe a week goal is going to happen this week! I already bought the ingredients, and plan to try is tomorrow, thai basil chicken at 279 calories/serving. I love thai food, but have never tried to make it at home, I'm pretty excited to try it. So, what seemed like a pretty bad choices day, is now starting to sound like an overall good choices couple of weeks. It does help to look at the big picture sometimes.............or maybe always!!

Good night dear people. I hope your journey's are full of exciting new revelations on how you can be the best you possible. That is what I hope for myself, and as each day progresses, I truly think I am working to be my best.

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RIDMYCOCOON 9/27/2012 11:40PM

    Good things a brewin'! emoticon

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MIAJOEB 9/27/2012 1:16PM

    I have a pair of lee's jeans from the eighties. I not only can get it on but it is that old skinny jean look... I think it is a 16 because the other pants with them were 16's.
I didn't know I had them till I cleaned out the closet this summer so my granddaughter could have some room in the closet.
So Proud of your commitment. Keep on sparking.

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HIPPICHICK1 9/27/2012 12:07PM

    Oooh, I love Thai food too.
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Wishing Tim a safe journey.

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BEARGODDESS 9/27/2012 7:50AM

    Yay! for the size 18 jeans!!! It takes awhile to get into the rhythm of food tracking and staying below your calorie level. I still have to watch it, or I go over by 50 or so calories. I try to make up for it by staying on the low end for a couple of days. I've learned to have a good breakfast, including protein, and that sets the stage for the rest of the day.
You'll love making Thai food at home! It's surprisingly easy once you get the hang of it, and so delicious and healthy! I love using coconut in Thai recipes. (Or any time!) emoticon emoticon

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Weekend fun

Monday, September 24, 2012

I didn't get in fit mins the last two days. But I have been very busy, and enjoying life. So, I don't feel terrible, plus I got a really nice walk in this morning, and I have a good bike ride planned for tonight. I think it's all good. I got to see my nieces on Saturday. It was a quick visit, my brother and SIL were just stopping by. It was wondeful to get those smooches in! My nieces are 4 and 11 months, so you can imagine how scrumptious they are! I also was able to do some haircutting while I was there, including fixing my SIL's new mowhawk. I don't generally do many mowhawks on women, but on her, it really looked incredible! I also tried a new recipe yesterday that was healthy, delicious, and it passed the real husband liked it!! YAY! It was a standard chicken piccata sauce, used over bakes fish and veggies. It was super wonderful, and easy. Now I want to try lots of new sauces, because I see what a great way that is to change things up, without breaking the bank. I can use that piccata sauce over chicken or fish, and it's super tasty and so easy. So, I informed hubby that it's a new recipe atleast once a week now. And after last nights trial and win............I think he's excited about the idea.

Today I am going to the local junior college to see if I can qualify for some student loans. I figured there must be something good about being poor! I've got to atleast try. I love school and can think of a dozen things I'd like to study. So, may as well give it a try.

Look at that little lovely, I could just snuggle her for eternity.

Sweet, budding morning glory I saw on my walk this morning.

Light to brighten my day.

After I go to the junior college I am bringing my grandpa over for some potato/cheese soup with cornbread, and I'm giving him a pedicure. I don't spend as much time with him as I'd like to, so this will be a great opportunity to chat and get some quality g-pa time in. He has dementia, so his memory is hit and miss. But every once in awhile I get some good stories out of him. ( Especially if I give him a beer or two!)

Well, I hope you all have a great day. Looks like this week will be lovely. It's already started to cool down here pretty significantly. The leaves are falling and it's almost spooky time!!

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 9/26/2012 11:32AM

    Aw sounds like you had a nice week and time with your nieces! Good luck with school!

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MIAJOEB 9/26/2012 12:30AM

    Yes, take advantage of the possibility of educational assistance..
Or you could be like me and take all art classes and ... I am now a retiree who washes dishes because I did not make enough when I was younger....
The good thing is I do it in a school and get to smile at kids for two hours...
everything has its compensations....

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KAI_ZEN 9/25/2012 11:53AM

    Gorgeous pictures! Thanks!

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RIDMYCOCOON 9/24/2012 7:03PM

    Sounds like a really nice weekend! emoticon

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HIPPICHICK1 9/24/2012 2:03PM

    Sounds like a fab weekend!
I hope you get what you want out of college and Grandpa!
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VALERIEMAHA 9/24/2012 1:32PM

    What wonderful weekend *stuff* and goings-on...there's so much about this entry that I LOVE...and I hope you weaseled some story-telling out of gramps too!

YES! I highly recommend doing the school "thang" if you can work it out on the $$$ side of things. It's life-affirming on so many levels.

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BEARGODDESS 9/24/2012 1:27PM

    Lovely pictures! I'm so glad that you had such a nice weekend spent with people you love! emoticon

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